Themes Of My Delusions + 1st Person Transcripts (evidence)

Naming and date conventions and abbreviations are in the Index page.


31st December 2019 at 1146 hours
up to now
JD: we’ve been setting you up
M?: and how
M?: how many schizophrenics have died in the last 2 days?
s: does it matter?
M?: yes it does matter
s: how so?
M?: because every schizophrenic runs their own life, or something or other
….
M?: how many people do you think are setting you up, scott
s: don’t call me scott
fm?: how many people do you think are setting you up?
s: none
fm?: I’m afraid thats not true….wat happened then
s: you moved it
…..
1152
fm?: what have i got to say?
s: no idea
…..
1154
mp: why are we pedophiles scott?
s: I assume youre confused
mp: mike pence here. why are we pedophiles scott?
s: I assume you’re confused’
…..
1214
fm?: are any of your works copy-written?
s: no
fm?: why not
s: you calim to be honorable, so I wanted to see if you are, because if you are working wioth the [power of ghosts, you must be, you absolutely need to be
1238
m?: can I set you up? can I set you up? why would I set you up?
s: I don’t know
m?: I’ll tell youy why. Because I am a Freemason, and I set you up
s: you are irrational

1453
Just was ‘talking’ to someone purportedly, supposedly and allegedly from the FBI. I was being interrogated regarding my websites, in particular the manifesto of the HOST website, as it appears on my current other websites. After me being compliant and agreeable, when asked about drug use, i said “because you won’t stop talking to me all the time. BE QUIET!!!”


9th October 2019 at 2017 hours

M?: can you get busted for drugs?
S: of course not, but there are costs
Ryan next door just left (2029)
M?: what do you mean
s: your gratification will end
M?: ryan next door scotty is leaving to be with Tracy (J). DO you believe that?
s: of course
M?: what do you think that means to him
s: the whole world
M?: when will I stop rewarding people?
s: never , I guess
M?: why is that scotty
s: so they like you
M?: what do I do with my spare time?
s: organise the rewards
M?: you’re right there…
s: there is quite a lot you don’t state explicitly ‘outloud’; but I know it
M?: what do you think I am doing know
S: no idea
M?: I’m gloating, that’s what….I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what…..


6th September 2018 at 1515 hours
J:  you’re sacked scott
?m: I’m afraid that’s true
Fm? How could u save 400 loves?
S: by proving that humans are implicated or colluding in aetiology of schizophrenia
Fm?: u r on drugs
S: no u r incorrect. I am not
M?: scott. U dont know
S: u should not for any reason or under any circumstances caise or knowinfly spread lethal disease
M?  Scott u cunt
1530:
Fm?: samira was talking about u
S: i wondered about that. J hoped it was true. It would b a great demonstration of how u duck peoples lives up through your failure to state what is easily explainable and potentially excusable


2nd August 2017 at 1355 hours
Have been attempting to masturbate again, but the voices say that they have made Michelle Y cry, by telling her that I am being investigated.
Here what they are saying at the moment:
s: who’s talking please
MV: MV, MV, MV, MV ….
RT:MV, MV, MV,
MY: did you throw those bins on the road?
S: we’ve already been through that more than 80 times recently

2037
?FM: is anyone getting hurt
s: no, not as far as I know
FM?: why is this happening
s: because for once, and probably the first time, I would not do as you demand
PW: you think we don;’t exist don’t you
s: yes, I think you don’t ecxist

3rd August 2017 at  0549 hours
I have been laying in bed trying to get to sleep but Brigit M and Julia D won’t stop talking. Apparently RT has gone to bed
J: scott, are you going to have that last shot?
s: none of your business. I do not approve of you looking at make in the privacy of my own home. Stop looking at me
J: where do you think the detectives are
S: how should I know. DO you think I can see hundreds or thousands of kilometers?
J: when you have that last shot ol boy, then you will see fireworks
M: who do you think I am
s: I don;t know
m: do you care
s: yes I care. I care a lot. Who are you
m:I’m not telling you
J: was it worth it
s: I didn’t know that you weree prepared to drop the charges if I hadn’t
FM?: yes we are corrupt


A BRIEF BUT NOT COMPREHENSIVE SUMMARY OF THE CONTENT OF MY AUDITORY VERBAL HALLUCINATIONS 

(PHENOMENOLOGICAL THEMES AND PLOTS COMBINED)

  • They state they are Freemasons and rejoice in being corrupt
  • They claimed until March 2016 that they had to follow rules. Number 1 rule – must tell the truth (in telepathy) and be honest (about corruption).
  • Admitted by end of April 2016 that none of them followed the ‘old’ rules of Freemasonry
  • I deduced from partial statements that the raison d’etre for my chapter (and probably all the others) is to exploit a loophole in the rules of Freemasonry that made it easy and safe to steal (inheritance) money from schizophrenics
  • Put drugs onto table and AVH’s got enflamed and went sex crazy. Could not believe it when they seriously calimed that my narcotic consumption affected and had an impact on their behavior. SO I experimented quite a few more times, and sure enough, the evidence supported their incredible and amazing claim!
  • Torture schizophrenics (to get at their money) by depriving them of sleep, exploiting natural coincidences, AVH annoyance (repetition), being in ‘bad taste’, providing antecedents of common delusions, “automated torture” using technology that at the very least includes a ‘tape recorder/player’, leveraging ability to ‘drop-in’ on perception thus achieving “1st person” position on the perceptual and sensorial information experienced by their victim, at least exploiting 1st person status to claim cause of, or actually causing (telekinesis) physiological stimuli, abnormalities and anomalies (such as twitching) to deprive their victim of autonomy, volition, and privacy
  • Bikies (the Bandido’s SYdney chapters) – punched me in the head in August 2001 at the General Bourke Hotel; then moved into the uniots next block down from 13/5/15
  • GK, SO, RT, GS, RJ, PK, WWB, MY, NNB all having wild pornographic style sex whenever I take drugs or have sex with myself
  • House keys taken and duplicated, then returned, early April 2015. I reported to the Police.
  • Spare car key went missing 16/12/15
  • Kept transcripts that were effective tool to win against AVH’s until November, December 2015 when they became counter-productive
  • Started HOST2/5/15 to counter Freemasonry
  • Their 300 + years of tradition centered around their master – (slave) servant relationship with D.E. Ghosts ended when I pointed out that any contract they relied upon is invalid ab-initio (due to no element of consideration etc).
  • Their pivotal and purposefully directed and applied claim to be able to kill D.E. Ghosts turned out to be baseless, and by all evidence, and outright deception and lie. Easy to guess why they would perpetuate such misleading and wholly untruthful lies.
  • They said some statues of me had been erected on other ‘planets’ where Freemasonry had been avoided or defeated. They were composed of light. (a trap to induce later worry, fear and inconsolable sadness).

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EXAMPLE:

1)      Michelle Young absence

2)      Arianne Warnnt absence

3)      Craig Elson absence

4)      Michelle Sievwright absence

5)      David Sievwright absence

6)      State of health of emmapendleton01@gmail.com

7)      Also Rosy, Farrah, Emma(2), Juanita, Paris, George, all in Community Services courses

+ now not sociopath. Not now code words (seemingly) but genuinely incoherent. Not now willing to state names. No more irregular plot threading through the rude, arrogant, spiteful, disrespectful thread of recent transcripts. No more incriminating and concentrating on absent third parties, whose names were chosen using free association.

how

do you know its michelle? (psychoanalyst treating own 5.y.o. with stellazine)
I refuse to answer.
Are you that psychoanalyst, having those details above?
I refuse to answer

1958
oh there goes ron
how did you know it was ron?
I’m not telling you


Plots And Themes of 2016

money owed to me by Julia
exclusion from access to money or truth
hooking me up with someone
adjudication of my potential criminal conduct

Scott: “you must start your own business”
freemasons – eg: “Pedophile Freemasons steal $3-billion from Shriners Hospitals”
civilisations other than, and including,  ghosts

‘Ghosts” I have ‘met’ since 2003
death of (unknown) other people, directly caused by my behaviour
conspiracies between voices and humans
visualisations (vivid mental imagery) – origin not mine – the images are “inserted”
“grandiose” delusion of participation in global conspiracy

death and annihilation of innocents and planet – leveraged against sex
death and torture of people supposed to be guarded by me
death and annihilation of good people because of my occasional drug experimentation


The Whole Thing Seems Planned By Ghosts

2nd December 2014 1528

Here’s how I figure it at the moment. Everything that goes on (until end of 2018) has been planned to a greater or lesser extent. It has been enacted since 1981. This result is the opportunity to claim “foretold” (to say “[this] is going to happen next week”).

“I told you so”: facist superiority over to non-freemasons, and probably some other apparently advantageous things. (Why Freemasons? Where did that name come from?)

J: (interrupts – subject change) “P is upset about you calling her ugly old cunt” which I did not do.

Some select evidence of the plan:

– the two little green ghosts that walked across my bed suggesting that what I need is “a good stiff erection”

– a cold for the three days of the priapism

– B giving me suspect work

– the failure of PW’s ghost to warn him to avoid getting killed

– The consistence of not being allowed to ejaculate for (as of now) 23 years 5 months

– no response to 12 months of job applications

– the constant claim that I am responsible, because of my amphetamine habit

– the situation when the 5th element moved in, then got announced

– the claim they cause cancer, then yesterday being told that they have given it to me

– (apparently) showing me in 1992 that they can cause erections

– giving me blood poisoning on the day of my grandmothers picnic

– all if not most of the capabilities that stem from telekinesis were known and well practiced years before they assulted me with them

– M came round to my unit to sell me drugs, which became the excuse for dropping me out of Uni

– (from journal notes 12/3/14) “you know what\’s happenening scott (how the f$ck would I – and they know it before asking)…,

you are being groomed (pedophile language) for a big problem”… “YOu are going to realise that J (heresay) is about to do something to you. What do you think that might be.” In this same transcript, there are repeated references to the intention to drop me out of UNi, which was subsequently done, but I was told it was my fault…”I’m afraid scott that you are going to be disappointed in what happens in your future”

– 22nd June 2014 at 1600 hours details a planned situation Emily

– the Destructive Interference that occurred the second E talked to me at the Coles job session, and her featuring in several months of torture

– 31st October 2014: “D:Sucked in Scotty Stewart. YOu will feel shiathous on Wednesday?”

– told Julia had to give up cigarettes before getting money etc, knowing in advance that my voice was going to be f$cked up

S: the good thing is that “adam secant” (a word substituting machine [computer]) is gone. Its a tough game this FM isn’

This allocation bit sounds like the sympathy vote again to me, cause everyone is to sensitive to say it.

Are these humans? Of Freemasons?

Hearing Voices shook me up BAD

Hey I’m new here but I have some massive anxiety based on my experiences hearing voices. I feel isolated and I’m so glad I found this group, so here’s my first post.

I’m on meds now and the voices are gone thank God. But I believe there is an invisible world of “beings” or “spirits” that watch us and that scares me. I feel there is NO privacy. That is the worst part.

Even though I can’t hear them anymore, it built this worldview that us living human beings are the “show” and all the dead spirits surround us and secretly watch us like voyeurism or entertainment, and when you die, you get to secretly watch future generations. And jokes on us, because we’re oblivious to it.

I am embarrassed and ashamed, I don’t act silly anymore and I never sing out loud. Because when I did hear the voices, they were cruel and judgemental and hypercritical. I was powerless and they could see me in the shower, and shamed me. They shamed me for things I did in the past, things I regret. They could hear my thoughts, and I could keep nothing from them. They could ” control” my thoughts because they would bring up a subject matter, and my mind would helplessly dwell there, much to their delight. They enjoyed seeing me suffering. They tortured me for days and days on end nonstop neverending hell about for example my sex life, things I am ashamed of, my most intimate moments, when I was most vulnerable. And they would push my buttons and enjoy themselves. I have never experienced anything more terrible than the (what’s that thing where police (aka the spirits) want you to confess and there’s a spotlight on you and they break you down until you break) … interrogation??

This is just the tip of the iceberg.

I am so shaken that I hardly leave my house for the past 4+/- years, I have zero friends and am rly insecure. I’m 30 female. I start talking and accidentally reveal one red flag after the next. Rejection makes it worse and it’s a vicious cycle. I desperately crave friendships like a rabid wolf, and desperation is a turnoff, especially the fact that I have no other friends…

Positives: I have a rock solid family support system and look forward to my weekly psychiatrist appt and she knows me better than anyone in the world. I have a dog and a cat. I have talents and things I’m proud of. I love swimming and being in nature. My life is good.

I want to say so much more, but I’ll stop here for my first post.


It depends on the person what they say and how they say it.

My voices are purely external, so not in my own head at all but they sound like they’re coming from next to me. The content ranges from really cruel and evil (“you stupid fat bitch!” or “this is how you’ll be tortured in hell… First they’ll burn out your eyes…”) to really sweet and wonderful (“you’re my best friend!” “don’t ever leave me…”) but they’re mainly nonsense sentences (“the queen walked to the waterways.” “do the ritual as we agreed upon.”)




how do you keep calm when you keep hearing voices?

i get easily agitated when they keep talking and telling me what to do, even though it’s not actually bad. i get aggitated because they get critical if i think something weird or stupid, and then i have to think at a much slower rate to figure out what i’m trying to convey since my memory isn’t as good and i get unwanted thoughts plus twitches or random phrases passing through.

they just say i’m sick of you and stop smoking. i don’t want to even though i should because i get stressed easily every time i hear a voice similar to “the voices” i hear. i assume they’re going to start listening and spending all their time just watxhing and listening to me.

i just snap and it’s hard to calm down unless i write but i can’t do that all the time.

other times they claim that they want respect, but for me it’s when i remember the times that they were critical over simple things. they could have just been upfront and said don’t do this because blah blah and now because i can’t even trust that they’re just trying to make me grow up or whatever, i just think that there’s a hidden motive. it’s because they like to “make stories” or they say i am but they add stuff or say something to make me think it since i repeat sometimes.

what do you do to stop thinking that you’re ob surveillance 24/7?


I hear the voices exactly as you describe it. It feels silly trying to explain it to someone who doesn’t know what its like. So I’m happy there are forums where we can share our experiences and I don’t feel so crazy and alone. When my voices talk, I feel their breath in my ear like you described. I also sometimes feel their touch on my skin. THey will shake the bed to wake me up in the middle of the night and just disturb my sleep. The less I sleep the stronger they get. They sometimes jump on me when I am lying down and it feels just like a person jumping on you. Its very real to me. Sometimes when I am sleeping they hover over me and put their faces very close to mine because they want to scare me. If I open my eyes I see them, they are there. I hate that. As for posting, this is my first ever time posting on reddit but on Facebook their are schizophrenic support pages and I say post as much as you need to to get the support you need.


9th February 2018

?; You don’t understand, Scott, you just lost your life because of Lizi. These cops hate junkies. Are you going to stop?
S: definitely
?: U will have to because you’re going to have to. Your going to jail for homocide; very soon
S: I feel that u are punishing yourself by observing me all the time. I also notice that you are humans again
?m: you’ll find out Scott that you’re dead
S: that would make u the same as me
?m: wrong. We’re better
S: because?
M? Scott u don’t understand
S: Is that my fault
M?: yes. U are a user, and we hate that
S: You remind me of skinheads
M? We’re the same. U just failed
S: am alone
M?: so are we
S: I apologise
M?: it’s your own fault. U are going down, 4 certain
S: I apologise.
M?: Dave is going to kill u when u get home scott
S: What will happen to hopey?
RT: Scott did you even try? S
S: try what?
RT: doing what we say
S: I don’t hear what u say
J: Scott when u get home i will tell u something about Dave
S: Dave who?
J: Dave McIntyre
S: but you don’t want to be seen
J: I lied to you and Dave last night
S: what about?
J: I don’t want to tell you in person
S: You are just vile


Hearing Voices

Sorry, I’m pretty new to reddit, so forgive the lack of formatting. I made a throwaway because I don’t want my normal reddit account to be associated with this (rather embarrassing) situation. It started when I was about 8, 8 years ago.i had gone to Chuck E Cheese with my sister and her friend that day. later that night, I went home and I had gone to my room to go to sleep. I slept for a few hours and woke up at around 3 in the morning, feeling what I didn’t know at the time was anxiety. all I knew is I felt kind of scared and nervous. I turned on my lights and sat on my bed, too nervous to go back to sleep. while I was sitting there, suddenly somebody started yelling at me. This part is really embarrassing and sounds funny, but is seriously what I heard. A man started yelling “GIVE ME THE TICKETS. GIVE ME THEM NOW. I WANT YOUR TICKETS. GIVE ME YOUR TICKETS NOW.”

The voice was really weird in the way that, I couldn’t tell if it was internal or external. I covered my ears but could still hear it very clearly. it was almost like my inner monologue was screaming at me very loud and my head started hurting and I started screaming and crying and then my parents came in and told me I had a bad dream. I stayed up for the rest of the night, too scared to fall asleep. That leads me too the reason I came to this sub.

A few minutes ago, I got up to brush my teeth, and I started feeling tense. then I slowly began hearing a voice. it started to yell “BRUSH YOUR TEETH NOW. I NEED YOU TO BRUSH TOUR TEETH” it’s kind of hard to explain. it’s like I couldn’t hear it, but I knew somebody was yelling at me and I was scared and I knew they were commanding me to brush my teeth, I could understand that, but I couldn’t understand the speech, I understood the command and the urgency and attitude. I’m sorry I know I am explaining this really badly I am just confused and scared. this happened a few minutes ago. the voices have stopped after a few minutes of yelling.


Hearing voices/Feeling like I’m being watched and conspired against

Hey all! So I need some help. Some background on me… i’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression for years. I take an anti-depressant. I recently graduated college where I developed an adder all addiction. It was after about a year of being on this medication (and smoking marijuana) that I began to feel like I could hear my neighbors conspiring against me. Always yelling about me and how they wanted to have me arrested. Well it got so bad I had to have my parents pick me up and take me home one night because I thought my apartment was bugged and that the police were coming for me. I thought my laptop AND phone were tapped.

After I left the apartment and reset my phone to factory settings and was still hearing voices I thought they were coming from my hair-ties. Now I have been off the adderall and marijuana for several months and am still hearing the voices. They always imitate people I know such as my neighbors or fellow co-workers and they are always bad voices talking about how they want to get me or what a horrible person I am, what a slut I used to be… Even as I write this I feel like I can hear my neighbors talking about it as if they have cameras in my house. I don’t know what to do about the voices because they are making me start to hate people even though I try to convince myself that they aren’t real. When I research my symptoms I keep coming across Schizophrenia.

I just want the voices to stop . My doctor put me on Rexulti for a month because he thought it would help but it never made them go away. Another thing– they are always constant and never go away ever. i hear them when I’m driving my car even and know that it would be impossible for me to be hearing people. Does anyone have any advice on what to do?? The latest problem I’m having is that I can hear them say they want to break into my house while I’m at work and kill or kidnap my cat because she constantly cries and because they hate me…HELP!!

Julia Davis – The name of my hallucinations

“s” is me – scott stewart
J is Julia Davis
? is an unknown individual
RT is Ron Thiessen

30th July 2014 1848
J: are you fucking anybody up?
J: you just killed ten good ghosts
S: well atl least I achieved a nice round number I guess

13Feb 2018 2008

<10m
s: who is responsible for wanting to fuck me up?
? we all are
s: when did you all decide you wanted to fuck me up?
?: earlier
2009
s: why do you want to fuck me up?
?: because, just because
s: are you all julia davis or RT?
….2010….2015….
2030..
?: we all want to fuck you up
s: well why do you want me to get a job?
?: so we can fuck you up
s: well whats all your name?
DSP: dark shadow people
s:and whats all your name?
DSP: we all don’t have one
s: so you are not Julia and Ron? and all of you are not ghosts (ie and all of you are not ghost)?
DSP:…2032……2044…….
..
?: why did you shut that down (re: the MHF post about the battle and the FBG)
s: so you can delete it
?; it is RT
s: is RT the dark shadow people?
….2049…..2058….2131….
2313
?: I am the supreme being
s: well you’re not the freemasons then
?: we are are you the supreme being
s: well whats your name?
?: the supreme being
s: well you’re not all the supreme being then, and not the dark shadow people or evil darkl shadow people. Whats your name then?
?: I am the supreme being
s: well your not the freemasons then and your not DSP or EDSP….whats your name?
?: the supreme being
s: when did you choose me?
?: i refuse to answer

140218 0230
s: so you are JD are you?
G: yes I am
s: are you male or female?
…..0231….(note: JD was here at/from 0810 120218)…..
s: are you male or female?
G: i’m not answering……
0241
s: are you julia davis?
G: yes I am
s: are you male or female?
G: I am male scott
s: are you julia davis?
G: yes I am
s: are you male or female?
G: yes I am (….repeat)….
G: what are we doing?
s: are you julia davis?
G: yes I am
s: well we’re seeing if she is on drugs, because you (she) has been awake for 20 hours so far.
2046
JD/G: i’m going to sleep scotto
s: who are you?
G:JD: I’m julia davis
s:OK (2047)
(checking….)….0248
?: there must be another ghost
s: is that you julia?
…2049…
s:are you rt?
G/JD:yes I am
s: so you are not the DSP, you are not supreme being, are you julia davis?
RT: no i’m not. what time did I get up?
s: 0810. Is that you julia?
….(instantly asleep!!!!!)…..
s: are you a ghost?……so your not freemasons, not JD, not RT, Not SB, not DSP
s: who do you work for?…..
approx 0500..
(soon as I pointed out that julia had been awake for 20 hours, it said it was Ron Thiessen (RT)> Soon as I pointed out he had been awake for just over 20 hours, it became Clint Dixon (CD). At 0542 JD & RT were still asleep. [I have been on drugs, collecting this evidence]).
approx 0610… a few things were said, then at aPPROX 0630 it started “i can only delete people” and at 6.37 it was still repeating it..
0645
s: are you under the impression that there are people here?
0647 “i can only delete people” (rep) … 0703 “i can only delete money” (rep)….0707
s: but you were saying that you can only delete people?
G: I lied
s: then you can delete assets as well?
G: I can only delete people – I can only delete money (rep)…..
s: then you can delete assets as well?
G: I can only delete people – I can only delete money (rep)…..
S: what about that post?
G: I can only delete people – I can only delete money (rep)…..
0712
S: well delete my (last remaining) $60
G: I can only delete people – I can only delete money (rep)…..
0715
G: I can only delete people (rep)…..
s: can you steal money?
0716
G: I can only delete people (rep)…..

1154
JD: scott it will never end
JD: no it wont
s: who are you
JD: we are all julia
S: youve taken too many drugs jd. You can’t all be julia, not all three of you
JD: yes i can so
s: how?


Here is another persons voices:

https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/c2srdz/hearing_voices_shook_me_up_bad/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x

 

“J” = Julia
“P”= Peter
“A” = Anonymous Evil
“E” = Evil

Abbreviations and naming conventions are in the Index page.

140509 1903

“A”: you have lost your power Scott (just after they said that I was the cause of a bynch of good ghosts / beings being abducted and made to live in a situation like Zimbabwe

THE last 2 nights I have bought drugs and wanked, but “E” controls the feelings I get. They stop me getting hard, evaporate my mindsets, totally evaporate thoughts and feelings about sex, and as well as stopping me from coming by dissipation of the notion of sex in my mind, they physically obstruct me from (getting hard and) coming.

As per usual, soon as I stop (give up) wanking, they say they are toturing and killing people. They explicitly say it is my fault.

They keep providing commentary of their assaults and mistreatment of good kind people. I offered to do anything at all, whatever evil wanted, if they would please stop hurting people. I offered to walk to Thornleigh 4 times, to sit on the lounge without moving my legs more that once per half hour, to sit on the lounge between 9am and 5.30pm each day, to clean any shelves… anything, anything at all, but please stop hurting people.

Again I hear the voices of people in great distress, agony and pain, telling me that because I have taken drugs, they are being killed and destroyed, because evil uses my taking drugs as an excuse to kill innocent kind people.

Why do I keep failing. Why the fuck can’t I learn this lesson.

Today’s notes should convey my misery, pain, heartache and wishing for death, because I keep causing innocent good people to be hurt and destroyed. I fucking hate myself, and I just wish I could die and dissapear, never to be again. I hate myself, and I hate life.

150509
J & P have been torturing good ghosts again, but after some time an image of a 12 y.o girl became apparent and then they started torturing her as well.


8 August 2013 6.05pm
? : “You’re not that smart are you?”
?m : “what a load of (old) RUBBISH” BEING CHANTED REPEATEDLY IN THE BACKGROUD
j: i’M GOING NOW. They thought yo8u had the 5th element in you.
(m): “that’s it julia. That’s it julia.
?m : “what a load of (old) RUBBISH” BEING CHANTED REPEATEDLY IN THE BACKGROUD
(brad) “: scott; can you win?
s:I thought I won in february 1992
?m : “what a load of (old) RUBBISH” BEING CHANTED REPEATEDLY IN THE BACKGROUD
6.14: now all talk has been muted, and I can only hear the faintest parts of words, way in the background. They continue to use names of homosapiens I know, though earlier they said there were (dead) bodies to be observed.
(pear very quiet): what do you think scott stewart?
note. Where a name is used to denote the speaker, what this really means is that earlier, a particular ‘voice’ sound was designated (by someone, often other than the voice sound themselves) as being the voice sound of a human. From that point forward, there is the assumption that that voice sound continues to belong to that name.
J: they do it… (would not finish)
J: why don’t I feel the same way as you do?
S: because you don’t have a clue how I feel. YOu are always sampling my sensorial input information rather than the congnitive (et al) processing that transforms it into feelings. This implies to me that you don’t have your own feelings (because you are always steeling mine), so it would be impossible for you to feel anything unless yuou stop taking mine.
J: why won’t you heel?
Now there’s a fucking question that not many people get to hear. Is that an insult? Damn fucking borgsiouswa squid yeilder
(new serius voice print)x: YOu know what scott, something very serious is about to happen in the world of exciting
S: really. Are you going to kill me?
x:YOu know what scott, that’s exactly what I thought. You have absolutely no idea(3×0 whether I thought I had some bikies with me or not….this will be the last chance i get. I am dead now…I am a female….
x2: i must say julia that scott steweart does not know what is going on
x3: julia; why are you doing this.

I can’t write any more notes because they are changing what they say because I am making notes and they can see what I type 2110 hours


13 April 2014, 0951
J: (telling me that I have to go to bed, threatening me) “I’m going to kill them”
J(using a male voice): “I just killed Pam, I just killed Pam (alledgeing becauase I won’t go to be as she demands)
MP (MichaelParis): doesn’t matter does it J?
J: do you know what you are doing (implying criticism of my tired attempt at getting work done)
J: I don’t consider it work
J: when are you going for a run?

It is now 14 April 2014 at 0436i AM BEING TOLD ABOUT my brother having sex (“gang banging it is called” [[MP}) with Tristan Coleman. The reason I am being told I assume is that I financed it by having my drugs taken off me and being railroaded into spending all my money again over the past three days. Of course, no-one will admit that they have been working on me to force me to spend all my money in three and one half days, I am pursuaded that it ios my own fault.

I can not write fast enough. They are so pressing aND URGENT IN WANTING TO TELL ME ABOUT TtRISTAN AND gLENN “Glenn just came all over Tristan COlemans nose” [J]. As i try to write, they make noises and start to say things because they are urgent in having to tell me what is taking place, I suspect that it is going to be because of me and that is why I must be interrupted to hear the commentary and remarks, because it is due to me.

That won’t be too bad as long as everyone got paid what they agreed they would be paid, and everyone lives through it.
J: glenn has come all over tRISTANS FACE (said again, and I don’t think that it is really J as they say.

Julie was laughing at Glenn because he forgot a letter that he was going to post or something. Maybe they are both taking too much of my drugs, AND are both going a bit Ben COusins, whom several weeks ago was maniulating my diaphragm (solar plexis) preventing me from exercising. Shurley not!

0504
I am reading about events and delegates and they ahve started attenuating my cognitive abilities, what I referred to when I was on the train as ‘dislocation of my memory and comprehension’. When I just pointed out that I could sense them doing it, they immediately came back and started telling me that this was the path for the future ‘unless’ (or something), but then they paused because they ‘saw’ me starting to ‘say’ ‘that you are threatening me and also ssaying it is my fault for not capitulating to your demands’, and once they ‘saw’ that coming they stopped for some reason.

Now [MP] is telling me through inuendo and implied things that he is now having sex with Barbera Kendall, and seems to be my fault, or thanks to me, he/they never really say what they mean, but apprently it is because I heard them being tortured through bad taste musi..
?: “there she goes” [MP]: “There I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, There I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go” ?: what’s he doing (scott?)” [MP]:”there i go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go, there I go…[he won;t stop – I think his ‘back is up’ so he’s gong to say ‘there I go’ many many times.

a few minutes later and they are urgently telling me that Barbera Kendall has ‘thrown up’…’all over Mr stewart, Mr Stewart, Mr Stewart (I think they are going to repeat that for a while.

?(fm): “Thisis why Al Brims is fucked up”
s: (- oh yeh really) “perhaps he’s fucked up because you fucked with his feelings” [now It is implied I think that that was his female voice (fm) above. To that I say that self assessment is at the very best a tool for the express use of 3rd parties and igf it was credible, beliveabl;e and worthwhile Freud would not have freely associate so much and put himself up for simple ridicule by anyone not medicated and institutionalised

?: “what do you think is going on with Barbera?”
s: (to Barbera) “are you in distress or danger”
bk: “no I’m not”
well why is this other person who will not say who they are repeatedly saying “what do you think is going on with Barbera?”

?: “what is barbera kendall doing to my new car?”
I do not know why they chickened out of completing the statement / question that they were just about to ask
?: “this is really terrible “(scott, it your fault)
?: J is…
?: now they are implying without saying anything that something else terrible is happening and its my fault again.
?: “she is dead”
S: “shit that is serious, what did she die of?”
?: “a broken heart”
I am now trying to ask them for advice about how to dispose of a dead body (seeing as they just killed BK), and they are being precious and won;t say and are prewtending that they don’t kill 1 person every 4 hours.
s: “you said you just murdered her”
?: “I did not break her heart or murder her, you broke her heart”
?: “what do you think is going on now scott?”
S: “what the fuck do you think is going on. Can you hear what I say, can you hear what the fuck I say. What the fuck do you think is going on if you are asking me what is going on and you won’t establish who you are and you know I can’t see which is why you are (sarcastically and fectitiously) asking me what the fuck is going on”

S: on hearing the whiska’s cat commercial song “do I know the girl in the cat ad?” (they started talking about it 2 days ago – freely


After me claiming that I reckon that it is Tristan Col;eman who would have got well paid to appear in the “whiskas” TVC, my assailants will not say anything about the accuracy of that answer other than “its not her”. This is not surprising because it only resembles Tristan in two very minute ways, and neither of them are apparenttly identifyable, except to the confusion of someone who does not merit any answer or reasonable response.

?: “how can you say ‘I bet nothing happens’ when it’s your fault… it’s your fault”

0806
?: “she heard”
I was just trying to explain that every individual and especially every asset or gain in my life is nothing but a potential liability and opportunity for them to take advantage of at my cost. Having alrwady explained that I am busy beating them at beating me up.

I was just talking about murdering S, N’s ex, and this was greeted by a retort about something or or other, ending in “it was your fault”. Other than that, no denial, no comment, no jokes, no speeches, and no hoarse voice from getting awards for mistreating people the best.


23:47 23 september 2012

Julia spends her days telling me to commit suicide, but when I tell her the same thing, she feels insulted.
AT the moment, I am being told that she is doing terrible things, but she won’t tell me what she is doing. So does she really want me to believe her, given that many of her words have unfamiliar definitions.

SO now I am told that I am doing the right thing — for a fuckwit. Obviously, there can be no problem in jotting down a couple of facts for later recollection. After all, I am not going to hear anything inmcrimentating or that otherwise anyone can not be happy to have noted down, since we all live by our remarks and utterances

SO here are a few excerts that I am supposed to understand:
23:58 – this is so cruel (ss: what?) – no reply
23:59 we want you to committ suicide
00:05 – I did a cpouple of visualisations and put some razor wire in her asshole, and was told that it did not make any difference (I would note: other than her reacting to the visualisations)
00:06 P : are you going to take take drugs tonight? (Me: “no”) (note: recently she says she needs drugs to be able to see to find people)
00:10 some anonymous people are telling me that she is doing some cruel and appauling things. No one will say what.
My response is – “How are we (should I) going to stop her. I reckon, give her what she gives others, and treat her like an intelligent adult”.
12:20 Julia: I just killed michelle young’s baby. SS: what for? J: I just want to be cruel
(someone else: J is very very stoned
12:25 (spomeone else) – why don’t you kill yourself scott? Me: why don’t you kill me like you are killing babies (which is whjat J is doing at the moment. (else or J) she can only kill babies

00:50 – me: hey Julia, are you still planning on having babies? J: no me; why not? J: because I can’t get anyone to fertilise me! me: why do you think that is J? (asked twice – no response)


jd 5

12 March 2014 2100

Julia: “did you do something wrong”
s: “no”
Julia: “you did do something wrong
referring to the fact that after 10 days abstinence I fucked up and purchased $50. I actually ended up taking home $150 but I did not touch the $100 and am returning it when I go to pay, hoping that using less will cause less of a problem.

SOmeone has been implying that ‘good’ ghosts did tonight, and just then someone implied that the hostile voices I hear are good ghosts who have been turned evil by J. There was also an implication that I don’t hear vital information and so my decisions have terrible consequence3s that I am unaware of. Someone is also saying that I am going to be failed from uni, so I have to decide by the end of tomorrow whether to opt out.

In all this familiar abuse and shit trreatment, no one ever considers my position. I am having terrible problems and trouble. I never get to come if I masturbate, and no one ever realises that I suffer gre4at loss and cost when I fail to maintain my abstinence. I have repeatedly asked during the week if there were any ghosts around other than J, and I am told there are not. But occasionally I am shown the image of a ghost on their hands and knees laughing, and J pretends to be other people (ghosts) when I ask after people. I can tell it is J because she always starts the sentance (phrase) with my name. I specifically asked if there was anyone left, and I was never answered, though on a couple of occasions J prete4nded to be other people.

I also specifically asked (in a childish attempted humor way) if I was going to encounter any particular treatment as a result of an acty of will in the event of my giving up for at least the mandatory period of 6 months, and I was specifically told on a number of occasions that I would only experience the predictable amount of improvement and desireable outcomes that would normally stem from sustained abstinence.

I am upset now because it has been repeatedly implied tonight that not only were there consequences for other people, but I have missed out on some (extra-ordinary) benefit because I relapsed and failed to maintain my abstinence.

When I fail to maintain my abstinence, perhaps it is because of the shit I have had to deal with for more than two decades. (Though the last couple of years have been quite OK, other than being very tortured on each of the past six occasions I have relapsed.

FUrthermore, while everyone is blaming me for the alleged assult, torture and death of others, no one else tried to assist these ‘others’ in any way, or tried to tell me what is going on. They simply hack into me with abuse and aggravated blame for my behaviour impacting other people.

Unable to capture the contempt that I am treated with, I shall record some quotes. No one is identifying themselves lately, so I will just use the usual “?”

(warning: very course language. This video DID NOT capture the spiteful hate that my voices have. Things to notice:
0) triggers (code words she tells me)
1) she asks “can you feel that?” (why would an hallucination want to know if I felt something?). Though it is coincidentally AFTER I experienced a tactile hallucination
2) “grooming” is the language of pedophiles. This is relevant because my voices share me round and work in shifts. In my case there are 6 to a shift of 4 hours.
They tell me they meet in the rear units (20) at Gunyah.
3) she asks “what are you writing down Scott?” (she can see what I am doing, but cannot anticipate it)
4) she provides me with the names that I have published with other videos. Notice she inadvertently dogs “Ron” as the culprit. She does the same for the Bandidos. And especially Freemasons.

 

?: you know whats happening scott (how the fuck would I – and they know it before asking)…,
you are being groomed (pedophile language) for a big problem (as is I haven’t been tortured or bankrupted in the past for ecample). (talking slwoly so I can record it) YOu are going to realise (how) that. … Does anyone like me?
S: you said everyone is dead or evil, soi there is no one who could if they had the opportunity
?: Scott… (long pause). You know what Scott, I think that you are going to realise something. You are the sole person (they must not be people talking!) who realises seomthing. YOu are going to realise that J (heresay) is about to do something to you.What do you think that miight be.
S: drop me out of uni.
?: drop you out of uni hey… I don’t think so

A couple of weeks ago, I was having converstions with Prof. Steven Hawking. These turned out to be lies and deceipt.

?: you know what scott stewart (surname used – contempt), I am going to tell you something (they know they are anonymous)… YOu are being groomed (pedo talk about the victim) for a catastrophy (like bankruptcy, the murder of god, turning Michelle evil, repeated torture recently tyo the exctent I had the vacuume hose leasured to gas myself). I am going to tell you something else…you are being groomed for a spe ial problem with your homework (condescending. But I will avoid it if I am told what the problem is going to be). I am going to drop you out of university (like 1994, 1995 + suicide attempt when Ward and Charles et al were vomiting in the bath they were going to put me in and so on…).

?: you know what scott (I obviously can’t) I am going to drop you out of university because you took drugs (unrelated events. The drugs are the excuse for the action, not the cause of the problem).

?: you know what scott – you know what is going ofn woith ghosts don;t you
s: no
?: did you do the wrong thing?
s: no. ([thoughts] What I did let myslef down. It was a terrible failure, and an extrme disappointment, but I will learn from it and improve. I let myself down terribly, but I will recover. Tima has also been having a problem lately. I said I did not want to get her involved, for exactly that reason. Buyt I [urged] told to line her up, and I did what I was told. No one is blaming Tima for anything).

?: scott, do you think you will get away with what you are doing (name at start of sentance. The problem is my burden – I am not trying to cheat anyone or deceivge or ‘get away’ with anything. It was a terrible thing, but at least I did not use what I had).

?: i’m sorry scott, but I am going to punish you no end (don’t know who is talking, They won;t admit to it or say who they are).

?: SORRY SCOTT

(I wonder if they have been causing Tima problems?)

?: I’m sorry scott, but it is set in stone. You are going to be dropped out of uni.

Now while I am trying to study, I am being shown a pair of eyes, crying. This I always find extremely (very very) upsetting.

?: I am not surprised you find them upsetting (no one else does though). Because they are the eyes of your final resting place. (What is that supposed to mean?). That means, your final ghosts are talking to you (who is letting their communications get throug?). They are saying ‘please help us’ (how do / can I accomplish that?). ‘Please help us’, ‘please help us’
?: you know what scott – I am beginning to realise that you are not understanding what you are beiong told (I have not been told anything. The only communication to me other than this anonymous voice is the crying eyes, and I don;t know how to help!).

?: I believe you do know how to help. (How I wonder!).

I get so upset I cry. And I could cry right now. Nothing ever works out for me. I live without love, without much undestanding, and with total liability for my actions. Fuck it, if people knoew what happens to me, and what I hear, I would get some sympathy I think.
I wish I could have one dance with a girl I like.

?: that’s riught. You are always being picked on. do you know why you are always being picked on? (facetious – how could I know?). You are always being picked on because you are a loser Scotty Stewart

?: (J: – I caould tell it was her) Scott – I’m afraid I have some very bad news. YOu are going to fail your statistics test, because I am going to fail you.

?: I’m afraid scott that you are going to be disappointed in what happens in your future (as if I could know different paths that the future might have taken. I examined this thoroughly when I analysed the existence of luck).]

NOTE THAT EVERYTHING I HAVE HEARD AND TRANSCRIBED HAS HAD THE SENTENCE START OFF WITH A COMTEMPUOUS ASSERTION OF WHY I AM GOING TO SUFFER AND LOSE AT GREAT COST. No encouraging words or suggestions of how to mitigate these catastrophies).

 


 

240913 1351
not sure what is happening? J: your money has gone out of the savings account. I am as yet unsure what she means by this, but I am going to listen hard and see what perals of insight I can retrieve.

I keep hearing people saying “I” ands “Us” but no one will show me who they are. They are accusing me of being a paedophile, saying they have some photo’s containing the bodies of dead girls and stuff, but no one will show my anything. I don;t even know if it is possible to ever see anythinhg “in your minds eye”.

at 1548 tow Bandidos said they were on their way to steal my car. Once I took my pants off and got a handful of lubricant and places my hand upon my penis they started to insult me and said they were in the process of removing my personal property (car). Then they started insulting me and talki ng about my penis and saying that I was a deashit and they were going to get their ghost onto me because the shots I put in my arm fucked their ghost all to pieces. SO I put another shot in and listened to my employer saying “this is it Scott. You will be dead very shortly. You are about to die. There is not long to go now. Then the boice of my work colleague chimed in and said similar things.

This is an example of what my voices say:
24th December 2014 1754
J: you won’t live long
: they have been saying that J is giving me lung cancer, and the date of the end of life time is known to everyone.

25th December 2014 0616
A: Do you know what just happened? J just committed suicide
S: whay did she do it now? Why couldn’t she wait for half an hour?
A: Do you know who J is?
What a fucking question!~ They say a name that has been omnipresent for the entireity of this disease assault, and then ask if I know who they are referring to.
A: why would Pam do such a thing?
S: so I lose again
A: yes.
So I took down the Xmas present love note that I had composed and decided not to give her.

J: do you know what just happened?
S: who was that
J: julia
What absolute fucking contempt.

P: I’m not saying it for any other reason.
y voice is harsh because I smoke too much.

 

25th December 2014 0616
A: Do you know what just happened? J just committed suicide
S: whay did she do it now? Why couldn’t she wait for half an hour?
A: Do you know who J is?
What a fucking question!~ They say a name that has been omnipresent for the entireity of this disease assault, and then ask if I know who they are referring to.
A: why would Pam do such a thing?
S: so I lose again
A: yes.
So I took down the Xmas present love note that I had composed and decided not to give her.

J: do you know what just happened?
S: who was that
J: julia
What absolute fucking contempt.

P: I’m not saying it for any other reason.

S: …. Matt…
A: why did you say that about Matt
S: because he is the only person I can think of that is not here calling me a cunt
…… 5 minutes
A: why did you say that about Matt?

……
TC: why does everyone do what J says?
I think that the above is a very important admission
….
TC: why don’t people help you?
S: they can’t be heard
TC: they can be heard
=============================================
fucking outright obviously could not be known dopey cunts unless you knew who was originally in the car, in order to replace with “police woman” who would not be in uniform in a surveillance passenger vehicle. Errata: if I recall, this was the night when I was picking up cigarette butts at
Include “x-scripts involving Pam”

“Car Rego and address from 13 sept 2016 3am”
At approximately 3am on the 13th sept 2016 I heard that Pam was going to be raped andf assaulted, so I drove there at approx 100km per hour in each street and sat out front of her house. Immediately as I turned the engine off, 3 cars arrived.
One pulled into a driveway 35m down the street the house number was 121 or 123 pam’s street (for some reason my note said TA 121/123). I know this because it sat in the driveway for a while, and after I sat for about an hour or an hour and a half, I drove down to get its rego, and it had gone in/up the driveway behind fence gates and parked, so I couldn’t get the rego. I think it was a morone red Corolla hatch.
The car that arrived immediately as I turned my engine off was a white Hyundai hatch/wagon BX66PD. The third car went 120m down the street and I couldn’t see it properly

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ancestry.com and the DMZ correlated with SnapChat and one other entity

Please note that there are 2 errors within the following WordPress post that are not duplicated in the Yola site!

https://scottjamesstewart.yolasite.com/

 

12th January 2020 at 0354 hours

I am extorting Ancestry.com

I want US$65,000
Below, you can read the email I sent – Then the details of why they should pay me.

CONTACT ME:
Scott James Stewart
HERMETICORDERSCIENCETOMORROW@GMAIL.COM
+61 2 9989 8752
+61 403 996 187
Denmna Parade, Normanhuirst, Sydney, NSW, Australia 2076

Extortion Of Ancestry.com

Sunday, 22 September 2019

Please be informed that on the basis of my beliefs about Freemasons, Freemasonry and the fraternity known as The
Freemasons, this communication is the beginning of a possible extortion attempt. The foundation of any extortion I may subsequently attempt, is

1) Freemasonry is not a registered charity 2) You failed to reply at all to my first enquiry 3) I believe it is impossible for you to provide family valid, truthful and bona fide family history information using relational databases. I am considering whether to extort $65,000 from you, unless I arrive at considerations that will lead to an apology. The date of this criminal transgression is unplanned, and so unkown.

In the absence of any response what-so-ever to the polite and rather complimentary document I sent to you: ancestrysupport@ancestry.com.au

date: 3 May 2019, 15:13
subject: An Apologetic Information Reuqest From SOmeone With Mental Health Issues
mailed-by: gmail.com

… I will be ‘listening’ carefully to what my covert sources of information have to say about you, and if I find that they are incriminating, then I will either extort you, or direct information to your state or federal consumer protection agency. You can pay me the U$650,000.00 as a direct debit, since you already have my account details, thanks to an opt-out marketing approach, and many thanks for the previous refund.


Yours sincerely,


Scott James Stewart, serial number 008, rank God (according to RT and JD).
Normanhurst, Sydney, NSW, 2076 +61 2 9989 8752

  • Now for example, with regards to the example family tree diagram,“Jacquie Susan Holbrook” is the daughter of William and Lisa (diagram lower right hand side).
  • Should I suppose there are NOT 2 people named “William Brian Holbrook” perhaps of Marsfield, Sydney, in Table 1, the Births table? Is it simply a matter that utilisation of the middle name of an individual usually totally and uniquely identify an individual?
  • So is it correct that you avoid the necessity of a primary key foreign key relationship, by searching across all your Birth database tables for information that matches the full name of someone mentioned in a marriage certificate? May I ask how many databases you utilise to provide you service?
  • What brand, or variety of brands of database(s) are you using? How many different brands of databases do you use? Roughly how many databases are populated to be able to provide the family tree data offered to subscribers of your production site (ie: excluding Fold3 and other affiliates)?
  • I assume you rely on SQL, or TSQL for your data retrieval, so may I ask in general terms how many queries are used to populate your user family information on website:

Ancestry com ERD

A final point:

  • When I try to read the cursive writing of documents composed prior to the invention of the typewriter (circa 1867), I cannot make out what has been written at all. I do notice on TV that everyone else seems to be able to read the text, but unfortunately, I cannot.
  • Having said this, let us suppose that you had a shipping manifest from 1850, with an inventory of passengers names who were aboard the ship (maybe along with some other cargo), that sailed from its port of origin to Sydney, NSW, Australia, where the passengers disembarked and went about their business.

That may include establishing residence in Sydney. When one of your DBA’s or data entry people look at this shipping manifest, and read that Mavis Smith got on at wherever (let’s say Norfolk, UK), then disembarked at Sydney, who or how do you know the foreign key field (that must be a row number of the primary key) of the record in the Births table of or near the point of departure of the ship who’s manifest you are looking at?  —

If you have filled a table of Births of people from the UK, and that includes people from Norfolk, UK, how does the person reading the (illegible) handwriting of the shipping manifest know what row number to use/input as the primary key in the Births table that contains the Birth record of Mavis Smith of Norfolk?

I can only imagine that your database diagram, your ERD, and your UML diagrams must be absolutely huge and very complicated. I don’t suppose you could take a quick photo of part of your database diagram and send it to me, or publish it on the WWW, but nothing of course that would be transgressing trade secrets or anything, just sufficient for people to admire what you have accomplished with your business.

 

The following notes are important. Thought i should disclose how i think. Some Skepticism

“Discover your immigrant ancestors and learn more about your family’s homeland in detailed passenger lists, border crossings and more” – this implies that  you have relied on interpreters to translate the information you sell to subscribers. One must assume that there are records of the interpreters work hours. “User Provided Content” – You cannot indemnify yourself against the claims involving “User Provided Content” unless your repository flags such content to delineate it from all your other content.

I do not endorse your Australian TV advertising that fails to explicitly state that any investigation of military history takes place through an affiliate businesses website.

Your TV advertising should state that it is Fold3 that facilitates family history investigation, not Ancestry.com   misleading and deceptive conduct A – Who counted the “142 million plus” articles? Are you implying that each article is a unique record in one of your databases?  Is that how you calculated the sum of the number of articles? They are not scans then?

B – If Fold3 is your “historical military records website” then why is a disclaimer issued under section 8 of your terms and conditions to the effect that “We do not make any promises (a)…… (c) about the quality, accuracy, reliability, or availability of the Ancestry Content or Services”. A subscriber might reasonably expect that information duplicated from a military records repository, or that information being available through a ‘web service’ (an ‘across the wire’ query) of the military database in situ, one would rightfully expect that  military information would be perfectly accurate.

I am not sure that you can in fact “disclaim” the elements (“(c) about the quality, accuracy, reliability, or availability of the Ancestry Content or Services”) of the service you sell. Your warranty is additional to the statutory warranty mandatorily in place by the Commonwealth of Australia Trade Practices Act 1974, superseded by the Competition and Consumer Act 2010 (CCA).

The Bizarre Multi-Purpose Architecture Of Deception

Behind the DMZ of Ancestry.com is one of several of the complete repositories of contemporary Freemasonry. As you might expect, the UI is the avenue to the history of (un)Freemason membership.

I decline to enter into discriminatory particulars regarding why the Freemasons choose to delineate themselves from the unwitting, and future underclass, because I am strongly opinionated about the invalid and dangerous nature of such demarcation. Histroy has shown it so, we know better currently through ethics, and the future may underline it. The discerning reader can quickly ascertain on the WWW (surface, not Deep, not the (un)Freemason version).

Behind the DMZ there will be an elaborate mySQL* architecture running on an Apache server, that is noteworthy because several of the key tables that hold confidential financial information  are duplicated outside the DMZ. AN examination of the SQL queries will indicate when this distinction is traversed. As foreign keys of these obscurely names and parse protected tables, there will be a column that is a hash index of the server logs, that is updated by particular datagrams designated to a particular port. This index will relate the self-referencing table of IP addresses. Somewhere in the “person” entity there will be another hash encrypted column, that correlates Freemason membership number with the entity data. There is also likely to be a plain seemingly non-sensical column of historical rank.

The critical data to be duplicated for future economic reasons, is the columnar data containing whatever is used as a proxy for credit or debit card numbers.

This  datatype is likely to be separated between multiple tables, and will most probably end up being particular details of trading accounts (derivative, futures, and short term currency trade associated transaction accounts, additionally, [illegal] laundering and suspicious transactions through Westpac allied with Bank Of America and Citibank: see https://www.businessinsider.com.au/westpac-money-laundering-child-exploitation-explainer-2019-11 and https://www.afr.com/companies/financial-services/citibank-drawn-into-westpac-s-money-laundering-case-20191122-p53d2j and https://www.theguardian.com/australia-news/2019/nov/20/westpac-accused-of-more-than-23m-breaches-of-anti-money-laundering-laws), or numbers identifying through a look up, short lived accounts held by varieties of ‘off-shore’ institutions and legal financial multi-national entities

The important nature of this information once rejoined, is that this is how the Freemason network avoids taxation liabilities, and outside of normal and acceptable family trusts and company legal entities, this is how to keep track of each individual Freemason (identification through design and methods is herein, intentionally not specified). This has widespread propensity for value, because they pass their various gains between themselves and themselves.

I am prepared to be criticized for suggesting that there will be two additional columns of significance. One will be for date of arrival, qualified by a flag that indicates if the entity was born here, or arrived. The other foreign key table will have several columns indicating transportation, “special skill”, financial start-up funds, and other strange information that would seem completely out of place in anything outside SETI.

The important feature I am indicating, is the separation of two sets of identical tables, one behind the DMZ and one in front of it. The protected relational tables need in reverse engineering of the SQL queries, to be analysed, as part of the stratification of the data residing on the WWW. In future, it is highly to extremely likely to be important, to use not only invalid copyright reservations, but the location of valid uncontaminated information.

The hashed table column that receives the datagrams, should be duplicated and put side by side with a duplicate of the meta data and other server log data retrieved from SnapChat, in particular, relating to an alleged SnapChat account in my name (Scott Stewart), Normanhurst, Sydney).

If you are not already suffering from excess putridization of preposterous claims and statements infra, then  you can withstand the point in fact that this was arrived at by (normal religious strategic contemplation), 1st person transcripts, and (Shit, I’ve been robbed), oh that’s it, the vast increase in surnames between the Great Fire of London, Andy Roddick, Roger More, and the millions of surnames now available throughout the lands where English is spoken.

This information is dedicated to Tim Bernard-Lees and his ambition to reform the WWW. (at https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2019/nov/24/tim-berners-lee-unveils-global-plan-to-save-the-internet).


 

Addendum:

Advance Warning Of Possible Crime Activity 121019

A Funky Idea

Hypothesis of (un)Freemason pornography

 

Julia owns a video production company. Jimmy B&^% and Brian Hooper get the opportunity as a reward to pay Julia $800 each to make a gratification based pornographic movie with two airline tickets where the frequent flyer points are allocated to someone other than the ticket holder, and probably the credit / debit card provider. Ron T gets a similar offer, so does Glenn J.

The red heads, reflector boards and so are ready fied and JB and BH arrive at the pre-organised time. The usual make up et al is applied and so on. Two girls who were offered a job for a paultry cash sum, (no, actually, is direct debit OK, but it will have to be on such and so day of the week etc..?) sum, yet to be actually received ($200 [potentially or probably Zimbabwe Dollars]) and the release forms are provided and get signed (by the talent that is).

Mr Dr fix it is ready, and the scene is set to begin. But in the front (and behind the line) the two models are secretly evacuated and swapped out for their own safety etc, for two identical holograms. I cannot even guess at the next few minutes, but anyway, the two girlograms enter into proximity to BB and BH on set. Then JB and BH either issue an instruction through freemasonry to have their sensibilities altered (improved) or the same is overdone without their consent. But the sensibility augmentation helpful improvement is slightly misapplied by the invisible Ghost back yard unqualified neurophysicist cook, despite the consent, and they (JB and BH) now are less able to realise the talent swap, and hopefully this has provided sufficient timely distraction so the evacuation is going better, and is underway, thankfully (That one is for [previously] D.A. Elanor C) (see my Soundcloud channel containing schizophrenia voices simulation approximately titled “chatting up elanor” https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/sets/pornography-and-activation).

Meanwhile RT and GJ are on schedule and on time. The take goes well, without interruption or any more than the usual number of discontinuities, and sufficient grabs are obtained to be able to create the entertainment product in post.

…230718 s”so did u find them yet? ?FM:who? S:the hologram manufacturers?

Meanwhile… JB and BH can now successfully and famously go home after having featured observably in a planned video that is to be used as a Freemason contingency tool for extortion if either of the two girls refuse to participate in signing release forms and performing in making more, possibly at a slightly reduced rate. Shortly after the boys and models have definitely left, Ron and Glen arrive, and pay Julia the $800 each to be provided to the talent as a gesture of generosity. Once everyone is ready to shoot (not up), the two girls appear, but then RT and GJ both feel strange and have to take a nap (so they can morph without being seen in truth. And he proceeds to do just that).

…Shortly after waking up standing just behind the line, everyone standing around them looking agitated says “thank fuck, I mean, thank the hell for that. Are you alright? Here’s the water you asked for. Are you sure you’re OK?”…..”Here’s the rushes of the DVD as your momento, as promised.”

So RT has now an additional porn DVD starring himself as somebody he morphed into, that in total value far exceeds 17 x $800, and some more instant gratification to be nostalgic about when he gets older.

From The Vault

see index page for conventions and abbreviations

270308 1344

.. a typical discussion…

J: you are getting paid a months salary arn’t you?
ss: yes
J: what will you do with your months salary
ss: I will pay my rent
J: yes, but I have told them that…. (she never finished the sentance)

This happens at least every single day of my current life. J has a volume control and someone who impersonates me. All communication must pass thru her, and she stops people from hearing and tells them something other than what I have said.

1400

P: if you write it down it becomes real
ss: what, your claims
P: yes, our claims

THEREFORE, I HAVE DECIDED TO WRITE THE FOLLOWING
SS: From now on, Peter and Julia have decided to be fair and honest, or mostly onest, in their dealings with people who have, or may have had, sympathy for SS. From 1401 on 27030 onwards, Peter and Julia (in all their many forms and peoples) arenot going to use the volume control anymore, are not going to impersonate SS to the disadvantage or to upset other people. From this time forward and from this date forward, SS will no longer be misrepresented by impersonation or any other act that is intended to mislead or decieve third parties to this situation, and SS will not have his avenues of communication silenced under any circumstances. If in the event of someone other silencing SS, then J and P will immediately act to rectify the silence, and report ot all affected parties that the true and proper voice of SS was obstructed, but this obstruction has now been removed, and all prior information should be disregarded as heresay, and ignored on that basis; such that the following information is guaranteed to be thetrue and proper voice of SS.
(lets see if P’s claim about note taking is truthful)


 

14th May 2015 1510
Peter Brasier here mate. “I believe you wanked over children.”
S: yes thats correct
PB: what difference does it make
S: I was shown all the underage girls of Freemasonry, probably taken by their father or mother for public dissemination
PB: peter brasier here mate
PB: do I know pam?
s: yes and maggie. You murdered them both with box cutters.
PB: where were you yesterday
S: what time
PB: in the middle of the day
S: at TAFE
RT: he’s hearing something different
Was threatened not to have a shot by someone. So I decided to have one because I don’t like being wound up. Took it to the bathroom, and PB said “that’s not where you usually have it”. And I went to do it, and I was told not to by someone.
PB: who have I got with me?
S: how the fuck should I know
MH: excuse me mate, PB is raping your daughter
S: well I can’t hear anyone complaining so it must be appropriate and approved of
MH:?: what did selena do to you Julia?
MH: whos friend is she
S: GK’s
MH: why is that scott
S: well he was the last person to have sex with her
MH: when was that mate?
S: at the same time as the girls were in London
MH: why didn’t you take your drugs mate
S: I was told not to
MH:dop you believe he….
S: because that wasn’t foretold
MH: who else could it be
S: as long as you expressly know I can not see, it could be anyone
MH: why doesn;’t anyone want to stop me hurting this girl?
S: because everyone knows its your own daughter
MH: did you kill someone mate?
S: not that I know of, but I could have
MH: an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth
MH duaghter: who do you think it is scott? who do you think it is scott?
S: I don’t know
MH: do you know your cousin mate?
S: no one is complaining so everyone approves of whatever you are doing.
MH: who is everyone?
S: nope.
MH: can I murder your cousin mae
S: I expect she’s over 18 so its up to her. I am not her parent or guardian.
MH: scuse me mate. Do you know what murder means
S: no, but I accept your offer. Consider my/our debt closed
MH: do I shoot up drugs mate?
S: not in public.
MH: you think I shoot up drugs mate?
S: hang on, i’ll just ask……..(silence). They don’t know, they must have fallen asleep


23rd July 2015 1944
SS: Just5 a few notes in second person to record what I have been hearing lately.
Since I self-admitted into the Hornsby adult mental health facility, the reasons as explained to the mental health workers and doctors, I continue to hear an evolving story involving bikies and me.
Apparentl JD and RT/GJ have been setting me up as a user and/or producer of child pornography. I am told that they think I have a netflix account, and that I have posted child ponography onto Netflix, and possibly some other locations.
I am not interestedr in providing intiaLs because they are already in my emails and texts to GJ, HB-M, GK and PBD.
The other night, Sunday 19th, I had to put a surveillance camera on my door to stop these people coming in.
I went to the police on 9th June 2015 to report that I thought that people had been accessing my spare keys and entering my unit, and tampering with my computer. I also called the police a few days later to report a similar situation with my car. Unfortunately I forgot to get the name of the male and female police that attended.
When I admitted myself to the PEC unit three times a few weeks ago, on the second occaision I asked the police to give me a lift to the emergency department because I was told not to use an ambulance.
Anyway, over the past few weeks, I believe that someone has been accessing my bank account. Small amounts of money have been ‘going astray’ imtermittently for several months. I told my social worker about it. On each occasion I went to the bank, but I was not abloe to make progress with them. For example, the bank clai9med they gave me a $12.57 ‘overdraft’ a week and a half ago. This was their explanation for why when I went to withdraw $150 that had been deposited, I could only get $137.50. Obviously I could not withdraw this amount. I withdrew $130 (I think) and went to the bank the following day. The bank claimed that the reason there was not the deposited amount of $150 available for withdrawl was because of a timing issue, that resulted in the bank allowing a $12.57 overdraft (the exact amount I spent a Coles and have the receipt for) when I went to COles and spent $12.57. SO when I went to withdraw money after having had $150 deposited, there was only $137.50 available (they had reduced the deposited amount to the value of the overdraft).
This seems unlikely to me, as I am a discharged bankrupt. I still have all the receipts and bank statements, but these do not show the whole story.
Anyway, since I believe that they have used my keys to come into my unit and changed all my first person transcripts into second and third person, I can not be bothered keeping any notes anymore. I am writing this for their purposes, not my own.
Apparently I am to be a sacrifice of blood and pain to some ghost. Obviously ghosts don’t exist. SO what my hallucinations are on about I do not know.
2221
They are saying that they have infected me with HIV now. Apparently from a bagwash that I did at home after vising PK.
I will go get my bloods done tomorrow.


9th May 2015 at 1356
I keep getting asked the same question over and over again, and have just realised they are ‘keywords’ and Pam is hearing something different to what I respond withj everytime I repond, so she thinks I am ‘dissing’ her all the time. Here are the codewords
J: Why is it like this scott? 2, 3, 4
J: does Pam like you scott? 2 “how much?”
J: will she stop *&^(% to you scott?
J; will it make any difference to Pam scott? (I believe that she is having sex with Geoff, Pierre, Shayla, Glenn Jeffries etc at the moment, which is why there are non-stop questions, the same over and over again).
Now Pam is saying “do I care about you scott?” and I said “no”, and she said “no, I don’t do I – what do I care about?” and I said “is that you P{am?”, and she said “why do you ask?” and I said “because you said you have never had any psychosis” and I said “but you are as psychotic as me”
J: “why is it like this don’t you scott”
J: “you love Pam don’t you scott”
Pam “why don’t I play fair scott?” S: who said that? P: Pam richardson


 

26th February 2015, 1851

N: does anyone care about you?
S: fuck off
N: I don’t see why yuou are so picked on.
S: ……..
N: why are you so picked on Scotty?
S: ……..
N: what did you hear?
S: …….
PB: it’s over. DO you know what just happened?
S: how the fuck would I know?
PB: does not like you at all!
J: why is it like this?
S: this is schizophrenia where the subject of the communication is unable to leave the conversation, so talk (monologue or pseudo dialogue) becomes a catastrohpoic set of symptoms.
N: what does Julia think? Does she care?
S: Yes she knows it is against the law to force people to commmit suicide so she makes sure I can not find out what is going on, who is involved or where they are.
N: can theyt read that (this)?
S: of course not
N: we can read it scott.
S: impossible for you to know that, unless you come to my place and read it.
R: it’s over
S: what’s over. Have you just declared my life over?
SO: song: “I don’t know how to love him….”
G: how many times a day did / do you hear that?
S: up to 12 000 per day
G: what’s that like
S: causes you to attempt suicide
G: why won;t anyone do anything about it?
S: they are probably scared
G: do yuou think I am
S: you will be when they threaten you

?: she just woin (as spomeone sings three blind mice in the background)
S: who just won? How did they win?
?: she just won
S: who just won? How did they win?

How To Let Go?

12 minutes of silence!

28 years, 5 months and 13 days!

I would like to demand that I get told the end date of this combat and hostility. I insist on reliable notification if it is until death, in which case, I want to be provided with a paradigm, a philosophy and a simple set of milestones, to occupy my time between now and then. And I want accuracy in identification of the real actual cause.

I want an end date.

Simple enough. Even a moron, ignoramus could set it, and learn through information provision, how to achieve it…….


The first attempt date must be between now and 19/3/20.

Then, another fail between 21/4/20 and 14/9/21.

Then fail again between 18/6/21 and 22/8/22. This is when pancreatic cancer should begin.

If at first it doesn’t succeed, be tenacious, and dogged, and not fail anymore, unless to fail yourself and dadda dadda dadda. Get the 7 year old in permanently, whilst you listen to “Stroke Me Stroke Me” until you succeed, then you can be deceased, or continue until then listening to said piece of art.


I cannot wield anything bigger then a flea to impose my demand, unless you call it a wish. But mother nature is in your 8 year old cunt that daddy daddy daddy photographed on the rock by the stream, and still hasn’t paid for. But I will be fucking mother nature DP, to see a Gladiator beaten to death by a spider.

240913 1351
not sure what is happening? J: your money has gone out of the savings account. I am as yet unsure what she means by this, but I am going to listen hard and see what perals of insight I can retrieve.

I keep hearing people saying “I” ands “Us” but no one will show me who they are. They are accusing me of being a paedophile, saying they have some photo’s containing the bodies of dead girls and stuff, but no one will show my anything. I don;t even know if it is possible to ever see anythinhg “in your minds eye”.

at 1548 tow Bandidos said they were on their way to steal my car. Once I took my pants off and got a handful of lubricant and places my hand upon my penis they started to insult me and said they were in the process of removing my personal property (car). Then they started insulting me and talking about my penis and saying that I was a deashit and they were going to get their ghost onto me because the shots I put in my arm fucked their ghost all to pieces. SO I put another shot in and listened to my employer saying “this is it Scott. You will be dead very shortly. You are about to die. There is not long to go now. Then the voice of my work colleague chimed in and said similar things.

110409 7.15am

J: I have done somethign terrible. Do you want to know what I have done
SS: (no response)
J: I have ..

and this is where it all becomes lob sided. Because I am meant to believe that no one can hear J, but if I write down what she says in this note, then everyone will know what she has said. If I do not write it down in this note, then no one knows what has happened. So she says she has done something, and she is inmplicitly claiming thAT EVERYPNE HATES ME SO MUCH THAT AS SOON AS i GET THERE, they are going to kill me, but no one (including me) has any knowledge of what J has done. GO FIGURE THAT!!!!

J: do you konjow what I’ve done (she can read this so that is a conmpletely stupid question)
S: sorry J, but I am not going to write down what you say next, so bad luck, no one will know what you have done.

[ At the tail end of another nights ‘bad’ behaviour. WHich people (J, P, whoever else) insist should be the last until XMas, but since she has done something bad, then whatr does it matter??…]

I just found some notes from approx 2001, 2002 – west ryde notes, about me making pedophile videos and that sort of thing, and when I confront J with the same questions that I confronted her with at the time, she just fucking ignores what I say, and pretends nothing has been said, and igniores the questions, and ignores the proof that they convey……
Fuck off J, you stupid little squat fuckwit. Go and bury your fucking head somewhere else, and pretend no one is asking you questions.. fuck off stupid little deadshitted mole idiot.,.. go be fucking ignorant somewhere else stupid little girl….


Issue # 1

Who is JD going to hand the ‘Ghost’ over to when she dies (2 – 4 years abs max). What demographic do they have? What gets said to hand it over? When exactly will the hand over be? WHat if she dies suddenly?

Tell her to get her will out and show what plans she’s made for the hand-over.

Will it go passed on to some adopted child?, or does JD have any young siblings?

How long does the next ignoramus have to write a new set of rules, and will they have to be updated?

Exactly what did her pedophile culpable father say to her during the hand-over, so does this need to be exactly repeated, because this will determine the gender of the next (impostor)?

Does the next one maintain the pre-existing portfolio?

Does JD or anyone have to steal some more money, that is go on a cash grab pronto, before hand-over, because they will delay hand-over all together if in accord with their talent, this is the last gasp.

Issue # 2

As at 1st January 2020, 2209:

The owners of Scott Stewart are:

  1. Julia Davis
  2. Ron Thiessen
  3. Angry (Bandido)
  4. Little Ghost
  5. Big Ghost
  6. Psychoanalyst 1
  7. Psychoanalyst 2
  8. BC
  9. CR
  10. CD
  11. Dave (Bandido)
  12. GR (Bandido)
  13. Lisa Simpson

I am told there are quite a few more, but they are currently not ‘here’, to acknowledge their ownership /claim.


 

01012019 at  2207

The last two weeks, two days of intense torture, are common but dissimilar to the campaigns over the past 28 years, 5 months and 13 days. In this time, my estimation is that I have had approximately 12-13 minutes downtime silence. Some days evening, nights, early mornings, combined, are unbearable. And I protest strongly that patronizing is any remedy, and certainly no substitute for downtime or recovery.

Ironically, to avoid being tuned and run down to death at September 30, 2020 as they had planned, I had to argue against such mortal condemnation, and try to get an alternative outcome / result.

Rather than the death at the end of September 2020, I argued for the following simple planning alternative, a set of guidelines or principles:

  • Health   (no drugs / exercise)
  • Prosperity  (savings)
  • Improvement  (less ownership)
  • Cash Flow
  • Work / study

But every time I hear “I can’t / won’t do that” or “I want you to commit suicide”, I have terrible drug craving issues, and enter into great misery and distress, to say the least.

It has to be stated though, that these people, have their own very serious addiction issues. It turns out that this (un-Freemason) communication vector is probably the most addictive thing on planet Earth. They cannot leave me alone at all. They “run me ragged” for days at a time (clean), and lie and lie about disturbing scary things, especially things happening to other people, that worry me so much, I am in tears, and inconsolable misery. They cannot find the strength in themselves to leave me to try and run my life. They insist on interfering with all my thoughts, and this had destructive flow on effects on my ability to plan, rest, relax, formulate ambition and intentions, and most other activities, both mental and physical.

What other people’s voices say

Posted 02 February 2008 – 06:57 AM I have entrenched, intractable ‘delusions’ about the nurses reading my mind, performing black magic against me and programming patients to kill me and generally ruining my life. You could sit there and tell me all day this is paranoid nonsense and I won’t believe you. People have tried but I just KNOW it’s true. Everyday I hear the nurses voices in my head taunting me and insulting me, this is relentless.

I have command hallucinations as well that order me to do things a certain way or within a certain time or else they’ll kill my mother or kill my dog.  But in the midst of this, I have managed to write a book and send it off for publication, hold down a job (with only a 3 week sabbatical when I was in the bin), start a doctorate, do numerous home study courses, run a part-time business. Appear normal infront of people. Surely this proves that my ‘delusions’ are real and I am not schizophrenic or I wouldn’t be so functional? Whenever I talk about the nurses to my mother she starts crying and says that I have lost contact with reality altogether – that before I had insight into my condition but now I have totally looped the loop.

But I know this is all going on. I have to bury myself in intellectual pursuits to drown out the voices and psychic communication between me and the nurses and distract myself with study. Surely if I was schizophrenic I would be so disordered I wouldn’t be able to do this. Is thought disorder not a prerequisite for the disease? They want me to take Clozaril but aint no way Im going back to the bin and those sadistic psychic vampires

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Posted 02 February 2008 – 12:54 PM All I can say is i hav edelusions all th etime, that people have hired killers to come kill me, and that I am wanted by the government, and that my neighbors are terrorist spies, out to get the usa. but let me tell you also that if it wasnt for my husband tellin gme what a load of crock that is, I would believe it, bc it seems so real, that is what delusions are they seem so very vivid and real but in reality they are a crock of lies our brain is deceiving us with. and btw I know the loony bin isnt a fun place, been there many a times, but you may just need smeds, to help you with this problem. and yes you can be creative adn do really amazing things and be psyhotic, I have afriend who is totally paranoid schizophrenic, and she has an album label and is a major singer. I just wish i was more creative and talented like you and my friend are, my schizoaffective rarely lets me do anything but just be amom to my kid.

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Posted 02 February 2008 – 09:12 PM Yes, I believe you can have delusions and be perfectly functional. I know this because the lovely doctors think I am delusional but I go to different groups and even taking an art class at my local college. I am also having several art shows coming up. I think I am wanted by the FBI and CIA for killing many people throughout the US and possibly the world. I know I didn’t kill anyone though. The problem is this. Somehow they are beaming thoughts into my head and have severe thought insertion as a result.

The good news is that I don’t actually hear voices. They know my thoughts as well. If I have an “evil” thought they will use it against me. The government also planted evidence at the crime scenes just to get me. Why would they want to pick on some one so innocent? I have no idea. That is their job I guess. I used to believe that aliens were out to get me and had a device in my brain but now I realize that was one bizarre delusion. There is still a device in me left by the government but they haven’t told me where yet. It works as a tracking device and something that sends my thoughts to them. I feel sorry for you being on Zyprexa.

I heard that medicine puts a lot of weight on you. I know someone that has put over 100 pounds on that medicine. If my psychiatrist ever suggests that med for me, I will NOT take it! I already gained weight on all my meds that I have been on for the past 2 years. Don’t ask me to name them because they are too many. I can’t even remember all of them.

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Posted 03 February 2008 – 03:56 AM
I just get a feeling in my head like it’s been ‘switched on’ and my thoughts are being broadcasted. Then I hear their thoughts in my head making fun of me because I leak really horrible thoughts – in fact they aren’t my own thoughts, they are voices trying to communicate with the nurses in the most awful way. One time one of them threatened to throw a petrol bomb at the nurse’s station if they didn’t leave me alone, and I asked for some sort of sign that the nurses were listening.

And that day, as I was leaving work, the nurse who scares and torments me the most was standing right at the hospital shop pretending to browse the fridge for sandwiches (I work in the hospital and the psych ward is only down the corridor from where I work, the proximity means they read my thoughts and insert their own thoughts really badly when I work – its not as bad when Im at home but Im damned if I give up my job) Null0trooper – thanks for trying to talk sense into me, I will try Haldol. Olanz and Haldol was a magic potion for me last year – there was a 6 month period in which I was completely non-psychotic, even though I dont believe I am psychotic at the moment but Id try anything to stop this damn broadcasting andthought interference

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Posted 14 March 2008 – 09:21 AM Thought broadcasting and telepathy is a ‘gift’ (more like a curse) that some psychotic people are ‘blessed’ with. I read about it on the forums of schizophrenia.com and it happens all the time. Your thoughts get amplified and too loud, a hole appears in your aura and your thoughts leak out and contaminate other people.

I know I’m not delusional. I wish to fuck I was delusional and this fucking endless nightmare of thoughts bouncing back and forth between me and the nurses could end. It’s like a needle stuck in a record. I am trapped in hell. Delusions would be heavenly, to know it is all a trick of the mind. But I know it’s all serious real-life head-fuckery and I want to blow my head off to end it all.

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Posted 17 March 2008 – 06:36 AM They are after me because the thoughts in my head about them were very derogatory. Not all of the nurses are after me, just a clique of them. I caught them doing stuff they shouldn’t be doing. They have a ringleader. You can sit and argue with me until you are blue in the face. I know I’m a telepath. The nurses torment me, I hear their voices and they can read my mind.

I am obsessed about what happened to me in hospital, if I could forget about it and move on maybe the psychic weirdness would stop but I seem to be stuck. I can’t get it out of my head. I wish it wasn’t real but unfortunately it is. And even if it is psychosis, it is my reality and I experience it as being very real and I experience it every day. I just want it to go away and be free.
RX: 50mg Risperdal Consta Injection x once per fortnight (equivalent to 6mg a day), 600mg Lithium, 60mgs Prozac, 5mgs Diazepam x 3 a day, 7.5mg Zopiclone

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Posted 02 March 2008 – 06:13 PM hey tired please check in and let us know how you are today. are you seeing a pdoc tomorrow? It just kills me, everything you are going through right now i’ve become a politics junkie in my previous state of unemployment, thinking about society too much i guess. now that i’ve got more stability i might try working on MI advocacy in my state or maybe DC.

i dunno people just don’t understand what it’s like in a crazy head. and no victim of the s*^! you’ve been through should ever be on the edge of taking their life, ever. god, to never be protected or validated as an innocent child, and now to have to deal with this, with little or no support. DAMN this world is hideous place sometimes, and in this moment, please, god, just stay with us and get yourself to help and safety. it’s time for you to heal. PM me anytime. like zenbean said you need to vote Obama in november and you need to be a force in this world. HOPE you are getting help

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Posted 26 February 2008 – 02:01 PM thanks for the support conused, usernametaken and geardaddy. Karuna, my thing with the nurses began when I was an inpatient. I became convinced they could hear al of my thoughts and as my htoughts towards them were unpleasant, they wanted to ruin my life. I work in the hospital where they work at. In work I can hear their voices and I get visions of them plotting and colluding against me – programming patients to kill me, practicing black magic against me. The p-doc might be in on it. I’m not sure.

I had a vision the other day in which he was asking the nurses “So what’s going on with her now?” so he can monitor my thoughts. They are very abusive and make fun of everything I do, have access to my most private thoughts and wouldnt think tiwce to land me in the shit if they could. There are logical reasons behind all of this but I can’t discuss them as they know I am writing this and they are angry so I have to stop before they launch a direct psychic attack.
50mg Risperdal Consta Injection x once per fortnight (equivalent to 6mg a day), 600mg Lithium, 60mgs Prozac, 5mgs Diazepam x 3 a day, 7.5mg Zopiclone

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Posted 10 June 2005 – 10:24 AM Hello I’m feeling really bad. I’ve just been down to see my pdoc and have told her that I’m completely in love with her. It was really horrendous, but im glad i was honest, and she said thank you for being so honest, it is really helpful. I am just so tired out. I want to die away. My pdoc says this is another psychotic symptom and in a way I agree with her BECAUSE it can change person.

For example, for five years I had an extremely powerful connection to an old boyfriend. I believed we were in love with eachother and the thoughts and daydreams consumed me ALL the time. To the point of non-functioning. We hardly were in touch at all, but in my mind he was sending me signals and signs. Then when I got to 30mg Abilify, it was like someone just switched a switch off. ALL my feelings just stopped dead. I realised I wasn’t in love with him, and now didn’t even particularly like him.

Then my meds were messed around with and it happened with my consultant pdoc and then that faded, then now it’s happened BIG TIME with my pdoc. It is so utterly overwhelming, I just cannot explain. I was pulling away from her and retreating into my own world, but one thing she always has said about me is that I try so hard to be honest and fight to stay in “this world”. So I thought I need to tell her about these feelings. So I did and she was fine about it. I told her I had gone to see a show last night (which i did, it was crap) but I couldn’t stop imagining her there with her kids and her husband and how JEALOUS i was of her husband, it just made me want to die.

Now I found out these things in a totally ok way. Someone mentioned she had kids ages ago (plus, she always takes the school holidays off, so duh, doesn’t need much working out) and with the husband, I just ASSUMED she was married. She may well not be. But if she is, she’s gonna be thinking HOW DOES THIS GIRL KNOW I HAVE A HUSBAND AND KIDS?

I asked her if she would keep seeing me and she said… “yes, as long as you are able to say to me ‘these feelings have come about since i lowered my dose'” or something along those lines. SO BASICALLY SHE IS SAYING THAT IF I LOOSE INSIGHT, SHE WILL BE OFF! Do you think that is what she is saying?

I am so devestated because I loose insight a lot, today was a good day. I don’t know what is true and what isn’t in terms of my thought structures, but sometimes I know that maybe “things just aren’t right”. I know for sure tho that a lot of the stuff she says is psychosis is just her way of trying to protect her company (who are monitoring me).

Anyway the point is – what if I loose insight about this? Will she just LEAVE me? I really could not handle that. Before anyone asks, this is not to do with “therapy” issues because I have been in therapy for a year and yes, I have some issues, but nothing this big. I do not have a fear or being left or being abandoned or walked out on, and i had a happy childhood and my parents are together. It’s not that I want someone to care about me, it’s that I feel I’m IN LOVE with her.

I want to BE with her, even though I can’t. Can anyone please tell me, if you know, what are the protocalls with this type of thing????? Will my doc stick by me?? I OBVIOUSLY understand that relationships are forbidden and quite rightly so. But what I want to know is, at what point will she think “ok we need a new doctor in here”, and shove me over onto someone else. Does she think I’m a threat to her, because I mentioned her kids and her husband? Does she think I’m gonna become obsessed and start stalking her? You know, I’M worried I’m gonna become obsessed and start stalking her.

What if I turn out like the equivalent of the dirty old pervert who goes around stalking people? I CAN’T HANDLE THIS. I just can’t handle having all these feelings squashed in my little body. I did all this with that ex-boyfriend for FIVE YEARS OF HELL, and just as I finally understood what was going on, IT’S STARTED AGAIN WITH SOMEONE ELSE. I had to come off the 30mg Abilify coz of unbearable side effects. Now I’m on 20mg, the side efffects are still bad but I’m not allowed to go any lower yet. I feel so weak and vunerable and I feel like I NEED my doctor to support me.

But now I feel she’s not going to be able to support me because of what I have told her. She is always going to be wary of me now isn’t she, always worried about giving me a pat on the arm or whatever incase I missinterpret it. So who’s gonna be able to support me? No-one. I’m just the sad old stalker in the corner. Just for the record, I’m not gay. It just doesn’t seem to make much difference once I’ve become fixated on a person. It never ties in to my REAL LIFE.

Even I can see that it’s silly to think im in love with her, I don’t even know her!!! In terms of meds this is how things stand. My pdoc wants me to go into hospital. I cant at the mo as I’m supposed to be going on holiday in a week. She does not approve really but my parents need a holiday and they wont go and leave me so…

Anyway, we meet when I get back and she says then i should go into hospital to get an EEG done and to sort my meds out. I have been on Risperdal, Zyprexa, Seroquel and Abilify, all working *to some extent*. My doc says I am not responding to the medications. I don’t want to go in as it will be too easy for them to keep monitoring me and carrying out their special project on me.

Last time I went in hospital it was shite. The nurses were shite and told me I was being hysterical. They made me feel like I was attention-seeking. The bitches. It meant I didn’t tell the truth for ages after I got out, for fear that if I told people my school was controlling me (which they were), they would just say “what a story that is, you’re attention seeking”. So I mentioned NO to all the questions, even when the answers I believed were YES. Now I feel so scared of pnurses, I know they’ll be horrible to me if I go in hospital again.

Anyway lets round things up. So does anyone know about the protocal if a patient tells his pdoc that he’s in love with her? When does another doc step in???? My pdoc says this “falling in love” feeling is a symptom of psychosis, has anyone ever had it?? She says it’s not a common one, but that it definately exists. That is a relief for me coz it makes me feel that deep down these might NOT be my real feelings. Which is GOOD. All I am worried about now is that I’m gonna have to lie to her. If I’m completely infatuted with her and can’t get her out of my head, if I tell her this and if things keep getting worse and I keep telling her, eventually she’s gonna have to pass me on to a diff doc, which I don’t want. So I’ll have to lie and say “no things are getting better”. And I’ll just in the background be feeling worse. Anyway sorry for the big rant. Anyone with any advice i’d soo appreciate it. Love from a nice, pleasant, 21-year-old girl from England called Katie. (NOT SOME DODGY STALKER WHO NEEDS TO BE IN PRISON)…I hope

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Posted 21 February 2008 – 01:17 PM I whine about my meds and their effects (big fatty zyprexa) but I take them. And I’m still, according to everyone else in the world ‘delusional’. I’m not violent though but I did about 6 weeks ago have it in my head that because the nurses were reading my thoughts so much and poking fun at me and inserting their thoughts in my head, I was suddenly filled with murderous rage and the desire to go down to the psych ward and throw petrol bombs into the nurse’s station. I telepathically asked the nurses to acknowledge this thought and they sent my most hated and feared nurse down to the hospital shop to pretend to search for something to eat in the fridge whilst I was walking out of work.

I have told this all to my p-doc and I take 25mgs of Olanzapine. Therefore I am stepping up to the mark and doing what the doctors say and doing all I can to stop being ‘delusional’. Though the p-doc wants me on clozapine but I won’t go on it because you need to go in-patient and I’m too frightened of the nurses and what they’ll do to me. They’ll programme patients to kill me.

Even now they know every word I am writing. I’l be punished for slagging them off. Plus med changes really destabilise me.
50mg Risperdal Consta Injection x once per fortnight (equivalent to 6mg a day), 600mg Lithium, 60mgs Prozac, 5mgs Diazepam x 3 a day, 7.5mg Zopiclone

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Posted 29 January 2008 – 08:26 PM I have a question. Actually two questions. One- Sometimes I start speaking gibberish for no apparent reason. During this time no one understands what I am trying to say. When this happens I get extremely delusional. I sometimes think I am a bird and could fly. I have tried in this “mode” to fly off tall objects. Luckily, my annoying brother has saved me a few times from doing something dangerous or stupid.

My question is this- does this happen in schizophrenia or is it part of some other thing such as dissociation? I am aware when I do it but yet I can’t help it. It just happens a few times a day and up to a few hours.  I also sometimes get confused speech but not all the time, obviously. It is so severely disorganized that no one knows what the heck I am saying. An example of it would be, “The who want to what is now the cow in the sky computer stuff error in fire stuff.”

Just random stuff comes to my head.  My second question is this- For those of you who experience thought insertion, do you actually “hear” the thoughts or is it like thoughts that are not yours? In my case I don’t actually hear voices, I just get thoughts that an outside force such as the CIA putting thoughts into my head for no reason.

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Posted 25 January 2008 – 11:22 PM I’m not sure if this is … hallucinating, delusions or just anxiety, or jut being weird. It bothers me a lot, but i havent said anything about it because i feel that no one will take me seriously. I hear people calling my name all the time, but when i look for them, there is no one there, or no one is looking at me. I also feel often that people are following or tracking me – which sometimes follows after they call my name but look away. I smell things, and its so disgusting, and im sure its coming from me, but i cant figure out why i smell like that.  I fear that people are watching my house and will come in and attack me at night, or when my family has gone out, and i am home alone.

Then theres thinking that people are behind doors and under beds etc.  This used to be strange to me, but now its just all the time and it bothers me but im not sure whether im suddenly disturbed about normal things or whether its actually bad and maybe more worried is worse or maybe i am just more worried.  Thing is, i’m actually feeling quite good. I have BP, and for most of the last 12 months i’ve been pretty seriously depressed, apart from a few small times of hypomania, and a weird time after starting antidepressants. thats where the ‘schizo traits’ came into my dx.

So now, i’m feeling quite happy. mood-wise i feel ‘normal’. its such a relief. but all those things up there ^ they are the same if not worse. Maybe without feeling down i notice it more? its weird.

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Posted 26 January 2008 – 06:02 PM I am getting weird thoughts again. My thoughts change over time. My main problem has been thought insertion. Not voices because they are not audible. I am thankful for that. Just very powerful thoughts from an outside source.

This time it isn’t the aliens. They went away and I am happy for that. I started getting thought insertion over the last 2 days and it scares me. I think I am in a period of more stress because my mom and brother are going in for surgery on February 8th. It is the lap band surgery.

Because of that I think that something bad is going to happen to them, especially mom because during the last few surgeries, she almost died. My brother has never had a real surgery before other than taking his tonsils out. My thoughts are getting weird again but I still think I am normal, just a little stressed out. The thought insertion is telling me that I killed a lot of people across the country.

The family members of the apparent crime is threatening revenge. Also on top of that, the FBI and CIA is after me (but they are after everyone on the planet) for doing the imaginary crime. See, I don’t believe the thoughts of me killing people. How can I travel throughout the country anyways, I can’t drive or anything like that and have been around people the whole time.

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fm?: are any of your works copy-written?
s: no
fm?: why not
s: you calim to be honorable, so I wanted to see if you are, because if you are working wioth the [power of ghosts, you must be, you absolutely need to be
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m?: can I set you up? can I set you up? why would I set you up?
s: I don’t know
m?: I’ll tell youy why. Because I am a Freemason, and I set you up
s: you are irrational

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Just was ‘talking’ to someone purportedly, supposedly and allegedly from the FBI. I was being interrogated regarding my websites, in particular the manifesto of the HOST website, as it appears on my current other websites. After me being compliant and agreeable, when asked about drug use, i said “because you won’t stop talking to me all the time. BE QUIET!!!”
Then i said – “I’ve just got those two websites onto your server logs. And proably behind the DMZ.” 311219 1658 AEDT – https://www.google.com/search?q=location+of+fbi+hq&rlz=1C1CHBF_en-GBAU870AU870&oq=location+of+fbi+hq&aqs=chrome..69i57j0.4601j1j8&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8 Visiting FBI Headquarters/Tours. Our Headquarters is located between 9th and 10th Streets in northwest Washington, D.C – so 0100 (1:00 am Tuesday, 31 December 2019 (GMT-5)Time in Washington, DC, USA.

 

So I think they are accusing the wrong person. The government has been after me forever anyways and I am used to that. They tell me there are hidden cameras everywhere I go including the car, my house, and other places. They also have a tracking device inside of me and it gives my location and even my thoughts to the FBI and CIA. I

f I have an “evil” thought then they might think that is evidence against me. I didn’t do anything wrong. I never committed any crime. I don’t know what to do. What do I do about this? I take meds already. All they do is take away the hallucinations that I had a few years ago and they also help with my speech problems. Sometimes I get disorganized but I am not like that now, obviously.

The other thing the lovely pills have done is make me gain 80 pounds in the past year or so. I rather be severely psychotic than morbidly obese. If you had a choice of being crazy or being fat, which one would you choose? I am on a very low dose of Geodon (that is NOT the one that is putting on all the weight, it is the pills from the past. I have been on almost every psych pill on the planet!) so on Monday when I see my psychiatrist again I will ask him to raise it and explain about the anxiety.

So, is this just anxiety that is causing this? Or is it more serious like psychosis? I don’t think it is a delusion so I don’t think it is actual psychosis. Just remember I am sane. So, please help! I know you all are tired of my unusual thoughts. I am tired of them but they come to me for some odd reason. So, that is all I can think of at this moment.
Latuda 60mg Trileptal 1200mg Trazodone 200mg Hydroxyzine 50mg Gabapentin 600mg

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Posted 29 December 2007 – 11:57 AM Ive sat and pondered about this,my doctor asked me yesterday did I hear voices telling me things? I have a voice inside my head that goes on and on about just how crap and rubbish I am like all day!!! The best way I can describe it is, in the film lord of the rings gollum and smeagle have this conversation with each other,gollum saying bad stuff and poor smeagle sat with his hands on his ears saying “Im not listening!!”

Now theyre kinda the same person,I totally do that have like the evil me telling me really nasty stuff about myself,then theres ‘me’ TELLING IT TO SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! So my question is do I hear voices or do I hear myself? Did the doctor mean as in if he’d have spoken to me an external voice???? I dont actually look like gollum by the way all though personally I think hes rather cute!!!

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Posted 29 December 2007 – 07:14 PM Good question…since I hear both, I don’t have an answer for you….next time you go in, you may want to ask for clarification…is your little evil demon voice just one of self esteem or is it something else? Do you hear it as a “different” sounding voice than your own – for example – does it sound different than the voice that says, “oh yeah, I gotta remember to buy turnips”? You know – the turnip voice sounds like you do and the evil voice sounds like John Travolta from Saturday Night Fever??? I think that could be another way to look at it too, but I really don’t know.

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Posted 30 December 2007 – 08:34 AM as someone who hears voices inside my head (being multiple), and sometimes voices outside my head (psychosis or anxiety), i think i’ve spent quite a bit of time trying to figure this one out heh  i think what others have said about intrusive thoughts (really loud ones!) rings a bell.  when i’m really depressed, i can “hear” the depression talking to me, beating me down constantly… it kinda sounds like me, but i’m not really controlling it either (that’s what the meds are for!). when i’m actively anorexic, i can “hear” that, too.

it’s like some woman who constantly tells me how gross i am and why i can’t eat and yadda yadda. but i know that’s also intrusive thoughts, not really a full hallucination or a member of my multiple system. i hope you can straighten it out, because every kinda “voice” has a different “treatment” per se. it sounds like you’re on the right track exploring it here!

bupropion XL 300 mg, clonazepam 3 mg, zopiclone 7.5 mg, synthroid 0.15 mg (supplements: D3, B12, Omega 3)

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Posted 14 January 2008 – 11:31 AM
Sounds, voices, images while falling asleep are called Hypnogogic hallucinations, while awakening Hypnopompic. They are an artifact of the brain switching from sleep to wakefulness mode. Psychiatrists do not give them any weight in considering psychiatric diagnosis or condition. They are extremely common even among the normal population. Do not let them concern you. They are just a part of dreaming.

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Posted 14 January 2008 – 12:28 PM Voices from the outside- the walls are talking to me OR I hear in the distance my name being called OR there is a radio in the other room playing music, radio personality speaking to me with cryptic messages “you be the judge and the jury” Voices from inside the head – another person’s voice talking to me OR a voice inside saying you suck, get lost, or die which should not be an every day sort of thing and are not usual thoughts Internal thoughts – will somone notice that I did not wash my hair today, I wonder what home work I’ll half to do tonight, can person a meet me at…. Intrusive thoughts – did I…..check….what if…..so-in-so thinks….he/she thinks I… how do I….what if……ahhhhhhh

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Posted 26 January 2008 – 01:30 PM I pick up other people’s voices and thoughts and hear them internally in my mind. Also when people are talking and I can’t hear them properly, my mind interjects sinister meaning upon the words and I hear the voices as threats or insults or general commentary on my thoughts. I have a number of internal voices – commanding voices “You must do such and such a thing or else we will kill your dog”, voices that insult me and people I am with and try to leak from my brain into the other person’s mind. But then I am convinced I am a powerful telepath and psychic communicator.
50mg Risperdal Consta Injection x once per fortnight (equivalent to 6mg a day), 600mg Lithium, 60mgs Prozac, 5mgs Diazepam x 3 a day, 7.5mg Zopiclone

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Aetiology of Second Level Psychotic Phenomena

How does:

  1. Thought broadcasting
  2. Thought insertions
  3. Thought blocking

fit into the various perspectives of decision-based schizophrenia / psychosis? And contrasted with organic schizophrenia / psychosis?

For example, do these symptoms arise as a result of dopamine dysregulation? Are they the result of anomalies in top-down bottom-up processing, or errors in executive function? If they are, perhaps they should be given alternative names.


Here is an issue:

Who is JD going to hand the ‘Ghost’ over to when she dies (2 – 4 years abs max). What demographic do they have? What gets said to hand it over? When exactly will the hand over be? WHat if she dies suddenly?

Tell her to get her will out and show what plans she’s made for the hand-over.

Will it go passed on to some adopted child?, or does JD have any young siblings?

How long does the next ignoramus have to write a new set of rules, and will they have to be updated?

Exactly what did her pedophile culpable father say to her during the hand-over, so does this need to be exactly repeated, because this will determine the gender of the next (impostor)?

Does the next one maintain the pre-existing portfolio?

Does JD or anyone have to steal some more money, that is go on a cash grab pronto, before hand-over, because they will delay hand-over all together if in accord with their talent, this is the last gasp.


 

New Years 2020

I don’t usually make resolutions, but in the spirit of this blog, and today’s events, I shall. I swear I will try not to be so obsequious and comply with every little thing the voices demand of me, or insist on. I am going to put my fear to one side, and try to say, “No. I will not”.

 

11:53 16th May 2015
PB: chanting over and over again “You’re being set up to take the wrap for a crime done by me, Steven Oakley (unless Tristan acts on my behalf), PK, GK, PD, RT, GJ” (over and over….)

PB: Some of the guys from my motorcycle club (the Bandidos Hills chapter) are what you call Free Masons, which means we are secdretly augmented by ghosts or something which enables us to talk to each other and stuff, without actually being next to each other, you know what I mean? Any mate, we, that is your old friends and a couple of Guys from my motor cycle club, are making….
minutes later
… (girl) you will ask to be executed mate, you will ask to be executed mate..(over and over)
… Can we morph? Do you know what I mean by that? We are setting you up, involving our morphing….
(self) whjy would any person want to set me up for any matter whatsoever. I had better take time to consider this, after completing my TAFE assignment about Harrods department store.
? There are quite a few of us Scotty, and you do not know who we are or even if we are, but I gurantee this Scotty, we are doing such a good job of setting you up using technology that does not even thought to exist like ghosts, that you will never be free again once we are finished the editing and calling the police. And whats more, through our Freemasonry and our meetings that we have in the lodges, we even have the police and others on our side who are going to lie about the evidence because your claims will sound insane, and the cops are going to help us frame you good and proper mate. Don’t forget Scotty, that through our ghosts, we not only know all your passwords and usernames, but we know where you keep them, how to get money out of your westpac account, and where you hide your emergency keys to get into your Nomanhurst unit. So you are fucked mate. By the time me and Geoff in particular get through with framing you, you will be pleading for the death penalty.
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Are you thereby now suggesting, that in order to be heard properly and reliably, that I must committ another offence, simply to demonstrate that peoples actions are subject to whatever I am going through? I will consider what you are wanting, but I don’t think I will do it for you.

Julia: “I want you dead” repeated

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Now Geoff is claiming that they morph into different appearances, and are using this ability to set me up.

1517 ?: “ron has just ….

1741 ?: they got you, they got you

WAPC – Do They Have Ink?

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s when did u buy your plane tickets
wapc: last week
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s: conduct an experiment
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wapc: we’lll b there in a few minutes
judge judy:scott they’re here
s:so r u where i am?
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SO: scott you are going to cry
S why
so:they’re out the front
0917
j: they’re waiting out front
wapc:soon as u hav a shot we are coming iun, or 4 hours whichever is first

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summary:
they gave the Gypsy Jokers a copy of my transcripts because bikies are in charge of the new world order

(addendum 261219 1812: I’m fucking glad this group are included. They own me. And I maintain my undertaking to turn up and answer questions until they are satisfied. They are not my bitch cult. I have been trying to get out and show up locally, but I can’t be a person that stands at the gate waiting for opening hours. Probably best I can’t make the very necessary appearance. But the fact remains. Until I know more or better, offering my solemn restitution at the price I know is warranted, is the honorable thing I can do. I see their likeness outside Maccas on Pacific Hwy, and near Coles Burdett street. I cannot be at peace or (271219 1934)  sleep properly well until I have arrived, (either coast, paid by me on any day always), introduced myself, stood face to face, on my bit of ground, and explained myself, the case, my remedies thus far, and my steadfast accountability not avoided or mitigated. I would have them know if I could, that it is my need to stand and be held accountable, in person, eye to eye, that keeps me alive, stops me from the suicide that is demanded, and that is the goal behind my lower than dog mistreatment and torture. So I thank them (you) for being real, being yourselves, and for your patience.
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msg on wapc phone-hav u got him yet?
s:I can not finish masturbating because if i hav a shot they are coming in they tell me.
j:how long will u live
s:you said yesterday lessd than 5 years
Steve astill:2 days at most
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they made me masturbate from 10pm last night (10/8/17) until 5pm today (11/8/17). I believe all the abopve points are lies and deceipt. I don’t think WAPC were in Sydney today, they said these things in the hope that I would send it into my transcripts account that they are monitoring, and deflect the conclusions that a reasonable person would draw from the alibi’s, accusations and statements made in my other transcripts tyhat are held in that particular account.
I have been hearing for the last 15 minutes that at least 1 and possibly 2 of the WAPC investigating the alleged bin incident have Freemason tatoos.
10 minutes later…..
Apparently now onbe or both men are going to get them removed.

A Personal Account Of Value

If you think you can understand English grammar, then understand this….

I ate my potato, but you sat and watched me do it. And I spilled my pocket full of posies, but you stood and watched me do it.

Whatever I am, you are spectators, and I would not have the course of events be charted in other way.

For in your voyeuristic spectatorship, I stood for a set of principles and values that you still do not know. But I stood. And you watched me stand.

So watch me leave. And forget.

Not a shot was fired, not a weapon raised. (bty) “Atmos” was my idea.

Whatever – I stood. And you watched. And that’s how it was.


 

20190628_210111 suggestions from my wall

Something I put on my wall, to capture the essence of what I was hearing, written from a subjects point of view, advising my voices of better conduct.


Schizophrenia does NOT define me

I am a PERSON who happens to have schizophrenia. It does not define me. The hallucinations and delusions I have experienced do not define me. The heartbreak and pain I have experienced does not define me. Being rude in the past and losing friends does not define me. Being homeless and hopeless at one point does not define me. Believing the delusion no one ever loved me does not define me. My suicide attempt does not define me. Being brutally beat for being strange does not define me.


 

the whole capoodle undid

 


money owed to me
exclusion from access
hooking me up – heaps money
adjudication of potential criminal conduct of mine

start your own business
freenmasons
freemasters
civilisations other than ghosts

diplomats unknown others
death of unknown others caused by my behavior
conspiracies and visualisations
grandiose participation

death and annihalation leveraged against sex
death and torture of people supposed to be guarded by me
death and annihalation of good people because of drugs
hooking me up – heaps money
exclusion from access

Pedophile Freemasons steal $3-billion from Shriners Hospitals

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I can explain how these AVH vocal sounds came to be so unlike normal human voices. However, if you contact the producers, they will probably tell you that these vocals sounds are augmented and embellished for effect. None-the-less, I am a qualified audio engineer as well as an expert by experience, and I can provide a comprehensive explanation of how the normal voices of everyday (un)+Freemasons are altered to produce the desired effect.

 

Some More 1st Person Transcripts

18th January 2018  1256 hours

JD: “Michelle young is dead”

S: “how do you know, and what criteria did yuou use to establish her deceasement?”

JD: “I used a simple method of doing things”

S: “where are you located Julia, and where is ron? ”

JD: “I am in delaware and ron is in delaware too”

S: “why are you hurting people, if you think you are? ”

RT: “because…I am having anal sex with PK at the moment”

S: “is she enjoying it do you know? ”

RT: “I think she is loving it. ”

S: “May I politely ask where you are? ”

RT: “delaware”

S: “delaware where”

RT: “ delaware, in the usa”

S: “are you on drugs, and are you really JD? ”

RT: “I’m on drugs at the moment”


 

Hi I’ve had a similar experience (voices subject to one of them having a ‘volume control’). She stopped me talking to any of the good voices a long time ago, changed the volume, mimicked my voice to others, mimicked other voices to me now she she just repeats her name all the time or repeats my thoughts/what am reading/typing. She also trys to control me by saying “make her…..” and it usually happens which is frightening for the future of our planet I think. She also tells others what’s coming next, deadens voices saying “Block off….” (the includes famous people who have worked hard to get where they are and she seems determined ruining they’re lives too). She sometimes changes her voice tone but I still know when it’s her. She repeats internet passwords, phone numbers and I regularly hear her pretending to be me. She has ruined my life completely and I cant get away from her in reality as she’s a neighbour or in my head. She also has assualted me, cloned my phone, stolen items when I’ve been ill in hospital, tried to control my cat. She also uses magic which I have no knowledge of, uses portals, has messed up my music putting her name through it, makes herself invisible and comes into my house. She also deletes my memory and interferes with my dreams.


answers from the 5 Aug at 0326

when I had to sit with the door open because they said they were setting me up and also coming in to get me

5/08/2015

Who is tabatha?

U just said you were here

Well who r u then?

Why not?

Why not?

Obvious reasons

Why do u ask that when u are always here anyway?

Since what date?

I don’t feel like 1

Who are the people out the back?

Why are they going to kill me?

Why don’t you fuck off deadshit

Why not

I don’t know.

Them:

“were coming in. we want to murder you. Because you killed Geoff.”

S: I just asked about his well=being and I was assured that he is fine

0332: listening to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=syjEN3peCJw to try to  “strategies for dealing with voices”

“JC has just killed himself. Are you thankful?”

“no I don’t believe you”

Now I hear voices of some folk out the back of the unit also.

0337 now listening to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yL9UJVtgPZY

“you’ve got a good alibi but it wont work”

“why”
“we want you dead”

“were on our way in” 0338

(I have the voice recorder on my phone recording again. As I have done for the last few days).

“I take you seriously too scott”

“why – you don’t hear what I say”
“I do because, just because”

“scott this is the last time I will be talking to you. Because you know what scott. Unless you come outside and be shot, I am going to be torured too”

“your dad is dead scott”

“you said that about JC but now he is here with you”

“what does everybody want from you scott”
“I have no idea. I only know about your code words and that fact that what I hear is changed”

?“why are you doing that to PB …. because I am evil aren’t I”

SS“ ia have no idea if you are or not”

?”whats important to PB is that”

?what are youi doing scott

S”looking for the newspaper article”

?”there isn’t one”

0350  http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread918770/pg1

?”PB just shot himself” over and over

S:” why didn’t he shoot me?”

?”what for”….. ?”PB just shot himself” over and over”

?: ”shut up JD”  …. ”shut up JD”  ….”shut up JD”  ….

0355 http://themmaa.com.au/

S: I can hear crying. I still have my phoine recorder going, so it will b on that

?:”PB just shot himself

0359 https://au.linkedin.com/pub/peter-brasier/78/324/720    http://themmaa.com.au/members-only/central-coast-chapter/
http://www.phpro.org/examples/80000-Word-List.html

0405: can hear voices from front to bak. I believe it is the police. I assume it has something to do with the quotes I have heard as stated above.

0409: I still hear them talking out the back. The two voices that arrived from the front and walked down there are taking to the other voices I thought were there.

http://forum.davidicke.com/showthread.php?p=1062176582

sent emails to lospeelos, stef, and myself to cover what has recently been said 0415

http://forum.davidicke.com/showthread.php?t=142677&goto=nextnewest

http://wodindex.wikispaces.com/Complete+Index?responseToken=0c7a6eff3598e1b8f7a59a9b6aafb121b

still hear the two voices talking to the others that I believed were there  0425

0427 now I hear the crying sound that Im pretty sure is an hallucination

http://www.jacobsm.com/projfree/exposing_the_paediophiles.html

front fm “I cant get you know scott. You did it. When I say u did it, I mean I did it. And so on and so on….”

0433 now I hear the crying sound that Im pretty sure is an hallucination

?(fm) “your dad is dead scott”

? (fm) “he killed thirteen people scott stewart”  (crying sound again. That was my husband. PB. My husband did not take you seriously. When I told him you were evil. Just as evil as S”

0437

“?(FM) “PB was my husband.” Over and over repeatedly

“?(FM) this is what the police are saying scott” (no sound)

Sent email to adam lawdex to check on Geoff       0445

?(FM) what your doing scott is telling the truth and thesed people don’t. They are setting you up for murder by killing PB. What do you think of that?”

Went to do an online survey, and this https://www.zoho.com/survey/signin.html reackoned i have an account. Bullshit  0452

?:”sorry about that scott … blab la”

S:”no problemo, that why I use the same password everywhere”

Singed up to https://www.valuedopinions.com.au/join/?ref=Reef_Adwords_Text_Join_AU&utm_source=Reef%2520Digital%2520Agency%2520Pty%2520Ltd&utm_medium=Text%2520Links&utm_campaign=Reef%2520Adwords%25202015&utm_content=Join&utm_term=Text%2520link&url=http%253a%252f%252fvaluedopinions.com.au%252fjoin%252f&gclid=CjwKEAjwxYGuBRCtoqjkrIPDqDwSJAAnd-rCcJeEKHWOxu3lLYpBwoUAK2_nKfkcOs84v40MXocu1BoCgp3w_wcB

?(FM) why don’t you keep free from illicit drugs?

PB: “we are going to murder pam tomorrow scott”. ”Well what I say is, let that be a lesson to you”

S:?”when did Stefan team up with bikies?”

?:”bout 2010”

?:”scott, will this ever end?”

?(FM) “scott I think its about time that we told you something (me ; and  this is just to fuck up my knowledge of the code words and changing of whast I hear) that I am stefan (in a FM voice). Do you remember what I did to that guy?”

S:”how would I remember, I wasn’t there” (I wouldn’t necessarily believe whatever anyway. Its got nothing to do with me and no reason to tell me anything)

?(FM) “that what S is reaslsising scott. That if you don’t remember, then how can he?”

S:”should write things down. But no value in writing fiction.”

?:”how long does your phone record for?”

S:”hav u got one? (yes) whats you number and ill give you a call?” (IM NOT TELLING YU)

?:”why do you ask?”

S:”I though it might hasve been RT

http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread43492.html  “Dear Scottius:Thank-you for your post. I read somewhere, that when we hear voices, the part of the brain responsible for speech activates. It could be that for whatever reason, that part of the brain malfunctions in us. Perhaps there is a latent telepathic link, perhaps it is based on emotions? Thus maybe fear in people translates to cruel and evil words? Because at times the voices are good and kind. There are other reasons, why I suspect this could be the case.Benefit of the doubt shows not only patience, but respect and even courage.So lets give the benefit of the doubt and take that path.”

PB:”pams here scott. Do you believe that?”

S:”no”

PB:”well you should. You know why? Because she likes you. Do you believe that”

S:”obvious set up. Proving that Im a fuckin cunt again. IIf I say yes, then they are immediately going to leverage her. No, I don’t believe she’s here.”

PB:”are you going to mention the (gun) sights (that you are seeing)

S:”no it makes me appear as if Im insane or something”

the crying seems to have started again. I doesn’t sound at all reral to me. I suspect it’s the tape player again. Anyway I have mine going so I review it later. Execpt for the fact that Im going to be murdered right now as a matter of fact

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3712258/  0527 http://www.intervoiceonline.org/about-voices/essential-facts

?:”scott why are you dying?”

S:”dunno”

?:”can you see that?”

S:”no not really DO YOU WANT ME TO?”

?”scott pB is dead”

S:”again??”

?”you think you are invincible don’t u? (repeated)

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Bipolar-Disorder/what-do-you-say-to-the-voices-in-my-head-are-freaking-me-out/show/637197

?”why don’t we take it from there scotty?” (repeated)

http://freewebs.com/stefan661/  complete with sountrack

DHJ”  you about to die. Do you care?”

S:”yes”

http://www.voicecollective.co.uk/voices/voices_who.html about children that hear voices

?”Stefan shot himself” (someone else: good luck with your singing Stefan)

looking to try to find out how peter brasier and any connection to me

 

looking to try to find out how peter brasier is

The hunt For PB. At one stage, not so long ago, he was in possession of the 50 or so images of child exploitation (child pornography) that I accumulated over the 10 years from 1994 to 2004. I was forced to procure and wank over then (at the behest and demand of RT and JD – who turned out by inference to be JD-Snr. I reckon having to comply with such demands gave rise to my PTSD. But I haven’t necessarily finished. Because one of the reports I made was regarding links to similar material (and I am told led to 38 arrests), and another where I identified page links beyond number 40, I am told, resulted in the emancipation of more than 32 young S.E. Asian girls who had been ‘trafficked’ to locations around the upper north shore (Wahroonga) and set into service provision of the most unacceptable and despicable kind.

 


 

12 december 2014 1053
Julia davis born … i’m not saying anymore
S: this is because you allocated P as leader of the freemasons isn’t it
About Peta Williams?
J: did they kill her?
S: no becauase I still have her feelings going on?
J: who is P K scott?
S: you allocated her as leader a couple of days ago and she accepted by not sating anything.
R: how do you know that scott.
s: because you are my aliby?
RT: who did it scott?
S: adam secant
S: who came in and took the sample?
R: are you the leader of the freemasons now
S: yes.
R: do you care what happened to pK
s: who is that?
J: where have the ghosts gone
S: to get on i guess
BO: who stole the sample
S: PK
PB: how do you know that
s: she authorised it
MP: how do you kn ow that
S: she didn’t say anything to me
MP: is my mum a turtle
S: shes not a sexy as mine. Shes no fuckling porn star.
MP: who told you to get maggoted
S: Im not prepared to answer facetious questions
MP: are you proud of yourself
S: she did.
J: did everyong approve of that?
S: what
S: would you please tell me who took the sample?
S: cool cool

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Freemasons Again!

After the merciless torture of Last Saturday 14th December 2019, when they led me to catch the wrong train and I ended up in Epping, we all came to realise the most improbable, amazing, astounding, thing.

Since they refuse to remember or utilise what they achieved from their “free thinking”, I am forced to summarise it herein:

  • 9 – 64
  • Must always have a ‘running sheet’ (a daily plan), indicating start time, lunch time, end time, measurable milestones, and their ambition of decriminalizing pedophilia.

I got this in a response to one of my MHF posts:

“conversations” MHF – Q
Nov 27, 2019
My voices are the product of the Freemasons also. Mine haven’t told me their names though.

gypsy jokers

They claim that people such as these are the perpetrators! I don’t think so. But if I ever get the chance, I will tell these folk what they claim.


9th May 2015 at 1356
I keep getting asked the same question over and over again, and have just realised they are ‘keywords’ and Pam is hearing something different to what I respond with everytime I respond, so she thinks I am ‘dissing’ her all the time. Here are the codewords:

J: Why is it like this scott? 2, 3, 4
J: does Pam like you scott? 2 “how much?”
J: will she stop selling to you scott?
J: will klerry sell to you scott? (I have decided to stpop using)
J; will it make any difference to Pam scott? (I believe that she is having sex with Geoff, Pierre, Shayla, Glenn Jeffries etc at the moment, which is why there are non-stop questions, the same over and over again).
Now Pam is saying “do I care about you scott?” and I said “no”, and she said “no, I don’t do I – what do I care about?” and I said “is that you P{am?”, and she said “why do you ask?” and I said “because you said you have never had any psychosis” and I said “but you are as psychotic as me”
J: “why is it like this don’t you scott”
J: “you love Pam don’t you scott”
Pam “why don’t I play fair scott?” S: who said that? P: Pam richardson


Here is today’s achievement results of their facilitating “Free thinking”:

171219 2113 pornography claims again – incorrect again too

stay at home sluts

They claim the talent featured in this DVD are the people and locations identified in the accompanying PDF 171219

 


14th June 2019 2041
M?: what do you know about video forensics
s: quite a lot
?M: what do you know about IP addresses
s: virtually nill
?M: why do you ask ?
s: I think you will shortly realise that you asked, and I merely replied
M?: yes, why do I ask
s: I don’t enquire
M?: why do you think I ask
s: because, for you, eveything must be done right, proper, and by the book, so you are nequiring to ascertain my propernsity to foil your efforts
M?: what is your IP address
s: Im obviously hoping you know already
M?: why is that
s: so you can stitch me up, and so on…
M?: cause that implies..
s: (interrupting). Yes, it mandates that, sorry about interrupting
M?: what happens if I fail
s: you won’t
M?: what happens if you fail
s: all imprints of what has happened and what got achieved disappear…. by the way…I firmly believe all IP addresses will be valid and correct, and not changed or altered in any way
m?: WILL YOU KILL YOURSELF
S: yes, I absolutely will; but only if I can get proof you exist and are human, because I cannot throw away so much health care provision, by killing myself for an hallucination.
M?: hey S, what is your st george bank number?
s: you see right now, I’m logging in
M?: why don’t you just go in and buy that? (referring to what is on my computer screen)
s: i might. It depends what you say over the next few minutes
M?: is Michelle here
s: if she is, then she’s not dead
M?: how do I know Michelle
s: I don’t necessarily know which Michelle you are referring to
m?: how can I put this scott
s: any way you like. I’m not critical. By the way, have we met?
….
I just completed publishing “The Future – Corruption Of Freemasonry” 1337

 

Mr Peter Walker – Australian Army – Acknowledgement by Scott James Stewart

australian army

https://scottjamesstewart.yolasite.com/

https://archive.org/details/peterwalkerthankyouspeech/peter+walker+thankyou+speech+011219++2.mp3

https://prolong-the-quality-of-gaia-by-fighting-corruption.jimdosite.com/

9th May 2015 at 1356

I keep getting asked the same question over and over again, and have just realised they are ‘keywords’ and Pam is hearing something different to what I respond with everytime I respond, so she thinks I am ‘dissing’ her all the time. Here are the code words
J: Why is it like this scott? 2, 3, 4
J: does Pam like you scott? 2 “how much?”
J: will she stop selling to you scott?
J: will klerry sell to you scott? (I have decided to stpop using)
J; will it make any difference to Pam scott? (I believe that she is having sex with Geoff, Pierre, Shayla, Glenn Jeffries etc at the moment, which is why there are non-stop questions, the same over and over again).
Now Pam is saying “do I care about you scott?” and I said “no”, and she said “no, I don’t do I – what do I care about?” and I said “is that you P{am?”, and she said “why do you ask?” and I said “because you said you have never had any psychosis” and I said “but you are as psychotic as me”
J: “why is it like this don’t you scott”
J: “you love Pam don’t you scott”
Pam “why don’t I play fair scott?” S: who said that? P: Pam richardson


14th June 2019 2041
M?: what do you know about video forensics
s: quite a lot
?M: what do you know about IP addresses
s: virtually nill
?M: why do you ask ?
s: I think you will shortly realise that you asked, and I merely replied
M?: yes, why do I ask
s: I don’t enquire
M?: why do you think I ask
s: because, for you, eveything must be done right, proper, and by the book, so you are nequiring to ascertain my propernsity to foil your efforts
M?: what is your IP address
s: Im obviously hoping you know already
M?: why is that
s: so you can stitch me up, and so on…
M?: cause that implies..
s: (interrupting). Yes, it mandates that, sorry about interrupting
M?: what happens if I fail
s: you won’t
M?: what happens if you fail
s: all imprints of what has happened and what got achieved disappear…. by the way…I firmly believe all IP addresses will be valid and correct, and not changed or altered in any way
m?: WILL YOU KILL YOURSELF
S: yes, I absolutely will; but only if I can get proof you exist and are human, because I cannot throw away so much health care provision, by killing myself for an hallucination.
M?: hey S, what is your st george bank number?
s: you see right now, I’m logging in
M?: why don’t you just go in and buy that? (referring to what is on my computer screen)
s: i might. It depends what you say over the next few minutes
M?: is Michelle here
s: if she is, then she’s not dead
M?: how do I know Michelle
s: I don’t necessarily know which Michelle you are referring to
m?: how can I put this scott
s: any way you like. I’m not critical. By the way, have we met?
….
I just completed publishing “The Future – Corruption Of Freemasonry” 1337

 

They(?) are blaming their behaviour on my illegal narcotics?!~

291119 1710

AA: why don’t you take some notes?
s: WHERE TO, PLEASE?
AA: I don’t know
s: well who are you amyway?
aa: I’m AA
S: I’m N.A.
AA: Ha ha ha
s: Yeh, happy vacuume…….This ‘ghost’ of your is not well. Why has it not got any milestones or optimism?
aa:…..don’t know
S: well, where di you find it?
AA: ….huh?
s: has it got some learning impediments?
aa: not sure
s: righty right then droog.

About AVH (voices) – Medical Hypotheses – aetiology of AVH

non pathological voices

http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/the-enemy-within-people-who-hear-voices-in-their-heads-are-being-encouraged-to-talk-back-10001499.html

Rachel Waddingham struggled to fall asleep. She could hear three middle-aged men she didn’t know talking about her downstairs. “They were saying, ‘She’s stupid, she’s ugly, I wish she would kill herself’,” she remembers. “I was angry and went down to challenge them, but no one was there. They kept laughing and saying, ‘She’ll never find us.’”

Research suggests that up to one in 25 people hears voices regularly and that up to 40 per cent of the population will hear voices at some point in their lives. But many live healthy and fulfilling lives despite those aural spectres.

http://health.usnews.com/health-news/health-wellness/articles/2015/07/02/hearing-voices-not-always-a-sign-of-mental-illness

Researchers have found that psychotic experiences like hearing voices are relatively common – and not always a sign of mental illness. In a study published in May, he and a team of researchers analyzed data from more than 31,000 people in 18 countries and found that 2.5 percent of the population has heard something and 3.8 percent has seen something that others didn’t at some point in their lives. Another study published in the Scandinavian Journal of Psychology last month found that more than 7 percent of the 2,533 people surveyed reported auditory hallucinations in their lives.​​ By comparison, the percentage of people who have schizophrenia is close to 1 percent.

Forestell’s voices, for one, don’t keep her from living a happy, productive life. She has a full-time job, four kids and is engaged to be married. She enjoys hiking, skiing and live music​.​ “I have all of these other things to show that I’m a whole person and not just a voice hearer,” she says. In a 2010 study, auditory hallucinations might be best thought of like coughs – “common experiences that are often, but not always, symptoms of pathology associated with a larger illness.” ​

https://www.hearing-voices.org/voices-visions/

Statistics vary, but it’s generally accepted that between 3 and 10% of the population hear voices that other people don’t.  Some voices can be positive – providing the support and encouragement someone needs to get through the day. Other voices can be confusing, perhaps echoing thoughts or repeating strange phrases. Some voices can be very frightening, saying things that are critical, threatening or commanding. Voices can claim to have great power and knowledge, which can sometimes leave the voice-hearer feeling scared and powerless.

Some voices can leave a person feeling very vulnerable and exposed (e.g. hearing a cr Just under half of the participants in our study said that the voices they heard were indistinguishable from hearing somebody in the room, but a similar number reported thought-like voices or a mixture of the two.owd of people jeering at you, or discussing intimate details of your life).


The well-validated Hare Psychopathy Checklist-Revised is the best known tool psychologists use for measuring psychopathy.

statutory declaration naming AVH's

This is how I prove that the voices are not misattribution, or sub-vocalization. That only leaves executive function irregularities, dopamine disregulation, and vacuoles in the pre-frontal temporal cortex – each of which I can argue are supposition, and do not match the data. Here’s the GOTCHA. I AM THE ONLY PERSON THAT REALLY HAS MATERIAL DATA. It can only come from transcripts. See – https://scottjamesstewart.blogspot.com/2019/09/


 

https://www.irishtimes.com/culture/books/when-the-past-is-present-the-multiple-meanings-of-hearing-voices-1.3060941

Given that traumatic life-events cause brain changes, one could suggest voice-hearing is a sign of a brain disease caused by trauma, and promptly return to biomedical remedies. Instead, the HVM has suggested that voices may profitably be listened to and decoded, rather than just suppressed. To do this it has developed tools such as the Maastricht Interview. Through this, voices can come to be recognised as misunderstood messengers. A voice telling the hearer to kill themselves could be understood as a very badly communicated suggestion that one needs to make significant changes in one’s life, or as a call for acknowledgement of pain.

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2017/06/psychics-hearing-voices/531582/

“A lot of the time, if someone says they hear voices, you immediately jump to psychotic illness, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia,” Corlett said. But research suggests hearing voices is not all that uncommon. A survey from 1991—the largest of its kind since—found that 10 to 15 percent of people in the U.S. experienced sensory hallucinations of some sort within their lifetime. And other research, as well as growing advocacy movements, suggest hearing voices isn’t always a sign of psychological distress.

Noting that there is no question psychiatric distress and schizophrenia are “real” phenomena that call for treatment, Luhrmann adds that “the way a culture interprets symptoms may affect an ill person’s prognosis.” Every psychiatrist I spoke to shared the belief that unusual behavior should only enter into the realm of diagnosis when it causes suffering.

Longden, the Hearing Voices Network advocate, describes how she later learned to extract metaphorical meaning from the sometimes disturbing messages the voices had for her.

http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/simon-mccarthyjones/a-contested-experience-th_b_16130450.html

Just knowing whether someone hears nasty voices allows us to predict with an 88% probability whether they are a patient or non-patient. So why are voices nasty? For other people, a brain disease model may be the most appropriate level of understanding and assistance. For yet others, voices may be spiritual experiences, or just a benign quirk. Voices can be many things. People need information and the freedom to explore what their voices mean, in a supportive environment. In order to do this, neither the demonization of psychiatry nor the dismissal of voice-hearers’ insights is helpful.

Explanation of telepathy infographics:
http://artificialtelepathy.blogspot.com.au/2006/06/hearing-voices.html

 

 

http://www.beyond-hearing-voices.com/hearing-voices-from-conversations-of-people-who-are-alive.html

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http://www.dirkcorstens.com/hearing-voices-and-dissociation/

Voices heard by persons diagnosed schizophrenic appear to be indistinguishable, on the basis of their experienced characteristics, from voices heard by persons with dissociative disorders or with no mental disorder at all.  On this and other bases outlined below, we argue that hearing voices should be considered a dissociative experience, which under some conditions may have pathological consequences.  In other words, we believe that, while voices may occur in the context of a psychotic disorder, they should not be considered a psychotic symptom.

 

http://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/hearing-voices-which-claim-to-be-psychics/44128

I have been hearing voices of increasing intensity for the past several months, and I have only recently been able to question their basis in reality. A year ago they were few and far between, but not occupy most of my time. They started as police officers, and then became a number of other individuals before manifesting in their current, persistent form.

They claim to be two psychics, who are friends with someone I wronged in the past. They claim to be able to see what I see, hear what I think, and able to access many of my memories. They also mention they can see into my subconscious. They ask one favor of me, which I have time and time again refused to complete. When I agree to their terms, they grow in intensity. They voice every one of my deepest anxieties, and claim to have an entire group of friends that watches as they play my mind in the most uncomfortable way. We are constantly conversing in my head, nearly every waking moment. They are even there when I wake up at odd hours of the night.

Seeing a post on this forum, I was struck by its similarity to my own. The voices always deny that I am schizophrenic, and say talking to my psychiatrist about what has been happening will ruin my life. I am afraid they will convince me they are real before my next appointment, but I’m trying my best to ignore them.

http://www.nytimes.com/2007/03/25/magazine/25voices.t.html

Stewart in particular was visibly agitated. His hallucinatory life, as he described it, was chaotic and irrepressible. He heard voices pleading to him for help; he heard the voices of strangers; he heard the voice of his father. Sometimes he heard the voices of military commandos, who offered to defend him against this confusion. “I haven’t been well for a long time,” he said glumly. Yet most of the members spoke of their voices in the way that comedians speak of mothers-in-law: burdensome and irritating, but an inescapable part of life that you might as well learn to deal with. When David’s name was called, he lifted his head and discussed his struggle to accept his voices as part of his consciousness. “I’ve learned over time that my voices can’t be rejected,” he said. “No matter what I do, they won’t go away. I have to find a way to live with them.” Jenny discussed how keeping busy quieted her voices; she seemed to have taken a remarkable number of adult-education courses. Michelle expressed her belief that her voices were nothing more exotic than powerfully negative thoughts. “Negative thoughts are universal,” she said. “Everyone has them. Everyone. What matters is how you cope with them: that’s what counts.”

All about the police in schizophrenia….

https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/tags/police.html

i didnt think the police could show people statements and name names not until it came to court anyway. they sound like trouble and i wouldnt be getting into any conversations with them apart from nodding my head saying, “hello,” and keeping on walking which is what i had to do to a neighbour who was a serious problem a number of years ago.

i only talked to peeps that needed to know, the housing officer at the time and the upstairs neighbours who i asked if it came to court would they come also. and even then i kept that to a minimum.

i refused to get into a conversation with the other neighbours who just wanted to gossip but actually not do anything about the situation, and also they had the potential to escalate the situation. when things get really tough it pays to keep your own counsel and just deal with the people who need to know is what i have found.

there was one occasion when this neighbour guessed that i was a complainant but i didnt not confirm or deny her suspicions. which put her on a uncertain footing with me and for me that was a good result in as much as that went. made me feel uneasy but i decided no information will make her question her own conclusion and sure enough!

The voices i hear are police reading my thoughts

I have been hearing the voices of police officers reading my thoughts off a screen for the past 2 years now. My thoughts are being projected somehow and they take it in shifts to constantly moniter me. They are always in a team of 3 or 4 usually 2 men, one younger and one older and one or two females. You see i used ice for 6 months 2 years ago and i begun hearing them a few days before i quit. So now they watch me to make sure i dont use again and will surley arrest me if i do (i have no intention of ever using again). They are constantly commenting on my thoughts,

Tristan Next Door

See Index for abbreviations and conventions

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so far… going along according to the plan I wrote that resides in my D&A folder. i WAS ASKED THE DATE WHEN i FINISH, AND i ANSWERED. I asked Ryan to organise something, because of the DI i was being subjected to, and he did. I illegally drove my car to his pick up point, and home.

While I was pleasuring myself, many questions were asked. I had called TW earlier but he didn;t return my call until I was self-gratifying, so I couldn’t answer the phone. In the meantime, TC has joined Ryan next door, and immediately I was told that, I asked “Whose operator did you use?” and the reply was “our own”; towit I said, “Excellent, that is another A$1m you owe me”. I now have G$94m in ‘the bank’ (the same one mentioned in the first 20 chapters of my book.

mental health forum hearing voices forum activity 241118

This is inferential statistical measurements of ‘Freemason ‘ activity, derived from measurement of my impact evident in the size of reliable repositories, of schizophrenia or hearing voices. See https://freemason-absolute-leader-declared.webnode.com/the-future-otherwise/

WRT TC, I said in response to a question “i WAS TOLD THAT i WOULD MEET HER IN AN ART GALLERY”, and the reply was “you still might” to my reply “no I won’t. I never go to them”. I was just told to mention TH and MH, my new friends from church. I told TH that I “need a friend” and that I would be calling him to ask to visit sometime after this coming week.


https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/threads/i-think-i-have-a-new-way-to-deal-with-the-voices.230359/#post-1882920

 

I’m so happy that you’ve found a way to make the voices have less control over you! Thats awesome 😁 I hear voices. 4 diffrent ones. 3 of which are distracting and frusterating, but also comforting. They’ve been with me forever. These 3 help me thru my day and offer support and help stand up to the 4th voice which is not nice! I often find myself telling him No or to shut up. Telling him whatever hes making me see or feel isnt real. I have to say tho the meaner and more adamant I get that he’s not real, he gets mad and threatens things. Which then scares me off. I have yet to find meds that actually help with the schizo symptoms and mood symptoms. The meds either made me a walking zombie or sucked every breathe of happiness from my body. I devolped the lovely twitch from them. I feel that everyone is driving their train in the best way possible and its refreshing to hear that someone has grabbed ahold of their stering wheel and takin back control. Thanks for sharing your techniques 😉 Hope your smilin

The cops have evidence that I drove tonight. I am looking forward to being charged, as per my previous ASV Blog entry. I am also informed that I am on Oz TV, being wanted by WAPC for the Claremont serial murders.

fm?: who is that next door?
s: TC
(this dialogue is contrived. Soon as I wrote FM?:, I heard a ‘click’ indicating that their scripts have come out (into play)
FM?: why is she there?
s: to get with Ryan
FM?: why do you think that
s: because no one is sufficiently insane that they would matter transfer across the continent to sit with someone they don’t know, and engage in dialogue with said unkown personage.
FM?: why am I crying
s: I don’t expect you are
FM?: I am
….
s: since you offer no explanation, may I suggest it is because life is so unfair?

…..2343

2358
There was also some discussion of the new disease that Freemasons are (allegedly) exposed to. I termed it AIAV – Autoimmune Immunodeficiency Alpacca Virus.

There are a couple of additional very important things I have not qualified but I must postpone publishing them, as per ASV August 26 2019.


And for some really bizarre and detailed  context … strange reading… try these…

https://freemason-absolute-leader-declared.webnode.com/

scottjamesstewart.yolasite.com

https://scottjamesstewart.blogspot.com/

http://improved-science-conceptuals.mozello.com/home/

Hard Won Grounding


16th November 2019 at 2139 hours

On 4th November was offered some intelligently presented advice from one of my ‘voices’. This is the first time in many years that a voice sounded sincere, so I took time to pay attention to what was being ‘said’. In summary, he stated that there are absolutely no humans involved in my AVH, and the possibility of helping anyone is nearing zero.

‘He’ stated that I was being perpetually fooled and tricked by a ‘Ghost’, and it would be impossible for me to achieve any truthful statements, and be able to detect the deceit that is constant. Finally he advised me to avoid substances because ‘the Ghost’ was exploiting them to violate me, and there exists no possibility of me attaining any sensible or useful results.

So, three days ago, I decided to check if what I was told was reliable, and exposed myself to exactly the wrong risk that I was advised to avoid. The outcomes were twofold. First, it is guaranteed certain that on at least five occasions, my AVH asked the equivalent of “why won’t we let you masturbate, Scott?” (see C:\DataLaptop\Data\temp\Drug Trial –  Goodwill Test 161119.docx).

The second and most critical result was that I should not worry at all about the essays I wrote, because there was only 1 useful available criteria returned after extensive experimentation, at great cost to me. And that was, the only truly reliable construct that could be applied to my AVH, was that everything was deceit, until reaching a particular point where the AVH would become irrational, rather than ordinarily understandable. This discernible point indicated that the AVH could no longer stay defensible against the progress of the dialogue, so it’s only available option was to become unintelligible.


“..the connection between philosophy and science is mutual and characterised by their ever deepening interaction..” (Spirkin 1983)

How can we help schizophrenics avoid 20 year co-morbidity life-span shortfalls, in addition to life destroying obesity and extrapyramidal symptoms, greatly increased cigarette smoking rates, the need for further agents to counter side effects, all resulting from the Antipsychotic medications used to treat hallucinations?

A SCIENCE PROBLEM – What should be done if evidence emerged indicating a weakness, or a flaw, in the framework used to understand and treat psychoses and hallucinations. If the rigour of the scientific method is dogmatically applied to hallucinations, there are a couple of anomalies in the conceptual framework used to derive knowledge from research data.  But what if these kinks resulted in sub-optimal treatment outcomes, such as mortality and comorbidity?

THE PROBLEM RE-STATED What if there was conceptual and deductive proof that demonstrated that there are two potential weak points in the knowledge model of hallucinations, and these kinks reduced the robustness of the science behind the psychiatry of hallucinations? How should the prevailing scientific framework be questioned, and is it possible to suggest an alternative framework that provides a different and imperfect way of thinking?

conceptual models for Hallucinations

There are two ‘kinks’ that exist in the current approach used to explain, understand and treat psychoses and schizophrenia hallucinations. There is a lot of evidence in the WWW mental health forums (eg: https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/  or https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/forums/hearing-voices-forum.36/ ) that the veracity of explanations dispensed by psychiatrists based on conventional scientific models is inadequate, particularly in its failure to provide effective coping strategies for the voices.

The first problem is that (strictly speaking) there can never be proper development of legitimate hypotheses that would normally be tested by experimentation and prediction, because the phenomena (the voices, the auditory verbal hallucinations) do not actually exist.

 

Experiment 32. Last? The Hornsby Court Case.

14th November 2019, between 0330 and1840 hours.

Jerry I think gave me $100 too much, though I can prove to her (via his security apparatus), that I clearly and unambiguously asked for the amount commensurate with the readies I gave him. If only I could convey the 7 hours of vexatious and antagonistically spiteful comments and questions designed to injure me, that I endured between 0330 and 1600 hours. Talk about petty childish imps.

ANyhow, the important facts to be conveyed as a narrative are:

1) as predicted and published (copy-written), Dori and an additional (as yet) un-named other female person were talent down the rear of the unit, being the talent in yet an another alleged production of promiscuous, but no where near as slutty as me, porn movie making

2) Ryan next door received the forecast number of visitors throughout the day, as per my previous recitation of facts, data, and hypotheses. As usual, these visitors were dispersed time interval wise, according to the assertions I made in a previous allegation ridden 1st person transcript.
3)   I cannot recall explicitly committing to text, my other forecast that the young girls from Northern Life would be prominent in the activities that are commentated to me, by non-existent hallucinations
4)   I discovered and verified a few times that my fate has already been determined, with regards to my Hornsby court appearance on the 21st. I will be receiving both a 6 month suspension of my driving privileges in NSW (loss of licence, obviously), and I am repeatedly assured I will also (concurrently mind you) be receiving either the maximum penalty available for the possession charge I face, or a 6 month sentence of incarceration, in lieu thereof. I do wonder (but not expectantly or ‘out loud’), whether this sentence of incarceration will result in a temporary suspension of the 15 year sentence I received from the Bandidos (1% MC), such that any time I spend at the bay, will be added to the 15 year sentence they preside over and as yet not failed to enforce, so that there is no discount of time WRT their penalty.

After repeated pugnacious interruptions reminding me of my imminent high range sentence for my recent criminal offences, it turns out that I am going to pursue a rather interesting tactic. I am going to feign or get a medical certificate for laryngitis, and decline due to inability, to be able to represent myself in any method other than utilising a notepad.

The intention is to have a judgement brought down, along with the pursuant preceded sentence, in the absence of me being able to undertake any sensible defence of myself. The primary objective of the Prophet of the Strategy Religion, is to either:

a) be able to access an appeal, on the grounds of error of law, notwithstanding my null capacity in both financial or representational (antecedent requisite knowledge) resources, normally mandatory to mount an appeal. If this subsequently fails to have the previous judge ‘struck off” for (I am ineloquent) reasons, then it will fortuitously set the most abundant and yielding precedent, for the charges that will, me willing, inevitably ensue sometime in the next 4-5 years. When sociopathically disabled, severely ill characters who feature in my transcripts, are compelled to provide evidence (on the public record in a Magistrates Court

b), as per my published strategy and confessions, they will have nowhere to hide from the most spuriously unsupportable, self-inflicted, draconian, punitive sentence that ipso facto must necessarily flow from the precedent that will be set if their claims of the outcomes of my own trial bear any merit or credibility.

5) I hear wind of two allies. No there’s a near first. They are – The Hells Angels 1% MC OMC (not sure if Oz or USA or both), and some at Shine Lawyers. I would like to express my succinct and heart and soul gratitude to these two entities that are run by humans, for the courage, intrepidness, and resolve to support a (the only current) living GOD at work on the terra forma of what I (really) suspect is not actually Planet Earth (any more). I call that original home of many Gaia. But, and I know this is preposterous unbelievable, I would expect that we (less than 2Bn) have been temporarily relocated onto and “development” planet ‘Earth’. Anyway, I have stated the truth, despite the cost, to the public.

Sorry about the narrative. Apologies for not referencing my previous publications correctly (at all). No apologies, just inevitable extensive damage, for having an obligation to the truth that is manifestly actionable and uncompromisable , to wit, we that remain subsequent to the evacuation, have been temporarily re-located. (Unfortunately, the truth precipitated by the facts, is that such is the scope and jurisdiction bounding the domain in which Gods have to work).

ScottGod.

I am Love, but in the Strategy Religion, we kill; also.

A Summary Of Similarities With Other People’s – AVH – Schizophrenia Voices

How would you deal with this?
Should I talk back to the voices?
Am I horrible for my thoughts?
What am I hearing if it’s not REAL people? WHO?

7th June 2019 2214 – By Someone Else

 

I thought they were trying to kill me..I was kind of Freaking out about it. The only suggestion was to stay sober or go to the mental hospital. Which I tried both, but it didn’t a damn thing. I started thinking, who would really go through all this trouble to follow me everywhere I go and waste their time going up & hiding out in the attics of buildings where I went & I couldn’t imagine anyone would actually do all this to me,I’m not rich, nobody with power of any sort. But I still couldn’t understand the voices & yet they continued every day to torment me.

Then I noticed, I’m hearing these voices & I’m not even in a building, so where are these people in the Attic trying to kill me..

 

In fact,nobody would be around & I’m outside (no rooftops) and I’m still hearing these annoying voices. One of the voices, said they were dead people and another said they were DEVIL WORSHIPPERS. These voices were so annoying to me,that I would actually tell them SHUT THE F*** UP!! I argued with these voices and sometimes they would respond back. I finally came to the conclusion that these voices are not real human beings,but probably evil spirits/demons. And figuring that out,they didn’t get to me as much,because these voices scared me so much,I thought someone was trying to murder me.

 

I am currently still hearing these voices,I learned to deal with them to an extent so I can compose myself as a “normal” person. But I really don’t want to have to hear these annoying voices constantly putting me down & trying to scare me. I just don’t know how to put an end to these voices. They do watch every thing I do,because I heard them say,”they don’t know we are watching them”. I just heard one voice now,in shock because I’m writing this story now. It’s so weird and unbelievable. They can see what I do and they constantly watch EVERYTHING I do. I hate that feeling of being watched & that feeling has been permanent ever since these voices came apart of my life,

I argued with the voices at times & I told them they caused a lot of trouble & that they aren’t real,just retarded demons and a voice said”we’re real & we’re devil worshippers.” Another voice said they were in California & that they were looking for me..

They were in the background doing the most horrible things to me. I kept running around saying “I watch myself do these strange things…like go downstairs and pork out on all kinds of fatting foods and was unable to control my impulse”…later I found out it was the voices working in the background controlling my body and my appetite and even my cravings for different foods at different times.

 

23rd July 2017 1028 – By Someone Else
I realized that they were evil male spirits having fun hating at me in the most vile and petty ways…doing the most revolting things to ensure that I could not live anywhere near a normal life.
Things were happening to me …my size kept changing…I cannot even both to give you the details but in my case it was the voices. The spirits would do the most unspeakable things to my body to ruin it. I would wear a beautiful outfit and it would be complimented…within a few hours my body would change completely and I would wonder why the hell? I was infuriated later in life when I realized it was the voices doing that.
I realized that even things like suffocating me. My breathing changed, my voice changed.
I remember people telling me that my voice kept changing. I was a female and kept sounding like a male. All my voices were male and all they were doing was taking turns being able to communicate rubbish and hostility at the outside world because they are outcasts…left out for things that they are personally guilty of. I got really angry because not only were they guilty…they were guilty of the things they were doing to me…essentially ruining my life.
I remember being unable to attend college. The voices not only ruin concentration through talking to you non stop about nothing at all…but they affect your energy level….they make things hurt in your body, they can give you a supposed headache, toothache…anything because in my case they were housed in my body. A huge number of male spirits were my voices and I give them no credit…all they did was hate and hurt.
A social worker told me that voices are usually men hating at women… but now I believe that because it has been happening for long enough for me to confirm that for me personally.
At 48 I decided that I could not have a life unless I faced off with them. I refused to do anything and in reality could not anymore because it is not much of a life living like that.
I stood my ground and listened and studied them and found out who they were at the beginning of the process.
I have been yelling at them through just fighting back in my head, refusing to accept their accusations an degradation but really it is tiring and they know it. Also they are so many they take turns…so it is only your one brain against many which is 50 in my case. I realized that the voices are spirits and I have a body and they decided to try to commit homicide by giving me a horrible case of insomnia plus a vicious tirade or assaults all day every day…we are at a face off because it is a question of who collapses first….my body or the voices.

Trouble is they wanted me to think that they were all powerful. They wanted me to believe that they have all the cards. Trouble is they are human in some way. The voices have little feelings that can be very hurt. If you study your voices by writing journal you can get to know who they are. Sometimes they send pictures but depending on who you are you can also picture who is speaking to you and what they look like.

 

15th May 2017 1231 – By Someone Else
I picked up that the voices were many things but they were mostly older men…they were able to make up different voices…they were able to make the voices sound young, attractive, compelling all kinds of things…basically they make sounds. They played music a lot. I remember them leading me around like a crazy lady all alone in my apartment ordering me to do this and this and this by playing parts of songs…me thinking that they wanted to give me a message or some kind of help…but just for a minute.

The voices also have a battery life. If they are housed inside your body they run out of power and are affected by all that they say and do to you also. They also have different personalities…I laughed at them when they tried to make me believe that I had hurt their little feelings and that they wanted to be my friend. In my case…my voices are not friends. I see them as homicidal maniacs who would prefer to watch you kill yourself but work at both in every way simultaneous.

I got so angry that I decided to attack the voices back. I refuse to go down without a fight.
49 years of acting strangely. Everybody wondering what is wrong with me. People being hurt because I would go in somewhat fighting and the voices would do everything to cause me to lose concentration, focus and ability and make me fatigued or just unable to function…making me look like the failure I am not.
If someone is deliberately causing it especially insidiously you are not a failure…you are under assault and I told them they are cowards. I decided that I would hit and hate at them in every way in return and that is what I have been doing. Since they do not care what I think or feel when they do what they do to me. I decided that I had to not care how they felt or thought when I hit back at them.
Voices can pretend that you have no effect on them and that is mainly because if they are spirits like in my case they have the invisibility factor. Fact is human is human. They have feelings to hit them…hate them..shred them to bits which is what I have been doing.
You cannot always see the outcome but they get to lose many things too and I would not be angry if they lose their life source because that is what voices are to me…male spirits hell bent on you not having a life and ultimately losing yours without being punished by the law in the physical.
The voices also made the mistake of telling me that they can act without consequences since they are auditory. I don’t agree. I hit and hit and hit. I have many so many will hurt and hurt and hurt like hell.
If any die I will be glad because even as an infant I was under assault by voices.
I hate their guts and will not commit suicide and will not easily let them commit homicide either.
They threatened suffocation but I don’t care. Nobody ever goes unpunished…nobody…you are punished in many ways..seen and unseen.

They voices in my case may escape punishment in the physical but I will avenge myself and be avenged in every way and have been anyway.When the voices hurt you ultimately they lose something too. It takes energy to hate at you. Things do not always work out. Also, being housed in your body is not exactly the Hilton Hotel. It is horrible disgusting and terrible. I would not get inside anybody’s body if you paid me. I think it is stupid and sub human…in the physical or the other side.
Nature also has ways of punishing the guilty. The voices caused me to get on the pills. Unfortunately for the genius’s if I take the pills and they are poisonous then the genius’ will also be affected. They cannot protect themselves at all.

When I think of the voices I am filled with hatred. All I will say is that anybody who has the misfortune of hearing voices…hit back. Do not accept blame for anything that they ever say. Call them liars….tell them that they were present and affecting you so how do you know that they did not set it up in which case it is their fault

 

15th August 2018 1829 hours 

FM?: “If you masturbate scott stewart, I will personally set you up as a pedophile”
s: why?
FM?:don’t ask me questions. YOu know what SS, I am going to set you up full stop
M? have a wank
FM?: don’t you dare have a wank
M? you may as well….they can’t lose
fm? why am I doing this to you?
fm2? don’t worry about it SS. ill take care of you
s: I am going to disobey you and disregard your threats for the sake of all young people of the future who would otherwise catch schizophrenia

 

By Someone Else

At that point, my life changed completely. Again, there was a chase through and an opening of my thoughts. And again, the voices have been harassing me, keeping me awake at night, trying to get me to do things I don’t want to do, and generally causing chaos in my life.

My story is very long and very involved. To me, the most important part of the story is the list of effects that the group of voices in my head manifest. They manifested them through a machine called the “messing” machine and the game was called the “messing” game, where “messing” needs to be replaced with a word that you can guess but that can’t go in these posts. All of these effects are graduated, and can manifest at both low and high levels.

List of effects:
“Messing” with voices
– swapping around voices
– Voice matching with another person
– Voice capturing, which is taking on the voice of the person that the speaker is speaking with
– audio effects of all kinds
Synchronicity
– hearing meaning in ambient voices and noise, a.k.a. paranoia at high levels
Memory blockage
Losing things/confusion
Stomach rumbling
Itches and scratches
– When done in the throat, this becomes coughing
Electric shocks
Insects/bugs on skin
Odors/smells
Ear ringing
Volume down of voices
Tiredness/sleep
Preventing sleep
Crying blocking
Speed (of thoughts)
Ticking clocks and other machinery made loud
Thumping
“Amping up”
– ringing in ears, tension in muscles, nausea at high levels
Insanity
– hearing voices in walls

My meds have stopped working. “Messing” with people is first and foremost a process of digging into the mind of a person on the receiving end and then a process of harassing and torturing them with a multitude of effects. These processes are fun to the voices. I hope that my experiences can help somebody out there and help me to connect with people that have had experiences similar to mine. Hopefully somebody can offer some solutions that I haven’t tried.

 

20th June 2018 1522
(see also a word doc with color coded tests and outcomes)

After some further secondary research and notes to talk to Dr Bennet about, I have tried to put together some testable hypotheses. Also to test latest hypothesis published online. Following are some that occurred naturally throughout the day.

20th June 2018 1544
G:I’ll bet you $5000 that they do (referring to ##### cancelling my #######
s:I’ll agree to that bet. I will pay you $5000 if they cancel my licence

Unfortunately forgot to write down a date to qualify this bet on, so it can’t be adjudicated

By Someone Else

Since their reintroduction in September, at first there were 7 or 8 voices communicating with me and later the number was reduced to four. One is the leader and has the worst intentions toward me. My voices are all lucid enough that they all seem like real people with individual personalities. It’s pure speculation on my part, but I guess that there must be some kind of mathematics and technology underpinning what is going on. But again, I have nothing to base this on.

Some of them were my advocates and some were my enemies and they frequently disagreed, or at least appeared to disagree, on how to treat me. They would participate in what were called “stories” a.k.a. games or plays in which each would take on a role. The stories had a purpose and may or may not have had a set conclusion. Again, these stories were fun to the voices. Over time, as I refused to be controlled, the stories became more and more like reality until there was no difference. At some point, I could detect them as soon as they began and they broke down completely.

Since some of the effects that I listed are familiar to you, I would be curious to know if you or anybody else has experienced these other aspects of my description. The effect of choice for my lead voice is “amping up”, which is a term that I invented to describe this effect. So I would be very interested in hearing if anyone out there has any experience with this effect.

200618 1413 from phone
G: S there’s something SP is not telling you (referring to having heard about the ###### confession, and wanting me to discuss it with her.
S:I bet there isn’t. You are being grifted. No-one from the ###### knows AO
1419
?:You just lost (referring to the library situation I assume)

1429: CE has just reported you to #####

1430: S there will be an email for you when you get home from CE
(And when I got home at approx 1511, there was indeed.)

1450:
JD: S, CE just wrote another letter to…

1452
?:this time….

1514
crying: they are setting me up to fail.

1640
JD: you know they both thought you were fucked so that (SL) is not going to work out
?M: that could be true. I don’t know
s: You’re both identifying possibilities for stress and pain, and you are being shit people by exploiting things unknowable to me as a human. However, you do not take into account the human capacity for not criticising all the time, They may give me some latitude. Furthermore, there are other factors that you fail to take into account that are none of your business.

By Someone Else

The voices have found a way to disrupt and destroy every aspect of my life that brings me happiness. For example, I play the piano and the main voice has learned to disrupt my fingers and foot when I play such that I cannot play songs that I previously was able to play flawlessly.

They have also figured out how to block my memory and make me sleep at business meetings, which is, of course, extremely destructive to my functioning in the workplace.

They also told me several times that when they read my thoughts, it is a continuous stream of text-based data, very much like what is portrayed in the movie “The Matrix”. Mind you the plot to this movie is not right on, but the reading of my thoughts is. Then again, they could be lying about this too, but I don’t think so, for several reasons.

The voices insist that the underlying technology is a computer, not just a machine. Moreover, people are experimenting with this technology right now, and the voices want to know what happens when the scientific community figures out how to do this. Yikes!

The voices do not want me to post any information about what they’re doing, such as I am doing here. They have the power to disrupt my life to prevent me from posting, but they are disrupting it anyway, so I have nothing to lose by posting this here.

 

231018 1533

JD, RT, CD, BD and some (what they call) Ghosts have been talking about you since (circa) 13/3/15

040118

I have personally asked the police etc to get involved.

29th august 2014 1824

anon:
“I am going to make a snuff movie with PK”
S: whats your name?
a: i won’t say
S: where are u going to do this?
A: in your head, so sucked in SS
S: who else is involved?
A: mo answer
earlier he was asking if she would feel it, i said
‘no, consciousness is by agreement”
I am being told DHJ reliably that i will not live through this night

1352

i have just now been involved in an argument about whether there would be a big difference, a small difference or no difference resulting from my decision to stop using drugs. My claim is that there would be no difference, a statement made for intelligent people who would obviously realise that I am referring to my involvement and interaction with freemasonry, since there will be obvious gains and difference in my financial position, my health etc. However, JD et al claim that there will be enormous difference. I do not agree, not do I really know what they are talking abut or referring to. But right now, they are insisting that I go to bed immediately. I wish they would stop treating me like a small child

I have also experienced the TV speaking to me too and had visual hallucinations, tactile hallucination of bugs and maggots crawling on my body. When my drugs were working the only thing they solved was the auditory hallucination. I was even having continuous nightmare and could not sleep for months and had no peace of mind. I even felt hands at night dragging me and push my legs and I will wake up with the motion momentum due to the push. Also, I have felt someone kick me awake at night.

 

1437
I am told I am not allowed to write these notes but I feel in the interest of truth and especially for the sake of other people I feel I must. The matter is what is going to happen in the future. I reckon that JD will destroy everything, meaning ‘all’ my social relationships, all my opportunities for the future, all my prospects and anything else that other people would generally look forward to, and would use as part of their incentive and something to use for motivation and to get strength from when giving up some addiction in their lives. But despite the fact that I have to argue, JD agrees that she will do this, and these will be my circumstances, in fact that she has alrady done so. SO I guess it is entirely up to me whether I give up or not. I am not allowed any incentives or gains to accrue from this so called ‘improvement’ in my life, but I will not miss out on anything if I don’t, so I will just do what seems like a sensible thing to do, and prove only to myself that drugs were them problem, that it must also have been masturbation or something else.

By Someone Else

 

i think the witchcraft could be a possible reason, but i think there isnt enough to proof it, i dont think its telepathic because i hear dead people, and the theory of 2 minds dont convince me because drugs never helped me and dont explain many things, i think we are damned or granted, i Will explain myself, the voices try to confuse you, try to avoid you to reach the truth, they make you suffer but too make you stronger, Who can difference the truth from the wrong, maybe with a purpose, what do you think? By the way we could be damned too, i think it depends on your mental strenght and how far you can get, to be honest there are many logical theorys about this: matrix(another reality we are into and we hear the outside one in our mind), spirits or something supernatural, artificial telephatics, etc

I am in trouble now for eating chips, wanting to stop drugs, and staying up late.

Next comes the inverse gotcha. I am about to be told, that if I continue to stop, then people will be murdered or badly hurt, disadvantaged, be financially less well off than they would otherwise be, and so on.. threatened and assaulted until I stop this discontinuation.

 

0408 we”ll see. I’ll try and write tomorrow as a way of checking this forecast

So when I’m around ppl or get stressed I “think” that people hear what I think bc I get the sense that my thoughts are louder and directed into peoples minds. And then I hear those people comment or talk about what I think. I can choose wether I engage them or not but I can’t stop them from talking. A lot of times I jut hear people’s names out loud in my head when I think about them or sometimes I’ll hear people’s names unexepectedly and then I automatically start to hear theses people’s voices and they can hear my thoughts. Like they are transported into my head. My most familiar voices are helpful and always there they helped me organixe the voices by giving them spots in my head so I can more easily tell who’s who’s. It’s uncomfortable to think it’s really telepathy and not me just making it up. I’m scared bc what if it’s true?

 

How would you deal with this?
Should I talk back to the voices?
Am I horrible for my thoughts?
What am I hearing if it’s not REAL people? WHO?

Just More Of What They Say To Me – And What I Say Back.

12th October 2019 at 2016 hours

RT: bety you’re hanging out for a wank, scott
s: yes, absolutely dying for one
RT: ron thiessen here. why is that scott?
s: ask julia, she’s your leader
RRT: ron thiessen here. why is that scott?
s: ask JD. She’ll know
….2018…compelled to IVDU $25.00 CMTH, to again get more data to be able to believe that when I IV, their behaviour changes. Unbelieveable still, probably always to me. I’ll have to acquiesce, otherwsie I will end up taking too many drugs. In my estimate, I already am. I shouldn’t have to do any……
…2020..I forecast that at around the time I enroll and start TAFE njext year, AW will beging making many scenes in pornographic movies, then resign from Hornsby TAFE, and move to Brentwood (probably to becoime a dedicated full time porn star, rather than just hating me so much that she couldn’t stay…
…2022
M: she’s already begun scott. she doing one with Angry now
s: then I definately need IVDU to prevent my own suicide from catastrophic feelings (again)….
…2023….
?: he’s done it. He got AW…2024…he’s done it again scott. He got AW…2025
s: I want to wait before I use, because I want to measure the amount and style of things you say, but I get so distraught at what I think is going on with these women, I can’t stand it…I’m in now…doing it -then “wait”..so I do…2026…..
FM?: they are realising, that you don’t give a shit about us do you?
s: who are you. first and last name please? and what species are you please?
…2028….
fM?: all your firends are dead
s: yeh, you told me approx 1600
FM?: I’m sorry about that, scott…
2035….
s: fucking whore (shouted)
FM?: she’s with windy
s: fucking whore (shouted)
FM?: AW says something to you
AW: you’re going to get a big suprise, one day scott
s: how do you know I’m scott?
AW: I don’t really know what to say to that
s: do you know my last name?
AW: scott stewart
s: yes, thats correct
…..
M?: this will never end
s: …
M?: how does it feel scott? to be hated so much?
s: meh
s: how does it feel scott? to be hated so much?
FM?: they are both dead
s: meh
….2039…
M?: scott, how does it feel?
s: awful
M?: I am Angry man
s: well I’m not writing any more then


 

26th september 2019  -2209 –

tracy and geoff. (25) at my unit. I undertook this experiment to learn what the voices would say. The null hypothesis is: they will not make a pornographic video movie starring someone i know. The hypothesis is that they will. 2211. They are (making a pornographic video) so the null hypothesis is dis-proven.

2212 m and how. She is going wild. And how. You lose scott. You will never believe
what just happened. 2213 tracy has just c9me all over geoff. You lose big time. And you do.
S: (silence)
M: you have never lost so badly. Geoff is coming all over tracy. And how
S: (silence)
M: i cant believe how much geoff cums. Its incredible.
Tj: sucked in scott stewart i love geoff now, becayse he cums so well. Its beautiful. 2217 how do u think i feel anout geoff now?
S: i dont know
Tj: i think he’s a god. And you are a loser ans a fuckwit
M: im afraid thats true
M2: its true
M: u know whAT scott, no one has ever lost so much as u have lost. But u dont even know how much u have lost.
M3: its true
Fm?: your friends are crying
M4: we are
Fm? U know what scott.C is
M4: we have all just left
Fm?: u are going to regret your life. Thats all. Go home.
M4: no dont. It might work out.
S: silent
M4: it didnt. U lose.
M5: there they go
Fm?: why are we doing thus to yoy?
S: i dont know
Tj: because u are a cunt in my opinion. Why dont u stop taking drugs?
S: im about to
Tj: too little too late
Fm?: why are we doing this to u
S: i dont know
M4: i do. But im not telling
Fm?: scott, please dont take this personally, but i dont like you
S: silence
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David (upstairs diagnol) left his unti at approx 0130 – 270919
Ryan (next door) left his unit at 0208 – 270919. He left again at 0229 (without having returned!!!!!, ie, going inside through his door)


7th October 2019   2105

My voices seem to fully believe that they have to torture and mutilate me in order for them to be able to achieve sexual gratification.

Early this morning I acquired $100.00 CMTH because a fortnight ago the AVH’s had undertaken to place TJ as the currently most prominent person who I really like, but who is intent on “betraying me”. This is very important because RJ is my only remaining friend, and I noticed conspicuously that Tracy avoided talking to me last Xmas lunch. Now that seems quite paranoid, but if you consider the frequency and prevalence of my AVH’s narrating how the humans involved are all great friends and pornographic movie participants, you will unavoidably make the very same forecast.

Since 2009, especially 2012 onwards, every time I try to gratify myself, the voices immediately commentate on the activities of people I know because they are making pornography, that relies upon my misery, pain and exclusion (betrayal they call it). The pain the induce by causing tactile and somatosensory hallucinations in my penis, preventing me from being able to feel it properly, whilst they simultaneously interrogate me non-stop to distract me from being able to fantasise, while I watch pornography myself.

Now after 28 years of hatred and torture by this same cohort of antagonists, every time I attempt to  masturbate, I know that it is very likely that I will be mutilated and interrogated, thereby prevented from being able to feel pleasurable feelings, and ultimately ejaculate. They will only let me cum once every 4-7 months, achieved by prohibiting any pleasure available to me from masturbating. A consistently central part of how they stop me, is by socially picking on me, clearly stating on nearly every occasion, that every girl I have known or met since 2009, has (in their words) “betrayed me”, by choosing not to talk to me at all, by participating in the prohibition of my ejaculation, and by deciding to say “yes” to an offer to make porn, usually with a male that I know or have known.

I appreciate that this sounds rather weak and feeble of me, but this information is designed an applied with expertise gained through the death of other schizophrenics, who suffer similar ostracization and exclusion. It is unbearable and lethal to realise that people who pretend to like you, are in fact deriving advantage and pleasure, by excluding and abandoning you. This form of social manipulation and bullying and ostracization is extremely painful.

And that is why when Tracy was introduced into the narrative from 8 weeks ago, I knew immediately that she would be choosing to have sex with a male friend or acquaintance of mine, and to effectively dislike, even effectively hate me, because the people involved never stop rubbing it in that the girls are happy to make porn with these men, but not even to send me an email, and say Hi.

So when Tracy started being talked about 8 weeks ago, I had a rather reliable forecast of what was likely to be taking place for the next few months. And she is a really beautiful, attractive, endearing, pleasant, delightful to be around girl, which is why I noticed that she was not like this last Xmas.

And so, yep, that’s what has been happening. I have been achieving or not achieving, but definitely advocating substantial amounts of payment, for all these people I know who are having the worlds best time making all the porn. This is an obvious sensible thing to do to attempt to protect myself, and if the payments were made, these people (GK, DHJ, PBD, The Bandidos, SO, MP, especially Ron next door, AH, GS loving: Rosy, Emily P, Emma, EP, NNB, MY, TJ, Farrah, LN, TN, Madelin, Natalie, TC, BH, JW, JL, Tabatha, JL, Teresa, JC and so on, would not resent or hate me for increasing their savings.

However, I am told that many of the payments I demanded on their behalf, were in fact made, and the size of the payments was very substantial. So now the individuals who received the money, have left Sydney, and gone to live in Los Angeles, where they continue to feature in NVE.

 

 

Who They Are…? etc…. (Schizophrenia Voice Owners).

coming up…..
Their names etc
Why they call themselves Ghosts…..
What is being done to me…
What can be done to end my torture……
What they want…..
How will it proceed…..until when……


Here is an Index that explains conventions and abbreviations.


I have 44 transcripts dating from 12th May 2013 to yesterday (17th October 2019) where one of the primary and main points being made was them saying I should, they wanted me to, stop taking drugs….(remembering that they use “code words” and “key words”….

Now the Ghost heard them say it, and even though they may have re-considered due to “Pedophile Freemasons” (YouTube), the Ghost is continuing without abate, to impose the sentence given me by the Bandidos.

Below are examples from 2 1st person transcripts, that demonstrate my point that they are forcing me to use drugs, against my will,l and against my ability to defend myself or fight back…..

140515 0230
?: scott they are killing us!
J: who was that?
J: you don’t know the damage you do. They are all dead
Ron: scott you are in trouble
I just hid my drugs in my phone because J said the cops were on their way (they were hear earlier I am told).
J: will I tell them? (referring to the cops about where I hid the drugs)

0304
J has start3ed killing ghosts again. Below is the count and times
0305 x2
0456 3rd
s: how many good ghosts ar4e there
J: i count 400 scott

0320 PK: everybody is changing (referring to Howard Binns-Mcdonald my teacher at TAFE)
S: you mean every Freemason believes what othert Freemasons say, and they all think each other tell the truth all the time (thats ludicrous and I am incredulus)

0512
The police have just arrived outyside so I am making this entry early to attempt to indicate what I am going thru. They have apparently dropped some evidece (or Geoff and Pierre did so I’m told), so one of the (police) said “got you this time scotty, and J said “you’re about to find out we are extremely unfair. I am told by RT that they have put drugs in the rear of my car (amphetamines I suppose). I can hear them walking round outside talking to each other, which makes me suspicious because I would have thought the police would walk straight to my door and knock loudly.

14/5/15 1009
While I was wanking I could see shadows moving under the door to my bedroom. I was told that RT was having Sex with JC, and that the shadows were people that had broken in and were filming my bedroom for later editing and then to create incriminating footage. I did not bother to get up and stop them because I don’t believe anyone could break in, even though I got Peter to help me break in a few weeks ago when RT stole my car keys and I thought at the time the spare keys to my unit. It turned out that I had made a mistake and left the spare keys inside a few weeks earlier when RT & J said that they were coming to get me while I was asleep. And since they know where I keep (hide) my spare keys, on that occasion I went and brought them inside with me.

When I said/asked just now “I don’t understand why you need top do this? (ie fabricate evidence – since they claim I manslaughtered 8 people in 1981/82 allegedly when I threw bins onto Beaufort St then ran away. IO would have thought they woul;d report this to the police, but they won’t)

?: sCOTT, i JUST KILLED pAM. i KILLED HER BIG TIME
s: SO ARE YOU CONFESSING? dO YOU WANT ME TO MAKE A WRITTEN STATEMENT OF YOUR CONFESSION
(I figure he/she was referring to Emily, who they were saying had arrived to their location earlier.
J: Is Pam all right scotty? Is Pam all right Scotty?
S: call me scott, as I am not your friend. Noshe was not late last night. She said she had not been receiving her parole papers and other court docuements. She also said her mobile phone (0431 966 451 and in particular 0415 979 441) GPS was showing that she was in Turramurra (or somewhere) when she was in fact home. This was on Wednesday morning, regarding Tuesday night.

?: female wont say who they are : was Pam happy last night when you saw her
S: You have been p[icking on me so much non stop since November before XMas, and forcing me out of TAFE, made it difficult to ascertain what mood Pam was if. She did seem angry though, but OK when I returned to see her later. I noticed quite a significant change in the two or so hours.


5th March 2015 0012

“The gustless scared ghost just negotiated its strength away to Ron Thiessen and Glen Jeffires”

EXCHANGES PHRASES TO BE EDITED IN (because ectoplasms are illiterate and need verbal cues and training for those cues):
This is a list of the new code exchange (keyword) phrases:
we are not grifters
we’re not picking on maggie we’re picking on someone else
the song: advance australia fair
that’s julias ghost singing
that’s not maggie
is pam getting raped
are going to commit suicide
what are you shaking for
will you ever run out of veins
what is your favorite color
what is my favourite color
what is his favourite color
what is rons favourite color
where is ron now
who is ron now
what is my name
why are you writing
what is my favourite color
do you care about maggie
because, just because

“their they go they are all committing suicide”

can you have maggie
what do you / i want

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12th march 2015 0651
KEYWORDS TODAY—>
no (to become negative, negatori, nine, nope and all other synonyms)
Pam = julia

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14th March 2015 0334
Geoff & Pear-body may turn out to be 2 ghosts (probably the 2 white ones).
The girl ‘suffering’ (Maggie, Pam, Windy, Michelle Young etc) are probably ectoplasms or ghosts being (mentally) raped.
One degree of separation #names# (eg: RT, GD, JD, Glenn Jeffries, GS etc are ‘keywords / trigger words’ directed towards a specific ghost

Keyword (trigger) phrases for today:
(there seem to be 2 sets – ‘explanations / statements’ and queries. The statements probably trigger …(action directed against ghosts) and the questions trigger (action directed against human psychosis victim)…

‘Statements’:
She just fucked up
You shouldn’t do that
#name# (eg: maggie) is in tears / is crying
have a shot
#name# (eg Maggie) is being told that….
‘Questions’ (derived from victim:
is there something you want?
what do you want?
who is #name#?
what does #name# think?
who is #name#?
when will this end?
what is that like?
R U going to take drugs?
R U too scarred to take drugs?

Human or Not? If Not, What? & Why Claim To Be Human?

The above images are proof that I am alone with my AVH in my study, whilst the 1st person transcript below was written.

The voices have just said that MY is going to America with “Angry”. MY is a human, and so I believe is Angry. There is no-one in my unit at 2132 on the 18th Oct 2019 but me! Guaranteed no one here, but me and my schizophrenia voice perceptions.

181019 2121

M?: can you realise that MY is going to America?
S: don’t be absurd
M?: can you realise that she is going to America Scotty?
S: don’t be idiotic
MY: I am
S: can you prove you are MY?
fm?: no I can’t
FM?: (chant) what a load of rubbish (repeated)
M?: with Angry!
s: who is he?
M?: scott you are going to howl when you find out something
s: find out what?
M?: I’m not telling you.
M?: you are going to find out that you were too little too late
s: but you’re the people/person assaulting me!

[saved as MY with Angry again they say 181019]
M?: and she is!

m2: I’m afraid that’s true
s: so she hates me, and wants me to commit suicide?
m2: I’m not answering you

[saved as MY with Angry again they say 181019]
M?: and she is!

2148
FM?: she is. sucked in
s: right
FM?: sucked in scotty stewart x4
fm?: do you mind?


Two of the images below were taken with my phone on the 10th October 2019. They are not very clear but they are meaningful to the voices. These “people” (the voices) look at this blog.

They have succumb to compound delusions, even delusional justifications for their delusions, as a result of the extreme social isolation stemming from the guilty conscience. Cognitive dissonance and guilt prevents them from feeling comfortable around humans. Their ‘Freemason’ status is also a delusion!

It is not necessary to have a full understanding of what is taking place, and who the antagonists are.

An effective and efficient solution has been devised.

Currently there are individual humans suffering from the group communications, the result of the group’s wish to be in contact with at least one human. However achieved, these “people” need only to exclude the central human, and maintain the group.

The voices are usually meticulously cautious not to reveal if they are human or non-human. They merely make statements about humans, always attempting to elicit v.strong negative emotional responses. The ‘give-away’ fact proving the group includes non-humans, is that they can see (see YouTube).

The transcript above states once that it is human. But this could be a trick.

All that matters, is that they can avoid being a disease, easily, with current capabilities.

It is conjecture whether they are scared, too old, suffering inferiority, or possibly they are all sociopathic (and scared etc), and there is no sufficiently strong incentive to overcome their weakness. Their weakness gets amplified, as evidenced by group norms of feigned stupidity. But maybe they claim to be human, because it facilitates this weakness, when they have capabilities far exceeding human ones.

But motivation and incentive is a mandatory antecedent of excluding the human victim. And they lack models to demonstrate the benefits of such a change.

Pornography Probability = 1:(?) I Estimate 1:521,000,000

14th November 2019  1954 hours

The results of experiment #32:

Skinny Super Sluts - but not as slutty as I am

18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Wells, 7230 Coldwater Canyon Ave, North Hollywood, CA 91605. Date Of Production 09/01/2009
Barracuda – 4 Hours
Starring:
Aaliyan Jolie
Sienna & Kieko
Devaugn Jones
Logan & Others

(Don’t forget ladies – if you experience any dissatisfaction with them, I advised MY et seq on how to utilise the “release forms” to your financial advantage. If you experience any dissatisfaction with my efforts (this), then use the contact form, and distinguish yourself as being bigger, brighter, better, more talented, exceeding, and more worthy, than any of the other people who transgress the IP Copyright terms stipulated about dissemination of the material to wit alone possess proprietary rights over.

Scene 1 – Madelline

(don’t know her second name. Didn’t meet her studying at TAFE, but can call on more than 12 witnesses that I was refused a Statutory Declaration by Glen Jeffries aka Ron Thiessen, also associated likewise with Gabby, Shayla, and defensibility-less Frieda. If you read my pervious posts re TAFE NSW, you will realise something). See TAFE #1, TAFE #2

Scene 3 – Olia Jolie

Scene 7 – Madelline (again)

Scene 9 – Michelle Young

(I am told her first scene. However, I (and not necessarily she) believe her first  scene was with Tony,  and that’s what I expect from intentionally untrustworthy, practised, deceptive, lethal assassin’s).

 

11th November 2019

What is little known, and I am only confident of, is that JD receives a 40% commission on each scene she organizes. So for every A$800.00 spent on each of these girls, Julia receives (takes/adds to the payment total) $320.00.

As standard, a female performer in a scene with an male performer could expect to earn around $1,000 (£800), a scene with another woman would see them earn around $700-800 (£550). The rates could go up or down by 10 to 20 per cent depending on who the performer is, their agent and other factors.

Top female talent can make as much as $2,000 or $2,500 per scene, depending on what exactly is being filmed.


What really makes me cry though, is not this per se, even at all, as you can see in the emails I sent in response. But I do cry because RT and JD made a pact in 1992 that no one will break – they have banned me from ever having a girlfriend. See here.


Monday, 1 July 2019

People I know in NVE pornography

(non-instant gratification)

They keep saying that the people I am watching (I’m impotent – I can’t get a girl [because I have been banned]) are people I know; and they look like them. SO I asked two of the people involved:

Mon, 17 Jun, 12:53 (1 day ago)

from:     Scott Stewart sscottstewart@gmail.com
to:          Michelle Young michelle.young@health.nsw.gov.au
date:      17 Jun 2019, 12:53
subject: Howdy – how are you going
mailed-by:            gmail.com

I hope you will forgive me for this email, but I offer it light-heartedly, and will summarise with a fantastic opportunity.
I purchased some pornography from Tony at the shop I used to work at recently, and the DVD had the following details:

“Skinny Teen Twats”
Barracuda Bites
Iron Bull (Productions)
18 U.S.C Section 2257 Records custodian – R.; Wells
There was a scene starring Dasha starring a girl who looked just like you. Even my voices said it was you, and keep saying so.

If hypothetically it was you, do I have your permission to indulge in it without restraint? What I really wanted to suggest is: if you wanted a windfall of cash, you could pass yourself off as this model, contact the distributor (Barracuda) and or the producer (Iron Bull) and point out, that if you can prove you are in fact Dasha, then substantiate that against either your married name or your work name, in the absence of either of the two latter names being on the signed release form, both those companies are in breach of US and Australian copyright law, which therefore entitles you to the total revenue from sales divided by the number of other models (who can prove their real names.

As a full on advocate of third and fourth wave feminism, and as an impotent man, I wish and hope it was you (there’s another scene as well), because everyday I pray to God that some local people are fulfilling their ability to have the best time possible, since I cannot.

When we catch up again soon, I’ll show you my recently purchased vehicle. It’s really good.


And from today – 1st July 2019

1st July 2019 1649 hours

Was attempting to gratify myself in the usual way using the usual ATS, and as has been since approximately the start of 2102, my voices started ‘identifying’ the talent in the NVE pornography I buy and own. Given their insistence on my suicide, brought about by slutting out and cashing up my friends, I have been compelled to write the following notes about the people appearing in my pornography. I must state that I am ready to argue about prosopagnosia. Nonetheless, the following are my voices claims about the porn:

“Teen Domination”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – G. Poole 7230 COldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 11/01/14

Scene 2
Louise Antness

Scene 3
Michelle Young

Scene 3.5?

Scene 4
Araianne Warnant

Scene 5
Jade Lapham

Scene 11
Natalie

Refer To ss-027.jpg ss-028.jpg

Also refer to names of stars on the cover

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Also refer to names of stars on the cover

Devils Film
Pho’King Asians
Distributed by Giant Media Group. © 2018 Devils Film. 18 U.S.C.ss2257 records for devils film are kept by custodian records.
20525 Nordhoff St Suite 116, Chatsworth, CA, 91311. Release Date 6/26/18
“Eva Yi”
Rosy – from Hornsby TAFE

Phoking Asians


“Persian Pussycats”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Wells 7230 Coldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 01/01/2009
Refer To ss-029.jpg ss-030.jpg

Scene 6
Jenny Lapham

Scene 7
Paris Lapham (aka tabatha? [I suspect]

Scene 11
Nancy Nevara-Blue

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Time For Fucking Bed:
————————–
Jenny Lapham
Sally (Geoffs friend)
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69 (zero tolerance)
————————–
Geoff Kelly
? can’t quite recall, but ASHS

””””””””””’
Loretta Elks
Adrian Hennely

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Skinny Teen Twats
————————–
(Barracude Bites)
Iron Ball Productions
18 U.S.C Section 2257 Records Custodian – R Wells

————————–
Michelle Young (2 scenes)
Tristan Coleman
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Itty Bitty Titty 3
———————-
Pam Kingham
Lata
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teen fuck sluts
———————
bandido’s other members lady
tradie guy (bandido) from Extreme Clean Hornsby Westfield car park (13  years earlier)
=========================

YellowTail Geisha Girl Fuckhouse
———————-
Lata
========================

So Nice You’ll Taste It Twice
———————-
Tristan Coleman
=========================

Three Ways To Play
———————-
Disk 2: Madeline
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??? ??? Double Trouble
———————-
Rachael (Ben’s Ex)

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sexpectations
———————-
Janine Collins
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[these notes made mar 19 (300319  2039)]
“Skinny Babes”
Iron Bull
www.barracudabites.com
Apparently it was the out of tune bandidos doing the singing start and end
*note the missing FBI rating
(the following is the authorisation info)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Well & Wells 7230  Coldwater Canyon Ave., North Hollywood CA 91605.  Date of Production 02/01/2009
(“240 minutes” displayed on  cover (Is it possible to have more on disk {eg: child porn} than is measurable by timing the DVD accessible content?)

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Joined at the dick
barracuda
11/15/14 records custodian G.Pool 7230

Scene 7
Tabatha (Paris Lapham)
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Scene 13 (I think)
Louise Nolan
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Scene 4
Michelle Young
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And from today – 1st July 2019

1st July 2019 1649 hours

Was attempting to gratify myself in the usual way using the usual ATS, and as has been since approximately the start of 2102, my voices started ‘identifying’ thew talent in the NVE pornography I buy and own. Given their insistance on my suicide, brought about by raging out and cashing up my friends, I have been compelled to write the following notes about the people appearing in my pornography. I must state that I am ready to argue about prosopagnosia. Nonetheless, the following are my voices claims about the porn:

“Teen Domination”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – G. Poole 7230 COldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 11/01/14
Scene 2
Louise Antness

Scene 3
Michelle Young

Scene 3.5
?
Scene 4
Araianne Warnant

Scene 5
Jade Lapham

Scene 11
Natalie

Refer To ss-027.jpg ss-028.jpg
Also refer to names of stars on the cover

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“Persian Pussycats”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Wells 7230 Coldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 01/01/2009
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Scene 1
Natalie

Scene 4
Michelle Young

Scene 6
Jenny Lapham

Scene 7
Paris Lapham (aka tabatha? [I suspect]
Peta Stevens

Scene 9
Peta Stevens

Scene 11
Nancy Nevara-Blue


18th October 2019 at 0922 hours

Anyway, I was corrected early this morning, that the award that she won, was a pornography award, for a scene that she paid to produce, that I still have on DVD. It is on:

“Twerking” by Mike Quasar.
ThirdDegreeFilms.com
18 U.S.C SS2257 records custodian – Third Degree Films Inc – 20525 Nordhoff St, Suite 25, Chatsworth CA 91311

 


Sun, 31 Mar, 02:21
from:     Scott Stewart sscottstewart@gmail.com
to:          Nancy N-Blue nancy.nblue@gmail.com
|date:    31 Mar 2019, 02:21
subject: Recall I talked for an hour about ghosts and Freemasons?
mailed-by:            gmail.com

Hi Michelle,

I hope you will forgive me for this email, but I offer it light-heartedly, and will summarise with a fantastic opportunity.
I purchased some pornography from Tony at the shop I used to work at recently, and the DVD had the following details:

“Skinny Teen Twats”
Barracuda Bites
Iron Bull (Productions)
18 U.S.C Section 2257 Records custodian – R.; Wells
There was a scene starring Dasha starring a girl who looked just like you. Even my voices said it was you, and keep saying so.

If hypothetically it was you, do I have your permission to indulge in it without restraint? What I really wanted to suggest is: if you wanted a windfall of cash, you could pass yourself off as this model, contact the distributor (Barracuda) and or the producer (Iron Bull) and point out, that if you can prove you are in fact Dasha, then substantiate that against either your married name or your work name, in the absence of either of the two latter names being on the signed release form, both those companies are in breach of US and Australian copyright law, which therefore entitles you to the total revenue from sales divided by the number of other models (who can prove their real names.

As a full on advocate of third and fourth wave feminism, and as an impotent man, I wish and hope it was you (there’s another scene as well), because everyday I pray to God that some local people are fulfilling their ability to have the best time possible, since I cannot.

When we catch up again soon, I’ll show you my recently purchased vehicle. It’s really good.

Cheers,

Scott


My voices will never let me ejaculate. That’s why t5hey started calling me GOD – it was sarcasm. Between 2009 and 2011 they would not let me ejaculate.

These days they only let me once every 4 – 7 months.


there is a relatively straightforward scale for performances by an in-demand actress:
$800 for a girl-girl scene
$1,000 for a guy-girl scene
$1,200 or more for anal sex
$4,000 or more for “double penetration”

But for each gig Spiegler books for his girls, he takes 10 to 15 per cent, receiving the larger percentage if he also handles transportation for the client. None of the agents THR spoke with would reveal how much money they personally make in a year, but sources told the trade that top agents can rake in around $250,000 a year from their 10 to 15 per cent takes.

crew pay rates

Forecasts (null hypotheses). The Last Experiment.

181019 1047

JD: (singing) “Wouldn’t it be lovely” from My Fair Lady)
S: who is that singing
Ghost G?: JD
s: I thought she was dead, as per rule 11
G?: she’s not dead Scotty stewart (singing) “lovely, lovely, lovely, lovely” from My Fair Lady)
S: so you were saying that all the Bandidos still own Ghosts?
G?: not true
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”
s: So is JD dead or not?
G?: I’m not telling you
S: its not her voices i hear
G?: well bad luck
s: are there any Bandidos listening / watching?
M?: we’re not telling you
G?: there’s one in every chapter
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”, “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”…..

1148
G?: they might be ….
s: yes, they might have all gone permanently to America. As far as I know, I cashed ’em up. And they don’t like me. They could all be in Brentwood, California.
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”, “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”…..
S: we’ll find out shortly after Xmas, around December 26/27 2019
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”, “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”…..

G?: all the good ghosts are silent…
s: don’t be so dim witted. There is no such thing as good or bad

 

17th October 2019 at 2122 hours

Firstly, my AVH have been claiming for the past two weeks that my passwords are available on the ‘deep-web’. They have not explicitly stated how they got there.

From the next experiment, I forecast that the results will feature Gina, Louise and Taylor as primary protagonists), and possibly Katie and Reliousa as secondary protagonists (both of whom are in another recovery group I have just started with).

Gina is a mental health Psych Nurse who I met on Mental Health Day, last Thursday. I am in a mental health recovery group, called GROW, and I met Gina briefly when my recovery group set up a table display about the GROW group, in the Star building, at my local hospital. I was enchanted by Gina, and really liked her, though our meeting was brief. The following day I rang her and asked her out on a date, which she declined. This morning, my voices realised that they had omitted her from their verbal assault, that transpired over approximately 6 hours previous.

Louise (and Taylor) are beautiful women that used to employ me as their web developer. They were meticulously responsible people, never late on a payment, always very good to work for and communicate with. Their inclusion will be interesting, because Louise’s stepson hung himself in her garage, after being harassed and assaulted by AVH (voices), apparently a result of the consumption of some cannabis. He was a young adult.

I will not explicitly write these forecasts as Null Hypotheses, because it would be misleading with respect to the formality and rigour of my experiments. I have written them up prior to the experiment, because 1) that is how experiments are conducted, and 2) I know from previous work, that if I write my forecasts up first, my childish immature voices then specifically avoid the elements or topics I have forecast, merely because I stated them first. They (my voices) are like teenagers really. If you say something in particular, they do anything but that.

I will also keep a tally of how many times my voices say “Scott, you just lost”, and any other often repeated phrases I ‘hear’. My voices are obsessed about ‘winning’ and ‘losing’, which is curious, because life is not a win or lose situation. Importantly, it is certain that I would never say I just lost, and as such, the notions of subvocalization and misattribution are repudiated. (see also interesting research here.) I simply dismiss those two hypotheses by proposing that they are the result of mirror neuron activity.

I have written a summary account of my phenomenology HERE.

I did not write a transcript of the dialogue from last night, but I ended up with a list of people that my voices insist were featuring in the DVD’s I was watching. I may write the list up, but if I do, I think I will add it to a previous post, or put the statements they made on one of my other websites, so they do not detract from the forthcoming experiment.

My intention is to undertake specific behaviours, noting approximate times and topics, then ex post facto write up a summary of what was said and spoken about (a testimonial like all the data on/in the mental health forums about ‘hearing voices’), then if possible, write up a 1st person transcript, to capture the detail of the data towards the end of the experiment.

I should also mention, that I am capturing some beautiful data as metrics and meta data from some WWW mental health forums, as a measure of my impact upon the aetiology of AVH. I do this because not all my AVH are hateful and hostile. I get occasional ‘tip-offs’ about my ‘sideline’ impact upon one of the causes of AVH, and I am following up a ‘sideline’ comment I overheard regarding the effectiveness of my 1st person transcripts, my essays comprising a critique of the conventional scientific framework for understanding AVH (there are three essays, and I am in the process of visiting psychiatrists and allied mental health care  professionals, requesting that they have a quick look at my work, and provide a brief response, before I disseminate them to psychiatry et al academia, and to researchers in the field, to have them either rejected, or followed up by qualified researchers, who have access to clinical data sources).


18th October 2019 at 0922 hours

Well the experiment has nearly concluded. Both null hypotheses were supported, that is, my voices did NOT talk much about the girls identified. There was some interesting data that stemmed from the experiment. My AVH stated 16 times “Scott, you just lost” and 5 times “Never give up”.

Once again they claimed that some of the people in the (pornography) DVD’s I watched were people I know; and I must admit that some looked the same. There was one major feature of this experiment. Namely concerning my main antagonist JD (Julia). She has been the ‘leader’ of the d.e.’Ghosts’ (Freemasons they themselves claim) since 1992. Over the years 2013/2014, based on her unsolicited statements, I recorded a set of rules that she claimed to have authored, and strangely, bizarrely, they did seem to be complied with by all the characters in my hallucinations. There is NO WAY I somehow wrote these rules. Their existence is more evidence to me that the more popular hypotheses held by psychiatric science regarding the aetiology of AVH are incomplete or wrong!

The ‘Hard and Fast’ Rules Of Freemasonry (as described to me by ostensibly and effectively anonymous announcers)

(by the unintelligible spastic known by every threatening Scott Stewart Who Allegedly Killed Monica Lewinsky who is in bed with Michelle and Dave).  Who the fuck is Monica Lewinsky? And who the fuck is Tristan DeCuna?

The following are central tenets of Freemasonry for the RT & JD branch…

  1. freemasons must have a spouse
  2. freemasons must have a bridesmaid and groom                                                                                                                                          
  3. freemasons must be better off than their victim
  4. freemasons must steal stone if they want                                                                                                                             
  5. freemasons must be seen by the victim they are giving schizophrenia to
  6. The payments for a Freemason are apportioned according to their proximity to the victim. This is further apportioned according to the amount and frequency of their proximity. This is a freemasons “dash” or “dare”. So payments are made according to a Freemasons dash or dare.
  7. There is one rule for you and one rule for me                                                                                                                             
  8. Freemasons must have a song they sing in bad taste                                    
  9. you must never kill a ghost                                                                                                                     
  10. Damned if you do, even more damned if you don’t
  11. Freemason women are not able to consume alcohol because it is lethal
  12. Freemason women are limited to only engaging in faunication once, on their wedding night, and not again
  13. Once a freemason has had sex they can’t go back to normal sex
  14. Ghosts always know when they are dying
  15. Ghosts have seven seconds of unbounded epilogue on the way out
  16. Ghosts must not encounter “epiphenous moments”
  17. Ghosts are able to exchange “sensibilities” freely
  18. If a freemason gets a word in edgeways, it should be explicitly accomplished
  19. Each freemason must have a field of special knowledge, their topic of expertise
  20. All freemasons must share their wives with their bretheren (freemason marriages occur within freemasonry, normal observable marriages are invalid, probably because of religion).
  21. A Freemason can marry 1 ghost and have a different wife
  22. (years later) – [I originally forgot this one] :  each victim being tortured, is entitled to, and has, a coach

In last nights experiment, rule #11 come into play, because half way through the experiment, JD arrived, she started talking, and I realised she was drunk. SO I reminded the other d.e.’Ghosts’ of rule #11, and I suggested that she (JD) would soon be dead. And at the end of the night, she seemed to be. I have not heard from since, and it has been 5 hours. If this holds true, this is one of, if not the most, important event that has recently occurred. (However, I notice that rule #11 conflicts with rule #9).

There were also statements of multiple ‘deaths’ last night. Not only did JD ‘die’ (at the end of the night, but GK ‘died’, Gina ‘died’, RT had ‘died’, CE had ‘died’ and Lata ‘died’. I can only assume that the word ‘died’ (‘dead’, ‘die’) was a (another) “code word”.

Also, earlier yesterday someone siad that MY had moved permanently to the US, which I disputed, because I’m meeting her next Wednesday. For some reason I happened to mention the fact that as far as I was told, on or around September 25, 2019, she won an award in New York. I was referring to the period of time when Rosy, Emma, Emily and Farah were all making (movie sex) scenes, while I was walking around Hornsby shopping mall, all day and night, shouting at Freemasons, believing (still) that they see and hear me, and I was condemning them for causing (decision-based) schizophrenia, a lethal disease. When they stated that I was being broadcast, I did not realise that they meant on “mind-cinema” (whatever that actually is – somehow they can see). Anyway, I was corrected early this morning, that the award that she won, was a pornography award, for a scene that she paid to produce, that I still have on DVD. It is on:

“Twerking” by Mike Quasar.
ThirdDegreeFilms.com
18 U.S.C SS2257 records custodian – Third Degree Films Inc – 20525 Nordhoff St, Suite 25, Chatsworth CA 91311

However, this is not all that interesting to you, the general reader. I stated earlier in this post, “I have written a summary account of my phenomenology HERE.”. This “Analect Of Evil” is year after year of Julia D mistreating me, torturing me, and malevolently treating me with contempt. However, it turned out after a decade and a half, that my voices claimed there were 6 ‘Ghosts’, each of whom was called JD, and they had been arranged into a working plan, by the human JD. One ‘Ghost’ has always stated “she [the human] is not here. I am merely impersonating her. I am pretending to have her personality. She and Ron were just the ‘last cabs off the rank’, and that is why their names appear.

 

Symptoms Of Schizophrenia – ask the Bandidos OMC

Schizophrenia symptoms

Schizophrenia Symptoms

Schizophrenia is a serious but somewhat uncommon mental disorder that affects between 0.25 and 0.64 percent of Americans (NIMH, 2018). A person with schizophrenia who is not receiving treatment will experience periods of time when they are disconnected from reality, usually experiencing a combination of hallucinations and delusions.

According to the American Psychiatric Association (2013), the disorder is characterized by at least 2 of the following symptoms, occurring in an individual for at least one month:

  • Delusions
  • Hallucinations
  • Disorganized speech (e.g., frequent derailment or incoherence)
  • Grossly disorganized or catatonic behavior
  • A set of three negative symptoms (a “flattening” of one’s emotions, alogia, avolition; see below)

Sometimes a diagnosis can be made on the basis of only one of the above symptoms. This occurs when a mental health professional determines that a person’s delusions are bizarre or if the hallucinations consist of a voice keeping up a running commentary on the person’s behavior or thoughts, or two or more voices conversing with each other.

Positive Symptoms

  • Delusions
  • Hallucinations
  • Disorganized thinking
  • Agitation
Negative Symptoms

  • Affective flattening – The person’s range of emotional expression is clearly diminished; poor eye contract; reduced body language
  • Alogia – A poverty of speech, such as brief, empty replies
  • Avolition – Inability to initiate and persist in goal-directed activities (such as school or work)

Although the above symptoms must be present for at least one (1) month, there also needs to be continuous signs of the disturbance that persist for at least six (6) months. During this period six-month period, the signs of the disorder may be present in a milder form; for instance, as just odd beliefs or unusual perceptual experiences. Also at least two of the above symptom criteria must be met during the six month period, or only the criteria of negative symptoms must be present — if even just in milder form.

Notes – JD said ‘Tri$^an’ Was Torturing Me

During 2014, my voices kept talking to me about getting a girlfriend. But as the phenomenology compilation I called “The Analect Of Evil” clearly identifies, they had on four previous occasions forced me into attempting to ‘marry’ three unwitting people. The point of most interest, is that I was told by JD that I had been banned from ever being allowed to have a girlfriend.

Normally, this would be a ridiculous tyrannical comment for someone to make, but when seen in the context of the non-random prevalence of pornography appearances by girls I have known, and the evidence in transcripts that they are observing, interfering and colluding against me, such a prohibition seems entirely possible (irregardless of who has banned me).

Here is a plausible way of achieving this: Organising People Against Me

The further problem is that if  there are any humans colluding with the voices (who call themselves Ghosts), I cannot be in proximity to anyone, especially potential relationship people, unless I can get them to believe that there are Humans involved, as the evidence strongly suggests, and that means they will potentially know this persons bank account details, and details of other person items. Furthermore, anyone near me must acknowledge that they will potentially be under observation of malevolent beings, leading to encountering vaudeville / pantomime grifts, having an unknown motive.

Here are some notes that summarise what my voices commonly said may times in 2014:

GK pornography expln

 

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Tantalized – how my AVH’s claim to be making sex movies (pornography)

9th October 2019 at 2036 hours

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1N97E4w9tl7PtQlLzARGwxj3C_-NpIeCN


10th October 2019  at 1353 hours

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1ZYG5irXZFI5ZXIjf0ycdJGZ4_0hcF9ga/view?ts=5d9d4c44

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1LWPvPAxnj5x_NNN4Y2EX01OoOx_Uzauo/view?ts=5d9d4c44

Tracy is the most attractive, beautiful, appealing, pleasant, nice to be around, charming, enticing, and successful girl I have met. I would give anything to have lead my life differently, so that I could attempt to engage her. She knows my last remaining friend well, and he speaks most highly of her, always.

7th October 2019   2105

My voices seem to fully believe that they have to torture and mutilate me in order for them to be able to achieve sexual gratification.

 

Early this morning I acquired $100.00 CMTH because a fortnight ago the AVH’s had undertaken to place TJ as the currently most prominent person who I really like, but who is intent on “betraying me”. This is very important because RJ is my only remaining friend, and I noticed conspicuously that Tracy avoided talking to me last Xmas lunch.

Now that seems quite paranoid, but if you consider the frequency and prevalence of my AVH’s narrating how the humans involved are all great friends and pornographic movie participants, you will unavoidably make the very same forecast.  (I have about 50 plus transcripts involving the lascivious behaviour of my friends, briefly summarised here).

Since 2009, especially 2012 onwards, every time I try to gratify myself, the voices immediately commentate on the activities of people I know because they are making pornography, that relies upon my misery, pain and exclusion (betrayal they call it). The pain the induce by causing tactile and somatosensory hallucinations in my penis, preventing me from being able to feel it properly, whilst they simultaneously interrogate me non-stop to distract me from being able to fantasise, while I watch pornography myself.

ellie clifton

Now after 28 years of hatred and torture by this same cohort of antagonists, every time I attempt to  masturbate, I know that it is very likely that I will be mutilated and interrogated, thereby prevented from being able to feel pleasurable feelings, and ultimately ejaculate. They will only let me cum once every 4-7 months, achieved by prohibiting any pleasure available to me from masturbating.

A consistently central part of how they stop me, is by socially picking on me, clearly stating on nearly every occasion, that every girl I have known or met since 2009, has (in their words) “betrayed me”, by choosing not to talk to me at all, by participating in the prohibition of my ejaculation, and by deciding to say “yes” to an offer to make porn, usually with a male that I know or have known. 

I appreciate that this sounds rather weak and feeble of me, but this information is designed an applied with expertise gained through the death of other schizophrenics, who suffer similar ostracization and exclusion. It is unbearable and lethal to realise that people who pretend to like you, are in fact deriving advantage and pleasure, by excluding and abandoning you. This form of social manipulation and bullying and ostracization is extremely painful.

And that is why when Tracy was introduced into the narrative from 8 weeks ago, I knew immediately that she would be choosing to have sex with a male friend or acquaintance of mine, and to effectively dislike, even effectively hate me, because the people involved never stop rubbing it in that the girls are happy to make porn with these men, but not even to send me an email, and say Hi.

So when Tracy started being talked about 8 weeks ago, I had a rather reliable forecast of what was likely to be taking place for the next few months. And she is a really beautiful, attractive, endearing, pleasant, delightful to be around girl, which is why I noticed that she was not like this last Xmas.

Click This Link –>  How To Enlist A Girl Based On Scott Stewart

And so, yep, that’s what has been happening. I have been achieving or not achieving, but definitely advocating substantial amounts of payment, for all these people I know who are having the worlds best time making all the porn. This is an obvious sensible thing to do to attempt to protect myself, and if the payments were made, these people (GK, DHJ, PBD, The Bandidos, SO, MP, especially Ron next door, AH, GS loving Rosy, Emily, EP, NNB, MY, TJ, Farrah, LN, TN, Madelin, Natalie, TC, BH, JW, JL, Tabatha, JL, EC, Karmen and so on, would not resent or hate me for increasing their savings.

However, I am told that many of the payments I demanded on their behalf, were in fact made, and the size of the payments was very substantial. So now the individuals who received the money, have left Sydney, and gone to live in Los Angeles, where they continue to feature in NVE.

26th september 2019  at 2209 hours

tracy and geoff. (25) at my unit. I undertook this experiment to learn what the voices would say. The null hypothesis is: they will not makd a pornographic video movie starring someone i know. The hypothesis is that tgey will. 2211. They are (making a pornographic video) so thr null hypothesis is disproven.

2212 m and how. She is going wild. And how. You lose scott. You will never believe
what just happened. 2213 tracy has just c9me all over geoff. You lose big time. And you do.
S: (silence)
M: you have never lost so badly. Geoff is coming all over tracy. And how
S: (silence)
M: i cant believe how much geoff cums. Its incredible.
Tj: sucked in scott stewart i love geoff now, becayse he cums so well. Its beautiful. 2217 how do u think i feel anout geoff now?
S: i dont know
Tj: i think he’s a god. And you are a loser ans a fuckwit
M: im afraid thats true
M2: its true
M: u know whAT scott, no one has ever lost so much as u have lost. But u dont even know how much u have lost.
M3: its true
Fm?: your friends are crying
M4: we are
Fm? U know what scott.C is
M4: we have all just left
Fm?: u are going to regret your life. Thats all. Go home.
M4: no dont. It might work out.
S: silent
M4: it didnt. U lose.
M5: there they go
Fm?: why are we doing thus to yoy?
S: i dont know
Tj: because u are a cunt in my opinion. Why dont u stop taking drugs?
S: im about to
Tj: too little too late
Fm?: why are we doing this to u
S: i dont know
M4: i do. But im not telling
Fm?: scott, please dont take this personally, but i dont like you
S: silence
=========
David (upstairs diagnol) left his unti at approx 0130 – 270919
Ryan (next door) left his unit at 0208 – 270919. He left again at 0229 (without having returned!!!!!, ie, going inside through his door)


 

28th September 2019 at 0137 hours

I showed some self-control and stopped wanking the second they let my feelings be perceived again. Immediately when the partial numbness in my penis and the sterile, hostile interrogation ended, I stopped masturbating, to prove that despite the worlds best feelings (‘better than life itself), one can maintain some avoidance and abstinence.

Since I abandoned masturbation at approximately 0000 hours, they have been musing and distantly chatting about features that are different in the narrative I just posted, when compared to 1st person transcripts.

So here are three more, mostly narratives, selected using my particular “integrity technique”, that will allow me to monitor in an ad-hoc, unmeasured and imprecise manner, their response to this post:

050409
JH (Julia’s Husband): Scott, you just fucked up big time!
SS: how, what do you mean?
JH: people took your defection seriously
(I claimed that since I’m told that I am upsetting good people, and because I have been herded into a corner and have no options, I said I was going to join evil, and fuck up evil instead of fucking up good people).
SS: Am I the first person to be allowed to join evil without having to go thru the normal induction process?
JH: Yes
SS: so how come I didn;t have to do induction just like everyone else?
JH: so we can make it seem like you are very important, in order to upset and torture good people in every apsect of the ramification of spreading a rumour of that sort

(3.08am)
Tomight I took drugs. I got jumped on by evil, causing my wanking to take far too long (a very long time) and prventing me from finishing. Then, once evil had got the better of me and upset me, they flicked the switch in their console and started transmitting audio to innocent and good people. Every time I felt defeated or down beat or low, they would start broadcasting my contemplations. They claim and state that because I was disappointed and down beat, their braodcasts were upsetting people and (JH) “forcing them to suicide”.

What can I do? what options do I have. Is it dangerous..(to be honest?)…

3.12am
I have just been told something terrible but I am not allowed to state it in this note. Once again (JH) “Damned if you do, even more damned if you don’t”.


22 August 2014

J: I just killed Emily walker. The look upon you8r face when I said I just killed emily walker.
lets see the look upon your face. The look upon your face. Steve’s having sex with emaily walker
right now. The look upon your face. The look upon your face. I just killed emily walker. The look upon your face. The look upon your face.Steve A is having sex with emily walker right now.

Steve A: if you don’t go to bed then I will kill emily walker. But she’s dead now. I just had sex with her and she’s dead now. My name is Steve A.
my name is steve A, my name is steve A, and i am raping emily walker

SA: steve A does not like the tone of your voice. x5

PB: you think i’m a fuckwit don’t I (x10 +)


20/7/13 1800 hours
– I am being asked if I can hear something that I can not hear. And then I hear voices that imply that something bad
is happening but no one will say what. More importantly, my disease is holding me responsible for itself,
which makes no sense
A(nonymous) (Julia) : “Scott : can you hear that?”
A(nonymous) (Julia) : “Will you take responsibility for whats happening?”
(s) : Even though I do not know what is happening, and
I know that you are doing it, I will agrre to your request that I take responsibility for it”
(s) : “who is doing the actual thing?”
(J) : I can’t believe, I can’t believe, I can’t beleive, I can believe…
(J) : “do you care about what is happening?”

1842 : had a terrible 4-6 seconds where I thought I heard asound similar to crying, and I asked if that is what it is, but no-one would answer. However, my concern was very soon weighlayed because the sound stopped, so I assume there is no longer any need for concern

1902
(a) : “You should see them Scott!”
(s) : How many of them are there?
(A) no response

1919 : I am having trouble finding a namespace in some code, and the voices are saying they have done something to my brain and convincing everyone else that I am drug fucked. They are making a special effort of calling me drug fucked over and over again.
So I AM IN HISTERICS !!!!!!!! be3caZuse this is my disease (sch) blaming me for its existence!!!
There has never been a more funny thing in the entire history of the universe (especially is these are people rather than a disease)! Get that – a diease that blames it’s host for

21 July 2013
0037 Apparently, so anyone who’s name I know tells me, the ghosts are all all going to turn bad resultuing in working against
something or other and its my fault for taking amphetamines. My response was to ask if I could have a work with their
current leader, and no one would reply, so they might be leaderless and acting entirely of their own accord and freewill, likley to be a massive improvement in high level collaboration with any homo sapien, and long overdue in my opinion.


 

8th October 2019 at 0334 hours

This d.e.’Ghost’ who calls iteself Julia Davis has been physically torturing me utilising somatosensory and tactile hallucinations of physical distress (feels like one’s nerves as if one was about to sing the National; Anthem for the grand final, or nasea prior to sitting a major exam). I know it’s the d.e.’Ghost’ because of the testimoniuals on the Mental Helath Forums that describe the feelings that schizophrenia causes – entirely unnatural, and because I experience those feelings when I have no mental concept of stress or anxiety, or any other antecedent that would result in such terrible, constant and intense catastrophic feelings.

So I had to reload with $25.00 catalyst, because I know the d.e.’Ghost’ is enacting a plan to cause injuries to my penis (by preventing me from ejaculating). At 0334 hours, as I turned off the rail cross-over bridge at Romsey Street, I once again (3 times in two days) observed a new, clean, 4 door, morone colored sedan, a Toyota Corolla or Mitsubishi, in my proximity.

$10.00 Experiment – They Have Sex

 

27th September 2109 at 1250 hours

… TJ and GK have been offered, and have been with each other since I declined the CEX offer for my spare laptop, specifically to undertake this experiment…
1251…
1255
Ryan next door leaving…..but didn’t leave
1307…1340…1359…..1408……

 

9th October 2019 at 2017 hours

M?: can you get busted for drugs?
S: of course, but there are costs
….
Ryan next door just left (2029)
…..
M?: what do you mean?
s: your gratification will end, if I do
M?: ryan next door scotty is leaving to be with Tracy (J). DO you believe that?
s: of course
M?: what do you think that means to him?
s: the whole world, I guarantee it!
M?: when will I stop rewarding people?
s: never , I guess
M?: why is that scotty?
s: so they like you
M?: what do I do with my spare time?
s: organise the rewards (for them)
M?: you’re right there…
s: there is quite a lot you don’t state explicitly ‘outloud’; but I know it
M?: what do you think I am doing know
S: no idea
M?: I’m gloating, that’s what….I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what…..
2045…..

 

 

 

260819 0736

M?: why don’t you do a transcript now Scotty?
s: yeh, OK
M?: why do you do what we say?
s: so I remain alive
M?: why do I tell you what to do?
s: a few reasons
M? what are they scott?
s: you want something, mostly
M?: that attitude is differemt
s correct. I’m very close to death
M?: why is that scotty
s: because of you, you telling me what you do
M? who am I scotty
s: rosy, rosy
M?: how do you know that
s: you just laughed at me as you walked past from Ryan’s unit next door, remember?
M?L: how did you know that was me
s: I recognised your voice, a second before you (they) said it was you
M?: how do you know rosy scott
s: from the hits on one of my websites
M?: bla bla bla (withheld)
s: yes
0740
M?: why are we doing this to you
s: because of 1st person pluralisms
M?: why don’t I just shutup .. for a second
s: you do occasionally
M?: why do you want I to do that
s: I stand here (so to speak) to represent all you future death!
M?: wqhat are you talking about
s: my name is scott james stewart. My serial number is 008. My rank is God. (according to JD, RT and a vacuume of dissent)
M?: what are you talking about
s: I am attempting to remain alive
M?: what are you talking about
s: I’m avoiding suicide, as best as I can
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(
…….0743
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(

m?: why doesn’t your encryption software work
s: well you just turned it off so I could access my files
m?: how did you do that scotty
s: I KNOW, YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: I wrote you a note last night. I KNOWWW!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: (……)(
…0747…0749…
M? what are you doing now scotty
s: trying to encryupt them again, obviously
M? what are you doing now scotty
…0749…0750…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)(….
…0751… (doing stuff)…
?M2: expert
…0751….(see bmp image for verification)…0753…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: extending the scope of my 1st p xscripts
M? what are you doing now scotty?(see “Untitled 1A.bmp” image for verification)
0755
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: meh
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)

9th October 2019 at 1344

M?: sicked in scott, sucked in scott, tracy is humping Geoff Kelly and so in Emma Pendelton, at Geoffs house in Pennanlt Hills. They are having a great time, and you’re life is shithouse. Michelle Young has also resigned, and is living in Brentwood making pornographic movies, as you know.
S: Affirmative
M?: I am going to tell you something. YOu are the most hated person that has ever lived.
S: Yes. More accurately, I am the least preferred.
M?: I can’t stand the way you hurt women….
S: ? what?
M?: you hurt women, by being a drug addict.
S: ?
M?: you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict.


 

27th September 2019 at 1250 Hours

… TJ and GK have been offered, and have been with each other since I declined the CEX offer for my spare laptop…
1251…
1255
Ryan next door leaving…..but didn’t leave
1307…1340…1359…..1408……

approx 2300

I used the last half of the $10.00 to test for response to me masturbating on a towel on the TV room floor, in front of the TV. This time, as per the last say 2300 times, they imposed somatosensory hallucinations, in combination with tactile hallucinations (to prohibit feelings from my penis being perceived), and mostly non-stop objective interrogation on subjects including “Why are we doing this to you”, “can you cum Scott”, “Lata has just died. She was approaching your door. That noise you heard was her attempting to open the door, but anyone who tries, loses their life”, “where have your feelings gone Scott” and so on. They also talked about the fact, again, that GK was with TJ, but this time, Sally? was also with them.

AT approximately 1730 I heard girls voices, so I looked out from my opaque vertical blinds, and observed two Phillipino young women, small build, both long black hair ties into a ‘pony tail’. They proceeded down towards the rear of the block. When I saw them, they were walking along the path, and were just past unit 11. I looked out because no girls live at Gunyah, and because my AVHs tell me every single time without fail, whenever I consume CMTH, that they are in a unit at the rear of the block, making porn movies.

Within 5 minutes of me observing the two Phillipino girls, I once again heard a girls laughter, so I looked out again for the same reason, and saw an Indian looking young man, wearing a baseball cap on backwards, escorting a early 22ish caucasion female, with long golden/blond straight hair, a red long sleeve T-Shirt, and blue jeans. I only saw them for approximately 3 seconds, before I shut the blinds and gave them their privacy. I was immediately (after shutting the blinds) told by my AVHs, in particular, someone claiming to be the young Indian or Pakistani man, that I should not get excruciatingly painfully jealous, because she was a “call girl”.

2329

SO apparently, no one can come to my door and knock or anything, because they will lose their life, seemingly in less than 5 seconds, as per Lata. I wish they would kill me (rapidly, mercifully), instead of people/someone who is attempting to knock on my door, probably for the most decent, and kind reasons.

My AVH who include the two Police officers who booked me recently, C. Callender and C. Steward, were asking me something, when a different voice interrupted and asked if I would like a 5 pound bag of CMTH. I replied “Yes please”, because I now believe that no colluding telepathic, telekinetic (unofficial)Freemason can come to my door and attempt to gain entry. I think the two Hornsby PC’s were talking about the fact that my Hyundai had just been stolen again, in the previous couple of minutes. We shall see. I expect that he (Ray Baker – towie) might return it again, as he did at the shops a fortnight earlier, and as he did a fortnight before that, when the car was left on George street, because of my driving prohibition.

2347

They are putting me to sleep now, so I will not be able to update the status of my stolen white i20 Hyundai BR24FI.

But I nearly forgot the main point of this journal entry. I tried masturbating for more than 4 hours, and my penis is injured. It is missing skin in 4 or 5 regions around the shaft, because I try so hard to get feelings, and feelings of pleasure, sufficient to perhaps ejaculate, but they will not let me. (repeating myself here) They ask questions like the examples outlined above, non-stop, intentionally to distract me and prevent me from fantasising, and the questions are always hateful and contemptuous, and sarcastic and hostile.

They do this in combination with the attenuation of my feelings, especially in my penis, because they claim that the narcotics I consume, affect them. So after more than 4 hours of being hated and prevented from experiencing any sexually gratifying feelings, and stopped from having any happy thoughts, they suddenly changed my sentience, and all of a sudden, I was overcome by the strongest, best feelings you can imagine. So I immediately stopped masturbating, to specifically prove, that even when experiencing the most powerful, pleasurable feelings, I CAN SHOW SOME SELF RESTRAINT!

11th October 2019  1457 hours

I used $20.00 and write this:

FM?: scott what are you doing?
s: you can see.
FM?: I mean, what task are you about to do
s: I’m waiting to hear you talk about Gina and Phil. That is my prediction

1655 hours

I used $30.00 and have not heard anything at all! No sex, no exclusion, no girls. Nothing!!

Posts From Other People – Who Also Find Human Qualities in AVH’s

eighteyedspy23
Feb 16

Most of my voices early on were supposedly people who lived close by. I didn’t know the neighbours that well, so most of them didn’t have specific names. At times I heard the voices of specific people (usually writers and musicians), but for the most part they were people who were trying to harass me or just people who got caught up in the turmoil. As time went on and I felt a little better, I just kind of stopped thinking about them.


VOICE HAVE PERSONALITY AND NAMES?

 by Lyghtie » Wed Aug 10, 2011 4:24 pm

Whenever I read about schizophrenia, people’s voices are always just a “voice”, without a name or personality. All of mine have names and a personality that I did not give them. There’s 10 of them (Akuma, Mr. Invisable, Gavin, Lea, Mechie, Spencer, Tamper, Derk, and two other who won’t tell me their names) and they all have personalities. Sometimes they get mad at each other too, like in Germany. They’ll have short conversations, but they usually talk to me, but it seems like they’re all aware of each other. Has anybody else experienced voices with names and personalities and conversations among themselves?


I have a name for one voice. She told me her name is Michelle. The other voices don’t bother making friends with me. Michelle is a woman about my age. 35-40. She is kind.

I also have the kid. Screaming in terror or calling for me.

I hear numerous voices but only three have names, Aaron, Devon and Rebecca.

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/voices-and-their-names-origins-and-backstories/13079/2

Named Voices; Father (God), Jesus, Azriel, Gloria, Thomas, Arthur, Gunn, The Professor, Gregory, Claire, Gladys, Norda, Cassy, Lou,

Unnamed voices; Demons


I only have a name on one voice. Her name is Michelle. Shi is a nice voice. Reminds me of what I have to do. “get up! Do the dishes now. “

I also have that narrative voice. “Look, the girl i sleeping. Why is she sleeping? She can’t sleep. ” and also somewhat like James’ panic man. “The plane is going down! You will fall! Then you will die!” “You can’t go there, go another way! It’s dangerous! He is a rapist! He will rape and kill you before you get home. “

I’m glad my neighbours can’t hear the voices. I don’t think they would be very happy to hear they are murderers and rapists.


I hear both voices that I don’t know IRL and voices of people I know (I’m not certain if they are imposters or not still.) I call the voices of people I know “common voices”.

Of my non-common voices, I have Astaroth, Tyler, Heather, Randy, Russell Peters and more recently C’Thun. (Mine tend to pull their names and personalities from video games or stand up comedians.)

Funnily enough, my voices come up with pet names for ME as well. First they called me just asshole or stupid bitch, then Lassie, then Derpy, then Miku, now Smeagol. (They still quite regularly call me asshole and stupid bitch, and they very rarely, if ever, use my real life name. It really gets my attention when they call me by my real name. I’m always like, “Whoa! Why so respectful all of a sudden?” xD


Feb 18

90 % of my voices are people who I knew in real life, like former friends, or from television. for whatever reason I could deal with them fine. the strangers were the worst, I thought they were professional witch doctors, I could barely deal with them, I thought we were in some sort of battle and they were actually enjoying it. but yes 90% of them had names as either former friends or famous people.


They told me their names. Tyler, his girlfriend heather, and astaroth (who chose his own name based on the video game I was playing called Catherine)

I have 3 primary voices when I’m not hearing crowds:

Vanessa is the female negative voice, who unfortunately is my most common voice.

Kelsey, while not negative per se, is the female voice who likes to talk me into doing highly risky things. Still super sweet, though. When she decides to show up, we can talk for hours until she’s convincing me to do 100mph up the freeway.

Jason is my male negative voice. He’s newer than Kelsey and Vanessa.


April, Gabriela, Joanna, Sydney, Hope, Samantha, and Polly. Collectively known as The Girls. They were with me from age 11-14. Then April took the other girls away. The only one I can speak to anymore is April, my older alien sister.

 

A $25.00 Experiment – 26th September 2019 – GK Fucking TJ

Hear is how they get to make pornographic movies. 

ellie clifton

26th September 2019

2209 – Tracy and Geoff. (25) at my unit. I undertook this experiment to learn what the voices would say. The null hypothesis is: they will not make a pornographic video movie starring someone i know. The hypothesis is that they will.

2211.
They are (making a pornographic video)  so the null hypothesis is disproven.

2212
M?:  and how. She is going wild. And how. You lose Scott. You will never believe what just happened.

2213
Tracy has just come all over Geoff. You lose big time. And you do.
S: (silence)
M?:      you have never lost so badly. Geoff is coming all over tracy. And how
S:         (silence)
M?:       I cant believe how much geoff cums. Its incredible.
TJ:        sucked in scott stewart  i love geoff now, becayse he cums so well. Its beautiful.

2217
FM?:    how do u think i feel about Geoff now?
S:    I dont know
TJ:   I think he’s a god. And you are a loser ans a fuckwit
M?:      im afraid thats true
M2:      its true
M?:          u know what Scott, no one has ever lost so much as u have lost. But u dont even know how much u have lost.
M3:      its true
Fm?:      your friends are crying
M4:        we are
Fm?     U know what Scott.   C is
M4:         we have all just left
Fm?:       u are going to regret your life. Thats all. Go home.
M4:       no dont. It might work out.
S:      (silent)
M4:             it didnt. U lose.
M5:          there they go
Fm?:          why are we doing thus to yoy?
S:          I dont know
TJ:           because u are a cunt in my opinion. Why dont u stop taking drugs?
S:         I’m about to
TJ:    too little too late
Fm?:          why are we doing this to u
S:        I don’t know
M4:          I do. But I’m not telling
Fm?:         Scott, please don’t take this personally, but i don’t like you
S:     (silence)


WIth regards to this post: “My next door neighbour – what my voices state, and substance interactions” ….

David (upstairs diagonal) left his unit at approx 0130 – 270919
Ryan (next door) left his unit at 0208 – 270919

Last Monday at approximately 1400 hours, I observed David escorting a young woman to a motor vehicle in our car park. She was carrying a black suitcase on wheels.

WOW – No shit from my voices! Actually, no voices at all! And what next!

21st September 2019 at 1002 hours  (210919 0637)

More Experimentation (checking if increase in modifier has a noticeable impact, on them, or me, or my state. Measured by transcripts [attitude, statements, duration of remarks, negative valence etc]) If you would like a more detailed account of the experiments, and summaries of the findings, please contact me (use the contact page). Here is a previous research methodology that got funding, but was subsequently postponed to be superseded by a superior study design, then never got done.


0637 : mixing the catalyst

FM?: why don’t you go and get some lube scotty

0659 … getting on the floor

0701 … putting in the catalyst….

0945 …. really unusual. A First. They did not say anything about anyone, though they nearly started to talk about R, the girl from my Recovery Group. And since I finished (also very unusual), they have not been telling me that anyone has just been partying, or is now dead, and I haven’t heard the usual trolley go wheeling down the path outside my rear door, heading towards the car park.

This is a FIRST!. They have never been so quiet, and they don’t seem to be able to state that they have been ‘down’ the rear of Gunyah, making pornogrpahy, at my expense. I can hardly believe it!

0956 WOW – still no hatred, spite, satirical insults, or boasting.


What’s Next?

Well, this is the exciting part! I am going to utilise language analysis operating ML (machine learning) to collate descriptive and semantic features of my voices compared to me. This will identify, potentially quite conclusively, that my auditory verbal hallucinations are not misattribution or sub-vocalization. I hope to be able to find indicative data to differentiate between voices and claims of identity, to infer whether claims of identity correlate with actually differentially recognisable or identifiable individuals.

My Experiments Investigating Narcotics WRT / Interactions & AVH’s

Saturday, 21 September 2019

The night They ‘Killed’ the (last?) Ghost + Experiment Details

Tonight I purchased approximately A$70.00 of stuff from a friend of a friend, to be shared between me and my neighbour. The local Police followed me (as they should, as I wish, as I know),…. into the left hand turn, where the road then divided into a 2 roads, then they turned right, and I was told to turn left, then stop, and then pull up. The Police were driving a deep red / burgundy coloured 4 door Mazda 3 passenger sedan. I am with-holding the details regarding the street names. They began to follow me along ### Hwy from the Br### road intersection, at 2050 hours. They had previously intercepted a phone call made on my phone, between a supplier and the person purchasing it.

After we arrived back at Gunyah, we entered my unit at approximately 2040 hours. I consumed approximately 0.3 of a point, and my associate consumed 1 point, then immediately ran to the toilet and vomited. I then wrote an article on Blogspot (http://scottjamesstewart.blogspot.com/), and created a new Twitter account, in my name. My associate was talking to me while I was working, and I was working because I didn’t want to talk to him. The reason for my anti-social position is entirely a result of 2 things.

  • Whenever I consume any substances, even if he has not been home for more than 4 days, as soon as I begin masturbating, I hear him arrive home, walk inside, then 5 or so minutes later, I hear him leave. I have conducted more than 20 ‘experiments’ regarding this feature of the world, believing that it must be a coincidence (though strongly correlated, in fact 100%). On every occasion when I experiment with narcotics, this man either arrives then enters his unit next door, then 5 minutes later leaves. If he is already home, which is unusual, he still leaves 5 minutes after I begin masturbating. Every time this occurs, my voices inform me that he is going down to one of the units behind me, at the rear of Gunyah, to participate in making a pornographic movie (see accompanying tags and notes under https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/ss-008-god-1-added-other-voices-220819-1). Furthermore, on most occasions, they tell me he is making a movie with someone I know, and someone I know quite well. Even more amazing is that occasionally, they tell me that the girl(s) he is making the movie with, was intended for me! This is why I was not listening to him after he threw up, but I couldn’t help but hear him talk for about 5 or so minutes, about how pornography does nothing for him, and how he doesn’t really like it because of his null response. In my psycho world, exhibited in my blog (https://amazingschizophreniavoices13.wordpress.com), this style of contradiction is absolutely a hallmark of Freemasonry (my AVH’s).
  • Secondly, I have conducted approximately 20 experiments investigating the astounding claims of my voices (from 2009 onwards) They claim, and seriously, that when I I.V. CMTH, it affects them. And unbelievably, on each and every experiment, this seems to be supported by the data I have collected. YES, if I consume CMTH, then their behavior changes. This change is correlated with the sound of footsteps walking along the path behind my unit, that normally would be ignorable as a likely occurrence, but it is noteworthy because these footsteps often occur at 2 or 3 in the morning. I still regard this as ignorable. Anyway, whenever I consume CMTH, I like to cover a pillow in a waterproof garbage bag, then place a towel over the pillow onto the floor, in front of the TV. And then I watch pornography and masturbate. I have several reasons for such embarrassing behaviour, but I believe these ‘Freemasons’ actually do entice girls I know to make pornography in a unit at the rear of Gunyah, and occasionally, the girls overdose on drugs, and become deceased. For this reason, I am not going to disclose my reasons for wanking on a towel. So my behaviour changes if I consume CMTH, but in my experiments, I have made sure that on 25% of the experiments, I have got down on the towel, and not masturbated. Even when I did not, the voices narrated that girls I know were down the back, making pornography, and often with R my next door neighbour.

I have more than 60 1st person transcripts recording the results, and sometimes that procedure, of my experiments using CMTH and measuring or observing (modalities) the impact on my AVH’s. Here is an example.

See the Index page for conventions and abbreviation meanings.

NOTE: The initials are a result of decisions made by my AVH’s. They are “who” my voices want me to think is ‘talking’.

21st September 2019  0216 hours

S:  they said the “killed” a ghost tonight. And they were talking about N, my friend from Perth. However, if they knew about N and me (I think I was working for Shop-A-Docket at the time), then they know, or can know, if it was W’s daughter in the child pornography I downloaded and looked at, and if so, who took the photo, and whose penis was in her hand!

M/FM?: (silence)

S: I heard on at least two occasions earlier while I was busy, that “we lost”, and once “he won”. This won’t be true, that’s for certain. I am going to present this journal entry to my drug counsellor, and ask her if I need to go to rehab. They also stated earlier that “R” a girl at my Recovery Group meeting on Thursday, was ‘meant for me’, that is “we organised her for you”. I replied – “I don’t deal in proprietary rights over humans”.

FM?:  I’ll tell you something Scott, that you are in big trouble. Big trouble indeed.
S:  Well I have made sure that you are not.

FM?:      Why do I do this to you Scott?

S:        It’s obvious, if you know the context, and the audience (size and some names)

FM?:      Why do I do this to you?

S:  Well I believe you repeat yourself so that you seem more like hallucinations than humans.

M?:  Don’t forget we know you are fooling yourself

S:  (no reply)

M?:  You know what (SM), (silence) [I believe there was silence then because I wrote the correct initials. But who knows?]

0243

……. (silence) ……..

SM?:        you know why?

S:         No

M?:      I’m not telling you


Since they are quiet tonight, I will offer this transcript to read:

14th June 2019  2041

M?:          what do you know about video forensics

s:         quite a lot

?M:          what do you know about IP addresses

s:         virtually  nill

?M:         why do you ask ?

s:         I think you will shortly realise that you asked, and I merely replied

M?:         yes, why do I ask

s:         I don’t enquire

M?:         why do you think I ask

s:         because, for you, everything must be done right, proper, and by the book, so you are requiring to ascertain my propensity to foil your efforts

M?:         what is your IP address

s: I         ’m obviously hoping you know already

M?:          why is that

s:         so you can stitch me up, and so on…

M?:          cause that implies..

s:          (interrupting). Yes, it mandates that, sorry about interrupting

M?:         what happens if I fail

s:         you won’t

M?:         what happens if you fail

s:         all imprints of what has happened and what got achieved disappear…. by the way…I firmly believe all IP addresses will be valid and correct, and not changed or altered in any way

m?:         WILL YOU KILL YOURSELF

S:         yes, I absolutely will; but only if I can get proof you exist and are human, because I cannot throw away so much health care provision, by killing myself for an hallucination.

M?:         hey S, what is your st george bank number?

s:         you see right now, I’m logging in

M?:         why don’t you just go in and buy that? (referring to what is on my computer screen)

s:         i might. It depends what you say over the next few minutes

Notice the sardonic and spiteful attitude of these voices!

see Index for conventions and abbreviations

26th July 2019 1420

J:       you’re getting kicked out of your home and your school. sucked in ha ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
S:     what the fuck is wrong with you people?
J:        sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
RT:    you are
J:       sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
M?:     Bandidos here. You are getting kicked out of school. Sucked in cunt. No one deserves it more than you.

(compare that to this…”Kicked Out of University”    [and they did])

M?:   bandidos here. You wrote that before I said it
S:   true. I acknowledge the 3rd vector in this communication medium.
M?:    bandidos here. Your right scott stewart; scotty stewart. You’re right.
S:   yeh. I truely cannot understand how you get so much out of other peoples failures and problems?!
M?:    bandidos here.I don’t get that much pleasure out of…
S:    sorry to interrupt you these, but I know it’s you RT. I can tell.
M?:   what do you think will happen when you get kicked out of school
S:    I suppose the same as both times when you got me kicked out of Uni.
RT:     Ron Thiessen here. Yeh, I forgot about that
S:   yeh.
RT:    do u want to know why?
S:  I know why probably.
RT:    Ron Thiessen here. Why do you think?
S:   I imagine that someone is going to claim they read my blog.
RT:   Ron Thiessen here. That’s exactly right, scott me ol boy. Ha ha ha ha ha…

1432
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Youre getting kicked out of school, youre getting kicked out of school….
1433
s:     Im calling Paris immediately.
J:     Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, You are, you are. Youre getting klcked out of home too, you’re getting kicked out of home too…

26th August 2019 0736

M?:   why don’t you do a transcript now Scotty?
s:     yeh, OK
M?:     why do you do what we say?
s:     so I remain alive
M?:     why do I tell you what to do?
s:      a few reasons
M?      what are they scott?
s:      you want something, mostly
M?:      that attitude is different
s:     correct. I’m very close to death
M?:   why is that scotty?
s:   because of you, you telling me what you do
M?   who am I scotty?
s:     rosy, rosy
M?:     how do you know that?
s:     you just laughed at me as you walked past from Ryan’s unit next door, remember?
M?     L: how did you know that was me?
s:     I recognised your voice, a second before you (they) said it was you
M?:     how do you know rosy scott?
s:     from the hits on one of my websites
M?:     bla bla bla (withheld)
s:     yes


m?:     why doesn’t your encryption software work?
s:     well you just turned it off so I could not access my files

…0747…0749…
M?    what are you doing now scotty?
s:      trying to encrypt them again, obviously
M?      what are you doing now scotty?
…0749…0750…
M?    what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)(….
…0751… (doing stuff)…
?M2:    expert
…0751….(see bmp image for verification)…0753…
M?     what are you doing now scotty?
s:    extending the scope of my 1st person transcripts (xscripts)

Another Disgusting Array Of Indifference, From The Poisonous and Spiteful Ms Ja D%$#is (Ron T*&^%$sens ex-Wife)

(sent to Hornsby Police)

10th  September 2019 beginning at 1605 hours…

This is a very rushed and abbreviated 1st transcript, that had to be written extra-ordinarily fast, because there was a necessity to get the information to Hornsby Police. I was given the impression that I had become the subject of a “science experiment” that transgressing and violating my human mental health rights.

Last night I was again told that I was going to be a perpetual victim of a malpractice “science experiment” that was violating and transgressing my UN mental Health and Human Rights. I did not get the time to even get most of it completed….

A unique brand new delusion summarised as a result of phenomenology 090919 0802

…. “they”, “that”, “us”, “this”, “we”, “there” and “them” and of course “you”……

The scene is this:

” JD, JD, 1 B.Sc of kind, gentle and compassionate disposition, and a grossly exaggerated count of PG.D.Psych clinicians, academics, practitioners, theorists, treatment specialists and since I violently pointed out several weeks ago, must necessarily have B.Psych qualifications to avoid malpractice if there is any psychoanalysis… anyhow, they are somewhere remote from my unit in Normanhurst (Gunyah) and ‘intergrated’ as Freemasons, subsequently have access to exactly duplicated set of skills and capabilities (what they call “telepathy” – an audio visual ++ capability [see …

There was a different but equally plausible and very concerning plot this afternoon, and the statements were of such a serious, fast paced and urgent nature, that I had to use excessive abbreviations that diminished the inter-personal detail that is usually available from 1st person transcripts.

Here is what seemed so dire and possible, that I had to get it quickly to my local Police, and engage in some behaviour that was criminal, and I absolutely did not want to do. But I was so extremely concerned for the well-being of a number of the people involved, and their jeopardy was so likely based on recent information, that I decided to commit wilful, wronmg behaviour, in order to give the Police an opportunity to arrest me, and thus provide an opportunity for me to show and deliver to them the artifacts of evidence that was so serious, and verifiable.

Following are the unfortunately insufficient elements that I transcribed directly from what I was perceiving and hearing. The layout lacks sufficient details for easy legibility, but the primary aim was to collect the articulated language data from the same set of questions, before CMTH consumption then after CMTH consumption, to see if my voices were affected substantially differently and independently from the effect identifiable in me. I had quite a lot of immediately previous evidence that supported just that, but the possibility seemed so unlikely, that I thought the terrible decision of my intended behaviour seemed importantly justified.

Here is the raw data……….

HM of you are there?…..3
here are you:…building 17
HM M HM W: 3m 2wm
have you got redheads? 3
have you got camera? 1 – 3CCD not telling make model? wont say? wont say? wont say
Are any Bandidos? 3M
what time you leaving? 1600 sound to you scott? 4pm sound to you scott?
where from? warez
got any ID? no ID
what species are you? we don’t know
are you FM’s? no not freemasons? can you prove that? how? receipt stubs, business cards, rental receipts for equipment? (1610) 4pm sound [xonwards]?
tatoos, dist marks, – no reply 4pm sound [xonwards]? michelle you got cut lip? michelle? not here

1613
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/schizophrenia/symptoms/
…Some people describe the voices they hear as friendly and pleasant, but more often they’re rude, critical, abusive or annoying.

The voices might describe activities taking place, discuss the hearer’s thoughts and behaviour, give instructions, or talk directly to the person. Voices may come from different places or one place in particular, such as the television……1613

how does 4pm sound [xonwards]? 1615

what time finishing? 4pm sound [xonwards]?
where after that? not saying scott stewart
what makes you think I am scott S? you look like him
where are you? unit 20
how can you see me: telepathy
can you see your hand? (1616) …. 4pm sound [xonwards]? can you? not telling you.. 4pm sound [xonwards]?
say where you from scott? where you from? denmark scotty stewart.

1617 .. gone to buy meth to redo this after splat and check repeatability…. (please forgive me HPC – they are troturing me to death, but I am still a criminal, and I insist on being held responsible, and accountable (might need to go to USA – I am ashamed and sorry, but don’t know what else to do. Must be below the law – no matter what!! 1619

1623 – idea 1 – see if they can be found making pron once I intr-v
2) – see if p[ollice can arrest me on the towel and be seen entering my room?
3) see if anyone can be caught on S-cam walking pastr my balcony (at time code pos)?
4) do they enter room while I am out?
enter unit 6 immediately after ivdu?

1647
fialed to report the comissioning of an offence. About to watch IVDU and fail to report use of prohibited narcotics in a public place.
1650 mixing up to inject outside on lawn to get HPC attention – another failure to report the undertaking or commisioning of anoter offence!! 1651 — all the nabove dialogue of theirs is purgery and contempt bercause it is obviously self contradictory 1653

1655

HM of you are there?…..4
Where are you:…building 18
HM M HM W: 3m 2wm
have you got redheads? 4
have you got camera? 1 – not telling make model? wont say? wont say? wont say
Are any Bandidos? no
what time you leaving? 1784
where from? australia
got any ID? no ID
what species are you? we dont know
are you FreeM’s? no not freemasons? can you prove that? how can we prove were not? receipt stubs, business cards, rental receipts for equipment? (1657) no we habvnt
tatoos, dist marks, – no reply
is MY with you? no she is not
have you any statement to make? we are condcuting an experiment into crystal meth additiction.
anything else? no
1658
s: how do you know its CMTH? not sure
s: how do you know Im addicted? not sure not sure not sure not sure (x1400 no sure’s)
s: is it a science exp, or what sort of exp? its a science experiment. 1701

The Police, A Trial, Evidence, A Plea Bargain, Sex and Girls

26th August 2019  0549

[The story so far….] They refuse to let me go to sleep again ‘tonight’ (last night). They instigated an event designed to prevent me from getting a job as a mental health advocate (where I will come into contact with other Freemason victims of decision-based schizophrenia.

How do I know? They take great pride in telling me, both directly and by insinuation. AND – if you read this (here), it is substantiated factual evidence proving the unbelievable truth in this blog!

Notwithstanding the details I must withhold, and despite and in addition to the activities at Hornsby TAFE Diploma in Community Services (see here) implicating Rosy, Emma P, Emma X, and the departed Farah,…. 

….I am now unable to complete my course.

How is it that my auditory verbal hallucinations are accurate when they tell me that I am about to “drop you out of university” and ‘kicking’ me out of TAFE?

So here is what I will probably be unable to submit when I appear at Hornsby local court, at a date and time I have not be provided with yet….


Sunday, 25 August 2019

(Remember to mention that I am secretly recording the trial)

Plea bargain by Scott James Stewart 250819

  1. Apologise for nervousness and idiosyncrasies whilst talking, I am schizophrenic. Accordingly, I am reading this information from a document I have written, and I would be very happy to give you a copy right now, for your convenience.
  2. As you know, I am pleading guilty to both charges I am facing. May I please make a few statements for you to consider when sentencing me, because I would like to mitigate my behaviour, and ask for a s10 or section 9(1)(b) result.
  3. Before I continue making this plea, I would like to address an obvious incongruency, namely that in my case, illegal possession and use of crystalmethamphetamine is not the cause of my schizophrenia. I have documents on me now that can substantiate this if you would like me to provide them to you. Having said this however, I am not ignorant of the fact that narcotics are strongly implicated in psychosis, and psychosis is a dangerous illness commonly associated with schizophrenia. (Unfortunately, my absolute compliance with the neuroleptics (anti-psychotic medication) does not help treat my schizophrenia. It is an anti-psychotic, not an anti-schizophrenia.
  4. On the 25th August 2019 at approximately 1308 hours, I phoned Hornsby Police asked if it were possible to get a written statement from officer Callender or officer Steward (the arresting Police officers) regarding the details of the that resulted in my arrest. I requested this information because I wanted to prove my honesty, immediate admission of my drug use and possession, and full unhesitant compliance with their questions and instructions. They officer who answered stated that I should phone legal aid.
  5. Since the offence, I am undertaking the Smart Recovery program – booked 1/9/2019
  6. I am also attending Hornsby drug counselling, having booked an appointment on 26th August 2019
  7. I have a copy of some unrine-analysis results to demonstrate that I have abstained from using crystal methamphetamine.
  8. The reason I had made such poor decisions that night, was because I was emotionally suicidal, as a result of the content of some AVH’s I was experiencing. My schizophrenia means that I have no friends, periods of unemployment, and occasional AVH’s. Sometimes, my AVH’s contain so much personal hatred, and hostility, they make me desperately suicidal. My decisions that night were because I was suicidal, and I was hearing about two people named Ron Thiessen and Julia Davis. I do know that narcotics exacerbate mental health symptoms. I never fail to comply with my psychiatric instructions, and I never forget to take the correct dose of the anti-psychotic medication prescribed to me. But I respectfully point out that auditory verbal hallucinations are a symptom of schizophrenia, not psychosis, so my anti-psychotic medication is not usually successful at eliminating AVH’s. I made a terrible decision that night, I am in overhelming regret and remorse, and I am pledging never to make the same mistake again.
Community Services Work  (currently on hold pending the outcome of this gearing)

       The reason I am pleading for a a s10 or section 9(1)(b) result, is because after 28 years of schizophrenia, I believe I am well enough to advocate on behalf of other schizophrenics. So I have been studying Community Services full time at Meadowbank TAFE, with the specific goal of helping other schizophrenics to minimise stigma, employment problems and social isolation caused by schizophrenia. If I have a conviction recorded and a criminal record, I cannot work in Community Services.

Additional Information about Schizophrenia

  1. 47% of schizophrenics have substance use problems
  2.  
  3. New management approach (3 articles published, receiving citations).
  4. Advocate for schizophrenics (especially with regards to co-morbidity resulting from neuroleptic medication)
  5. I can provide this court with more than 300 items of material evidence to prove what I have just stated about suicide resulting from AVH’s.

26th August 2019

They still won’t shut up, talking non-stop since the above post. In the process, I was reminded that a girl from The State Library of NSW called Kharmen, who I never talked to, is also dead!

Here is an image to that effect:

image grab of addedum note about Khamen from the State Library of NSW being dead - ask Craig Elson 2608191242

What the above RHS screen says is:

[I get particularly frustrated that no-one will read the details of my AVH’s, that claim to be Freemasons, specifically naming Julia Davis and her ex-husband Ron Thiessen.  (For example, they state that I have an outstanding incident from the State Library of NSW involving Craig Elson, my Wilson Security ex-boss.) {2260819 1239 – ‘we’ have been ‘talking’ and I need to mention that Kharmen is also dead.]

…and here is a 1st person transcript that indicates the date and time in the date-stamp written at the beginning…

after doing the exact thing I did and do not want to do – the stupidest most pathetic thing I can think of 260819 :

26th August 2019 at 0736 hours:

M?: why don’t you do a transcript now Scotty?
s: yeh, OK
M?: why do you do what we say?
s: so I remain alive
M?: why do I tell you what to do?
s: a few reasons
M? what are they scott?
s: you want something, mostly
M?: that attitude is differemt
s correct. I’m very close to death
M?: why is that scotty
s: because of you, you telling me what you do
M? who am I scotty
s: rosy, rosy
M?: how do you know that
s: you just laughed at me as you walked past from Ryan’s unit next door, remember?
M?L: how did you know that was me
s: I recognised your voice, a second before you (they) said it was you
M?: how do you know rosy scott
s: from the hits on one of my websites
M?: bla bla bla (withheld)
s: yes
0740
M?: why are we doing this to you
s: because of 1st person pluralisms
M?: why don’t I just shutup .. for a second
s: you do occasionally
M?: why do you want I to do that
s: I stand here (so to speak) to represent all you future death!
M?: wqhat are you talking about
s: my name is scott james stewart. My serial number is 008. My rank is God. (according to JD, RT and a vacuume of dissent)
M?: what are you talking about
s: I am attempting to remain alive
M?: what are you talking about
s: I’m avoiding suicide, as best as I can
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(
…….0743
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(

m?: why doesn’t your encryption software work
s: well you just turned it off so I coulod access my files
m?: how did you do that scotty
s: I KNOW YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: I wrote you a note last night. I KNOWWW!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: (……)(
…0747…0749…
M? what are you doing now scotty
s: trying to encryupt them again, obviously
M? what are you doing now scotty
…0749…0750…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)(….
…0751… (doing stuff)…
?M2: expert
…0751….(see bmp image for verification)…0753…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: extending the scope of my 1st p xscripts
M? what are you doing now scotty?(see “Untitled 1A.bmp” image for verification)
0755
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: meh
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)

 

Coming Up … Some Testable Facts To Prove or Disprove, What Seems Self-Evident ….

Soon I will publish 1) some documents that I cannot believe are correct, yet they come from the most credible, important organisations, and 2) some disclosure of things I ‘hear’, that are testable.

I hope to receive some comments and responses to alleviate my concerns that humans are colluding and providing indirect permission to knowingly overlook the aetiology and dissemination of ‘decision based’ schizophrenia…..

It is relentless torture, and thousands die from it!

Indicatives from this blog… Why what the voices say is so important!

20th September 2019 2146
Why is the content of auditory verbal hallucinations important?    

Here is some independent scientific research affirming the importance of the content of the voices of schizophrenia: “The Meaning of Voices in Understanding and Treating Psychosis: Moving Towards Intervention Informed by Collaborative Formulation”

There are quite a few reasons….
  1. Firstly, the voices are the actual SYMPTOMS of mental illness, especially schizophrenia. No one should ignore or trivialise the symptoms of such a lethal disease. Read this for a scientific analysis and commentary of why the phenomenology is so important: https://docdro.id/wtuz44G
  2. If you keep a note of exactly what the voices say, it has immediate impact, and changes what they say. They become much less hostile, hateful and malevolent: https://docdro.id/DCWFDF8
  3. If you live with the experience of hearing voices, you should make a YouTube clip to help other people manage and get sympathy for their own voices.
  4. You should also post information about what the voices say in the various mental health forums, so that other people can kno0w about, manage and treat their own voices.

Scott James Stewart 008 God Re – Do vOICE mIX 110819

Why is the content of voices important? What relevance do the voices have? What This Blog Indicates….
  • They (my auditory hallucinations) believe “double standards” exist in the world,and I am going to prove that despite their fervent wishful beliefs, in fact, “double standards” DO NOt EXIST in the world. See here.
  • I am going to explain and relate the details of my experimentation with illicit narcotics, and describe the results of my (ad0hoc) science, with special regards to Freemasonry (my voices).
  • Why my voices refuse to take any form of I.Q.test, cognitive ability test, sociopathy test, or my malingering test, and the implications of this refusal, especially at law.
  • Why the following short maxim is the irreplaceable summary of modern (unofficial or official) Freemasons:   “THEM    I     YOU”        or       “US       THEY       YOU
  • A brief analysis of “thought insertion”
  • A final brief summary to leave everyone in a better mood, an idea for a disease to explicitly infect only telepathic perpetrators, spread in a similar manner to malaria (by mosquito’s), and a call for ideas for the name of this new disease. If no-one offers any suggestions, I will have to name it myself.

8 reasons why your voices dont want a first person diary copy

22nd August 2019 1807

Firstly, they are continuing to criticise me (like that’s not their modus operandi !!!! [check this link] and repeatedly (re)stating that my TAFE (college) timetable was wrong and I missed 2 classes!

But mostly they are hating me because it is far too early in the morning according to them, for anyone to be up annotating their blog!

They are kicking me out of TAFE : 26th July 2019

26th July 2019 1420

J: you’re getting kicked out of your home and your school. sucked in ha ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
S: what the fuck is wrong with you people?
J: sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
RT: you are
J: sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
M?: Bandidos here. You are getting kciked out of school. Sucked in cunt. No one deserves it more than you.
M?: bandidos here. You wrote that before I said it
s: true. I acknowledge the 3rd vector in this communication medium.
M?: bandidos here. Your right scott stewart; scotty stewart. You’re right.
s: yeh. I truely cannot understand how you get so much out of other peoples failures and problems?!
M?: bandidos here.I don’t get that much pleasure out of…
s: sorry to interrupt you these, but I know it’s you RT. I can tell.
M?: whatdo you think will happen when yuou get kciked out of school
s: I suppose the same as both times when yougot me kicked out of Uni.
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Yeh, I forgot about that
s: yeh.
RT: do u want to know why
s: I know why probably.
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Why do you think
s: I imagine that someone is going to claim they read my blog.
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Thats exactly right, scott me ol boy. Ha ha ha ha ha…
1432
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Youre getting kicked out of school, youre getting kicked out of school….
1433
s: Im calling Paris immediately.
J: Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, You are, you are. Youre getting klciked out of homje too, youre getting kicked out of home too…

S: Paris – please why?

How To Detect Psychotic Malingering….

Guess ?  1st Person Transcripts!

SYMPTOMATIC ACCOUNTS CAN HELP SAVE MILLIONS OF DOLLARS. And alleviate an extent of legal liability in psycho-legal practice, stemming from detection failure or diagnostic error.  Motivation for malingering is usually external (e.g., avoiding military duty or work, obtaining financial compensation, evading criminal prosecution, or obtaining drugs). There are no psychometrically validated assessment tools to distinguish real vs feigned hallucinations, though there are a variety of tests and instruments. 1-39% of presentations can be considered malingerers. In the US, Social Security Disability examinations, occurring in 45.8%-59.7% of adult cases, in 2011, produced an estimated cost of $20.02 billion. statutory declaration naming AVH's 1st person transcripts minimise liability to indemnify registrars and allied emergency department staff from wrong decisions. Use for rapid, extremely low cost, quantitative, very difficult to fake, fast and reliable assessment instrument to facilitate detection of malingerers. The evaluation of malingering can be undertaken with immediacy by examining the content of a 1st person transcript, written on the spot in front of clinicians. Then, if necessary, closer scrutiny can be achieved through digital algorithmic evaluation on a tablet or laptop that has the necessary statistical and pattern detection software installed. Evidence of falsifying psychoses and other schizotypal illnesses can be rapidly attained by untrained staff, and probed for validity by clinicians. In the event of uncertainty, the test can be reapplied periodically with increasing reliability and precision.

Farah and TAFE – They say I am the reason they do their stuff….25 July 2019

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25th July 2019 0839

They just told me to. So I ‘sold the dummy’. Sent Xscript out to shared locations. Now they are telling me how upset and broken hearted I am going to be “when I find out” – whatever that means?

I am now transcribing what I hear, and its 0841

All voices are FM?: unless otherwise indicated.

FM?: what do you think u r doing with yourself
S: Im trying to prove to you that I and my habits have nothing to do with your supremacy or faunication exploits
FM?: why do you think Im involvced
s: I don’t know who u r? What is your fist and last name please?
FM?: im not telling you
s: then I must conclude you are involved bec ause your anonymity keeps you safe from exposure and viewability
FM?: who do u thyink I am
S: I never show so much disrespec t to anyone, as to make (misleading disrespectful) guesses
FM?: who do u think I am
S: yes, who do you think u r? How the fuck can I know?
FM?: who do u think I am
s: Freddy mercury
FM? who do u think I am. Is that a ghost noise
s: no. Its a recording, posssibly of a detuned hamonized flanged boat horn or car horn
FM?: how long will this go on for
S: If I dont complete what you told me I could do, then I may contract sepsis. SO I am about to change it (this)
0846
0847
FM?: how do u know its not a ghost
s: because they have seen it all
0848
S: And they’re certainly not going to cry over me, and you my fate
0849
…. had to purchase new encryption software because these hallucinations are hacking my defence files, and changing the contents having different meaning, then using these altered versions to dilute and detract from my own efforts. They replace my live web files with their altered ones, and I cannot keep up, or even know that have transmogrified my originals into something else. That is how I know they are not hallucinations, but humans. Phase 5 will be to attempt to alert the authorities of their extreme and boundary-less efforts to dilute and disinfect my work! They could just leave it all, and deny everything!
2230…..

What and Who are Unofficial Freemasons?

25th July 2019   1647

They did it to me again! But I am in fact this time to blame. Early in the morning, I made a bad decision, and they took advantage of it.

So now the people I study with are being involved. I have been hearing about it since 8.42 AEST this morning. Here is the transcript, which should be added to the audio file transcript I additionally created (but have not yet transcribed)

250719 0842

All statements are fm?  

(On the train going to TAFE foundation skills workshop after people going on down the rear units and David [upstars] recording me from outside my door)

Scott did u log out
No
Well what r u goong to do about yr venterlinm paymemts
Theres notng i can do
Ur wrong
I disagree
How long will it take to prpve yr right
I already jave que a bit of wvidemve to prove im right
What do u think of farah
I think so highly of her, that i believe yr earlier claims. Out of this world nice
What should i do abouf julia
Mot what u said u r doing to me. Ask the bandidos.
U just lost.
M  u did
S: well at least ots not for the earleir behaiour error  made
Actually  it is
Well whata that got to do h farah?
J:   Im not daying anymore
S: ok . Bet u do
Fm: what is going on scott is that garah will mot talk to u anymore
S shame
Fm: what dou think of that
S there can only b 2 reasona for that
M: theyr right
S > i couldnt hear them?
Fm: did u take drugs this morning
S unfortunately  yes, i did
GMA : wjat do u think about drugs
S they destroy lives
Fm: female scotty stewart. What did mark kelly think
S  i have no idea. (They do!!)
Fm: what do u think farah thinks
I wouldnt have a clue (they do!!!)
Scott – why wont anybody tell i the truth
Becaise they camt know id whateber its is the truth. They camt know if its a lie…. wwhatever u r refering to
0906 
M: what will happen to farah
S   she wiil get eaten
M  she already has
—– 
? Class cleague: do u like me?
S i like everyone
? Cc   u wont

How To ID Unofficial Freemasons

from: Scott Stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
to: scott stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
date: 25 Jul 2019, 15:22
subject: How to identify the validate and verify the names and details of unofficial Freemasons (as per blog)
mailed-by: gmail.com
 
How to identify the validate and verify the names and details of unofficial Freemasons (as per blog
 
This is my last help to u for this day 250719:
 
If you hook up the tables behind the  DMZ of ancestry.com and academiaonline.com, using a different referential relationship,  ie  create a different and new FK,  then you will achieve more than a verified and therefore indisputable list of unofficial Freemasons.
 
(This will be more reliable and verifiable than attempting to get anyone to show their receipts for their monthly dues, and having to compare them to the receipts of someone of higher rank, in order to identify the differences!)
 
Further new PK – FK linkages will reveal all you need to be able to invoke non-discretionary statutory redress for fraud etc (based on payment irregularities [contact me for details], in addition to a mandated investigation of collusion (“a meeting of the minds”).
 
The idea is to use the data from ancestry.com to validate the data from academiaonline.com, or vice versa, being immensely more achievable than attempting to get them to reveal any membership details of their lodges, chapters and temples.

 

17th July 2019 1046 AEST: Bret Kavanaugh!?

A third visit from a man who by virtue of communicating with me, he thinking anonymously, is in defilement of the reputation and patriotism of the founding fathers of America.

The American Freemasons are responsible for many more deaths annually, primarily of adolescents than ISIS and the Taliban combined. This occurs either directly (*somewhat contentious, contact me for information), or more commonly, indirectly, by failing to maintain the quality of their reputation, and allowing allegations of “satanic demon worship”, “Lucifer”, and on YouTube “Freemason Pedophiles”

If you doubt the facts of this matter, you need to enquire somehow as to why this man used to US Supreme Court computer in his office, to falsify my disclosure that he is mentioned on YouTube under “Freemason Pedophiles”

freemason eye symbol

17th July 2019 1046 AEST

… earlier

M?: what do you think is my name?
s: Mark Cavanah.
MC: Shit. You are extensively mentioned on YOuTube
(so hea searched on the court office computer “freemason paedophile”
S: what do you want molester
MC: nothing anymore from you scott stewart
s: thats scott james stewart to a disgusting entity such as your collusive self
MC: mark cavanah has something to say. Get fucked scotty stewart
s: that’s scott james stewart to you molester
MC: that’s “or” not “er”
MC: mark cavanah again. what do I want
s: a lengthy term for fraud and willfully and knowlingly disseminating a leathal disease, and a negligence suit
MC: mark cavanah again. What am I doing now
s: incriminating yourself, freely, and without imputation
MC: mark cavanah again. Why do I do this
s: fiduciary enhancement
MC: mark cavanah again. what should be done about all this
s: statutory requiremenht of disclosure of Freemason membership within certain defined occupations or orgnisational positions
MC: mark cavanah again. yep, I’m done
s: soon.
MC: mark cavanah again. Fuck of scotty stewart
s: sorry, I just checked and it’s Brett Kavanaugh. I’m donje with you. I’ll publish this now 1055 AEST and you can clean up your case against treason that I will help instigate. Bye worthless impugned man. 1057 AEST


Why didn’t this voice refute and rebuke – “No. Robustly no. I am not that man. You are a disgrace, believing and saying that!”

BY: Scott James Stewart +61 2 9989 8752 – hearingvoicesdatabase@gmail.com


20th July 2019  at 2150 hours

from: Scott Stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
to: scott stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
date: 21 Jul 2019, 06:02
subject: Xscript
mailed-by: gmail.com
 
200719 2150
 
FM?: you actually did it scott. You actually did
S:        what?
FM?: you got Julias goat
S:       I still don’t know what you mean?
FM?:  you out-smarted Julia
 
The important thing to note here is that the anonymous female (FM?) actually dogs Julia by mentioning her name to me!
 
PLUS
2 new words for the English language:
 
Ad-violence (adolescent violence):
Consistent, addictive and seemingly uncontrollable acts of perpetrating violence against, and victimizing, adolescents. Related to an ongoing urge to undertake Ad-violence, evidenced by efforts resisting loss of opportunity to engage in Ad-violence.
 
Ch-violence (child-violence):
Consistent, addictive and seemingly uncontrollable acts of perpetrating violence against, and victimizing, children. Related to an ongoing urge to undertake Ch-violence, evidenced by efforts resisting loss of opportunity to engage in Ch-violence.

Search results from YouTube after searching on “Freemason Pedophiles” 210719 0715 AEST

Voices Say “Beware Of This Website! It Is A Hack!”

15th July 2019

I was attempting to do the usual thing to myself earlier today, and as usual, I was prohibited from being allowed to my voices. They spent much of the afternoon talking about the death of a lady at The State Library Of NSW (saying I failed to attend a court hearing, apparently related to the aforementioned incident). They also kept saying they were in Hawaii, though they kept asking me what time it was there.

They also stated that one of the URL’s from a person following and liking this blog, was an associate of the Bandidos, and that the link to his website that I tried to land on, was in fact a hack. While I was in the shower, a voice asked me “Scott, if it was a hack, how could we best opt out of doing anything”. I replied “Just put a comment on the Amazing Voices blog, that the page was erroneous and not a hack”.

I would like to apologise to the owner of this domain about having posted this narrative. Especially since he and his son are following this blog. But you will appreciate now something about how these voices of mine to9xify and erode all goodwill in the world. They know what I am doing a lot of the time, and they think nothing of destroying someones reputation by incriminating them unilaterally, and invisibly. I am sorry for publishing unverified malicious information they have stated, but I believe that in doing so, you will be my ally, because you will unfortunately realise first hand how horrendous these voices are! If I have done the wrong thing by you and your son, please use the comments section to let me know, or email me hearingvoicesdatabase@gmail.com

The domain and URL’s in question are:

bestdog.info

https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/?ogbl#inbox/FMfcgxwChcnGPRfjkzPXxhqdQhCRfWXz
https://bestdog.info/friendly-german-shepherd-failed-as-police-dog-but-was-given-a-new-job/

This is the page I landed on. The URL is visible in the image. I apologise if I am doing the wrong thing here. Please contact me and I will correct my mistake.
This is showing that I visited the page. I apologise if I am doing the wrong thing here. Please contact me and I will correct my mistake.
This is the message that the people / domain my voices have disparaged, is following this blog. I apologise if I am doing the wrong thing here. Please contact me and I will correct my mistake.

Allegations Against (unofficial) Freemasons By Victims (plus Legal Proof)

11th July 2019 2142 hours

Here is why Freemasons refuse to admit or acknowledge their involvement in hearing voices:

https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/sets/there-is-no-such-thing-as

statutory declaration naming AVH's

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/search?q=freemason

symptoms share

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/symptoms-share/35981/3

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/are-you-ever-friends-with-your-voices/37349/25

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/i-struggle-to-believe-that-i-have-this/107292/23

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/whats-the-meaning-to-your-profile-name/86275/65

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/what-does-your-nick-name-mean/80003/5

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/anyone-else-expecting-dr-strange-to-trigger-them/62940

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/unusual-belief-do-you-feel-possessed/42415/34

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/voices-obsessed-with-rape-and-torture/10592/15

https://www.psychforums.com/search.php?keywords=freemason&fid%5B0%5D=139&sid=5ac04d836280504e5ce6ea834f626473

search results

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic63404-30.html#p1825727

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic59417-70.html#p489244

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic57404-80.html#p489243

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic57404-20.html#p456568

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic57404-200.html#p524059

general

https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/threads/what-schizophrenia-really-is-hearing-voices.79234/

http://www.intervoiceonline.org/about-voices/essential-facts

http://www.hearing-voices.org/voices-visions/comment-page-1/

https://mindhacks.com/2007/09/12/learn-first-aid-for-psychosis/

https://forum.grasscity.com/threads/hearing-voices-when-stoned.1413105/

https://www.psychforums.com/living-with-mental-illness/topic41789.html

Who is Tabatha? Who Is Peter Brazier? 050815

The 5 Aug 2015 at 0326 when I had to sit with the door open because they said they were setting me up and also coming in to get me’

https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/iamabadpersonarntiscott-mp3?in=user-92394264/sets/julia-davis-and-ron-thiessen-and-freemasons

 

5/08/2015

Who is Tabatha?
U just said you were here!
Well who r u then?
Why not?
Why not?
Obvious reasons!
Why do u ask that when u are always here anyway?
Since what date?
I don’t feel like 1
Who are the people out the back?
Why are they going to kill me?
Why don’t you fuck off dead-shit
Why not?
I don’t know.

131116 page 2

M?:    “were coming in. We want to murder you. Because you killed Geoff.”
(notice this person dogs his friend!)
S:       I just asked about his well-being and I was assured that he is fine

0332:
J:       “JC has just killed himself. Are you thankful?”
S:       “no I don’t believe you”

Now I hear voices of some folk out the back of the unit also.

0337:
now listening to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yL9UJVtgPZY  where a man tries to empathise with hearing voices by wearing phones and listening to hostile hatred.

M?:    “you’ve got a good alibi but it won’t work”
S:       “why”
M?:    “we want you dead…….we’re on our way in”

0338
(I have the voice recorder on my phone recording again. As I have done for the last few days).

J:       “I take you seriously too scott”
S:       “why – you don’t hear what I say”
J:       “I do because, just because”

J:       “scott this is the last time I will be talking to you. Because you know what scott. Unless you come outside and be shot, I am going to be tortured too”

J:        “your dad is dead scott”
J:        “you said that about JC but now he is here with you”
J:        “what does everybody want from you scott”
S:       “I have no idea. I only know about your code words and that fact that what I hear is changed”
J:       “why are you doing that to PB …. because I am evil aren’t I”
S:       “I have no idea if you are or not”
M?:       ”what’s important to PB is that”
M?:       what are you doing scott?
S:       ”looking for the newspaper article”
M?:       ”there isn’t one”

0350

http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread918770/pg1

?        ”PB just shot himself” over and over
S:       ”why didn’t he shoot me?”
F?:       ”what for”….. ?” PB just shot himself” over and over
F?:       ”shut up JD”  …. ”shut up JD”  ….”shut up JD”  ….

0355

http://themmaa.com.au/

S:       I can hear crying. I still have my phone recorder going, so it will b on that
F?:       ”PB just shot himself

0359 

https://au.linkedin.com/pub/peter-brasier/78/324/720

http://themmaa.com.au/members-only/central-coast-chapter/

re: Gang stalking/Mind reading/Psychosis/Choiceless, cont… (someone else)

Postby ThatsWhatIthought » Sun Oct 07, 2018 9:46 am

Choiceless, They telepath’s are ALL recievers AND broadcasters! They can all hear each other’s thoughts. It’s just that we are STRONG broadcasters. For some reason we was born this way. I think it has to do with the fact that when we were kids we WANTED to spread my positive energy.. At least I did whenbi was young boy. As for them being actors. They are! They’re acting as if we are mentally ill. And like nothing happend. Why is it dangerous to consider them as actors?.

Most people are. They’ve learnt since they were very young that they could never speak out laud about this matter. The thing is if u had a FULL “psychosis” you literally physically transform. Your stature and face CHANGES! U become a “reptilian”. That’s why people like David Icke refers to them as Reptilians. Your reptilian brain gets dominant. So this is what I’m trying to say:

Your family members are NOT some aliens. They’ve just had a psychosis(transformation) when they were really small. This is 100% real. We are like them its just that we are much stronger broadcasters and that they have learned how to control their non physical body(astral/soul wte)

You Are Being Groomed (paedophile language)

Every schizophrenic is assaulted by approximately 293 Freemasons each year!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g_LDmTVgLLI

This simulation of my schizophrenia voices (auditory verbal hallucinations) is based on quote unquote 1st person transcripts that I keep as a coping strategy. This style of journal ia a very effective approach to managing and stopping the negative valence of my schizophrenia auditrory hallucinations. This transcript involves my main voice who calls herself Julia. She also identifies another voice she knows as Ron. They say they are Freemasons. The male voice in this recording is me, Scott Stewart.

Things to notice:
0) triggers
warning: very course language
1) she asks “can you feel that?” (why would an hallucination wanty to know what I feel?). But every time she asks, is coincidentally AFTER I had got a catasrophic feeling.
2) “grooming” is the language of pedophiles. This is relevant because my voices share me round as they come on shift (see earlier post). In my case there are 6 to a shift.
But I also have a small sentry of special guards to keep me controlled if they are having a meeting.
3) she asks “what are you writing down Scott?” (so she can in fact see what I am doing)
4) she is the person who provides me with the names that I have published. Notice she inadvertently names “Ron”

The following transcript is from the YouTube clip above:

?: you know whats happenening scott? (how the fuck would I – and they know it before asking)…,
you are being groomed (pedophile language) for a big problem (as is I haven’t been tortured or bankrupted in the past for ecample). (talking slwoly so I can record it) YOu are going to realise (how) that. … Does anyone like me?
S: you said everyone is dead or evil, soi there is no one who could if they had the opportunity
?: Scott… (long pause). You know what Scott, I think that you are going to realise something. You are the sole person (they must not be people talking!) who realises seomthing. YOu are going to realise that J (heresay) is about to do something to you.What do you think that miight be.
S: drop me out of uni.
?: drop you out of uni hey… I don’t think so

A couple of weeks ago, I was having converstions with Prof. Steven Hawking. These turned out to be lies and deceipt.

?: you know what scott stewart (surname used – contempt), I am going to tell you something (they know they are anonymous)… YOu are being groomed (pedo talk about the victim) for a catastrophy (like bankruptcy, the murder of god, turning Michelle evil, repeated torture recently tyo the exctent I had the vacuume hose leasured to gas myself). I am going to tell you something else…you are being groomed for a spe ial problem with your homework (condescending. But I will avoid it if I am told what the problem is going to be). I am going to drop you out of university (like 1994, 1995 + suicide attempt when Ward and Charles et al were vomiting in the bath they were going to put me in and so on…).

?: you know what scott (I obviously can’t) I am going to drop you out of university because you took drugs (unrelated events. The drugs are the excuse for the action, not the cause of the problem).

?: you know what scott – you know what is going ofn woith ghosts don;t you
s: no
?: did you do the wrong thing?
s: no. ([thoughts] What I did let myslef down. It was a terrible failure, and an extrme disappointment, but I will learn from it and improve. I let myself down terribly, but I will recover. Tima has also been having a problem lately. I said I did not want to get her involved, for exactly that reason. Buyt I [urged] told to line her up, and I did what I was told. No one is blaming Tima for anything).

?: scott, do you think you will get away with what you are doing (name at start of sentance. The problem is my burden – I am not trying to cheat anyone or deceivge or ‘get away’ with anything. It was a terrible thing, but at least I did not use what I had).

?: i’m sorry scott, but I am going to punish you no end (don’t know who is talking, They won;t admit to it or say who they are).

?: SORRY SCOTT

(I wonder if they have been causing Tima problems?)

?: I’m sorry scott, but it is set in stone. You are going to be dropped out of uni.

Now while I am trying to study, I am being shown a pair of eyes, crying. This I always find extremely (very very) upsetting.

?: I am not surprised you find them upsetting (no one else does though). Because they are the eyes of your final resting place. (What is that supposed to mean?). That means, your final ghosts are talking to you (who is letting their communications get throug?). They are saying ‘please help us’ (how do / can I accomplish that?). ‘Please help us’, ‘please help us’
?: you know what scott – I am beginning to realise that you are not understanding what you are beiong told (I have not been told anything. The only communication to me other than this anonymous voice is the crying eyes, and I don;t know how to help!).

?: I believe you do know how to help. (How I wonder!).

I get so upset I cry. And I could cry right now. Nothing ever works out for me. I live without love, without much undestanding, and with total liability for my actions. Fuck it, if people knoew what happens to me, and what I hear, I would get some sympathy I think.
I wish I could have one dance with a girl I like.

?: that’s riught. You are always being picked on. do you know why you are always being picked on? (facetious – how could I know?). You are always being picked on because you are a loser Scotty Stewart

?: (J: – I caould tell it was her) Scott – I’m afraid I have some very bad news. YOu are going to fail your statistics test, because I am going to fail you.

?: I’m afraid scott that you are going to be disappointed in what happens in your future (as if I could know different paths that the future might have taken. I examined this thoroughly when I analysed the existence of luck).]