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A Summary Of Similarities With Other People’s – AVH – Schizophrenia Voices

How would you deal with this?
Should I talk back to the voices?
Am I horrible for my thoughts?
What am I hearing if it’s not REAL people? WHO?

7th June 2019 2214 – By Someone Else

 

I thought they were trying to kill me..I was kind of Freaking out about it. The only suggestion was to stay sober or go to the mental hospital. Which I tried both, but it didn’t a damn thing. I started thinking, who would really go through all this trouble to follow me everywhere I go and waste their time going up & hiding out in the attics of buildings where I went & I couldn’t imagine anyone would actually do all this to me,I’m not rich, nobody with power of any sort. But I still couldn’t understand the voices & yet they continued every day to torment me.

Then I noticed, I’m hearing these voices & I’m not even in a building, so where are these people in the Attic trying to kill me..

 

In fact,nobody would be around & I’m outside (no rooftops) and I’m still hearing these annoying voices. One of the voices, said they were dead people and another said they were DEVIL WORSHIPPERS. These voices were so annoying to me,that I would actually tell them SHUT THE F*** UP!! I argued with these voices and sometimes they would respond back. I finally came to the conclusion that these voices are not real human beings,but probably evil spirits/demons. And figuring that out,they didn’t get to me as much,because these voices scared me so much,I thought someone was trying to murder me.

 

I am currently still hearing these voices,I learned to deal with them to an extent so I can compose myself as a “normal” person. But I really don’t want to have to hear these annoying voices constantly putting me down & trying to scare me. I just don’t know how to put an end to these voices. They do watch every thing I do,because I heard them say,”they don’t know we are watching them”. I just heard one voice now,in shock because I’m writing this story now. It’s so weird and unbelievable. They can see what I do and they constantly watch EVERYTHING I do. I hate that feeling of being watched & that feeling has been permanent ever since these voices came apart of my life,

I argued with the voices at times & I told them they caused a lot of trouble & that they aren’t real,just retarded demons and a voice said”we’re real & we’re devil worshippers.” Another voice said they were in California & that they were looking for me..

They were in the background doing the most horrible things to me. I kept running around saying “I watch myself do these strange things…like go downstairs and pork out on all kinds of fatting foods and was unable to control my impulse”…later I found out it was the voices working in the background controlling my body and my appetite and even my cravings for different foods at different times.

 

23rd July 2017 1028 – By Someone Else
I realized that they were evil male spirits having fun hating at me in the most vile and petty ways…doing the most revolting things to ensure that I could not live anywhere near a normal life.
Things were happening to me …my size kept changing…I cannot even both to give you the details but in my case it was the voices. The spirits would do the most unspeakable things to my body to ruin it. I would wear a beautiful outfit and it would be complimented…within a few hours my body would change completely and I would wonder why the hell? I was infuriated later in life when I realized it was the voices doing that.
I realized that even things like suffocating me. My breathing changed, my voice changed.
I remember people telling me that my voice kept changing. I was a female and kept sounding like a male. All my voices were male and all they were doing was taking turns being able to communicate rubbish and hostility at the outside world because they are outcasts…left out for things that they are personally guilty of. I got really angry because not only were they guilty…they were guilty of the things they were doing to me…essentially ruining my life.
I remember being unable to attend college. The voices not only ruin concentration through talking to you non stop about nothing at all…but they affect your energy level….they make things hurt in your body, they can give you a supposed headache, toothache…anything because in my case they were housed in my body. A huge number of male spirits were my voices and I give them no credit…all they did was hate and hurt.
A social worker told me that voices are usually men hating at women… but now I believe that because it has been happening for long enough for me to confirm that for me personally.
At 48 I decided that I could not have a life unless I faced off with them. I refused to do anything and in reality could not anymore because it is not much of a life living like that.
I stood my ground and listened and studied them and found out who they were at the beginning of the process.
I have been yelling at them through just fighting back in my head, refusing to accept their accusations an degradation but really it is tiring and they know it. Also they are so many they take turns…so it is only your one brain against many which is 50 in my case. I realized that the voices are spirits and I have a body and they decided to try to commit homicide by giving me a horrible case of insomnia plus a vicious tirade or assaults all day every day…we are at a face off because it is a question of who collapses first….my body or the voices.

Trouble is they wanted me to think that they were all powerful. They wanted me to believe that they have all the cards. Trouble is they are human in some way. The voices have little feelings that can be very hurt. If you study your voices by writing journal you can get to know who they are. Sometimes they send pictures but depending on who you are you can also picture who is speaking to you and what they look like.

 

15th May 2017 1231 – By Someone Else
I picked up that the voices were many things but they were mostly older men…they were able to make up different voices…they were able to make the voices sound young, attractive, compelling all kinds of things…basically they make sounds. They played music a lot. I remember them leading me around like a crazy lady all alone in my apartment ordering me to do this and this and this by playing parts of songs…me thinking that they wanted to give me a message or some kind of help…but just for a minute.

The voices also have a battery life. If they are housed inside your body they run out of power and are affected by all that they say and do to you also. They also have different personalities…I laughed at them when they tried to make me believe that I had hurt their little feelings and that they wanted to be my friend. In my case…my voices are not friends. I see them as homicidal maniacs who would prefer to watch you kill yourself but work at both in every way simultaneous.

I got so angry that I decided to attack the voices back. I refuse to go down without a fight.
49 years of acting strangely. Everybody wondering what is wrong with me. People being hurt because I would go in somewhat fighting and the voices would do everything to cause me to lose concentration, focus and ability and make me fatigued or just unable to function…making me look like the failure I am not.
If someone is deliberately causing it especially insidiously you are not a failure…you are under assault and I told them they are cowards. I decided that I would hit and hate at them in every way in return and that is what I have been doing. Since they do not care what I think or feel when they do what they do to me. I decided that I had to not care how they felt or thought when I hit back at them.
Voices can pretend that you have no effect on them and that is mainly because if they are spirits like in my case they have the invisibility factor. Fact is human is human. They have feelings to hit them…hate them..shred them to bits which is what I have been doing.
You cannot always see the outcome but they get to lose many things too and I would not be angry if they lose their life source because that is what voices are to me…male spirits hell bent on you not having a life and ultimately losing yours without being punished by the law in the physical.
The voices also made the mistake of telling me that they can act without consequences since they are auditory. I don’t agree. I hit and hit and hit. I have many so many will hurt and hurt and hurt like hell.
If any die I will be glad because even as an infant I was under assault by voices.
I hate their guts and will not commit suicide and will not easily let them commit homicide either.
They threatened suffocation but I don’t care. Nobody ever goes unpunished…nobody…you are punished in many ways..seen and unseen.

They voices in my case may escape punishment in the physical but I will avenge myself and be avenged in every way and have been anyway.When the voices hurt you ultimately they lose something too. It takes energy to hate at you. Things do not always work out. Also, being housed in your body is not exactly the Hilton Hotel. It is horrible disgusting and terrible. I would not get inside anybody’s body if you paid me. I think it is stupid and sub human…in the physical or the other side.
Nature also has ways of punishing the guilty. The voices caused me to get on the pills. Unfortunately for the genius’s if I take the pills and they are poisonous then the genius’ will also be affected. They cannot protect themselves at all.

When I think of the voices I am filled with hatred. All I will say is that anybody who has the misfortune of hearing voices…hit back. Do not accept blame for anything that they ever say. Call them liars….tell them that they were present and affecting you so how do you know that they did not set it up in which case it is their fault

 

15th August 2018 1829 hours 

FM?: “If you masturbate scott stewart, I will personally set you up as a pedophile”
s: why?
FM?:don’t ask me questions. YOu know what SS, I am going to set you up full stop
M? have a wank
FM?: don’t you dare have a wank
M? you may as well….they can’t lose
fm? why am I doing this to you?
fm2? don’t worry about it SS. ill take care of you
s: I am going to disobey you and disregard your threats for the sake of all young people of the future who would otherwise catch schizophrenia

 

By Someone Else

At that point, my life changed completely. Again, there was a chase through and an opening of my thoughts. And again, the voices have been harassing me, keeping me awake at night, trying to get me to do things I don’t want to do, and generally causing chaos in my life.

My story is very long and very involved. To me, the most important part of the story is the list of effects that the group of voices in my head manifest. They manifested them through a machine called the “messing” machine and the game was called the “messing” game, where “messing” needs to be replaced with a word that you can guess but that can’t go in these posts. All of these effects are graduated, and can manifest at both low and high levels.

List of effects:
“Messing” with voices
– swapping around voices
– Voice matching with another person
– Voice capturing, which is taking on the voice of the person that the speaker is speaking with
– audio effects of all kinds
Synchronicity
– hearing meaning in ambient voices and noise, a.k.a. paranoia at high levels
Memory blockage
Losing things/confusion
Stomach rumbling
Itches and scratches
– When done in the throat, this becomes coughing
Electric shocks
Insects/bugs on skin
Odors/smells
Ear ringing
Volume down of voices
Tiredness/sleep
Preventing sleep
Crying blocking
Speed (of thoughts)
Ticking clocks and other machinery made loud
Thumping
“Amping up”
– ringing in ears, tension in muscles, nausea at high levels
Insanity
– hearing voices in walls

My meds have stopped working. “Messing” with people is first and foremost a process of digging into the mind of a person on the receiving end and then a process of harassing and torturing them with a multitude of effects. These processes are fun to the voices. I hope that my experiences can help somebody out there and help me to connect with people that have had experiences similar to mine. Hopefully somebody can offer some solutions that I haven’t tried.

 

20th June 2018 1522
(see also a word doc with color coded tests and outcomes)

After some further secondary research and notes to talk to Dr Bennet about, I have tried to put together some testable hypotheses. Also to test latest hypothesis published online. Following are some that occurred naturally throughout the day.

20th June 2018 1544
G:I’ll bet you $5000 that they do (referring to ##### cancelling my #######
s:I’ll agree to that bet. I will pay you $5000 if they cancel my licence

Unfortunately forgot to write down a date to qualify this bet on, so it can’t be adjudicated

By Someone Else

Since their reintroduction in September, at first there were 7 or 8 voices communicating with me and later the number was reduced to four. One is the leader and has the worst intentions toward me. My voices are all lucid enough that they all seem like real people with individual personalities. It’s pure speculation on my part, but I guess that there must be some kind of mathematics and technology underpinning what is going on. But again, I have nothing to base this on.

Some of them were my advocates and some were my enemies and they frequently disagreed, or at least appeared to disagree, on how to treat me. They would participate in what were called “stories” a.k.a. games or plays in which each would take on a role. The stories had a purpose and may or may not have had a set conclusion. Again, these stories were fun to the voices. Over time, as I refused to be controlled, the stories became more and more like reality until there was no difference. At some point, I could detect them as soon as they began and they broke down completely.

Since some of the effects that I listed are familiar to you, I would be curious to know if you or anybody else has experienced these other aspects of my description. The effect of choice for my lead voice is “amping up”, which is a term that I invented to describe this effect. So I would be very interested in hearing if anyone out there has any experience with this effect.

200618 1413 from phone
G: S there’s something SP is not telling you (referring to having heard about the ###### confession, and wanting me to discuss it with her.
S:I bet there isn’t. You are being grifted. No-one from the ###### knows AO
1419
?:You just lost (referring to the library situation I assume)

1429: CE has just reported you to #####

1430: S there will be an email for you when you get home from CE
(And when I got home at approx 1511, there was indeed.)

1450:
JD: S, CE just wrote another letter to…

1452
?:this time….

1514
crying: they are setting me up to fail.

1640
JD: you know they both thought you were fucked so that (SL) is not going to work out
?M: that could be true. I don’t know
s: You’re both identifying possibilities for stress and pain, and you are being shit people by exploiting things unknowable to me as a human. However, you do not take into account the human capacity for not criticising all the time, They may give me some latitude. Furthermore, there are other factors that you fail to take into account that are none of your business.

By Someone Else

The voices have found a way to disrupt and destroy every aspect of my life that brings me happiness. For example, I play the piano and the main voice has learned to disrupt my fingers and foot when I play such that I cannot play songs that I previously was able to play flawlessly.

They have also figured out how to block my memory and make me sleep at business meetings, which is, of course, extremely destructive to my functioning in the workplace.

They also told me several times that when they read my thoughts, it is a continuous stream of text-based data, very much like what is portrayed in the movie “The Matrix”. Mind you the plot to this movie is not right on, but the reading of my thoughts is. Then again, they could be lying about this too, but I don’t think so, for several reasons.

The voices insist that the underlying technology is a computer, not just a machine. Moreover, people are experimenting with this technology right now, and the voices want to know what happens when the scientific community figures out how to do this. Yikes!

The voices do not want me to post any information about what they’re doing, such as I am doing here. They have the power to disrupt my life to prevent me from posting, but they are disrupting it anyway, so I have nothing to lose by posting this here.

 

231018 1533

JD, RT, CD, BD and some (what they call) Ghosts have been talking about you since (circa) 13/3/15

040118

I have personally asked the police etc to get involved.

29th august 2014 1824

anon:
“I am going to make a snuff movie with PK”
S: whats your name?
a: i won’t say
S: where are u going to do this?
A: in your head, so sucked in SS
S: who else is involved?
A: mo answer
earlier he was asking if she would feel it, i said
‘no, consciousness is by agreement”
I am being told DHJ reliably that i will not live through this night

1352

i have just now been involved in an argument about whether there would be a big difference, a small difference or no difference resulting from my decision to stop using drugs. My claim is that there would be no difference, a statement made for intelligent people who would obviously realise that I am referring to my involvement and interaction with freemasonry, since there will be obvious gains and difference in my financial position, my health etc. However, JD et al claim that there will be enormous difference. I do not agree, not do I really know what they are talking abut or referring to. But right now, they are insisting that I go to bed immediately. I wish they would stop treating me like a small child

I have also experienced the TV speaking to me too and had visual hallucinations, tactile hallucination of bugs and maggots crawling on my body. When my drugs were working the only thing they solved was the auditory hallucination. I was even having continuous nightmare and could not sleep for months and had no peace of mind. I even felt hands at night dragging me and push my legs and I will wake up with the motion momentum due to the push. Also, I have felt someone kick me awake at night.

 

1437
I am told I am not allowed to write these notes but I feel in the interest of truth and especially for the sake of other people I feel I must. The matter is what is going to happen in the future. I reckon that JD will destroy everything, meaning ‘all’ my social relationships, all my opportunities for the future, all my prospects and anything else that other people would generally look forward to, and would use as part of their incentive and something to use for motivation and to get strength from when giving up some addiction in their lives. But despite the fact that I have to argue, JD agrees that she will do this, and these will be my circumstances, in fact that she has alrady done so. SO I guess it is entirely up to me whether I give up or not. I am not allowed any incentives or gains to accrue from this so called ‘improvement’ in my life, but I will not miss out on anything if I don’t, so I will just do what seems like a sensible thing to do, and prove only to myself that drugs were them problem, that it must also have been masturbation or something else.

By Someone Else

 

i think the witchcraft could be a possible reason, but i think there isnt enough to proof it, i dont think its telepathic because i hear dead people, and the theory of 2 minds dont convince me because drugs never helped me and dont explain many things, i think we are damned or granted, i Will explain myself, the voices try to confuse you, try to avoid you to reach the truth, they make you suffer but too make you stronger, Who can difference the truth from the wrong, maybe with a purpose, what do you think? By the way we could be damned too, i think it depends on your mental strenght and how far you can get, to be honest there are many logical theorys about this: matrix(another reality we are into and we hear the outside one in our mind), spirits or something supernatural, artificial telephatics, etc

I am in trouble now for eating chips, wanting to stop drugs, and staying up late.

Next comes the inverse gotcha. I am about to be told, that if I continue to stop, then people will be murdered or badly hurt, disadvantaged, be financially less well off than they would otherwise be, and so on.. threatened and assaulted until I stop this discontinuation.

 

0408 we”ll see. I’ll try and write tomorrow as a way of checking this forecast

So when I’m around ppl or get stressed I “think” that people hear what I think bc I get the sense that my thoughts are louder and directed into peoples minds. And then I hear those people comment or talk about what I think. I can choose wether I engage them or not but I can’t stop them from talking. A lot of times I jut hear people’s names out loud in my head when I think about them or sometimes I’ll hear people’s names unexepectedly and then I automatically start to hear theses people’s voices and they can hear my thoughts. Like they are transported into my head. My most familiar voices are helpful and always there they helped me organixe the voices by giving them spots in my head so I can more easily tell who’s who’s. It’s uncomfortable to think it’s really telepathy and not me just making it up. I’m scared bc what if it’s true?

 

How would you deal with this?
Should I talk back to the voices?
Am I horrible for my thoughts?
What am I hearing if it’s not REAL people? WHO?
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Who They Are…? etc…. (Schizophrenia Voice Owners).

coming up…..
Their names etc
Why they call themselves Ghosts…..
What is being done to me…
What can be done to end my torture……
What they want…..
How will it proceed…..until when……


Here is an Index that explains conventions and abbreviations.


I have 44 transcripts dating from 12th May 2013 to yesterday (17th October 2019) where one of the primary and main points being made was them saying I should, they wanted me to, stop taking drugs….(remembering that they use “code words” and “key words”….

Now the Ghost heard them say it, and even though they may have re-considered due to “Pedophile Freemasons” (YouTube), the Ghost is continuing without abate, to impose the sentence given me by the Bandidos.

Below are examples from 2 1st person transcripts, that demonstrate my point that they are forcing me to use drugs, against my will,l and against my ability to defend myself or fight back…..

140515 0230
?: scott they are killing us!
J: who was that?
J: you don’t know the damage you do. They are all dead
Ron: scott you are in trouble
I just hid my drugs in my phone because J said the cops were on their way (they were hear earlier I am told).
J: will I tell them? (referring to the cops about where I hid the drugs)

0304
J has start3ed killing ghosts again. Below is the count and times
0305 x2
0456 3rd
s: how many good ghosts ar4e there
J: i count 400 scott

0320 PK: everybody is changing (referring to Howard Binns-Mcdonald my teacher at TAFE)
S: you mean every Freemason believes what othert Freemasons say, and they all think each other tell the truth all the time (thats ludicrous and I am incredulus)

0512
The police have just arrived outyside so I am making this entry early to attempt to indicate what I am going thru. They have apparently dropped some evidece (or Geoff and Pierre did so I’m told), so one of the (police) said “got you this time scotty, and J said “you’re about to find out we are extremely unfair. I am told by RT that they have put drugs in the rear of my car (amphetamines I suppose). I can hear them walking round outside talking to each other, which makes me suspicious because I would have thought the police would walk straight to my door and knock loudly.

14/5/15 1009
While I was wanking I could see shadows moving under the door to my bedroom. I was told that RT was having Sex with JC, and that the shadows were people that had broken in and were filming my bedroom for later editing and then to create incriminating footage. I did not bother to get up and stop them because I don’t believe anyone could break in, even though I got Peter to help me break in a few weeks ago when RT stole my car keys and I thought at the time the spare keys to my unit. It turned out that I had made a mistake and left the spare keys inside a few weeks earlier when RT & J said that they were coming to get me while I was asleep. And since they know where I keep (hide) my spare keys, on that occasion I went and brought them inside with me.

When I said/asked just now “I don’t understand why you need top do this? (ie fabricate evidence – since they claim I manslaughtered 8 people in 1981/82 allegedly when I threw bins onto Beaufort St then ran away. IO would have thought they woul;d report this to the police, but they won’t)

?: sCOTT, i JUST KILLED pAM. i KILLED HER BIG TIME
s: SO ARE YOU CONFESSING? dO YOU WANT ME TO MAKE A WRITTEN STATEMENT OF YOUR CONFESSION
(I figure he/she was referring to Emily, who they were saying had arrived to their location earlier.
J: Is Pam all right scotty? Is Pam all right Scotty?
S: call me scott, as I am not your friend. Noshe was not late last night. She said she had not been receiving her parole papers and other court docuements. She also said her mobile phone (0431 966 451 and in particular 0415 979 441) GPS was showing that she was in Turramurra (or somewhere) when she was in fact home. This was on Wednesday morning, regarding Tuesday night.

?: female wont say who they are : was Pam happy last night when you saw her
S: You have been p[icking on me so much non stop since November before XMas, and forcing me out of TAFE, made it difficult to ascertain what mood Pam was if. She did seem angry though, but OK when I returned to see her later. I noticed quite a significant change in the two or so hours.


5th March 2015 0012

“The gustless scared ghost just negotiated its strength away to Ron Thiessen and Glen Jeffires”

EXCHANGES PHRASES TO BE EDITED IN (because ectoplasms are illiterate and need verbal cues and training for those cues):
This is a list of the new code exchange (keyword) phrases:
we are not grifters
we’re not picking on maggie we’re picking on someone else
the song: advance australia fair
that’s julias ghost singing
that’s not maggie
is pam getting raped
are going to commit suicide
what are you shaking for
will you ever run out of veins
what is your favorite color
what is my favourite color
what is his favourite color
what is rons favourite color
where is ron now
who is ron now
what is my name
why are you writing
what is my favourite color
do you care about maggie
because, just because

“their they go they are all committing suicide”

can you have maggie
what do you / i want

===========================
12th march 2015 0651
KEYWORDS TODAY—>
no (to become negative, negatori, nine, nope and all other synonyms)
Pam = julia

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14th March 2015 0334
Geoff & Pear-body may turn out to be 2 ghosts (probably the 2 white ones).
The girl ‘suffering’ (Maggie, Pam, Windy, Michelle Young etc) are probably ectoplasms or ghosts being (mentally) raped.
One degree of separation #names# (eg: RT, GD, JD, Glenn Jeffries, GS etc are ‘keywords / trigger words’ directed towards a specific ghost

Keyword (trigger) phrases for today:
(there seem to be 2 sets – ‘explanations / statements’ and queries. The statements probably trigger …(action directed against ghosts) and the questions trigger (action directed against human psychosis victim)…

‘Statements’:
She just fucked up
You shouldn’t do that
#name# (eg: maggie) is in tears / is crying
have a shot
#name# (eg Maggie) is being told that….
‘Questions’ (derived from victim:
is there something you want?
what do you want?
who is #name#?
what does #name# think?
who is #name#?
when will this end?
what is that like?
R U going to take drugs?
R U too scarred to take drugs?

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Human or Not? If Not, What? & Why Claim To Be Human?

The above images are proof that I am alone with my AVH in my study, whilst the 1st person transcript below was written.

The voices have just said that MY is going to America with “Angry”. MY is a human, and so I believe is Angry. There is no-one in my unit at 2132 on the 18th Oct 2019 but me! Guaranteed no one here, but me and my schizophrenia voice perceptions.

181019 2121

M?: can you realise that MY is going to America?
S: don’t be absurd
M?: can you realise that she is going to America Scotty?
S: don’t be idiotic
MY: I am
S: can you prove you are MY?
fm?: no I can’t
FM?: (chant) what a load of rubbish (repeated)
M?: with Angry!
s: who is he?
M?: scott you are going to howl when you find out something
s: find out what?
M?: I’m not telling you.
M?: you are going to find out that you were too little too late
s: but you’re the people/person assaulting me!

[saved as MY with Angry again they say 181019]
M?: and she is!

m2: I’m afraid that’s true
s: so she hates me, and wants me to commit suicide?
m2: I’m not answering you

[saved as MY with Angry again they say 181019]
M?: and she is!

2148
FM?: she is. sucked in
s: right
FM?: sucked in scotty stewart x4
fm?: do you mind?


Two of the images below were taken with my phone on the 10th October 2019. They are not very clear but they are meaningful to the voices. These “people” (the voices) look at this blog.

They have succumb to compound delusions, even delusional justifications for their delusions, as a result of the extreme social isolation stemming from the guilty conscience. Cognitive dissonance and guilt prevents them from feeling comfortable around humans. Their ‘Freemason’ status is also a delusion!

It is not necessary to have a full understanding of what is taking place, and who the antagonists are.

An effective and efficient solution has been devised.

Currently there are individual humans suffering from the group communications, the result of the group’s wish to be in contact with at least one human. However achieved, these “people” need only to exclude the central human, and maintain the group.

The voices are usually meticulously cautious not to reveal if they are human or non-human. They merely make statements about humans, always attempting to elicit v.strong negative emotional responses. The ‘give-away’ fact proving the group includes non-humans, is that they can see (see YouTube).

The transcript above states once that it is human. But this could be a trick.

All that matters, is that they can avoid being a disease, easily, with current capabilities.

It is conjecture whether they are scared, too old, suffering inferiority, or possibly they are all sociopathic (and scared etc), and there is no sufficiently strong incentive to overcome their weakness. Their weakness gets amplified, as evidenced by group norms of feigned stupidity. But maybe they claim to be human, because it facilitates this weakness, when they have capabilities far exceeding human ones.

But motivation and incentive is a mandatory antecedent of excluding the human victim. And they lack models to demonstrate the benefits of such a change.

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Pornography Probability = 1:(?) I Estimate 1:521,000,000

14th November 2019  1954 hours

The results of experiment #32:

Skinny Super Sluts - but not as slutty as I am

18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Wells, 7230 Coldwater Canyon Ave, North Hollywood, CA 91605. Date Of Production 09/01/2009
Barracuda – 4 Hours
Starring:
Aaliyan Jolie
Sienna & Kieko
Devaugn Jones
Logan & Others

(Don’t forget ladies – if you experience any dissatisfaction with them, I advised MY et seq on how to utilise the “release forms” to your financial advantage. If you experience any dissatisfaction with my efforts (this), then use the contact form, and distinguish yourself as being bigger, brighter, better, more talented, exceeding, and more worthy, than any of the other people who transgress the IP Copyright terms stipulated about dissemination of the material to wit alone possess proprietary rights over.

Scene 1 – Madelline

(don’t know her second name. Didn’t meet her studying at TAFE, but can call on more than 12 witnesses that I was refused a Statutory Declaration by Glen Jeffries aka Ron Thiessen, also associated likewise with Gabby, Shayla, and defensibility-less Frieda. If you read my pervious posts re TAFE NSW, you will realise something). See TAFE #1, TAFE #2

Scene 3 – Olia Jolie

Scene 7 – Madelline (again)

Scene 9 – Michelle Young

(I am told her first scene. However, I (and not necessarily she) believe her first  scene was with Tony,  and that’s what I expect from intentionally untrustworthy, practised, deceptive, lethal assassin’s).

 

11th November 2019

What is little known, and I am only confident of, is that JD receives a 40% commission on each scene she organizes. So for every A$800.00 spent on each of these girls, Julia receives (takes/adds to the payment total) $320.00.

As standard, a female performer in a scene with an male performer could expect to earn around $1,000 (£800), a scene with another woman would see them earn around $700-800 (£550). The rates could go up or down by 10 to 20 per cent depending on who the performer is, their agent and other factors.

Top female talent can make as much as $2,000 or $2,500 per scene, depending on what exactly is being filmed.


What really makes me cry though, is not this per se, even at all, as you can see in the emails I sent in response. But I do cry because RT and JD made a pact in 1992 that no one will break – they have banned me from ever having a girlfriend. See here.


Monday, 1 July 2019

People I know in NVE pornography

(non-instant gratification)

They keep saying that the people I am watching (I’m impotent – I can’t get a girl [because I have been banned]) are people I know; and they look like them. SO I asked two of the people involved:

Mon, 17 Jun, 12:53 (1 day ago)

from:     Scott Stewart sscottstewart@gmail.com
to:          Michelle Young michelle.young@health.nsw.gov.au
date:      17 Jun 2019, 12:53
subject: Howdy – how are you going
mailed-by:            gmail.com

I hope you will forgive me for this email, but I offer it light-heartedly, and will summarise with a fantastic opportunity.
I purchased some pornography from Tony at the shop I used to work at recently, and the DVD had the following details:

“Skinny Teen Twats”
Barracuda Bites
Iron Bull (Productions)
18 U.S.C Section 2257 Records custodian – R.; Wells
There was a scene starring Dasha starring a girl who looked just like you. Even my voices said it was you, and keep saying so.

If hypothetically it was you, do I have your permission to indulge in it without restraint? What I really wanted to suggest is: if you wanted a windfall of cash, you could pass yourself off as this model, contact the distributor (Barracuda) and or the producer (Iron Bull) and point out, that if you can prove you are in fact Dasha, then substantiate that against either your married name or your work name, in the absence of either of the two latter names being on the signed release form, both those companies are in breach of US and Australian copyright law, which therefore entitles you to the total revenue from sales divided by the number of other models (who can prove their real names.

As a full on advocate of third and fourth wave feminism, and as an impotent man, I wish and hope it was you (there’s another scene as well), because everyday I pray to God that some local people are fulfilling their ability to have the best time possible, since I cannot.

When we catch up again soon, I’ll show you my recently purchased vehicle. It’s really good.


And from today – 1st July 2019

1st July 2019 1649 hours

Was attempting to gratify myself in the usual way using the usual ATS, and as has been since approximately the start of 2102, my voices started ‘identifying’ the talent in the NVE pornography I buy and own. Given their insistence on my suicide, brought about by slutting out and cashing up my friends, I have been compelled to write the following notes about the people appearing in my pornography. I must state that I am ready to argue about prosopagnosia. Nonetheless, the following are my voices claims about the porn:

“Teen Domination”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – G. Poole 7230 COldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 11/01/14

Scene 2
Louise Antness

Scene 3
Michelle Young

Scene 3.5?

Scene 4
Araianne Warnant

Scene 5
Jade Lapham

Scene 11
Natalie

Refer To ss-027.jpg ss-028.jpg

Also refer to names of stars on the cover

==================================================

Also refer to names of stars on the cover

Devils Film
Pho’King Asians
Distributed by Giant Media Group. © 2018 Devils Film. 18 U.S.C.ss2257 records for devils film are kept by custodian records.
20525 Nordhoff St Suite 116, Chatsworth, CA, 91311. Release Date 6/26/18
“Eva Yi”
Rosy – from Hornsby TAFE

Phoking Asians


“Persian Pussycats”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Wells 7230 Coldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 01/01/2009
Refer To ss-029.jpg ss-030.jpg

Scene 6
Jenny Lapham

Scene 7
Paris Lapham (aka tabatha? [I suspect]

Scene 11
Nancy Nevara-Blue

=========================

Time For Fucking Bed:
————————–
Jenny Lapham
Sally (Geoffs friend)
=========================

69 (zero tolerance)
————————–
Geoff Kelly
? can’t quite recall, but ASHS

””””””””””’
Loretta Elks
Adrian Hennely

========================

Skinny Teen Twats
————————–
(Barracude Bites)
Iron Ball Productions
18 U.S.C Section 2257 Records Custodian – R Wells

————————–
Michelle Young (2 scenes)
Tristan Coleman
=======================

Itty Bitty Titty 3
———————-
Pam Kingham
Lata
=========================

teen fuck sluts
———————
bandido’s other members lady
tradie guy (bandido) from Extreme Clean Hornsby Westfield car park (13  years earlier)
=========================

YellowTail Geisha Girl Fuckhouse
———————-
Lata
========================

So Nice You’ll Taste It Twice
———————-
Tristan Coleman
=========================

Three Ways To Play
———————-
Disk 2: Madeline
=========================

??? ??? Double Trouble
———————-
Rachael (Ben’s Ex)

=========================
sexpectations
———————-
Janine Collins
=========================

[these notes made mar 19 (300319  2039)]
“Skinny Babes”
Iron Bull
www.barracudabites.com
Apparently it was the out of tune bandidos doing the singing start and end
*note the missing FBI rating
(the following is the authorisation info)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Well & Wells 7230  Coldwater Canyon Ave., North Hollywood CA 91605.  Date of Production 02/01/2009
(“240 minutes” displayed on  cover (Is it possible to have more on disk {eg: child porn} than is measurable by timing the DVD accessible content?)

===============
(230919)
===========
Joined at the dick
barracuda
11/15/14 records custodian G.Pool 7230

Scene 7
Tabatha (Paris Lapham)
===============
Scene 13 (I think)
Louise Nolan
=============
Scene 4
Michelle Young
==================

And from today – 1st July 2019

1st July 2019 1649 hours

Was attempting to gratify myself in the usual way using the usual ATS, and as has been since approximately the start of 2102, my voices started ‘identifying’ thew talent in the NVE pornography I buy and own. Given their insistance on my suicide, brought about by raging out and cashing up my friends, I have been compelled to write the following notes about the people appearing in my pornography. I must state that I am ready to argue about prosopagnosia. Nonetheless, the following are my voices claims about the porn:

“Teen Domination”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – G. Poole 7230 COldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 11/01/14
Scene 2
Louise Antness

Scene 3
Michelle Young

Scene 3.5
?
Scene 4
Araianne Warnant

Scene 5
Jade Lapham

Scene 11
Natalie

Refer To ss-027.jpg ss-028.jpg
Also refer to names of stars on the cover

==================================================

“Persian Pussycats”
Barracuda XXX films (8 hours)
18 U.S.C. Section 2257 Records Custodian – R. Wells 7230 Coldwater Canyon Ave.,North Hollywood, CA 91605 Date Of Production 01/01/2009
Refer To ss-029.jpg ss-030.jpg

Scene 1
Natalie

Scene 4
Michelle Young

Scene 6
Jenny Lapham

Scene 7
Paris Lapham (aka tabatha? [I suspect]
Peta Stevens

Scene 9
Peta Stevens

Scene 11
Nancy Nevara-Blue


18th October 2019 at 0922 hours

Anyway, I was corrected early this morning, that the award that she won, was a pornography award, for a scene that she paid to produce, that I still have on DVD. It is on:

“Twerking” by Mike Quasar.
ThirdDegreeFilms.com
18 U.S.C SS2257 records custodian – Third Degree Films Inc – 20525 Nordhoff St, Suite 25, Chatsworth CA 91311

 


Sun, 31 Mar, 02:21
from:     Scott Stewart sscottstewart@gmail.com
to:          Nancy N-Blue nancy.nblue@gmail.com
|date:    31 Mar 2019, 02:21
subject: Recall I talked for an hour about ghosts and Freemasons?
mailed-by:            gmail.com

Hi Michelle,

I hope you will forgive me for this email, but I offer it light-heartedly, and will summarise with a fantastic opportunity.
I purchased some pornography from Tony at the shop I used to work at recently, and the DVD had the following details:

“Skinny Teen Twats”
Barracuda Bites
Iron Bull (Productions)
18 U.S.C Section 2257 Records custodian – R.; Wells
There was a scene starring Dasha starring a girl who looked just like you. Even my voices said it was you, and keep saying so.

If hypothetically it was you, do I have your permission to indulge in it without restraint? What I really wanted to suggest is: if you wanted a windfall of cash, you could pass yourself off as this model, contact the distributor (Barracuda) and or the producer (Iron Bull) and point out, that if you can prove you are in fact Dasha, then substantiate that against either your married name or your work name, in the absence of either of the two latter names being on the signed release form, both those companies are in breach of US and Australian copyright law, which therefore entitles you to the total revenue from sales divided by the number of other models (who can prove their real names.

As a full on advocate of third and fourth wave feminism, and as an impotent man, I wish and hope it was you (there’s another scene as well), because everyday I pray to God that some local people are fulfilling their ability to have the best time possible, since I cannot.

When we catch up again soon, I’ll show you my recently purchased vehicle. It’s really good.

Cheers,

Scott


My voices will never let me ejaculate. That’s why t5hey started calling me GOD – it was sarcasm. Between 2009 and 2011 they would not let me ejaculate.

These days they only let me once every 4 – 7 months.


there is a relatively straightforward scale for performances by an in-demand actress:
$800 for a girl-girl scene
$1,000 for a guy-girl scene
$1,200 or more for anal sex
$4,000 or more for “double penetration”

But for each gig Spiegler books for his girls, he takes 10 to 15 per cent, receiving the larger percentage if he also handles transportation for the client. None of the agents THR spoke with would reveal how much money they personally make in a year, but sources told the trade that top agents can rake in around $250,000 a year from their 10 to 15 per cent takes.

crew pay rates

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Forecasts (null hypotheses). The Last Experiment.

181019 1047

JD: (singing) “Wouldn’t it be lovely” from My Fair Lady)
S: who is that singing
Ghost G?: JD
s: I thought she was dead, as per rule 11
G?: she’s not dead Scotty stewart (singing) “lovely, lovely, lovely, lovely” from My Fair Lady)
S: so you were saying that all the Bandidos still own Ghosts?
G?: not true
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”
s: So is JD dead or not?
G?: I’m not telling you
S: its not her voices i hear
G?: well bad luck
s: are there any Bandidos listening / watching?
M?: we’re not telling you
G?: there’s one in every chapter
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”, “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”…..

1148
G?: they might be ….
s: yes, they might have all gone permanently to America. As far as I know, I cashed ’em up. And they don’t like me. They could all be in Brentwood, California.
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”, “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”…..
S: we’ll find out shortly after Xmas, around December 26/27 2019
G?: (singing) “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”, “For he’s a jolly good fellow, and so say all of us”…..

G?: all the good ghosts are silent…
s: don’t be so dim witted. There is no such thing as good or bad

 

17th October 2019 at 2122 hours

Firstly, my AVH have been claiming for the past two weeks that my passwords are available on the ‘deep-web’. They have not explicitly stated how they got there.

From the next experiment, I forecast that the results will feature Gina, Louise and Taylor as primary protagonists), and possibly Katie and Reliousa as secondary protagonists (both of whom are in another recovery group I have just started with).

Gina is a mental health Psych Nurse who I met on Mental Health Day, last Thursday. I am in a mental health recovery group, called GROW, and I met Gina briefly when my recovery group set up a table display about the GROW group, in the Star building, at my local hospital. I was enchanted by Gina, and really liked her, though our meeting was brief. The following day I rang her and asked her out on a date, which she declined. This morning, my voices realised that they had omitted her from their verbal assault, that transpired over approximately 6 hours previous.

Louise (and Taylor) are beautiful women that used to employ me as their web developer. They were meticulously responsible people, never late on a payment, always very good to work for and communicate with. Their inclusion will be interesting, because Louise’s stepson hung himself in her garage, after being harassed and assaulted by AVH (voices), apparently a result of the consumption of some cannabis. He was a young adult.

I will not explicitly write these forecasts as Null Hypotheses, because it would be misleading with respect to the formality and rigour of my experiments. I have written them up prior to the experiment, because 1) that is how experiments are conducted, and 2) I know from previous work, that if I write my forecasts up first, my childish immature voices then specifically avoid the elements or topics I have forecast, merely because I stated them first. They (my voices) are like teenagers really. If you say something in particular, they do anything but that.

I will also keep a tally of how many times my voices say “Scott, you just lost”, and any other often repeated phrases I ‘hear’. My voices are obsessed about ‘winning’ and ‘losing’, which is curious, because life is not a win or lose situation. Importantly, it is certain that I would never say I just lost, and as such, the notions of subvocalization and misattribution are repudiated. (see also interesting research here.) I simply dismiss those two hypotheses by proposing that they are the result of mirror neuron activity.

I have written a summary account of my phenomenology HERE.

I did not write a transcript of the dialogue from last night, but I ended up with a list of people that my voices insist were featuring in the DVD’s I was watching. I may write the list up, but if I do, I think I will add it to a previous post, or put the statements they made on one of my other websites, so they do not detract from the forthcoming experiment.

My intention is to undertake specific behaviours, noting approximate times and topics, then ex post facto write up a summary of what was said and spoken about (a testimonial like all the data on/in the mental health forums about ‘hearing voices’), then if possible, write up a 1st person transcript, to capture the detail of the data towards the end of the experiment.

I should also mention, that I am capturing some beautiful data as metrics and meta data from some WWW mental health forums, as a measure of my impact upon the aetiology of AVH. I do this because not all my AVH are hateful and hostile. I get occasional ‘tip-offs’ about my ‘sideline’ impact upon one of the causes of AVH, and I am following up a ‘sideline’ comment I overheard regarding the effectiveness of my 1st person transcripts, my essays comprising a critique of the conventional scientific framework for understanding AVH (there are three essays, and I am in the process of visiting psychiatrists and allied mental health care  professionals, requesting that they have a quick look at my work, and provide a brief response, before I disseminate them to psychiatry et al academia, and to researchers in the field, to have them either rejected, or followed up by qualified researchers, who have access to clinical data sources).


18th October 2019 at 0922 hours

Well the experiment has nearly concluded. Both null hypotheses were supported, that is, my voices did NOT talk much about the girls identified. There was some interesting data that stemmed from the experiment. My AVH stated 16 times “Scott, you just lost” and 5 times “Never give up”.

Once again they claimed that some of the people in the (pornography) DVD’s I watched were people I know; and I must admit that some looked the same. There was one major feature of this experiment. Namely concerning my main antagonist JD (Julia). She has been the ‘leader’ of the d.e.’Ghosts’ (Freemasons they themselves claim) since 1992. Over the years 2013/2014, based on her unsolicited statements, I recorded a set of rules that she claimed to have authored, and strangely, bizarrely, they did seem to be complied with by all the characters in my hallucinations. There is NO WAY I somehow wrote these rules. Their existence is more evidence to me that the more popular hypotheses held by psychiatric science regarding the aetiology of AVH are incomplete or wrong!

The ‘Hard and Fast’ Rules Of Freemasonry (as described to me by ostensibly and effectively anonymous announcers)

(by the unintelligible spastic known by every threatening Scott Stewart Who Allegedly Killed Monica Lewinsky who is in bed with Michelle and Dave).  Who the fuck is Monica Lewinsky? And who the fuck is Tristan DeCuna?

The following are central tenets of Freemasonry for the RT & JD branch…

  1. freemasons must have a spouse
  2. freemasons must have a bridesmaid and groom                                                                                                                                          
  3. freemasons must be better off than their victim
  4. freemasons must steal stone if they want                                                                                                                             
  5. freemasons must be seen by the victim they are giving schizophrenia to
  6. The payments for a Freemason are apportioned according to their proximity to the victim. This is further apportioned according to the amount and frequency of their proximity. This is a freemasons “dash” or “dare”. So payments are made according to a Freemasons dash or dare.
  7. There is one rule for you and one rule for me                                                                                                                             
  8. Freemasons must have a song they sing in bad taste                                    
  9. you must never kill a ghost                                                                                                                     
  10. Damned if you do, even more damned if you don’t
  11. Freemason women are not able to consume alcohol because it is lethal
  12. Freemason women are limited to only engaging in faunication once, on their wedding night, and not again
  13. Once a freemason has had sex they can’t go back to normal sex
  14. Ghosts always know when they are dying
  15. Ghosts have seven seconds of unbounded epilogue on the way out
  16. Ghosts must not encounter “epiphenous moments”
  17. Ghosts are able to exchange “sensibilities” freely
  18. If a freemason gets a word in edgeways, it should be explicitly accomplished
  19. Each freemason must have a field of special knowledge, their topic of expertise
  20. All freemasons must share their wives with their bretheren (freemason marriages occur within freemasonry, normal observable marriages are invalid, probably because of religion).
  21. A Freemason can marry 1 ghost and have a different wife
  22. (years later) – [I originally forgot this one] :  each victim being tortured, is entitled to, and has, a coach

In last nights experiment, rule #11 come into play, because half way through the experiment, JD arrived, she started talking, and I realised she was drunk. SO I reminded the other d.e.’Ghosts’ of rule #11, and I suggested that she (JD) would soon be dead. And at the end of the night, she seemed to be. I have not heard from since, and it has been 5 hours. If this holds true, this is one of, if not the most, important event that has recently occurred. (However, I notice that rule #11 conflicts with rule #9).

There were also statements of multiple ‘deaths’ last night. Not only did JD ‘die’ (at the end of the night, but GK ‘died’, Gina ‘died’, RT had ‘died’, CE had ‘died’ and Lata ‘died’. I can only assume that the word ‘died’ (‘dead’, ‘die’) was a (another) “code word”.

Also, earlier yesterday someone siad that MY had moved permanently to the US, which I disputed, because I’m meeting her next Wednesday. For some reason I happened to mention the fact that as far as I was told, on or around September 25, 2019, she won an award in New York. I was referring to the period of time when Rosy, Emma, Emily and Farah were all making (movie sex) scenes, while I was walking around Hornsby shopping mall, all day and night, shouting at Freemasons, believing (still) that they see and hear me, and I was condemning them for causing (decision-based) schizophrenia, a lethal disease. When they stated that I was being broadcast, I did not realise that they meant on “mind-cinema” (whatever that actually is – somehow they can see). Anyway, I was corrected early this morning, that the award that she won, was a pornography award, for a scene that she paid to produce, that I still have on DVD. It is on:

“Twerking” by Mike Quasar.
ThirdDegreeFilms.com
18 U.S.C SS2257 records custodian – Third Degree Films Inc – 20525 Nordhoff St, Suite 25, Chatsworth CA 91311

However, this is not all that interesting to you, the general reader. I stated earlier in this post, “I have written a summary account of my phenomenology HERE.”. This “Analect Of Evil” is year after year of Julia D mistreating me, torturing me, and malevolently treating me with contempt. However, it turned out after a decade and a half, that my voices claimed there were 6 ‘Ghosts’, each of whom was called JD, and they had been arranged into a working plan, by the human JD. One ‘Ghost’ has always stated “she [the human] is not here. I am merely impersonating her. I am pretending to have her personality. She and Ron were just the ‘last cabs off the rank’, and that is why their names appear.

 

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Symptoms Of Schizophrenia – ask the Bandidos OMC

Schizophrenia symptoms

Schizophrenia Symptoms

Schizophrenia is a serious but somewhat uncommon mental disorder that affects between 0.25 and 0.64 percent of Americans (NIMH, 2018). A person with schizophrenia who is not receiving treatment will experience periods of time when they are disconnected from reality, usually experiencing a combination of hallucinations and delusions.

According to the American Psychiatric Association (2013), the disorder is characterized by at least 2 of the following symptoms, occurring in an individual for at least one month:

  • Delusions
  • Hallucinations
  • Disorganized speech (e.g., frequent derailment or incoherence)
  • Grossly disorganized or catatonic behavior
  • A set of three negative symptoms (a “flattening” of one’s emotions, alogia, avolition; see below)

Sometimes a diagnosis can be made on the basis of only one of the above symptoms. This occurs when a mental health professional determines that a person’s delusions are bizarre or if the hallucinations consist of a voice keeping up a running commentary on the person’s behavior or thoughts, or two or more voices conversing with each other.

Positive Symptoms

  • Delusions
  • Hallucinations
  • Disorganized thinking
  • Agitation
Negative Symptoms

  • Affective flattening – The person’s range of emotional expression is clearly diminished; poor eye contract; reduced body language
  • Alogia – A poverty of speech, such as brief, empty replies
  • Avolition – Inability to initiate and persist in goal-directed activities (such as school or work)

Although the above symptoms must be present for at least one (1) month, there also needs to be continuous signs of the disturbance that persist for at least six (6) months. During this period six-month period, the signs of the disorder may be present in a milder form; for instance, as just odd beliefs or unusual perceptual experiences. Also at least two of the above symptom criteria must be met during the six month period, or only the criteria of negative symptoms must be present — if even just in milder form.

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Notes – JD said ‘Tri$^an’ Was Torturing Me

During 2014, my voices kept talking to me about getting a girlfriend. But as the phenomenology compilation I called “The Analect Of Evil” clearly identifies, they had on four previous occasions forced me into attempting to ‘marry’ three unwitting people. The point of most interest, is that I was told by JD that I had been banned from ever being allowed to have a girlfriend.

Normally, this would be a ridiculous tyrannical comment for someone to make, but when seen in the context of the non-random prevalence of pornography appearances by girls I have known, and the evidence in transcripts that they are observing, interfering and colluding against me, such a prohibition seems entirely possible (irregardless of who has banned me).

Here is a plausible way of achieving this: Organising People Against Me

The further problem is that if  there are any humans colluding with the voices (who call themselves Ghosts), I cannot be in proximity to anyone, especially potential relationship people, unless I can get them to believe that there are Humans involved, as the evidence strongly suggests, and that means they will potentially know this persons bank account details, and details of other person items. Furthermore, anyone near me must acknowledge that they will potentially be under observation of malevolent beings, leading to encountering vaudeville / pantomime grifts, having an unknown motive.

Here are some notes that summarise what my voices commonly said may times in 2014:

GK pornography expln

 

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Tantalized – how my AVH’s claim to be making sex movies (pornography)

9th October 2019 at 2036 hours

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1N97E4w9tl7PtQlLzARGwxj3C_-NpIeCN


10th October 2019  at 1353 hours

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1ZYG5irXZFI5ZXIjf0ycdJGZ4_0hcF9ga/view?ts=5d9d4c44

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1LWPvPAxnj5x_NNN4Y2EX01OoOx_Uzauo/view?ts=5d9d4c44

Tracy is the most attractive, beautiful, appealing, pleasant, nice to be around, charming, enticing, and successful girl I have met. I would give anything to have lead my life differently, so that I could attempt to engage her. She knows my last remaining friend well, and he speaks most highly of her, always.

7th October 2019   2105

My voices seem to fully believe that they have to torture and mutilate me in order for them to be able to achieve sexual gratification.

 

Early this morning I acquired $100.00 CMTH because a fortnight ago the AVH’s had undertaken to place TJ as the currently most prominent person who I really like, but who is intent on “betraying me”. This is very important because RJ is my only remaining friend, and I noticed conspicuously that Tracy avoided talking to me last Xmas lunch.

Now that seems quite paranoid, but if you consider the frequency and prevalence of my AVH’s narrating how the humans involved are all great friends and pornographic movie participants, you will unavoidably make the very same forecast.  (I have about 50 plus transcripts involving the lascivious behaviour of my friends, briefly summarised here).

Since 2009, especially 2012 onwards, every time I try to gratify myself, the voices immediately commentate on the activities of people I know because they are making pornography, that relies upon my misery, pain and exclusion (betrayal they call it). The pain the induce by causing tactile and somatosensory hallucinations in my penis, preventing me from being able to feel it properly, whilst they simultaneously interrogate me non-stop to distract me from being able to fantasise, while I watch pornography myself.

ellie clifton

Now after 28 years of hatred and torture by this same cohort of antagonists, every time I attempt to  masturbate, I know that it is very likely that I will be mutilated and interrogated, thereby prevented from being able to feel pleasurable feelings, and ultimately ejaculate. They will only let me cum once every 4-7 months, achieved by prohibiting any pleasure available to me from masturbating.

A consistently central part of how they stop me, is by socially picking on me, clearly stating on nearly every occasion, that every girl I have known or met since 2009, has (in their words) “betrayed me”, by choosing not to talk to me at all, by participating in the prohibition of my ejaculation, and by deciding to say “yes” to an offer to make porn, usually with a male that I know or have known. 

I appreciate that this sounds rather weak and feeble of me, but this information is designed an applied with expertise gained through the death of other schizophrenics, who suffer similar ostracization and exclusion. It is unbearable and lethal to realise that people who pretend to like you, are in fact deriving advantage and pleasure, by excluding and abandoning you. This form of social manipulation and bullying and ostracization is extremely painful.

And that is why when Tracy was introduced into the narrative from 8 weeks ago, I knew immediately that she would be choosing to have sex with a male friend or acquaintance of mine, and to effectively dislike, even effectively hate me, because the people involved never stop rubbing it in that the girls are happy to make porn with these men, but not even to send me an email, and say Hi.

So when Tracy started being talked about 8 weeks ago, I had a rather reliable forecast of what was likely to be taking place for the next few months. And she is a really beautiful, attractive, endearing, pleasant, delightful to be around girl, which is why I noticed that she was not like this last Xmas.

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And so, yep, that’s what has been happening. I have been achieving or not achieving, but definitely advocating substantial amounts of payment, for all these people I know who are having the worlds best time making all the porn. This is an obvious sensible thing to do to attempt to protect myself, and if the payments were made, these people (GK, DHJ, PBD, The Bandidos, SO, MP, especially Ron next door, AH, GS loving Rosy, Emily, EP, NNB, MY, TJ, Farrah, LN, TN, Madelin, Natalie, TC, BH, JW, JL, Tabatha, JL, EC, Karmen and so on, would not resent or hate me for increasing their savings.

However, I am told that many of the payments I demanded on their behalf, were in fact made, and the size of the payments was very substantial. So now the individuals who received the money, have left Sydney, and gone to live in Los Angeles, where they continue to feature in NVE.

26th september 2019  at 2209 hours

tracy and geoff. (25) at my unit. I undertook this experiment to learn what the voices would say. The null hypothesis is: they will not makd a pornographic video movie starring someone i know. The hypothesis is that tgey will. 2211. They are (making a pornographic video) so thr null hypothesis is disproven.

2212 m and how. She is going wild. And how. You lose scott. You will never believe
what just happened. 2213 tracy has just c9me all over geoff. You lose big time. And you do.
S: (silence)
M: you have never lost so badly. Geoff is coming all over tracy. And how
S: (silence)
M: i cant believe how much geoff cums. Its incredible.
Tj: sucked in scott stewart i love geoff now, becayse he cums so well. Its beautiful. 2217 how do u think i feel anout geoff now?
S: i dont know
Tj: i think he’s a god. And you are a loser ans a fuckwit
M: im afraid thats true
M2: its true
M: u know whAT scott, no one has ever lost so much as u have lost. But u dont even know how much u have lost.
M3: its true
Fm?: your friends are crying
M4: we are
Fm? U know what scott.C is
M4: we have all just left
Fm?: u are going to regret your life. Thats all. Go home.
M4: no dont. It might work out.
S: silent
M4: it didnt. U lose.
M5: there they go
Fm?: why are we doing thus to yoy?
S: i dont know
Tj: because u are a cunt in my opinion. Why dont u stop taking drugs?
S: im about to
Tj: too little too late
Fm?: why are we doing this to u
S: i dont know
M4: i do. But im not telling
Fm?: scott, please dont take this personally, but i dont like you
S: silence
=========
David (upstairs diagnol) left his unti at approx 0130 – 270919
Ryan (next door) left his unit at 0208 – 270919. He left again at 0229 (without having returned!!!!!, ie, going inside through his door)


 

28th September 2019 at 0137 hours

I showed some self-control and stopped wanking the second they let my feelings be perceived again. Immediately when the partial numbness in my penis and the sterile, hostile interrogation ended, I stopped masturbating, to prove that despite the worlds best feelings (‘better than life itself), one can maintain some avoidance and abstinence.

Since I abandoned masturbation at approximately 0000 hours, they have been musing and distantly chatting about features that are different in the narrative I just posted, when compared to 1st person transcripts.

So here are three more, mostly narratives, selected using my particular “integrity technique”, that will allow me to monitor in an ad-hoc, unmeasured and imprecise manner, their response to this post:

050409
JH (Julia’s Husband): Scott, you just fucked up big time!
SS: how, what do you mean?
JH: people took your defection seriously
(I claimed that since I’m told that I am upsetting good people, and because I have been herded into a corner and have no options, I said I was going to join evil, and fuck up evil instead of fucking up good people).
SS: Am I the first person to be allowed to join evil without having to go thru the normal induction process?
JH: Yes
SS: so how come I didn;t have to do induction just like everyone else?
JH: so we can make it seem like you are very important, in order to upset and torture good people in every apsect of the ramification of spreading a rumour of that sort

(3.08am)
Tomight I took drugs. I got jumped on by evil, causing my wanking to take far too long (a very long time) and prventing me from finishing. Then, once evil had got the better of me and upset me, they flicked the switch in their console and started transmitting audio to innocent and good people. Every time I felt defeated or down beat or low, they would start broadcasting my contemplations. They claim and state that because I was disappointed and down beat, their braodcasts were upsetting people and (JH) “forcing them to suicide”.

What can I do? what options do I have. Is it dangerous..(to be honest?)…

3.12am
I have just been told something terrible but I am not allowed to state it in this note. Once again (JH) “Damned if you do, even more damned if you don’t”.


22 August 2014

J: I just killed Emily walker. The look upon you8r face when I said I just killed emily walker.
lets see the look upon your face. The look upon your face. Steve’s having sex with emaily walker
right now. The look upon your face. The look upon your face. I just killed emily walker. The look upon your face. The look upon your face.Steve A is having sex with emily walker right now.

Steve A: if you don’t go to bed then I will kill emily walker. But she’s dead now. I just had sex with her and she’s dead now. My name is Steve A.
my name is steve A, my name is steve A, and i am raping emily walker

SA: steve A does not like the tone of your voice. x5

PB: you think i’m a fuckwit don’t I (x10 +)


20/7/13 1800 hours
– I am being asked if I can hear something that I can not hear. And then I hear voices that imply that something bad
is happening but no one will say what. More importantly, my disease is holding me responsible for itself,
which makes no sense
A(nonymous) (Julia) : “Scott : can you hear that?”
A(nonymous) (Julia) : “Will you take responsibility for whats happening?”
(s) : Even though I do not know what is happening, and
I know that you are doing it, I will agrre to your request that I take responsibility for it”
(s) : “who is doing the actual thing?”
(J) : I can’t believe, I can’t believe, I can’t beleive, I can believe…
(J) : “do you care about what is happening?”

1842 : had a terrible 4-6 seconds where I thought I heard asound similar to crying, and I asked if that is what it is, but no-one would answer. However, my concern was very soon weighlayed because the sound stopped, so I assume there is no longer any need for concern

1902
(a) : “You should see them Scott!”
(s) : How many of them are there?
(A) no response

1919 : I am having trouble finding a namespace in some code, and the voices are saying they have done something to my brain and convincing everyone else that I am drug fucked. They are making a special effort of calling me drug fucked over and over again.
So I AM IN HISTERICS !!!!!!!! be3caZuse this is my disease (sch) blaming me for its existence!!!
There has never been a more funny thing in the entire history of the universe (especially is these are people rather than a disease)! Get that – a diease that blames it’s host for

21 July 2013
0037 Apparently, so anyone who’s name I know tells me, the ghosts are all all going to turn bad resultuing in working against
something or other and its my fault for taking amphetamines. My response was to ask if I could have a work with their
current leader, and no one would reply, so they might be leaderless and acting entirely of their own accord and freewill, likley to be a massive improvement in high level collaboration with any homo sapien, and long overdue in my opinion.


 

8th October 2019 at 0334 hours

This d.e.’Ghost’ who calls iteself Julia Davis has been physically torturing me utilising somatosensory and tactile hallucinations of physical distress (feels like one’s nerves as if one was about to sing the National; Anthem for the grand final, or nasea prior to sitting a major exam). I know it’s the d.e.’Ghost’ because of the testimoniuals on the Mental Helath Forums that describe the feelings that schizophrenia causes – entirely unnatural, and because I experience those feelings when I have no mental concept of stress or anxiety, or any other antecedent that would result in such terrible, constant and intense catastrophic feelings.

So I had to reload with $25.00 catalyst, because I know the d.e.’Ghost’ is enacting a plan to cause injuries to my penis (by preventing me from ejaculating). At 0334 hours, as I turned off the rail cross-over bridge at Romsey Street, I once again (3 times in two days) observed a new, clean, 4 door, morone colored sedan, a Toyota Corolla or Mitsubishi, in my proximity.

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$10.00 Experiment – They Have Sex

 

27th September 2109 at 1250 hours

… TJ and GK have been offered, and have been with each other since I declined the CEX offer for my spare laptop, specifically to undertake this experiment…
1251…
1255
Ryan next door leaving…..but didn’t leave
1307…1340…1359…..1408……

 

9th October 2019 at 2017 hours

M?: can you get busted for drugs?
S: of course, but there are costs
….
Ryan next door just left (2029)
…..
M?: what do you mean?
s: your gratification will end, if I do
M?: ryan next door scotty is leaving to be with Tracy (J). DO you believe that?
s: of course
M?: what do you think that means to him?
s: the whole world, I guarantee it!
M?: when will I stop rewarding people?
s: never , I guess
M?: why is that scotty?
s: so they like you
M?: what do I do with my spare time?
s: organise the rewards (for them)
M?: you’re right there…
s: there is quite a lot you don’t state explicitly ‘outloud’; but I know it
M?: what do you think I am doing know
S: no idea
M?: I’m gloating, that’s what….I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what, I’m gloating, that’s what…..
2045…..

 

 

 

260819 0736

M?: why don’t you do a transcript now Scotty?
s: yeh, OK
M?: why do you do what we say?
s: so I remain alive
M?: why do I tell you what to do?
s: a few reasons
M? what are they scott?
s: you want something, mostly
M?: that attitude is differemt
s correct. I’m very close to death
M?: why is that scotty
s: because of you, you telling me what you do
M? who am I scotty
s: rosy, rosy
M?: how do you know that
s: you just laughed at me as you walked past from Ryan’s unit next door, remember?
M?L: how did you know that was me
s: I recognised your voice, a second before you (they) said it was you
M?: how do you know rosy scott
s: from the hits on one of my websites
M?: bla bla bla (withheld)
s: yes
0740
M?: why are we doing this to you
s: because of 1st person pluralisms
M?: why don’t I just shutup .. for a second
s: you do occasionally
M?: why do you want I to do that
s: I stand here (so to speak) to represent all you future death!
M?: wqhat are you talking about
s: my name is scott james stewart. My serial number is 008. My rank is God. (according to JD, RT and a vacuume of dissent)
M?: what are you talking about
s: I am attempting to remain alive
M?: what are you talking about
s: I’m avoiding suicide, as best as I can
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(
…….0743
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(

m?: why doesn’t your encryption software work
s: well you just turned it off so I could access my files
m?: how did you do that scotty
s: I KNOW, YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: I wrote you a note last night. I KNOWWW!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: (……)(
…0747…0749…
M? what are you doing now scotty
s: trying to encryupt them again, obviously
M? what are you doing now scotty
…0749…0750…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)(….
…0751… (doing stuff)…
?M2: expert
…0751….(see bmp image for verification)…0753…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: extending the scope of my 1st p xscripts
M? what are you doing now scotty?(see “Untitled 1A.bmp” image for verification)
0755
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: meh
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)

9th October 2019 at 1344

M?: sicked in scott, sucked in scott, tracy is humping Geoff Kelly and so in Emma Pendelton, at Geoffs house in Pennanlt Hills. They are having a great time, and you’re life is shithouse. Michelle Young has also resigned, and is living in Brentwood making pornographic movies, as you know.
S: Affirmative
M?: I am going to tell you something. YOu are the most hated person that has ever lived.
S: Yes. More accurately, I am the least preferred.
M?: I can’t stand the way you hurt women….
S: ? what?
M?: you hurt women, by being a drug addict.
S: ?
M?: you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict. you hurt women, by being a drug addict.


 

27th September 2019 at 1250 Hours

… TJ and GK have been offered, and have been with each other since I declined the CEX offer for my spare laptop…
1251…
1255
Ryan next door leaving…..but didn’t leave
1307…1340…1359…..1408……

approx 2300

I used the last half of the $10.00 to test for response to me masturbating on a towel on the TV room floor, in front of the TV. This time, as per the last say 2300 times, they imposed somatosensory hallucinations, in combination with tactile hallucinations (to prohibit feelings from my penis being perceived), and mostly non-stop objective interrogation on subjects including “Why are we doing this to you”, “can you cum Scott”, “Lata has just died. She was approaching your door. That noise you heard was her attempting to open the door, but anyone who tries, loses their life”, “where have your feelings gone Scott” and so on. They also talked about the fact, again, that GK was with TJ, but this time, Sally? was also with them.

AT approximately 1730 I heard girls voices, so I looked out from my opaque vertical blinds, and observed two Phillipino young women, small build, both long black hair ties into a ‘pony tail’. They proceeded down towards the rear of the block. When I saw them, they were walking along the path, and were just past unit 11. I looked out because no girls live at Gunyah, and because my AVHs tell me every single time without fail, whenever I consume CMTH, that they are in a unit at the rear of the block, making porn movies.

Within 5 minutes of me observing the two Phillipino girls, I once again heard a girls laughter, so I looked out again for the same reason, and saw an Indian looking young man, wearing a baseball cap on backwards, escorting a early 22ish caucasion female, with long golden/blond straight hair, a red long sleeve T-Shirt, and blue jeans. I only saw them for approximately 3 seconds, before I shut the blinds and gave them their privacy. I was immediately (after shutting the blinds) told by my AVHs, in particular, someone claiming to be the young Indian or Pakistani man, that I should not get excruciatingly painfully jealous, because she was a “call girl”.

2329

SO apparently, no one can come to my door and knock or anything, because they will lose their life, seemingly in less than 5 seconds, as per Lata. I wish they would kill me (rapidly, mercifully), instead of people/someone who is attempting to knock on my door, probably for the most decent, and kind reasons.

My AVH who include the two Police officers who booked me recently, C. Callender and C. Steward, were asking me something, when a different voice interrupted and asked if I would like a 5 pound bag of CMTH. I replied “Yes please”, because I now believe that no colluding telepathic, telekinetic (unofficial)Freemason can come to my door and attempt to gain entry. I think the two Hornsby PC’s were talking about the fact that my Hyundai had just been stolen again, in the previous couple of minutes. We shall see. I expect that he (Ray Baker – towie) might return it again, as he did at the shops a fortnight earlier, and as he did a fortnight before that, when the car was left on George street, because of my driving prohibition.

2347

They are putting me to sleep now, so I will not be able to update the status of my stolen white i20 Hyundai BR24FI.

But I nearly forgot the main point of this journal entry. I tried masturbating for more than 4 hours, and my penis is injured. It is missing skin in 4 or 5 regions around the shaft, because I try so hard to get feelings, and feelings of pleasure, sufficient to perhaps ejaculate, but they will not let me. (repeating myself here) They ask questions like the examples outlined above, non-stop, intentionally to distract me and prevent me from fantasising, and the questions are always hateful and contemptuous, and sarcastic and hostile.

They do this in combination with the attenuation of my feelings, especially in my penis, because they claim that the narcotics I consume, affect them. So after more than 4 hours of being hated and prevented from experiencing any sexually gratifying feelings, and stopped from having any happy thoughts, they suddenly changed my sentience, and all of a sudden, I was overcome by the strongest, best feelings you can imagine. So I immediately stopped masturbating, to specifically prove, that even when experiencing the most powerful, pleasurable feelings, I CAN SHOW SOME SELF RESTRAINT!

11th October 2019  1457 hours

I used $20.00 and write this:

FM?: scott what are you doing?
s: you can see.
FM?: I mean, what task are you about to do
s: I’m waiting to hear you talk about Gina and Phil. That is my prediction

1655 hours

I used $30.00 and have not heard anything at all! No sex, no exclusion, no girls. Nothing!!

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Posts From Other People – Who Also Find Human Qualities in AVH’s

eighteyedspy23
Feb 16

Most of my voices early on were supposedly people who lived close by. I didn’t know the neighbours that well, so most of them didn’t have specific names. At times I heard the voices of specific people (usually writers and musicians), but for the most part they were people who were trying to harass me or just people who got caught up in the turmoil. As time went on and I felt a little better, I just kind of stopped thinking about them.


VOICE HAVE PERSONALITY AND NAMES?

 by Lyghtie » Wed Aug 10, 2011 4:24 pm

Whenever I read about schizophrenia, people’s voices are always just a “voice”, without a name or personality. All of mine have names and a personality that I did not give them. There’s 10 of them (Akuma, Mr. Invisable, Gavin, Lea, Mechie, Spencer, Tamper, Derk, and two other who won’t tell me their names) and they all have personalities. Sometimes they get mad at each other too, like in Germany. They’ll have short conversations, but they usually talk to me, but it seems like they’re all aware of each other. Has anybody else experienced voices with names and personalities and conversations among themselves?


I have a name for one voice. She told me her name is Michelle. The other voices don’t bother making friends with me. Michelle is a woman about my age. 35-40. She is kind.

I also have the kid. Screaming in terror or calling for me.

I hear numerous voices but only three have names, Aaron, Devon and Rebecca.

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/voices-and-their-names-origins-and-backstories/13079/2

Named Voices; Father (God), Jesus, Azriel, Gloria, Thomas, Arthur, Gunn, The Professor, Gregory, Claire, Gladys, Norda, Cassy, Lou,

Unnamed voices; Demons


I only have a name on one voice. Her name is Michelle. Shi is a nice voice. Reminds me of what I have to do. “get up! Do the dishes now. “

I also have that narrative voice. “Look, the girl i sleeping. Why is she sleeping? She can’t sleep. ” and also somewhat like James’ panic man. “The plane is going down! You will fall! Then you will die!” “You can’t go there, go another way! It’s dangerous! He is a rapist! He will rape and kill you before you get home. “

I’m glad my neighbours can’t hear the voices. I don’t think they would be very happy to hear they are murderers and rapists.


I hear both voices that I don’t know IRL and voices of people I know (I’m not certain if they are imposters or not still.) I call the voices of people I know “common voices”.

Of my non-common voices, I have Astaroth, Tyler, Heather, Randy, Russell Peters and more recently C’Thun. (Mine tend to pull their names and personalities from video games or stand up comedians.)

Funnily enough, my voices come up with pet names for ME as well. First they called me just asshole or stupid bitch, then Lassie, then Derpy, then Miku, now Smeagol. (They still quite regularly call me asshole and stupid bitch, and they very rarely, if ever, use my real life name. It really gets my attention when they call me by my real name. I’m always like, “Whoa! Why so respectful all of a sudden?” xD


Feb 18

90 % of my voices are people who I knew in real life, like former friends, or from television. for whatever reason I could deal with them fine. the strangers were the worst, I thought they were professional witch doctors, I could barely deal with them, I thought we were in some sort of battle and they were actually enjoying it. but yes 90% of them had names as either former friends or famous people.


They told me their names. Tyler, his girlfriend heather, and astaroth (who chose his own name based on the video game I was playing called Catherine)

I have 3 primary voices when I’m not hearing crowds:

Vanessa is the female negative voice, who unfortunately is my most common voice.

Kelsey, while not negative per se, is the female voice who likes to talk me into doing highly risky things. Still super sweet, though. When she decides to show up, we can talk for hours until she’s convincing me to do 100mph up the freeway.

Jason is my male negative voice. He’s newer than Kelsey and Vanessa.


April, Gabriela, Joanna, Sydney, Hope, Samantha, and Polly. Collectively known as The Girls. They were with me from age 11-14. Then April took the other girls away. The only one I can speak to anymore is April, my older alien sister.

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A $25.00 Experiment – 26th September 2019 – GK Fucking TJ

Hear is how they get to make pornographic movies. 

ellie clifton

26th September 2019

2209 – Tracy and Geoff. (25) at my unit. I undertook this experiment to learn what the voices would say. The null hypothesis is: they will not make a pornographic video movie starring someone i know. The hypothesis is that they will.

2211.
They are (making a pornographic video)  so the null hypothesis is disproven.

2212
M?:  and how. She is going wild. And how. You lose Scott. You will never believe what just happened.

2213
Tracy has just come all over Geoff. You lose big time. And you do.
S: (silence)
M?:      you have never lost so badly. Geoff is coming all over tracy. And how
S:         (silence)
M?:       I cant believe how much geoff cums. Its incredible.
TJ:        sucked in scott stewart  i love geoff now, becayse he cums so well. Its beautiful.

2217
FM?:    how do u think i feel about Geoff now?
S:    I dont know
TJ:   I think he’s a god. And you are a loser ans a fuckwit
M?:      im afraid thats true
M2:      its true
M?:          u know what Scott, no one has ever lost so much as u have lost. But u dont even know how much u have lost.
M3:      its true
Fm?:      your friends are crying
M4:        we are
Fm?     U know what Scott.   C is
M4:         we have all just left
Fm?:       u are going to regret your life. Thats all. Go home.
M4:       no dont. It might work out.
S:      (silent)
M4:             it didnt. U lose.
M5:          there they go
Fm?:          why are we doing thus to yoy?
S:          I dont know
TJ:           because u are a cunt in my opinion. Why dont u stop taking drugs?
S:         I’m about to
TJ:    too little too late
Fm?:          why are we doing this to u
S:        I don’t know
M4:          I do. But I’m not telling
Fm?:         Scott, please don’t take this personally, but i don’t like you
S:     (silence)


WIth regards to this post: “My next door neighbour – what my voices state, and substance interactions” ….

David (upstairs diagonal) left his unit at approx 0130 – 270919
Ryan (next door) left his unit at 0208 – 270919

Last Monday at approximately 1400 hours, I observed David escorting a young woman to a motor vehicle in our car park. She was carrying a black suitcase on wheels.

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WOW – No shit from my voices! Actually, no voices at all! And what next!

21st September 2019 at 1002 hours  (210919 0637)

More Experimentation (checking if increase in modifier has a noticeable impact, on them, or me, or my state. Measured by transcripts [attitude, statements, duration of remarks, negative valence etc]) If you would like a more detailed account of the experiments, and summaries of the findings, please contact me (use the contact page). Here is a previous research methodology that got funding, but was subsequently postponed to be superseded by a superior study design, then never got done.


0637 : mixing the catalyst

FM?: why don’t you go and get some lube scotty

0659 … getting on the floor

0701 … putting in the catalyst….

0945 …. really unusual. A First. They did not say anything about anyone, though they nearly started to talk about R, the girl from my Recovery Group. And since I finished (also very unusual), they have not been telling me that anyone has just been partying, or is now dead, and I haven’t heard the usual trolley go wheeling down the path outside my rear door, heading towards the car park.

This is a FIRST!. They have never been so quiet, and they don’t seem to be able to state that they have been ‘down’ the rear of Gunyah, making pornogrpahy, at my expense. I can hardly believe it!

0956 WOW – still no hatred, spite, satirical insults, or boasting.


What’s Next?

Well, this is the exciting part! I am going to utilise language analysis operating ML (machine learning) to collate descriptive and semantic features of my voices compared to me. This will identify, potentially quite conclusively, that my auditory verbal hallucinations are not misattribution or sub-vocalization. I hope to be able to find indicative data to differentiate between voices and claims of identity, to infer whether claims of identity correlate with actually differentially recognisable or identifiable individuals.

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My Experiments Investigating Narcotics WRT / Interactions & AVH’s

Saturday, 21 September 2019

The night They ‘Killed’ the (last?) Ghost + Experiment Details

Tonight I purchased approximately A$70.00 of stuff from a friend of a friend, to be shared between me and my neighbour. The local Police followed me (as they should, as I wish, as I know),…. into the left hand turn, where the road then divided into a 2 roads, then they turned right, and I was told to turn left, then stop, and then pull up. The Police were driving a deep red / burgundy coloured 4 door Mazda 3 passenger sedan. I am with-holding the details regarding the street names. They began to follow me along ### Hwy from the Br### road intersection, at 2050 hours. They had previously intercepted a phone call made on my phone, between a supplier and the person purchasing it.

After we arrived back at Gunyah, we entered my unit at approximately 2040 hours. I consumed approximately 0.3 of a point, and my associate consumed 1 point, then immediately ran to the toilet and vomited. I then wrote an article on Blogspot (http://scottjamesstewart.blogspot.com/), and created a new Twitter account, in my name. My associate was talking to me while I was working, and I was working because I didn’t want to talk to him. The reason for my anti-social position is entirely a result of 2 things.

  • Whenever I consume any substances, even if he has not been home for more than 4 days, as soon as I begin masturbating, I hear him arrive home, walk inside, then 5 or so minutes later, I hear him leave. I have conducted more than 20 ‘experiments’ regarding this feature of the world, believing that it must be a coincidence (though strongly correlated, in fact 100%). On every occasion when I experiment with narcotics, this man either arrives then enters his unit next door, then 5 minutes later leaves. If he is already home, which is unusual, he still leaves 5 minutes after I begin masturbating. Every time this occurs, my voices inform me that he is going down to one of the units behind me, at the rear of Gunyah, to participate in making a pornographic movie (see accompanying tags and notes under https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/ss-008-god-1-added-other-voices-220819-1). Furthermore, on most occasions, they tell me he is making a movie with someone I know, and someone I know quite well. Even more amazing is that occasionally, they tell me that the girl(s) he is making the movie with, was intended for me! This is why I was not listening to him after he threw up, but I couldn’t help but hear him talk for about 5 or so minutes, about how pornography does nothing for him, and how he doesn’t really like it because of his null response. In my psycho world, exhibited in my blog (https://amazingschizophreniavoices13.wordpress.com), this style of contradiction is absolutely a hallmark of Freemasonry (my AVH’s).
  • Secondly, I have conducted approximately 20 experiments investigating the astounding claims of my voices (from 2009 onwards) They claim, and seriously, that when I I.V. CMTH, it affects them. And unbelievably, on each and every experiment, this seems to be supported by the data I have collected. YES, if I consume CMTH, then their behavior changes. This change is correlated with the sound of footsteps walking along the path behind my unit, that normally would be ignorable as a likely occurrence, but it is noteworthy because these footsteps often occur at 2 or 3 in the morning. I still regard this as ignorable. Anyway, whenever I consume CMTH, I like to cover a pillow in a waterproof garbage bag, then place a towel over the pillow onto the floor, in front of the TV. And then I watch pornography and masturbate. I have several reasons for such embarrassing behaviour, but I believe these ‘Freemasons’ actually do entice girls I know to make pornography in a unit at the rear of Gunyah, and occasionally, the girls overdose on drugs, and become deceased. For this reason, I am not going to disclose my reasons for wanking on a towel. So my behaviour changes if I consume CMTH, but in my experiments, I have made sure that on 25% of the experiments, I have got down on the towel, and not masturbated. Even when I did not, the voices narrated that girls I know were down the back, making pornography, and often with R my next door neighbour.

I have more than 60 1st person transcripts recording the results, and sometimes that procedure, of my experiments using CMTH and measuring or observing (modalities) the impact on my AVH’s. Here is an example.

See the Index page for conventions and abbreviation meanings.

NOTE: The initials are a result of decisions made by my AVH’s. They are “who” my voices want me to think is ‘talking’.

21st September 2019  0216 hours

S:  they said the “killed” a ghost tonight. And they were talking about N, my friend from Perth. However, if they knew about N and me (I think I was working for Shop-A-Docket at the time), then they know, or can know, if it was W’s daughter in the child pornography I downloaded and looked at, and if so, who took the photo, and whose penis was in her hand!

M/FM?: (silence)

S: I heard on at least two occasions earlier while I was busy, that “we lost”, and once “he won”. This won’t be true, that’s for certain. I am going to present this journal entry to my drug counsellor, and ask her if I need to go to rehab. They also stated earlier that “R” a girl at my Recovery Group meeting on Thursday, was ‘meant for me’, that is “we organised her for you”. I replied – “I don’t deal in proprietary rights over humans”.

FM?:  I’ll tell you something Scott, that you are in big trouble. Big trouble indeed.
S:  Well I have made sure that you are not.

FM?:      Why do I do this to you Scott?

S:        It’s obvious, if you know the context, and the audience (size and some names)

FM?:      Why do I do this to you?

S:  Well I believe you repeat yourself so that you seem more like hallucinations than humans.

M?:  Don’t forget we know you are fooling yourself

S:  (no reply)

M?:  You know what (SM), (silence) [I believe there was silence then because I wrote the correct initials. But who knows?]

0243

……. (silence) ……..

SM?:        you know why?

S:         No

M?:      I’m not telling you


Since they are quiet tonight, I will offer this transcript to read:

14th June 2019  2041

M?:          what do you know about video forensics

s:         quite a lot

?M:          what do you know about IP addresses

s:         virtually  nill

?M:         why do you ask ?

s:         I think you will shortly realise that you asked, and I merely replied

M?:         yes, why do I ask

s:         I don’t enquire

M?:         why do you think I ask

s:         because, for you, everything must be done right, proper, and by the book, so you are requiring to ascertain my propensity to foil your efforts

M?:         what is your IP address

s: I         ’m obviously hoping you know already

M?:          why is that

s:         so you can stitch me up, and so on…

M?:          cause that implies..

s:          (interrupting). Yes, it mandates that, sorry about interrupting

M?:         what happens if I fail

s:         you won’t

M?:         what happens if you fail

s:         all imprints of what has happened and what got achieved disappear…. by the way…I firmly believe all IP addresses will be valid and correct, and not changed or altered in any way

m?:         WILL YOU KILL YOURSELF

S:         yes, I absolutely will; but only if I can get proof you exist and are human, because I cannot throw away so much health care provision, by killing myself for an hallucination.

M?:         hey S, what is your st george bank number?

s:         you see right now, I’m logging in

M?:         why don’t you just go in and buy that? (referring to what is on my computer screen)

s:         i might. It depends what you say over the next few minutes

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Notice the sardonic and spiteful attitude of these voices!

see Index for conventions and abbreviations

26th July 2019 1420

J:       you’re getting kicked out of your home and your school. sucked in ha ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
S:     what the fuck is wrong with you people?
J:        sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
RT:    you are
J:       sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
M?:     Bandidos here. You are getting kicked out of school. Sucked in cunt. No one deserves it more than you.

(compare that to this…”Kicked Out of University”    [and they did])

M?:   bandidos here. You wrote that before I said it
S:   true. I acknowledge the 3rd vector in this communication medium.
M?:    bandidos here. Your right scott stewart; scotty stewart. You’re right.
S:   yeh. I truely cannot understand how you get so much out of other peoples failures and problems?!
M?:    bandidos here.I don’t get that much pleasure out of…
S:    sorry to interrupt you these, but I know it’s you RT. I can tell.
M?:   what do you think will happen when you get kicked out of school
S:    I suppose the same as both times when you got me kicked out of Uni.
RT:     Ron Thiessen here. Yeh, I forgot about that
S:   yeh.
RT:    do u want to know why?
S:  I know why probably.
RT:    Ron Thiessen here. Why do you think?
S:   I imagine that someone is going to claim they read my blog.
RT:   Ron Thiessen here. That’s exactly right, scott me ol boy. Ha ha ha ha ha…

1432
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Youre getting kicked out of school, youre getting kicked out of school….
1433
s:     Im calling Paris immediately.
J:     Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, You are, you are. Youre getting klcked out of home too, you’re getting kicked out of home too…

26th August 2019 0736

M?:   why don’t you do a transcript now Scotty?
s:     yeh, OK
M?:     why do you do what we say?
s:     so I remain alive
M?:     why do I tell you what to do?
s:      a few reasons
M?      what are they scott?
s:      you want something, mostly
M?:      that attitude is different
s:     correct. I’m very close to death
M?:   why is that scotty?
s:   because of you, you telling me what you do
M?   who am I scotty?
s:     rosy, rosy
M?:     how do you know that?
s:     you just laughed at me as you walked past from Ryan’s unit next door, remember?
M?     L: how did you know that was me?
s:     I recognised your voice, a second before you (they) said it was you
M?:     how do you know rosy scott?
s:     from the hits on one of my websites
M?:     bla bla bla (withheld)
s:     yes


m?:     why doesn’t your encryption software work?
s:     well you just turned it off so I could not access my files

…0747…0749…
M?    what are you doing now scotty?
s:      trying to encrypt them again, obviously
M?      what are you doing now scotty?
…0749…0750…
M?    what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)(….
…0751… (doing stuff)…
?M2:    expert
…0751….(see bmp image for verification)…0753…
M?     what are you doing now scotty?
s:    extending the scope of my 1st person transcripts (xscripts)

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Another Disgusting Array Of Indifference, From The Poisonous and Spiteful Ms Ja D%$#is (Ron T*&^%$sens ex-Wife)

(sent to Hornsby Police)

10th  September 2019 beginning at 1605 hours…

This is a very rushed and abbreviated 1st transcript, that had to be written extra-ordinarily fast, because there was a necessity to get the information to Hornsby Police. I was given the impression that I had become the subject of a “science experiment” that transgressing and violating my human mental health rights.

Last night I was again told that I was going to be a perpetual victim of a malpractice “science experiment” that was violating and transgressing my UN mental Health and Human Rights. I did not get the time to even get most of it completed….

A unique brand new delusion summarised as a result of phenomenology 090919 0802

…. “they”, “that”, “us”, “this”, “we”, “there” and “them” and of course “you”……

The scene is this:

” JD, JD, 1 B.Sc of kind, gentle and compassionate disposition, and a grossly exaggerated count of PG.D.Psych clinicians, academics, practitioners, theorists, treatment specialists and since I violently pointed out several weeks ago, must necessarily have B.Psych qualifications to avoid malpractice if there is any psychoanalysis… anyhow, they are somewhere remote from my unit in Normanhurst (Gunyah) and ‘intergrated’ as Freemasons, subsequently have access to exactly duplicated set of skills and capabilities (what they call “telepathy” – an audio visual ++ capability [see …

There was a different but equally plausible and very concerning plot this afternoon, and the statements were of such a serious, fast paced and urgent nature, that I had to use excessive abbreviations that diminished the inter-personal detail that is usually available from 1st person transcripts.

Here is what seemed so dire and possible, that I had to get it quickly to my local Police, and engage in some behaviour that was criminal, and I absolutely did not want to do. But I was so extremely concerned for the well-being of a number of the people involved, and their jeopardy was so likely based on recent information, that I decided to commit wilful, wronmg behaviour, in order to give the Police an opportunity to arrest me, and thus provide an opportunity for me to show and deliver to them the artifacts of evidence that was so serious, and verifiable.

Following are the unfortunately insufficient elements that I transcribed directly from what I was perceiving and hearing. The layout lacks sufficient details for easy legibility, but the primary aim was to collect the articulated language data from the same set of questions, before CMTH consumption then after CMTH consumption, to see if my voices were affected substantially differently and independently from the effect identifiable in me. I had quite a lot of immediately previous evidence that supported just that, but the possibility seemed so unlikely, that I thought the terrible decision of my intended behaviour seemed importantly justified.

Here is the raw data……….

HM of you are there?…..3
here are you:…building 17
HM M HM W: 3m 2wm
have you got redheads? 3
have you got camera? 1 – 3CCD not telling make model? wont say? wont say? wont say
Are any Bandidos? 3M
what time you leaving? 1600 sound to you scott? 4pm sound to you scott?
where from? warez
got any ID? no ID
what species are you? we don’t know
are you FM’s? no not freemasons? can you prove that? how? receipt stubs, business cards, rental receipts for equipment? (1610) 4pm sound [xonwards]?
tatoos, dist marks, – no reply 4pm sound [xonwards]? michelle you got cut lip? michelle? not here

1613
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/schizophrenia/symptoms/
…Some people describe the voices they hear as friendly and pleasant, but more often they’re rude, critical, abusive or annoying.

The voices might describe activities taking place, discuss the hearer’s thoughts and behaviour, give instructions, or talk directly to the person. Voices may come from different places or one place in particular, such as the television……1613

how does 4pm sound [xonwards]? 1615

what time finishing? 4pm sound [xonwards]?
where after that? not saying scott stewart
what makes you think I am scott S? you look like him
where are you? unit 20
how can you see me: telepathy
can you see your hand? (1616) …. 4pm sound [xonwards]? can you? not telling you.. 4pm sound [xonwards]?
say where you from scott? where you from? denmark scotty stewart.

1617 .. gone to buy meth to redo this after splat and check repeatability…. (please forgive me HPC – they are troturing me to death, but I am still a criminal, and I insist on being held responsible, and accountable (might need to go to USA – I am ashamed and sorry, but don’t know what else to do. Must be below the law – no matter what!! 1619

1623 – idea 1 – see if they can be found making pron once I intr-v
2) – see if p[ollice can arrest me on the towel and be seen entering my room?
3) see if anyone can be caught on S-cam walking pastr my balcony (at time code pos)?
4) do they enter room while I am out?
enter unit 6 immediately after ivdu?

1647
fialed to report the comissioning of an offence. About to watch IVDU and fail to report use of prohibited narcotics in a public place.
1650 mixing up to inject outside on lawn to get HPC attention – another failure to report the undertaking or commisioning of anoter offence!! 1651 — all the nabove dialogue of theirs is purgery and contempt bercause it is obviously self contradictory 1653

1655

HM of you are there?…..4
Where are you:…building 18
HM M HM W: 3m 2wm
have you got redheads? 4
have you got camera? 1 – not telling make model? wont say? wont say? wont say
Are any Bandidos? no
what time you leaving? 1784
where from? australia
got any ID? no ID
what species are you? we dont know
are you FreeM’s? no not freemasons? can you prove that? how can we prove were not? receipt stubs, business cards, rental receipts for equipment? (1657) no we habvnt
tatoos, dist marks, – no reply
is MY with you? no she is not
have you any statement to make? we are condcuting an experiment into crystal meth additiction.
anything else? no
1658
s: how do you know its CMTH? not sure
s: how do you know Im addicted? not sure not sure not sure not sure (x1400 no sure’s)
s: is it a science exp, or what sort of exp? its a science experiment. 1701

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Coming Up … Some Testable Facts To Prove or Disprove, What Seems Self-Evident ….

Soon I will publish 1) some documents that I cannot believe are correct, yet they come from the most credible, important organisations, and 2) some disclosure of things I ‘hear’, that are testable.

I hope to receive some comments and responses to alleviate my concerns that humans are colluding and providing indirect permission to knowingly overlook the aetiology and dissemination of ‘decision based’ schizophrenia…..

It is relentless torture, and thousands die from it!

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They are kicking me out of TAFE : 26th July 2019

26th July 2019 1420

J: you’re getting kicked out of your home and your school. sucked in ha ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha, sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
S: what the fuck is wrong with you people?
J: sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
RT: you are
J: sucked in, ha ha ha ha, sucked in ha ha ha
M?: Bandidos here. You are getting kciked out of school. Sucked in cunt. No one deserves it more than you.
M?: bandidos here. You wrote that before I said it
s: true. I acknowledge the 3rd vector in this communication medium.
M?: bandidos here. Your right scott stewart; scotty stewart. You’re right.
s: yeh. I truely cannot understand how you get so much out of other peoples failures and problems?!
M?: bandidos here.I don’t get that much pleasure out of…
s: sorry to interrupt you these, but I know it’s you RT. I can tell.
M?: whatdo you think will happen when yuou get kciked out of school
s: I suppose the same as both times when yougot me kicked out of Uni.
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Yeh, I forgot about that
s: yeh.
RT: do u want to know why
s: I know why probably.
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Why do you think
s: I imagine that someone is going to claim they read my blog.
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Thats exactly right, scott me ol boy. Ha ha ha ha ha…
1432
RT: Ron Thiessen here. Youre getting kicked out of school, youre getting kicked out of school….
1433
s: Im calling Paris immediately.
J: Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, Your getting kicked out of school, You are, you are. Youre getting klciked out of homje too, youre getting kicked out of home too…

S: Paris – please why?

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Farah and TAFE – They say I am the reason they do their stuff….25 July 2019

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25th July 2019 0839

They just told me to. So I ‘sold the dummy’. Sent Xscript out to shared locations. Now they are telling me how upset and broken hearted I am going to be “when I find out” – whatever that means?

I am now transcribing what I hear, and its 0841

All voices are FM?: unless otherwise indicated.

FM?: what do you think u r doing with yourself
S: Im trying to prove to you that I and my habits have nothing to do with your supremacy or faunication exploits
FM?: why do you think Im involvced
s: I don’t know who u r? What is your fist and last name please?
FM?: im not telling you
s: then I must conclude you are involved bec ause your anonymity keeps you safe from exposure and viewability
FM?: who do u thyink I am
S: I never show so much disrespec t to anyone, as to make (misleading disrespectful) guesses
FM?: who do u think I am
S: yes, who do you think u r? How the fuck can I know?
FM?: who do u think I am
s: Freddy mercury
FM? who do u think I am. Is that a ghost noise
s: no. Its a recording, posssibly of a detuned hamonized flanged boat horn or car horn
FM?: how long will this go on for
S: If I dont complete what you told me I could do, then I may contract sepsis. SO I am about to change it (this)
0846
0847
FM?: how do u know its not a ghost
s: because they have seen it all
0848
S: And they’re certainly not going to cry over me, and you my fate
0849
…. had to purchase new encryption software because these hallucinations are hacking my defence files, and changing the contents having different meaning, then using these altered versions to dilute and detract from my own efforts. They replace my live web files with their altered ones, and I cannot keep up, or even know that have transmogrified my originals into something else. That is how I know they are not hallucinations, but humans. Phase 5 will be to attempt to alert the authorities of their extreme and boundary-less efforts to dilute and disinfect my work! They could just leave it all, and deny everything!
2230…..

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‘Terrifying Voices’ By Lorenzo Jensen III

37 Schizophrenic People Describe The Terrifying Voices They Hear


1. It’s currently 4:00 am and I’ve been in bed for five hours listening to a small girl screaming ‘IT HURTS’ inside my head.

“My pharmacy is out of stock of my medication until Monday. It’s currently 4:00 am and I’ve been in bed for 5 hours listening to a small girl screaming ‘IT HURTS’ inside my head.”

DJPoN3    Found on AskReddit.


2. The voice tells me to kill people at my school and that I am superior to them. That it’s just natural selection to kill them. He also tells me God is dead and not to believe in Him. He tells me I am God.

“I hear one male voice distinctly and the rest is just faint whispering and deep breathes. The voice tells me to kill people at my school and that I am superior to them. That it’s just natural selection to kill them. He also tells me God is dead and not to believe in Him. He tells me I am God. It’s a pretty disconcerting disorder.”

FeignedFuck


3. ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.” ‘Kill Yourself. ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘FUCKING KILL YOURSELF!!!’

“I’m at work. People are standing around talking about there normal stuff, kids, shopping, weekend plans etc…. I smile say I’m excited for the weekend as well it’s always nice to see my friends. It’s so normal and between every breath….. ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.” ‘Kill Yourself. ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘FUCKING KILL YOURSELF!!!’ ‘Kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill Yourself. ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘FUCKING DIE!!!’ ‘Kill yourself.’ Man starts breathing down my neck, he moves away before I can see him….. Stands in the corner. ‘Shut up!’ ‘kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Why the fuck do you try?’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘This weekend…. kill yourself.’ ‘Why don’t we get that gun, it’s easy.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ The man still stands there points to the women I work with, he shows me which ones are people I can trust. ‘Kill yourself.’ I work with a vampire I can’t stand her. ‘KILL YOURSELF!!’ She steals energy from everyone around her. ‘FUUUUUCKKKK YOU!!’ She’s selfish and evil. ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill Yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ He’s back behind me. My side hurt, he stands behind me breathing. ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘kill yourself’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Kill yourself.’ ‘Oh, I wish I was like you.’ My coworker says, ‘Your just so calm and together all the time I wish I knew your secret.’ ‘Kill yourself’ I smile ‘Kill yourself.’ I say thank you and living life in each moment can make anything easy. ‘Kill yourself.’”

throthrothroa


4. I have three androgynous voices. One that tells me constantly how worthless I am and how I should just kill myself.

“I have three androgynous voices. One that tells me constantly how worthless I am and how I should just kill myself. One that tells me I am better than everyone and that I should be queen of the world, more or less. And one that whispers and tells me that I should keep going because at some point, something is going to happen and the other two will go away.”

Svenly1


5. Kids clapping and cheering. Forever.

“Kids clapping and cheering. They keep clapping and clapping and laughing, like in a playground. Forever. Every hour of every day of my life.”

numandina


6. Most of the time I hear a little girl crying and whispering.

“Most of the time I hear a little girl crying and whispering. Or very heavy breathing. I see a tall man who just stands in the corners sometimes. Scares the fuck out of me.”

brennakelsey


7. I have a little girl who whispers songs softly to herself when I’m alone and a woman who cries when I’m in public.

“I have a little girl who whispers songs softly to herself when I’m alone and a woman who cries when I’m in public.”

Chupathingy1


8. Two voices, both male. One tends to be sadistic.

“Two voices, both male. One tends to be sadistic, as the other is usually encouraging. I have reached the point where I can tone them out, and completely forget they’re there.”

DerpyMcDerpants


9. I hear one single man. Constantly giving me ideas of death and destruction.

“I hear one single man. Constantly giving me ideas of death and destruction. He has a very deep voice and is there more often than not. I hear shrill screams every night. As if my neighbor is getting stabbed or something. I used to ask my girlfriend if she heard it too when that first started. I used to wake up in the middle of the night and tell her ‘he isn’t here.’ I would stare around my room and house like I’ve never been there before. I, would shake and become violent. The few times I get to be alone in my head is when I smoke pot. And when I’m extremely happy….When I’m in public or around family is when it is at it’s worst. Always telling me scenarios of killing them all, going on a complete rampage and killing myself. I’m Told I am disgusting and a terrifying person by him. I feel like he is always just right there beside me telling me to kill every one. Kill them. Kill yourself. Hurt them. When there is death or a rampage on the news i hear ‘you piece of shut, that could have been you.’ Tells me names of guns I’ve never even heard of to kill with….It will never stop. This is my life.”

douevenwotm8


10. A really deep ‘demon’ voice that says unintelligible words like ‘nachlichin’ and shit.

“I hear several: a really deep ‘demon’ voice that says unintelligible words like ‘nachlichin’ and shit. I also hear my mom yelling my name, not like in despair but like aggressively. I also hear a robotic voice saying random shit.”

25i_nBOMEr


11. There’s long been one voice I hear which calls me names and insults me and often prompts me to be violent.

“There’s long been one voice I hear which calls me names and insults me and often prompts me to be violent. That’s mellowed as I got older. Now I hear my children cry and call me. A lot of sudden and random noises. This gets much worse when I haven’t slept a decent amount.

Though I fit most of the criteria for schiz. I’ve never taken meds for it. It’s a lot less intense for me than it is for most people and far less intrusive. I can usually tell the hallucinations from reality, but the babies crying thing really freaks me out because I have two six-month-old kids and I’m still very anxious about being a father.”

thesnakeinthegarden


12. They’ll tell me to kill everything and everyone.

“Four voices. Three male, one young female.

The female voice howls, screams, and cries when I’m in public places. She whispers that people hate me and want me dead. She encourages delusions of persecution, paranoia, and violent acts.

One of the male voices is the complete opposite. He encourages me, tells me how much smarter I am than everyone. He encourages delusions of grandeur, power, superiority.

The other two voices are wild and unpredictable. They’ll tell me to kill everything and everyone. Then they’ll switch and lull me with lies about how in control I am, how I don’t need medication and that its poison. My therapists are trying to wipe my brain and make me into a blank slate.

I’ve had auditory hallucinations since childhood. It took years to be diagnosed correctly. I had doctors say I was faking for attention because little kids aren’t schizophrenic.

I’ve been in just about every antipsychotic medication available. I’ve been institutionalized. I was pulled out of high school and put into an alternative school.

I hate the medication but I need it. I want to live like everyone else but I can’t. People don’t hang around once they find out I’m ill. I’m jealous of normal people and at times I feel luckier than them. I’m never alone. They’ll always be with me.”

CuntyMcFuckerton


13. You know how you turn on a TV sometimes for background noise? I basically hear that.

“You know how you turn on a TV sometimes for background noise? I basically hear that, mindless chatter that I always hear.

edit (since there is a little confusion): Tinnitus is a constant ringing in the ears, no words are spoken. I hear mindless chatter, words are spoken…all day, every day.”

zomboi


14. I hear things like a crying girl, the sound of a large fire, water rushing through pipes, a constant banging sound late at night like someone is banging a wrench against a pipe…

“I take medication for social anxiety, depression and schizophrenia, sometimes I hear things like a crying girl, the sound of a large fire, water rushing through pipes, a constant banging sound late at night like someone is banging a wrench against a pipe, but that’s not very often, I mostly see things, fire, swarms of bats, and most frequently a man wearing a black robe, he usually stands outside the window at night and it scares the fuck out of me, I named him Dread….I’ve spent nights walking up and down in the house looking for the thing that keeps boiling water in the roof, my family hears nothing, tell me to go back to bed, 30 minutes later I’m back up looking for the boiling water. As for the robed man, he haunts me, some nights I wake up and I can feel him standing outside my window, it’s the most awful, foreboding, scary feeling I have ever felt, that’s why I named him Dread.”

Noodle0100


<h3>15. I would hear voices. Just my name mockingly and laughter.

“When I was six, when I was alone, I would hear ringing in my ears. If I sat there and made the ringing go louder (mentally, somehow) at some point the ringing would stop and I would hear voices. Just my name mockingly and laughter. It always went away as soon as I found someone to talk to, no one thought anything of it for some reason. After a few times I just didn’t make the ringing go louder and didn’t have any problems after that… I was diagnosed with prodromal schizophrenia when I was eighteen and was part of an early intervention program, I was never hospitalized. I’ve had other symptoms but have dealt with them very successfully through breathing meditation. I’m on a new medication now and haven’t had symptoms for three months. Medication is going a long way and have fewer side effects. I’m socializing more and making new friends but I’ll probably always be a little odd, but that’s just part of who I am. If you no anyone who is showing the first signs of schizophrenia, please get them into early invention before a full-blown episode damages them for life (like my brother). This has been a paid announcement from your local head case….”

mashhog


16. I hear a lot of whispering. Mostly just asking if I’m there, what I’m doing, who do I think I am, or trying to get my attention.

“I hear what sounds sort of radio commercials, sounds like different people talking for around 3-10 seconds before they cut off and immediately someone else starts talking. Males and females. I can never really make out what they are saying, though.

I hear a lot of whispering. Mostly just asking if I’m there, what I’m doing, who do I think I am, or trying to get my attention. I do my best to ignore them.

I can’t stand silence, it gets too loud.”

CatThighs


17. I usually hear screaming that no one else seems to hear. I try to put it out of my mind.

“I’ve struggled with this all my life. I usually hear screaming that no one else seems to hear. I try to put it out of my mind. I’ve gone to doctor after doctor and while the medicine and therapy help a little, I know I am stuck with this for the rest of my life. If I’m in a public place I’ve learned to just don’t act any different. Don’t look around if I hear screaming (even if someone may actually be screaming). I know people judge people for having this condition but it’s really hard to live like this. I also often feel like I’m being followed by this shadow that harasses me. It won’t go away. I can’t type all of this without crying. I really wish more people knew about schizophrenia and what we go through with this condition. I hope I answered your question as best as I could.”

corelanne


18. Think of a crowded mall food court, all the chatter. It’s just that.

“I never experienced auditory hallucinations for years. Mostly I just felt scared all the time and would trick myself into believing that people were trying to hurt me, ruin my life, etc.

The only auditory hallucinations I ever have are pretty bland. Think of a crowded mall food court, all the chatter. It’s just that. I can’t make out a word anybody is saying, but it’s very annoying.”

atomicyoyo


19. I see and hear a young, teenage girl. She keeps me from loneliness and I’m never without her.

“I hear one voice, it’s a bit different from what I’ve seen described here. The voice is coupled with a visual hallucination, so I see and hear a young, teenage girl. She keeps me from loneliness and I’m never without her. However, she keeps me from sleeping and I literally have to be absolutely exhausted just to fall asleep. I can have interactive conversations with her, and I can feel her, but it’s not an actual feeling more like how you can ‘feel’ in a dream. Lately it’s gotten a bit worse, and she’s begun telling me violent things like ‘kill,’ ‘thrash,’ and ‘bang,’ but I’ve not seen a doctor or told anyone about this because I fear people would view me differently, and as though I’m crazy. Although, I will admit that mentally I am not at all normal, I also don’t want to live in a world without her. I’ve been bullied and made fun of my whole life, and she brings me up and tells me how great I am, but at the same time it scares me that this might actually harm me eventually. It’s a love/hate thing.”

NerfNidalee


20. I hear flutes; I’ll regularly get into conversations with sorta quiet voices in my head.

“I hear flutes; I’ll regularly get into conversations with sorta quiet voices in my head and sometimes I see black cats in the corner of my vision.”

FizzPig


21. Laughing when I was home alone, someone calling my name, screaming, banging sounds, animal sounds, walking sounds…

“I have PTSD that started out as schizophrenia symptoms. When I was in middle school I started to notice weird background sounds that was impossible to happen. Laughing when I was home alone, someone calling my name, screaming, banging sounds, animal sounds, walking sounds, etc., etc. At first I thought it was just my mind since anytime I spoke to my parents about it they insisted ‘everyone hears those things, it’s normal, it’s just you thinking too much’ but they sounded distant but like they were right next to me at the same time. Like I could actually hear them with my ear, it was completely different then how I think sounds or voices or such. But I ignored it like I was told to. As I got into JR High they got worse and worse and all these sounds got louder and more frequent. And soon they turned into voices. I am not sure how many I had because they were always too hard to count because they liked to talk at the same time. But there was this one that sounded like a scared little girl who would tell me not to trust anyone, to run away, hide, and that everyone was going to hurt me… I think that has something to do with the reason I have PTSD. You know, I black out a lot of my life. Some times I black out every single detail of something that happens and don’t recall it at all until I have one of my melt downs. And sometimes i just black out details. So I remember high school being one giant fucked up place with so much over whelming sounds and voices and visual hallucinations. I remember a lot of the feelings, but not so much details anymore. I saw mostly shadows and such, people standing behind me or next to me and suddenly they would be gone. And for a while I was completely convinced they were ghosts. But after a while I figured out it was just me seeing things and they would get worse if I was stressed or having a meltdown or angry. Same with all the voices. I have never been on medication for it as my parents never once believed me for a second. They didn’t believe me when I told them I was depressed either. They told me I was just being a normal teenager… My boyfriend through high school (now my fiancé) believed me and took me seriously and he was the thing that held me together. I was such an angry messed up person that I literally had fantasies of shooting up my High School. Even got blue prints of the school and made and very elaborate plan. The main reason I didn’t was cause deep deep down I knew it was wrong and I would have no life after ward and I wanted so badly to see what would happen with the rest of my life. It had to get better… And in a lot of ways it did. When I was finally able to move out of my parents’ house and I managed to scrape by through High school things got so much better. The stress was so much better and it changed. I don’t hear many voices anymore. I still get a few background sounds but I try to keep music or something going so I don’t pay attention to them. They are at their worst when I am doing something that I have a phobia of. Like showering. Yes I shower normally but it’s a phobia that I will get attacked in the shower or something will happen to someone in my house while I am in the shower. So I hear a lot of weird noises and thumps and stuff while I am showering, my heart racing the whole times. I was finally able to see a therapist, a very very good one, and was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). I have a lot of flash backs and my dog is my service dog now. My dog and my fiancé are the best things that have ever happened to me. When I drink the once voice I have left, who sounds like my fiancé, tends to be very loud. And he never says nice things. I have to really trust my fiancé when he says he never said those things. PTSD does mess with my life a lot and I have a lot of anxiety and depression. Money is very tight so I am not on any pills at the moment though I really do want to get on. I just do my best to cope and pretend that I’m normal. If you were to talk to me for a while you would never guess how fucked up my head is. It all an elaborate lie I have been keeping up with since I was 8 years old… (Sorry it’s so long and sorry for any mistakes. I have dyslexia).”

coltgrimm


22. I usually hear people call my name. I’ll hear them say ‘hey’ or ‘hello.’

“I usually hear people call my name. I’ll hear them say ‘hey’ or ‘hello.’

I constantly feel watched. I live in an attic in a garage alone, and I see people outside the windows all the time. I have to leap a few feet to get off my bed because I see hands coming out from under it all the time. When I’m standing I’m always afraid there are people directly out of my line of sight. Also when I’m sitting. I always think someone’s gonna grab my feet.

I can’t eat in public because I look at people and the people in my head are telling me about what everyone else is thinking. I can’t go in crowded places at all. If I do eat in public I need the same server every time.

I’m constantly having to delete all my texts and Facebook messages. I don’t know why. If I don’t ill have a panic attack. Recently within the last five or so months, I’ve constantly had a feeling of pure dread. It’s like… When you have something bad to say to someone but you can’t say it and it physically hurts you. That’s how it feels, but constant. And I have nothing to say.

My body is out for rent, to the people in my head if that makes sense. I spend nights watching myself pace back and forth from a third person views. Sometimes they’ll wake me up to stare out the windows at the figures outside.

I’m always hearing people downstairs in my place. I send text messages that I don’t remember sending and sometimes I remember sending text messages that I never even wrote.

They tell me situations that never happened over and over again until I believe them.”

Name Withheld


23. I hear a woman who calls out to me. not too bad. then I hear a male voice, one who tells me consistently to kill people, myself, they’re staring at me. That kind of thing.

“I hear a woman who calls out to me. not too bad. then I hear a male voice, one who tells me consistently to kill people, myself, they’re staring at me. That kind of thing. I take quetiapine and paroxetine and diazepam. I am on the edge of my seat 100% of the time. I hear every single noise at once. I cannot make an emotional bond with any one including my son. I think about suicide every fucking day.”

Gabbergeddez


24. I wear earplugs to stop the voices.

“I wear earplugs to stop the voices. I figured out that my brain was processing sounds as voices falsely. Any ambient noise I would think was a voice saying something and I would go into my mind to listen. This earplug thing works great. I can still hear but no more fake voices.”

DrEdwardRichtofen


25. I hear random muttering of syllables by what seems to be an old man.

“I hear random muttering of syllables by what seems to be an old man. Sometimes I notice myself moving my lips while it happens. I hear random conversations between 2-5 people. They speak about entirely random things and last for about 30 seconds. I hear random clicking and walking sounds, as if someone is around my computer and reading it; it caused me to get up and check on the terminal more times than I can imagine. And then there are the voices that tell me to trust no one. They say everyone hate me, they fake everything in the interaction with me to get to me and hurt me even more. They tell me I hold absolutely no value to anyone, that I am a menace that has to be extinguished, that I need to die. They tell me everyone else is traitorous and that I need to kill or be killed. They tell me that the girl I love is the leader of all this, that she played this joke on me so that I will live the worst existence that can exist. They make me lash out against people, especially my parents. But my parents are part of this. They can’t help me, they are part of the problem. Usually when those things happen I freeze.

I took 4 different drugs so far, and currently on 800 mg Seroquel/day. It’s almost the maximal dosage, but the change it started has halted and has started to revert. I see a psychiatrist once a week and a psychologist twice. I don’t trust either of them. I hate talking to them. The psychologist is one of them, and the psychiatrist pretends to understand.

I am alone in my room all day, every day for around seven months now. I sit in my room in front of the computer with a large headset, playing some kind of music or sounds all the time. They muff out the voices, sort of. This year was meant to be my last year in high school. I am the one who finally called for help late last year. But I feel like things were much better when I asked for help. A lot of people seem to act as if I am pretending, that I can just get over it and study like everyone else for my finals. I won’t be conscripted into the army like everyone else, a rite of passage, of sort, in my country.

I am useless. I don’t believe they can help me, or that I can change. I will die here, like this. Alone in the darkness, as I have came to call it. Some people suggested I befriend the darkness, but I don’t see a way in hell to befriend it. It wants me to die. It wants me to lie and manipulate, and I cannot resist it. So far I have managed to hurt several people without their knowledge, but I fear in the end I will take more drastic measures against them.

I am so sick of this. I can’t remember what its like to have peace anymore. Everything is barely a distraction at best. I don’t know or remember what real empathy or love are anymore. I want to hurt other people so they will join my misery, I know I shouldn’t but it’s very hard to control. Maybe in the end something will change, but I don’t know if I will be there to experience it.”

Necritica


26. There’s the goddamn voice in my head that tries to persuade me to try and do violent things.

“Do you know the Master from Doctor Who and his drumming? Imagine that, but real. And then there’s the goddamn voice in my head that tries to persuade me to try and do violent things.”

TheClopDude


27. Occasionally it will tell me to harm myself, or do something to put myself in harm’s way.

“I hear many things. There’s a couple of voices that I hear; one is degrading, telling me how worthless I am. Occasionally it will tell me to harm myself, or do something to put myself in harm’s way (e.g., telling me to jump out a car door while the car is moving, or jump in front of a train when I’m at the train station). The other voice is a lot more confusing. Sometimes it’ll tell me how I’m special, more special than anyone in the world. Sometimes it tells me that I’m doing things the wrong way, yet it won’t tell me what I’ve done wrong. Sometimes it will tell me to pay extremely close attention to something mundane—last time I listened to it, it told me to count bumps in a wall, because it was somehow important.

Aside from the voices, there’s a bunch of other auditory hallucinations. I often hear static, a bit like an untuned radio, and occasionally a deafening explosion. One hallucination that I actually am truly grateful for is the music in my head; for the past 10 years or so, in the background, is this wonderful, alien music that’s forever morphing and changing. The only downside I see with that is that i get lost in it, paying little attention to the real world, because listening to it is the most wonderful experience.”

techlos


28. He told me just last week that I could kill a man walking down the street with my knife in my pocket.

“I hear a man and a girl.

The man tells me things that aren’t true, or are out of grasp. For instance, he would tell me to go hit on this girl, when I know she’s out of my league. But sometimes, he will say things that just aren’t right. For instance, he told me just last week that I could kill a man walking down the street with my knife in my pocket. That I can play god, and that I am god, and everything that is, is me. He scares me. I only hear him when I’m alone, and depressed, however.

The girls voice is an odd story. I had an ex move away to Florida about six months ago, without saying a word to me. Just up and left. But the girls voice, I can recognize as my ex’s, Kelly. She’s the nice one, whom I hear a lot of. She tells me that I shouldn’t fear being alone, and I shouldn’t fear death. I shouldn’t be afraid of what lies ahead, but embrace it rather. She’s also my ‘heightened common sense,’ if you will. Like if I’m cooking…..I don’t know, a cake. She’ll tell me exactly what to put in the bowl, and what consistency it should be, and how long it would take. And she’s always right, I haven’t read directions for cooking since I started hearing her. She tells me I’m a nice, loving, kind hearted and generous man, and that I shouldn’t listen to the angry tempered man in my head. Nobody knows that I hear these voices, not even my mom, who I’m super close to. I might head these voices, but I see it as a good thing. I have a different understanding of the world, as well as several viewpoints on an issue when I have one. The only real problem is, when I’m alone, I talk to the girl, the one that sounds like Kelly…And we have nice conversations. Like me and the real Kelly did. I am so in love with this girl, even after 6 months, that hearing this voice even hurts sometimes. We talk daily, the voice and I. Through my thoughts, when I’m around people, and aloud when I’m alone. She tells me every night before I fall asleep, ‘Sweet dreams, my darling. When you wake tomorrow, I will be here when you wake tomorrow. Sleep tight. I love you, don’t let the bed bugs bite” Then I smell a perfume that smells like strawberries, and I feel a faint kiss on the cheek. This routine kills me on the inside, because I know who the voice is…I know EXACTLY who it is….And it scares me. I cry every night, when I feel that faint kiss on my cheek, because that’s what Kelly would do…And she’s gone, forever…I’m sad that I hear her tell me she loves me every night, because I know she’s not real, but at the same time….I’m glad I’m not alone…All of my friends left because I’m either an atheist, or I don’t have money to give them to get fucked up every night. I know Kelly is gone, and I know the voice is fake….But at least I have someone to talk to, who understands me, and somebody to tell me they love me every night of my life….That’s all I could ask for…I wish this voice were a real person, here with me, instead of a voice of a person that I’m madly in love with and will never see again. I’m sorry if I spelled anything wrong, I’m bawling at the moment, so its a tad hard to type…But I feel like typing this out makes me feel better, and makes it a little easier to cope with, knowing that thousands of you…are interested in hearing my story.”

Alt_Rox_HaXer


29. He usually urges me to do violent things.

“Not sure exactly what I have, but basically it’s kind of like hearing voices, except instead of hearing the voices as if it’s another person, I have two different trains of thought going all the time. One of them is a perfectly normal docile person, which thankfully seems to be the dominant one, and the other is a more instinctive vengeful me. I’ve named him Mortimer. He usually urges me to do violent things, sometimes I can tell why, like a person is annoying me, but other times I just start craving violence for no reason at all. But the thing is I have two thought processes in my head, so when they communicate it’s like two telepathic people sharing thoughts 24/7.”

throwaway127789


30. I’ve heard whispers calling my name that turn to yelling directly in my ear.

“I’ve actually tried to do an AMA a couple times but, they’ve all been taken down. I have residual schizophrenia. It’s mostly in remission so, perhaps I could help. I’ve really never had very many hallucinations (to my knowledge anyway). I’ve heard whispers calling my name that turn to yelling directly in my ear. It sounds just like any other external voice. I’ve heard conversations while alone coming from my empty house. Usually under times of stress. I’ve never had threatening or violent ones. Mine were mostly while I was growing up so, I suppose I just didn’t know any difference. I’d love to answer any questions that you all may have :)”

RS90


31. I can ‘hear’ other people’s thoughts judging me, fear there are plots to discredit or ruin me.

“On a good day. It’s kind of like walking around a crowded party. You can hear people talking, but it’s so much audible clutter that it becomes noise. If I’m busy or thinking really hard about a problem I’m solving (i.e.: at work or a project) it fades into the background but I’m still aware of it.

If my mind isn’t constantly occupied with something (i.e.: boredom) the opposite happens. The noise increases and sometimes the voices/thoughts become tangible. Usually preying on negative feelings or memories.

On a bad day, things are much, much worse. Bad days can occur after severe lack of sleep, emotional trauma or tremendous stress. Voices become clear and fall into several categories:

1.) Fearless. You can do anything. Fuck boundaries you can rock this shit. These aren’t too bad, but encourage reckless and dangerous behavior (drinking, drug use, impulsive actions)

2.) Paranoid and Delusional. I can ‘hear’ other people’s thoughts judging me, fear there are plots to discredit or ruin me. I see everyone as an enemy to be avoided/overcome.

3.) Failure. Voices focus heavily on personal failures. Instead of using them as a learning experience the voices berate me with reminders of how worthless I was (these have improved with therapy)

4.) Violence. I have never once allowed these to influence me other than punching a wall here or there when I was younger.

I am medicated now, and with a combination of medication, lifestyle changes, therapy and exercise I have managed to greatly improve my mental health. Sometimes there are struggles, but my day to day life is relatively normal.”

GeekPhysique


32. Sometimes they scream angry hateful things telling me to kill myself or others around me.

“Most of my hallucinations are visual. I see men who watch me from a distance. Sometimes if I look away they get closer. I can never look at their faces because they look like a smeared oil painting if I try to focus on them. Sometimes they scream angry hateful things telling me to kill myself or others around me. No matter where I am there is always at least one around. It can be berry terrifying especially when it’s dark and silent and I can hear one walking closer to me. I haven’t seen a doctor because I fear they wouldn’t believe me. I’m not at all expressive in my face or voice so people regard me as very quiet and emotionless.”

4theodd


33. Sometimes they say things that don’t make sense. I write some of them down. One example is ‘he cannot these cortexes find.’

“So I actually have schizoaffective disorder, which is schizophrenia plus a mood disorder, which for me is depression. Anyway I’m a bit of a weird case. I have auditory, visual, and tactile hallucinations, and my auditory hallucinations can originate from either outside of me or within my own mind (like your thinking voice, but not the one you actually think in—if that makes sense). My auditory hallucinations are also weird because they aren’t all voices. I hear a lot of random sounds. The first thing I heard was one strum on a guitar in my bedroom when no one else was home and my guitar was zipped up in its case. I’ve also heard snickers, footsteps, horses walking on the road outside my house…really random things. These are all things I hear coming from outside of me.

The things I hear inside my head, no psychiatrist has ever really been able to explain, and I’ve been through a few. Basically I hear other people’s voices inside my head. Men, women, teens, children, gruff old men. Sometimes they say things that don’t make sense. I write some of them down. One example is ‘he cannot these cortexes find.’ Other things do make sense, but I can’t make sense of why I’m hearing them. It’s like I’m hearing snippets of other people’s conversations out of context. And they’re really dumb. I heard a teen girl talking about being picked up to hang out with friends, things like that. Sometimes I’m not sure if they’re talking to me or someone else, like one gruff gentleman who said something to the effect of ‘honey, go get my gun.’ These voices come in packs and usually when I’m trying to focus on homework or trying to fall asleep or something.

New as of my last episode in the fall is music. I hear distant music that is just faint enough that I can figure out a genre but not recognize an artist or song title. It’s actually really annoying because I want to be able to place it but I can’t. One time African drums were keeping me awake.

…that’s the gist of mine.”

somethingsilver


34. ‘You’re stupid’ and the ‘F’ word are used quite liberally 24/7.

“One male voice here, started shortly after turning 28. It’s very similar to hearing someone just speak, the tone is a little different. But it can change tones with effort and it will mimic knocks or sounds from outside to get your attention, whisper something as you walk pass people to make you think they are talking about you, etc. Mostly mean childlike games involving basic psychology or behavioral conditioning in my case. Always trying to keep my attention focused on it and using repetitive words or phrases to elicit emotional responses, which can be quite effective. The actually used words are very limited in my case which is likely less than 20 words, ‘you’re stupid’ and the ‘F’ word are used quite liberally 24/7.

I suppose I’ve been one of the lucky ones as I’ve always found it more comical then anything, so there has never been the need for medication, even if it has been very annoying at times. After about 12 years later I ended with an auto-immune which made the voice more influential as I became weaker mentally and physically. What I found to help me the most then, was simply exercising my mind occasionally. Working on my sense of sound like a musician would, learning to distinguish different tones and sounds. Working with the other senses as well to focus intently on the physical reality, doing math, language, pretty much a full mental workout. On top of working on my will power by making myself feel certain emotions or countering negative emotions with other emotions. etc. It takes work and time, but then most good things do and like most things you do it gets easier and easier.”

Name Withheld


35. The older-sounding male was always against me. Always trying to get me to commit murder/suicide.

“Well, I heard 3 voices. 2 male and 1 female. The younger sounding male was chaotic, always switched between being nice and being against me. The older-sounding male was always against me. Always trying to get me to commit murder/suicide. The female was mostly nice. I heard them as clearly as if they were sitting right next to me. When I was a kid, I made imaginary friends, that I could see, to keep me company. The winter after I turned 12, the bullies at my school (The second of the 3 schools I’ve been to) got worse, and my grandma moved out, on my mom’s command. My imaginary friends disappeared one day, but the voices stuck around. I started cutting (not the flimsy way with a razor, but with a knife I got from the scouts. About 15cm long), because then the voices got quiet. I noticed that after I got hurt, falling from a swing. I tried committing suicide 3 times, all times by cutting deeper than normal. I got hospitalized at 17 years old. This was the first time someone actually listened to me. I got medicine after a couple of months, and they helped. I stopped hearing voices after a while, and got out of the ward after 6 months. After another 6 months, I got a psychiatrist that actually listened to me and diagnosed me with schizophrenia when I was 18. I am now 19, and I haven’t been able to go to school since I got hospitalized. I can’t concentrate, I can’t remember. I am currently in the process of lowering my doses, so I in the end can live without the medicine.”

ISeeDeadPixelz


36. People screaming my name. It’s never the same voices and usually only when I am very stressed.

“People screaming my name. It’s never the same voices and usually only when I am very stressed. I remember hearing it as early as 5 years old. There was also a male voice that at one point told me to stop visiting my friends when I was about six. Frightening stuff for a little girl.”

bekah_blushes

Mr Peter Walker – Australian Army – Acknowledgement by Scott James Stewart

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https://scottjamesstewart.yolasite.com/

https://archive.org/details/peterwalkerthankyouspeech/peter+walker+thankyou+speech+011219++2.mp3

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9th May 2015 at 1356

I keep getting asked the same question over and over again, and have just realised they are ‘keywords’ and Pam is hearing something different to what I respond with everytime I respond, so she thinks I am ‘dissing’ her all the time. Here are the code words
J: Why is it like this scott? 2, 3, 4
J: does Pam like you scott? 2 “how much?”
J: will she stop selling to you scott?
J: will klerry sell to you scott? (I have decided to stpop using)
J; will it make any difference to Pam scott? (I believe that she is having sex with Geoff, Pierre, Shayla, Glenn Jeffries etc at the moment, which is why there are non-stop questions, the same over and over again).
Now Pam is saying “do I care about you scott?” and I said “no”, and she said “no, I don’t do I – what do I care about?” and I said “is that you P{am?”, and she said “why do you ask?” and I said “because you said you have never had any psychosis” and I said “but you are as psychotic as me”
J: “why is it like this don’t you scott”
J: “you love Pam don’t you scott”
Pam “why don’t I play fair scott?” S: who said that? P: Pam richardson


14th June 2019 2041
M?: what do you know about video forensics
s: quite a lot
?M: what do you know about IP addresses
s: virtually nill
?M: why do you ask ?
s: I think you will shortly realise that you asked, and I merely replied
M?: yes, why do I ask
s: I don’t enquire
M?: why do you think I ask
s: because, for you, eveything must be done right, proper, and by the book, so you are nequiring to ascertain my propernsity to foil your efforts
M?: what is your IP address
s: Im obviously hoping you know already
M?: why is that
s: so you can stitch me up, and so on…
M?: cause that implies..
s: (interrupting). Yes, it mandates that, sorry about interrupting
M?: what happens if I fail
s: you won’t
M?: what happens if you fail
s: all imprints of what has happened and what got achieved disappear…. by the way…I firmly believe all IP addresses will be valid and correct, and not changed or altered in any way
m?: WILL YOU KILL YOURSELF
S: yes, I absolutely will; but only if I can get proof you exist and are human, because I cannot throw away so much health care provision, by killing myself for an hallucination.
M?: hey S, what is your st george bank number?
s: you see right now, I’m logging in
M?: why don’t you just go in and buy that? (referring to what is on my computer screen)
s: i might. It depends what you say over the next few minutes
M?: is Michelle here
s: if she is, then she’s not dead
M?: how do I know Michelle
s: I don’t necessarily know which Michelle you are referring to
m?: how can I put this scott
s: any way you like. I’m not critical. By the way, have we met?
….
I just completed publishing “The Future – Corruption Of Freemasonry” 1337

 

They(?) are blaming their behaviour on my illegal narcotics?!~

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AA: why don’t you take some notes?
s: WHERE TO, PLEASE?
AA: I don’t know
s: well who are you amyway?
aa: I’m AA
S: I’m N.A.
AA: Ha ha ha
s: Yeh, happy vacuume…….This ‘ghost’ of your is not well. Why has it not got any milestones or optimism?
aa:…..don’t know
S: well, where di you find it?
AA: ….huh?
s: has it got some learning impediments?
aa: not sure
s: righty right then droog.

About AVH (voices) – Medical Hypotheses – aetiology of AVH

non pathological voices

http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/the-enemy-within-people-who-hear-voices-in-their-heads-are-being-encouraged-to-talk-back-10001499.html

Rachel Waddingham struggled to fall asleep. She could hear three middle-aged men she didn’t know talking about her downstairs. “They were saying, ‘She’s stupid, she’s ugly, I wish she would kill herself’,” she remembers. “I was angry and went down to challenge them, but no one was there. They kept laughing and saying, ‘She’ll never find us.’”

Research suggests that up to one in 25 people hears voices regularly and that up to 40 per cent of the population will hear voices at some point in their lives. But many live healthy and fulfilling lives despite those aural spectres.

http://health.usnews.com/health-news/health-wellness/articles/2015/07/02/hearing-voices-not-always-a-sign-of-mental-illness

Researchers have found that psychotic experiences like hearing voices are relatively common – and not always a sign of mental illness. In a study published in May, he and a team of researchers analyzed data from more than 31,000 people in 18 countries and found that 2.5 percent of the population has heard something and 3.8 percent has seen something that others didn’t at some point in their lives. Another study published in the Scandinavian Journal of Psychology last month found that more than 7 percent of the 2,533 people surveyed reported auditory hallucinations in their lives.​​ By comparison, the percentage of people who have schizophrenia is close to 1 percent.

Forestell’s voices, for one, don’t keep her from living a happy, productive life. She has a full-time job, four kids and is engaged to be married. She enjoys hiking, skiing and live music​.​ “I have all of these other things to show that I’m a whole person and not just a voice hearer,” she says. In a 2010 study, auditory hallucinations might be best thought of like coughs – “common experiences that are often, but not always, symptoms of pathology associated with a larger illness.” ​

https://www.hearing-voices.org/voices-visions/

Statistics vary, but it’s generally accepted that between 3 and 10% of the population hear voices that other people don’t.  Some voices can be positive – providing the support and encouragement someone needs to get through the day. Other voices can be confusing, perhaps echoing thoughts or repeating strange phrases. Some voices can be very frightening, saying things that are critical, threatening or commanding. Voices can claim to have great power and knowledge, which can sometimes leave the voice-hearer feeling scared and powerless.

Some voices can leave a person feeling very vulnerable and exposed (e.g. hearing a cr Just under half of the participants in our study said that the voices they heard were indistinguishable from hearing somebody in the room, but a similar number reported thought-like voices or a mixture of the two.owd of people jeering at you, or discussing intimate details of your life).


The well-validated Hare Psychopathy Checklist-Revised is the best known tool psychologists use for measuring psychopathy.

statutory declaration naming AVH's

This is how I prove that the voices are not misattribution, or sub-vocalization. That only leaves executive function irregularities, dopamine disregulation, and vacuoles in the pre-frontal temporal cortex – each of which I can argue are supposition, and do not match the data. Here’s the GOTCHA. I AM THE ONLY PERSON THAT REALLY HAS MATERIAL DATA. It can only come from transcripts. See – https://scottjamesstewart.blogspot.com/2019/09/


 

https://www.irishtimes.com/culture/books/when-the-past-is-present-the-multiple-meanings-of-hearing-voices-1.3060941

Given that traumatic life-events cause brain changes, one could suggest voice-hearing is a sign of a brain disease caused by trauma, and promptly return to biomedical remedies. Instead, the HVM has suggested that voices may profitably be listened to and decoded, rather than just suppressed. To do this it has developed tools such as the Maastricht Interview. Through this, voices can come to be recognised as misunderstood messengers. A voice telling the hearer to kill themselves could be understood as a very badly communicated suggestion that one needs to make significant changes in one’s life, or as a call for acknowledgement of pain.

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2017/06/psychics-hearing-voices/531582/

“A lot of the time, if someone says they hear voices, you immediately jump to psychotic illness, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia,” Corlett said. But research suggests hearing voices is not all that uncommon. A survey from 1991—the largest of its kind since—found that 10 to 15 percent of people in the U.S. experienced sensory hallucinations of some sort within their lifetime. And other research, as well as growing advocacy movements, suggest hearing voices isn’t always a sign of psychological distress.

Noting that there is no question psychiatric distress and schizophrenia are “real” phenomena that call for treatment, Luhrmann adds that “the way a culture interprets symptoms may affect an ill person’s prognosis.” Every psychiatrist I spoke to shared the belief that unusual behavior should only enter into the realm of diagnosis when it causes suffering.

Longden, the Hearing Voices Network advocate, describes how she later learned to extract metaphorical meaning from the sometimes disturbing messages the voices had for her.

http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/simon-mccarthyjones/a-contested-experience-th_b_16130450.html

Just knowing whether someone hears nasty voices allows us to predict with an 88% probability whether they are a patient or non-patient. So why are voices nasty? For other people, a brain disease model may be the most appropriate level of understanding and assistance. For yet others, voices may be spiritual experiences, or just a benign quirk. Voices can be many things. People need information and the freedom to explore what their voices mean, in a supportive environment. In order to do this, neither the demonization of psychiatry nor the dismissal of voice-hearers’ insights is helpful.

Explanation of telepathy infographics:
http://artificialtelepathy.blogspot.com.au/2006/06/hearing-voices.html

 

 

http://www.beyond-hearing-voices.com/hearing-voices-from-conversations-of-people-who-are-alive.html

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http://www.dirkcorstens.com/hearing-voices-and-dissociation/

Voices heard by persons diagnosed schizophrenic appear to be indistinguishable, on the basis of their experienced characteristics, from voices heard by persons with dissociative disorders or with no mental disorder at all.  On this and other bases outlined below, we argue that hearing voices should be considered a dissociative experience, which under some conditions may have pathological consequences.  In other words, we believe that, while voices may occur in the context of a psychotic disorder, they should not be considered a psychotic symptom.

 

http://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/hearing-voices-which-claim-to-be-psychics/44128

I have been hearing voices of increasing intensity for the past several months, and I have only recently been able to question their basis in reality. A year ago they were few and far between, but not occupy most of my time. They started as police officers, and then became a number of other individuals before manifesting in their current, persistent form.

They claim to be two psychics, who are friends with someone I wronged in the past. They claim to be able to see what I see, hear what I think, and able to access many of my memories. They also mention they can see into my subconscious. They ask one favor of me, which I have time and time again refused to complete. When I agree to their terms, they grow in intensity. They voice every one of my deepest anxieties, and claim to have an entire group of friends that watches as they play my mind in the most uncomfortable way. We are constantly conversing in my head, nearly every waking moment. They are even there when I wake up at odd hours of the night.

Seeing a post on this forum, I was struck by its similarity to my own. The voices always deny that I am schizophrenic, and say talking to my psychiatrist about what has been happening will ruin my life. I am afraid they will convince me they are real before my next appointment, but I’m trying my best to ignore them.

http://www.nytimes.com/2007/03/25/magazine/25voices.t.html

Stewart in particular was visibly agitated. His hallucinatory life, as he described it, was chaotic and irrepressible. He heard voices pleading to him for help; he heard the voices of strangers; he heard the voice of his father. Sometimes he heard the voices of military commandos, who offered to defend him against this confusion. “I haven’t been well for a long time,” he said glumly. Yet most of the members spoke of their voices in the way that comedians speak of mothers-in-law: burdensome and irritating, but an inescapable part of life that you might as well learn to deal with. When David’s name was called, he lifted his head and discussed his struggle to accept his voices as part of his consciousness. “I’ve learned over time that my voices can’t be rejected,” he said. “No matter what I do, they won’t go away. I have to find a way to live with them.” Jenny discussed how keeping busy quieted her voices; she seemed to have taken a remarkable number of adult-education courses. Michelle expressed her belief that her voices were nothing more exotic than powerfully negative thoughts. “Negative thoughts are universal,” she said. “Everyone has them. Everyone. What matters is how you cope with them: that’s what counts.”

All about the police in schizophrenia….

https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/tags/police.html

i didnt think the police could show people statements and name names not until it came to court anyway. they sound like trouble and i wouldnt be getting into any conversations with them apart from nodding my head saying, “hello,” and keeping on walking which is what i had to do to a neighbour who was a serious problem a number of years ago.

i only talked to peeps that needed to know, the housing officer at the time and the upstairs neighbours who i asked if it came to court would they come also. and even then i kept that to a minimum.

i refused to get into a conversation with the other neighbours who just wanted to gossip but actually not do anything about the situation, and also they had the potential to escalate the situation. when things get really tough it pays to keep your own counsel and just deal with the people who need to know is what i have found.

there was one occasion when this neighbour guessed that i was a complainant but i didnt not confirm or deny her suspicions. which put her on a uncertain footing with me and for me that was a good result in as much as that went. made me feel uneasy but i decided no information will make her question her own conclusion and sure enough!

The voices i hear are police reading my thoughts

I have been hearing the voices of police officers reading my thoughts off a screen for the past 2 years now. My thoughts are being projected somehow and they take it in shifts to constantly moniter me. They are always in a team of 3 or 4 usually 2 men, one younger and one older and one or two females. You see i used ice for 6 months 2 years ago and i begun hearing them a few days before i quit. So now they watch me to make sure i dont use again and will surley arrest me if i do (i have no intention of ever using again). They are constantly commenting on my thoughts,

Tristan Next Door

See Index for abbreviations and conventions

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so far… going along according to the plan I wrote that resides in my D&A folder. i WAS ASKED THE DATE WHEN i FINISH, AND i ANSWERED. I asked Ryan to organise something, because of the DI i was being subjected to, and he did. I illegally drove my car to his pick up point, and home.

While I was pleasuring myself, many questions were asked. I had called TW earlier but he didn;t return my call until I was self-gratifying, so I couldn’t answer the phone. In the meantime, TC has joined Ryan next door, and immediately I was told that, I asked “Whose operator did you use?” and the reply was “our own”; towit I said, “Excellent, that is another A$1m you owe me”. I now have G$94m in ‘the bank’ (the same one mentioned in the first 20 chapters of my book.

mental health forum hearing voices forum activity 241118

This is inferential statistical measurements of ‘Freemason ‘ activity, derived from measurement of my impact evident in the size of reliable repositories, of schizophrenia or hearing voices. See https://freemason-absolute-leader-declared.webnode.com/the-future-otherwise/

WRT TC, I said in response to a question “i WAS TOLD THAT i WOULD MEET HER IN AN ART GALLERY”, and the reply was “you still might” to my reply “no I won’t. I never go to them”. I was just told to mention TH and MH, my new friends from church. I told TH that I “need a friend” and that I would be calling him to ask to visit sometime after this coming week.


https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/threads/i-think-i-have-a-new-way-to-deal-with-the-voices.230359/#post-1882920

 

I’m so happy that you’ve found a way to make the voices have less control over you! Thats awesome 😁 I hear voices. 4 diffrent ones. 3 of which are distracting and frusterating, but also comforting. They’ve been with me forever. These 3 help me thru my day and offer support and help stand up to the 4th voice which is not nice! I often find myself telling him No or to shut up. Telling him whatever hes making me see or feel isnt real. I have to say tho the meaner and more adamant I get that he’s not real, he gets mad and threatens things. Which then scares me off. I have yet to find meds that actually help with the schizo symptoms and mood symptoms. The meds either made me a walking zombie or sucked every breathe of happiness from my body. I devolped the lovely twitch from them. I feel that everyone is driving their train in the best way possible and its refreshing to hear that someone has grabbed ahold of their stering wheel and takin back control. Thanks for sharing your techniques 😉 Hope your smilin

The cops have evidence that I drove tonight. I am looking forward to being charged, as per my previous ASV Blog entry. I am also informed that I am on Oz TV, being wanted by WAPC for the Claremont serial murders.

fm?: who is that next door?
s: TC
(this dialogue is contrived. Soon as I wrote FM?:, I heard a ‘click’ indicating that their scripts have come out (into play)
FM?: why is she there?
s: to get with Ryan
FM?: why do you think that
s: because no one is sufficiently insane that they would matter transfer across the continent to sit with someone they don’t know, and engage in dialogue with said unkown personage.
FM?: why am I crying
s: I don’t expect you are
FM?: I am
….
s: since you offer no explanation, may I suggest it is because life is so unfair?

…..2343

2358
There was also some discussion of the new disease that Freemasons are (allegedly) exposed to. I termed it AIAV – Autoimmune Immunodeficiency Alpacca Virus.

There are a couple of additional very important things I have not qualified but I must postpone publishing them, as per ASV August 26 2019.


And for some really bizarre and detailed  context … strange reading… try these…

https://freemason-absolute-leader-declared.webnode.com/

scottjamesstewart.yolasite.com

https://scottjamesstewart.blogspot.com/

http://improved-science-conceptuals.mozello.com/home/

Hard Won Grounding


16th November 2019 at 2139 hours

On 4th November was offered some intelligently presented advice from one of my ‘voices’. This is the first time in many years that a voice sounded sincere, so I took time to pay attention to what was being ‘said’. In summary, he stated that there are absolutely no humans involved in my AVH, and the possibility of helping anyone is nearing zero.

‘He’ stated that I was being perpetually fooled and tricked by a ‘Ghost’, and it would be impossible for me to achieve any truthful statements, and be able to detect the deceit that is constant. Finally he advised me to avoid substances because ‘the Ghost’ was exploiting them to violate me, and there exists no possibility of me attaining any sensible or useful results.

So, three days ago, I decided to check if what I was told was reliable, and exposed myself to exactly the wrong risk that I was advised to avoid. The outcomes were twofold. First, it is guaranteed certain that on at least five occasions, my AVH asked the equivalent of “why won’t we let you masturbate, Scott?” (see C:\DataLaptop\Data\temp\Drug Trial –  Goodwill Test 161119.docx).

The second and most critical result was that I should not worry at all about the essays I wrote, because there was only 1 useful available criteria returned after extensive experimentation, at great cost to me. And that was, the only truly reliable construct that could be applied to my AVH, was that everything was deceit, until reaching a particular point where the AVH would become irrational, rather than ordinarily understandable. This discernible point indicated that the AVH could no longer stay defensible against the progress of the dialogue, so it’s only available option was to become unintelligible.


“..the connection between philosophy and science is mutual and characterised by their ever deepening interaction..” (Spirkin 1983)

How can we help schizophrenics avoid 20 year co-morbidity life-span shortfalls, in addition to life destroying obesity and extrapyramidal symptoms, greatly increased cigarette smoking rates, the need for further agents to counter side effects, all resulting from the Antipsychotic medications used to treat hallucinations?

A SCIENCE PROBLEM – What should be done if evidence emerged indicating a weakness, or a flaw, in the framework used to understand and treat psychoses and hallucinations. If the rigour of the scientific method is dogmatically applied to hallucinations, there are a couple of anomalies in the conceptual framework used to derive knowledge from research data.  But what if these kinks resulted in sub-optimal treatment outcomes, such as mortality and comorbidity?

THE PROBLEM RE-STATED What if there was conceptual and deductive proof that demonstrated that there are two potential weak points in the knowledge model of hallucinations, and these kinks reduced the robustness of the science behind the psychiatry of hallucinations? How should the prevailing scientific framework be questioned, and is it possible to suggest an alternative framework that provides a different and imperfect way of thinking?

conceptual models for Hallucinations

There are two ‘kinks’ that exist in the current approach used to explain, understand and treat psychoses and schizophrenia hallucinations. There is a lot of evidence in the WWW mental health forums (eg: https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/  or https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/forums/hearing-voices-forum.36/ ) that the veracity of explanations dispensed by psychiatrists based on conventional scientific models is inadequate, particularly in its failure to provide effective coping strategies for the voices.

The first problem is that (strictly speaking) there can never be proper development of legitimate hypotheses that would normally be tested by experimentation and prediction, because the phenomena (the voices, the auditory verbal hallucinations) do not actually exist.

 

Experiment 32. Last? The Hornsby Court Case.

14th November 2019, between 0330 and1840 hours.

Kerry I think gave me $100 too much, though I can prove to her (via her security apparatus), that I clearly and unambiguously asked for the amount commensurate with the readies I gave her. If only I could convey the 7 hours of vexatious and antagonistically spiteful comments and questions designed to injure me, that I endured between 0330 and 1600 hours. Talk about petty childish imps.

ANyhow, the important facts to be conveyed as a narrative are:

1) as predicted and published (copy-written), Dori and an additional (as yet) un-named other female person were talent down the rear of the unit, being the talent in yet an another alleged production of promiscuous, but no where near as slutty as me, porn movie making

2) Ryan next door received the forecast number of visitors throughout the day, as per my previous recitation of facts, data, and hypotheses. As usual, these visitors were dispersed time interval wise, according to the assertions I made in a previous allegation ridden 1st person transcript.
3)   I cannot recall explicitly committing to text, my other forecast that the young girls from Northern Life would be prominent in the activities that are commentated to me, by non-existent hallucinations
4)   I discovered and verified a few times that my fate has already been determined, with regards to my Hornsby court appearance on the 21st. I will be receiving both a 6 month suspension of my driving privileges in NSW (loss of licence, obviously), and I am repeatedly assured I will also (concurrently mind you) be receiving either the maximum penalty available for the possession charge I face, or a 6 month sentence of incarceration, in lieu thereof. I do wonder (but not expectantly or ‘out loud’), whether this sentence of incarceration will result in a temporary suspension of the 15 year sentence I received from the Bandidos (1% MC), such that any time I spend at the bay, will be added to the 15 year sentence they preside over and as yet not failed to enforce, so that there is no discount of time WRT their penalty.

After repeated pugnacious interruptions reminding me of my imminent high range sentence for my recent criminal offences, it turns out that I am going to pursue a rather interesting tactic. I am going to feign or get a medical certificate for laryngitis, and decline due to inability, to be able to represent myself in any method other than utilising a notepad.

The intention is to have a judgement brought down, along with the pursuant preceded sentence, in the absence of me being able to undertake any sensible defence of myself. The primary objective of the Prophet of the Strategy Religion, is to either:

a) be able to access an appeal, on the grounds of error of law, notwithstanding my null capacity in both financial or representational (antecedent requisite knowledge) resources, normally mandatory to mount an appeal. If this subsequently fails to have the previous judge ‘struck off” for (I am ineloquent) reasons, then it will fortuitously set the most abundant and yielding precedent, for the charges that will, me willing, inevitably ensue sometime in the next 4-5 years. When sociopathically disabled, severely ill characters who feature in my transcripts, are compelled to provide evidence (on the public record in a Magistrates Court

b), as per my published strategy and confessions, they will have nowhere to hide from the most spuriously unsupportable, self-inflicted, draconian, punitive sentence that ipso facto must necessarily flow from the precedent that will be set if their claims of the outcomes of my own trial bear any merit or credibility.

5) I hear wind of two allies. No there’s a near first. They are – The Hells Angels 1% MC OMC (not sure if Oz or USA or both), and some at Shine Lawyers. I would like to express my succinct and heart and soul gratitude to these two entities that are run by humans, for the courage, intrepidness, and resolve to support a (the only current) living GOD at work on the terra forma of what I (really) suspect is not actually Planet Earth (any more). I call that original home of many Gaia. But, and I know this is preposterous unbelievable, I would expect that we (less than 2Bn) have been temporarily relocated onto and “development” planet ‘Earth’. Anyway, I have stated the truth, despite the cost, to the public.

Sorry about the narrative. Apologies for not referencing my previous publications correctly (at all). No apologies, just inevitable extensive damage, for having an obligation to the truth that is manifestly actionable and uncompromisable , to wit, we that remain subsequent to the evacuation, have been temporarily re-located. (Unfortunately, the truth precipitated by the facts, is that such is the scope and jurisdiction bounding the domain in which Gods have to work).

ScottGod.

I am Love, but in the Strategy Religion, we kill; also.

Just More Of What They Say To Me – And What I Say Back.

12th October 2019 at 2016 hours

RT: bety you’re hanging out for a wank, scott
s: yes, absolutely dying for one
RT: ron thiessen here. why is that scott?
s: ask julia, she’s your leader
RRT: ron thiessen here. why is that scott?
s: ask JD. She’ll know
….2018…compelled to IVDU $25.00 CMTH, to again get more data to be able to believe that when I IV, their behaviour changes. Unbelieveable still, probably always to me. I’ll have to acquiesce, otherwsie I will end up taking too many drugs. In my estimate, I already am. I shouldn’t have to do any……
…2020..I forecast that at around the time I enroll and start TAFE njext year, AW will beging making many scenes in pornographic movies, then resign from Hornsby TAFE, and move to Brentwood (probably to becoime a dedicated full time porn star, rather than just hating me so much that she couldn’t stay…
…2022
M: she’s already begun scott. she doing one with Angry now
s: then I definately need IVDU to prevent my own suicide from catastrophic feelings (again)….
…2023….
?: he’s done it. He got AW…2024…he’s done it again scott. He got AW…2025
s: I want to wait before I use, because I want to measure the amount and style of things you say, but I get so distraught at what I think is going on with these women, I can’t stand it…I’m in now…doing it -then “wait”..so I do…2026…..
FM?: they are realising, that you don’t give a shit about us do you?
s: who are you. first and last name please? and what species are you please?
…2028….
fM?: all your firends are dead
s: yeh, you told me approx 1600
FM?: I’m sorry about that, scott…
2035….
s: fucking whore (shouted)
FM?: she’s with windy
s: fucking whore (shouted)
FM?: AW says something to you
AW: you’re going to get a big suprise, one day scott
s: how do you know I’m scott?
AW: I don’t really know what to say to that
s: do you know my last name?
AW: scott stewart
s: yes, thats correct
…..
M?: this will never end
s: …
M?: how does it feel scott? to be hated so much?
s: meh
s: how does it feel scott? to be hated so much?
FM?: they are both dead
s: meh
….2039…
M?: scott, how does it feel?
s: awful
M?: I am Angry man
s: well I’m not writing any more then


 

26th september 2019  -2209 –

tracy and geoff. (25) at my unit. I undertook this experiment to learn what the voices would say. The null hypothesis is: they will not make a pornographic video movie starring someone i know. The hypothesis is that they will. 2211. They are (making a pornographic video) so the null hypothesis is dis-proven.

2212 m and how. She is going wild. And how. You lose scott. You will never believe
what just happened. 2213 tracy has just c9me all over geoff. You lose big time. And you do.
S: (silence)
M: you have never lost so badly. Geoff is coming all over tracy. And how
S: (silence)
M: i cant believe how much geoff cums. Its incredible.
Tj: sucked in scott stewart i love geoff now, becayse he cums so well. Its beautiful. 2217 how do u think i feel anout geoff now?
S: i dont know
Tj: i think he’s a god. And you are a loser ans a fuckwit
M: im afraid thats true
M2: its true
M: u know whAT scott, no one has ever lost so much as u have lost. But u dont even know how much u have lost.
M3: its true
Fm?: your friends are crying
M4: we are
Fm? U know what scott.C is
M4: we have all just left
Fm?: u are going to regret your life. Thats all. Go home.
M4: no dont. It might work out.
S: silent
M4: it didnt. U lose.
M5: there they go
Fm?: why are we doing thus to yoy?
S: i dont know
Tj: because u are a cunt in my opinion. Why dont u stop taking drugs?
S: im about to
Tj: too little too late
Fm?: why are we doing this to u
S: i dont know
M4: i do. But im not telling
Fm?: scott, please dont take this personally, but i dont like you
S: silence
=========
David (upstairs diagnol) left his unti at approx 0130 – 270919
Ryan (next door) left his unit at 0208 – 270919. He left again at 0229 (without having returned!!!!!, ie, going inside through his door)


7th October 2019   2105

My voices seem to fully believe that they have to torture and mutilate me in order for them to be able to achieve sexual gratification.

Early this morning I acquired $100.00 CMTH because a fortnight ago the AVH’s had undertaken to place TJ as the currently most prominent person who I really like, but who is intent on “betraying me”. This is very important because RJ is my only remaining friend, and I noticed conspicuously that Tracy avoided talking to me last Xmas lunch. Now that seems quite paranoid, but if you consider the frequency and prevalence of my AVH’s narrating how the humans involved are all great friends and pornographic movie participants, you will unavoidably make the very same forecast.

Since 2009, especially 2012 onwards, every time I try to gratify myself, the voices immediately commentate on the activities of people I know because they are making pornography, that relies upon my misery, pain and exclusion (betrayal they call it). The pain the induce by causing tactile and somatosensory hallucinations in my penis, preventing me from being able to feel it properly, whilst they simultaneously interrogate me non-stop to distract me from being able to fantasise, while I watch pornography myself.

Now after 28 years of hatred and torture by this same cohort of antagonists, every time I attempt to  masturbate, I know that it is very likely that I will be mutilated and interrogated, thereby prevented from being able to feel pleasurable feelings, and ultimately ejaculate. They will only let me cum once every 4-7 months, achieved by prohibiting any pleasure available to me from masturbating. A consistently central part of how they stop me, is by socially picking on me, clearly stating on nearly every occasion, that every girl I have known or met since 2009, has (in their words) “betrayed me”, by choosing not to talk to me at all, by participating in the prohibition of my ejaculation, and by deciding to say “yes” to an offer to make porn, usually with a male that I know or have known.

I appreciate that this sounds rather weak and feeble of me, but this information is designed an applied with expertise gained through the death of other schizophrenics, who suffer similar ostracization and exclusion. It is unbearable and lethal to realise that people who pretend to like you, are in fact deriving advantage and pleasure, by excluding and abandoning you. This form of social manipulation and bullying and ostracization is extremely painful.

And that is why when Tracy was introduced into the narrative from 8 weeks ago, I knew immediately that she would be choosing to have sex with a male friend or acquaintance of mine, and to effectively dislike, even effectively hate me, because the people involved never stop rubbing it in that the girls are happy to make porn with these men, but not even to send me an email, and say Hi.

So when Tracy started being talked about 8 weeks ago, I had a rather reliable forecast of what was likely to be taking place for the next few months. And she is a really beautiful, attractive, endearing, pleasant, delightful to be around girl, which is why I noticed that she was not like this last Xmas.

And so, yep, that’s what has been happening. I have been achieving or not achieving, but definitely advocating substantial amounts of payment, for all these people I know who are having the worlds best time making all the porn. This is an obvious sensible thing to do to attempt to protect myself, and if the payments were made, these people (GK, DHJ, PBD, The Bandidos, SO, MP, especially Ron next door, AH, GS loving: Rosy, Emily P, Emma, EP, NNB, MY, TJ, Farrah, LN, TN, Madelin, Natalie, TC, BH, JW, JL, Tabatha, JL, Teresa, JC and so on, would not resent or hate me for increasing their savings.

However, I am told that many of the payments I demanded on their behalf, were in fact made, and the size of the payments was very substantial. So now the individuals who received the money, have left Sydney, and gone to live in Los Angeles, where they continue to feature in NVE.

 

 

The Police, A Trial, Evidence, A Plea Bargain, Sex and Girls

26th August 2019  0549

[The story so far….] They refuse to let me go to sleep again ‘tonight’ (last night). They instigated an event designed to prevent me from getting a job as a mental health advocate (where I will come into contact with other Freemason victims of decision-based schizophrenia.

How do I know? They take great pride in telling me, both directly and by insinuation. AND – if you read this (here), it is substantiated factual evidence proving the unbelievable truth in this blog!

Notwithstanding the details I must withhold, and despite and in addition to the activities at Hornsby TAFE Diploma in Community Services (see here) implicating Rosy, Emma P, Emma X, and the departed Farah,…. 

….I am now unable to complete my course.

How is it that my auditory verbal hallucinations are accurate when they tell me that I am about to “drop you out of university” and ‘kicking’ me out of TAFE?

So here is what I will probably be unable to submit when I appear at Hornsby local court, at a date and time I have not be provided with yet….


Sunday, 25 August 2019

(Remember to mention that I am secretly recording the trial)

Plea bargain by Scott James Stewart 250819

  1. Apologise for nervousness and idiosyncrasies whilst talking, I am schizophrenic. Accordingly, I am reading this information from a document I have written, and I would be very happy to give you a copy right now, for your convenience.
  2. As you know, I am pleading guilty to both charges I am facing. May I please make a few statements for you to consider when sentencing me, because I would like to mitigate my behaviour, and ask for a s10 or section 9(1)(b) result.
  3. Before I continue making this plea, I would like to address an obvious incongruency, namely that in my case, illegal possession and use of crystalmethamphetamine is not the cause of my schizophrenia. I have documents on me now that can substantiate this if you would like me to provide them to you. Having said this however, I am not ignorant of the fact that narcotics are strongly implicated in psychosis, and psychosis is a dangerous illness commonly associated with schizophrenia. (Unfortunately, my absolute compliance with the neuroleptics (anti-psychotic medication) does not help treat my schizophrenia. It is an anti-psychotic, not an anti-schizophrenia.
  4. On the 25th August 2019 at approximately 1308 hours, I phoned Hornsby Police asked if it were possible to get a written statement from officer Callender or officer Steward (the arresting Police officers) regarding the details of the that resulted in my arrest. I requested this information because I wanted to prove my honesty, immediate admission of my drug use and possession, and full unhesitant compliance with their questions and instructions. They officer who answered stated that I should phone legal aid.
  5. Since the offence, I am undertaking the Smart Recovery program – booked 1/9/2019
  6. I am also attending Hornsby drug counselling, having booked an appointment on 26th August 2019
  7. I have a copy of some unrine-analysis results to demonstrate that I have abstained from using crystal methamphetamine.
  8. The reason I had made such poor decisions that night, was because I was emotionally suicidal, as a result of the content of some AVH’s I was experiencing. My schizophrenia means that I have no friends, periods of unemployment, and occasional AVH’s. Sometimes, my AVH’s contain so much personal hatred, and hostility, they make me desperately suicidal. My decisions that night were because I was suicidal, and I was hearing about two people named Ron Thiessen and Julia Davis. I do know that narcotics exacerbate mental health symptoms. I never fail to comply with my psychiatric instructions, and I never forget to take the correct dose of the anti-psychotic medication prescribed to me. But I respectfully point out that auditory verbal hallucinations are a symptom of schizophrenia, not psychosis, so my anti-psychotic medication is not usually successful at eliminating AVH’s. I made a terrible decision that night, I am in overhelming regret and remorse, and I am pledging never to make the same mistake again.
Community Services Work  (currently on hold pending the outcome of this gearing)

       The reason I am pleading for a a s10 or section 9(1)(b) result, is because after 28 years of schizophrenia, I believe I am well enough to advocate on behalf of other schizophrenics. So I have been studying Community Services full time at Meadowbank TAFE, with the specific goal of helping other schizophrenics to minimise stigma, employment problems and social isolation caused by schizophrenia. If I have a conviction recorded and a criminal record, I cannot work in Community Services.

Additional Information about Schizophrenia

  1. 47% of schizophrenics have substance use problems
  2.  
  3. New management approach (3 articles published, receiving citations).
  4. Advocate for schizophrenics (especially with regards to co-morbidity resulting from neuroleptic medication)
  5. I can provide this court with more than 300 items of material evidence to prove what I have just stated about suicide resulting from AVH’s.

26th August 2019

They still won’t shut up, talking non-stop since the above post. In the process, I was reminded that a girl from The State Library of NSW called Kharmen, who I never talked to, is also dead!

Here is an image to that effect:

image grab of addedum note about Khamen from the State Library of NSW being dead - ask Craig Elson 2608191242

What the above RHS screen says is:

[I get particularly frustrated that no-one will read the details of my AVH’s, that claim to be Freemasons, specifically naming Julia Davis and her ex-husband Ron Thiessen.  (For example, they state that I have an outstanding incident from the State Library of NSW involving Craig Elson, my Wilson Security ex-boss.) {2260819 1239 – ‘we’ have been ‘talking’ and I need to mention that Kharmen is also dead.]

…and here is a 1st person transcript that indicates the date and time in the date-stamp written at the beginning…

after doing the exact thing I did and do not want to do – the stupidest most pathetic thing I can think of 260819 :

26th August 2019 at 0736 hours:

M?: why don’t you do a transcript now Scotty?
s: yeh, OK
M?: why do you do what we say?
s: so I remain alive
M?: why do I tell you what to do?
s: a few reasons
M? what are they scott?
s: you want something, mostly
M?: that attitude is differemt
s correct. I’m very close to death
M?: why is that scotty
s: because of you, you telling me what you do
M? who am I scotty
s: rosy, rosy
M?: how do you know that
s: you just laughed at me as you walked past from Ryan’s unit next door, remember?
M?L: how did you know that was me
s: I recognised your voice, a second before you (they) said it was you
M?: how do you know rosy scott
s: from the hits on one of my websites
M?: bla bla bla (withheld)
s: yes
0740
M?: why are we doing this to you
s: because of 1st person pluralisms
M?: why don’t I just shutup .. for a second
s: you do occasionally
M?: why do you want I to do that
s: I stand here (so to speak) to represent all you future death!
M?: wqhat are you talking about
s: my name is scott james stewart. My serial number is 008. My rank is God. (according to JD, RT and a vacuume of dissent)
M?: what are you talking about
s: I am attempting to remain alive
M?: what are you talking about
s: I’m avoiding suicide, as best as I can
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(
…….0743
M?: what are you talking about
s: (……)(

m?: why doesn’t your encryption software work
s: well you just turned it off so I coulod access my files
m?: how did you do that scotty
s: I KNOW YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: I wrote you a note last night. I KNOWWW!!!!!
M?: what are you talking about?
s: (……)(
…0747…0749…
M? what are you doing now scotty
s: trying to encryupt them again, obviously
M? what are you doing now scotty
…0749…0750…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)(….
…0751… (doing stuff)…
?M2: expert
…0751….(see bmp image for verification)…0753…
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: extending the scope of my 1st p xscripts
M? what are you doing now scotty?(see “Untitled 1A.bmp” image for verification)
0755
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: meh
M? what are you doing now scotty?
s: (……)

 

Indicatives from this blog… Why what the voices say is so important!

20th September 2019 2146
Why is the content of auditory verbal hallucinations important?    

Here is some independent scientific research affirming the importance of the content of the voices of schizophrenia: “The Meaning of Voices in Understanding and Treating Psychosis: Moving Towards Intervention Informed by Collaborative Formulation”

There are quite a few reasons….
  1. Firstly, the voices are the actual SYMPTOMS of mental illness, especially schizophrenia. No one should ignore or trivialise the symptoms of such a lethal disease. Read this for a scientific analysis and commentary of why the phenomenology is so important: https://docdro.id/wtuz44G
  2. If you keep a note of exactly what the voices say, it has immediate impact, and changes what they say. They become much less hostile, hateful and malevolent: https://docdro.id/DCWFDF8
  3. If you live with the experience of hearing voices, you should make a YouTube clip to help other people manage and get sympathy for their own voices.
  4. You should also post information about what the voices say in the various mental health forums, so that other people can kno0w about, manage and treat their own voices.

Scott James Stewart 008 God Re – Do vOICE mIX 110819

Why is the content of voices important? What relevance do the voices have? What This Blog Indicates….
  • They (my auditory hallucinations) believe “double standards” exist in the world,and I am going to prove that despite their fervent wishful beliefs, in fact, “double standards” DO NOt EXIST in the world. See here.
  • I am going to explain and relate the details of my experimentation with illicit narcotics, and describe the results of my (ad0hoc) science, with special regards to Freemasonry (my voices).
  • Why my voices refuse to take any form of I.Q.test, cognitive ability test, sociopathy test, or my malingering test, and the implications of this refusal, especially at law.
  • Why the following short maxim is the irreplaceable summary of modern (unofficial or official) Freemasons:   “THEM    I     YOU”        or       “US       THEY       YOU
  • A brief analysis of “thought insertion”
  • A final brief summary to leave everyone in a better mood, an idea for a disease to explicitly infect only telepathic perpetrators, spread in a similar manner to malaria (by mosquito’s), and a call for ideas for the name of this new disease. If no-one offers any suggestions, I will have to name it myself.

8 reasons why your voices dont want a first person diary copy

22nd August 2019 1807

Firstly, they are continuing to criticise me (like that’s not their modus operandi !!!! [check this link] and repeatedly (re)stating that my TAFE (college) timetable was wrong and I missed 2 classes!

But mostly they are hating me because it is far too early in the morning according to them, for anyone to be up annotating their blog!

How To Detect Psychotic Malingering….

Guess ?  1st Person Transcripts!

SYMPTOMATIC ACCOUNTS CAN HELP SAVE MILLIONS OF DOLLARS. And alleviate an extent of legal liability in psycho-legal practice, stemming from detection failure or diagnostic error.  Motivation for malingering is usually external (e.g., avoiding military duty or work, obtaining financial compensation, evading criminal prosecution, or obtaining drugs). There are no psychometrically validated assessment tools to distinguish real vs feigned hallucinations, though there are a variety of tests and instruments. 1-39% of presentations can be considered malingerers. In the US, Social Security Disability examinations, occurring in 45.8%-59.7% of adult cases, in 2011, produced an estimated cost of $20.02 billion. statutory declaration naming AVH's 1st person transcripts minimise liability to indemnify registrars and allied emergency department staff from wrong decisions. Use for rapid, extremely low cost, quantitative, very difficult to fake, fast and reliable assessment instrument to facilitate detection of malingerers. The evaluation of malingering can be undertaken with immediacy by examining the content of a 1st person transcript, written on the spot in front of clinicians. Then, if necessary, closer scrutiny can be achieved through digital algorithmic evaluation on a tablet or laptop that has the necessary statistical and pattern detection software installed. Evidence of falsifying psychoses and other schizotypal illnesses can be rapidly attained by untrained staff, and probed for validity by clinicians. In the event of uncertainty, the test can be reapplied periodically with increasing reliability and precision.

What and Who are Unofficial Freemasons?

25th July 2019   1647

They did it to me again! But I am in fact this time to blame. Early in the morning, I made a bad decision, and they took advantage of it.

So now the people I study with are being involved. I have been hearing about it since 8.42 AEST this morning. Here is the transcript, which should be added to the audio file transcript I additionally created (but have not yet transcribed)

250719 0842

All statements are fm?  

(On the train going to TAFE foundation skills workshop after people going on down the rear units and David [upstars] recording me from outside my door)

Scott did u log out
No
Well what r u goong to do about yr venterlinm paymemts
Theres notng i can do
Ur wrong
I disagree
How long will it take to prpve yr right
I already jave que a bit of wvidemve to prove im right
What do u think of farah
I think so highly of her, that i believe yr earlier claims. Out of this world nice
What should i do abouf julia
Mot what u said u r doing to me. Ask the bandidos.
U just lost.
M  u did
S: well at least ots not for the earleir behaiour error  made
Actually  it is
Well whata that got to do h farah?
J:   Im not daying anymore
S: ok . Bet u do
Fm: what is going on scott is that garah will mot talk to u anymore
S shame
Fm: what dou think of that
S there can only b 2 reasona for that
M: theyr right
S > i couldnt hear them?
Fm: did u take drugs this morning
S unfortunately  yes, i did
GMA : wjat do u think about drugs
S they destroy lives
Fm: female scotty stewart. What did mark kelly think
S  i have no idea. (They do!!)
Fm: what do u think farah thinks
I wouldnt have a clue (they do!!!)
Scott – why wont anybody tell i the truth
Becaise they camt know id whateber its is the truth. They camt know if its a lie…. wwhatever u r refering to
0906 
M: what will happen to farah
S   she wiil get eaten
M  she already has
—– 
? Class cleague: do u like me?
S i like everyone
? Cc   u wont

How To ID Unofficial Freemasons

from: Scott Stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
to: scott stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
date: 25 Jul 2019, 15:22
subject: How to identify the validate and verify the names and details of unofficial Freemasons (as per blog)
mailed-by: gmail.com
 
How to identify the validate and verify the names and details of unofficial Freemasons (as per blog
 
This is my last help to u for this day 250719:
 
If you hook up the tables behind the  DMZ of ancestry.com and academiaonline.com, using a different referential relationship,  ie  create a different and new FK,  then you will achieve more than a verified and therefore indisputable list of unofficial Freemasons.
 
(This will be more reliable and verifiable than attempting to get anyone to show their receipts for their monthly dues, and having to compare them to the receipts of someone of higher rank, in order to identify the differences!)
 
Further new PK – FK linkages will reveal all you need to be able to invoke non-discretionary statutory redress for fraud etc (based on payment irregularities [contact me for details], in addition to a mandated investigation of collusion (“a meeting of the minds”).
 
The idea is to use the data from ancestry.com to validate the data from academiaonline.com, or vice versa, being immensely more achievable than attempting to get them to reveal any membership details of their lodges, chapters and temples.

 

17th July 2019 1046 AEST: Bret Kavanaugh!?

A third visit from a man who by virtue of communicating with me, he thinking anonymously, is in defilement of the reputation and patriotism of the founding fathers of America.

The American Freemasons are responsible for many more deaths annually, primarily of adolescents than ISIS and the Taliban combined. This occurs either directly (*somewhat contentious, contact me for information), or more commonly, indirectly, by failing to maintain the quality of their reputation, and allowing allegations of “satanic demon worship”, “Lucifer”, and on YouTube “Freemason Pedophiles”

If you doubt the facts of this matter, you need to enquire somehow as to why this man used to US Supreme Court computer in his office, to falsify my disclosure that he is mentioned on YouTube under “Freemason Pedophiles”

freemason eye symbol

17th July 2019 1046 AEST

… earlier

M?: what do you think is my name?
s: Mark Cavanah.
MC: Shit. You are extensively mentioned on YOuTube
(so hea searched on the court office computer “freemason paedophile”
S: what do you want molester
MC: nothing anymore from you scott stewart
s: thats scott james stewart to a disgusting entity such as your collusive self
MC: mark cavanah has something to say. Get fucked scotty stewart
s: that’s scott james stewart to you molester
MC: that’s “or” not “er”
MC: mark cavanah again. what do I want
s: a lengthy term for fraud and willfully and knowlingly disseminating a leathal disease, and a negligence suit
MC: mark cavanah again. What am I doing now
s: incriminating yourself, freely, and without imputation
MC: mark cavanah again. Why do I do this
s: fiduciary enhancement
MC: mark cavanah again. what should be done about all this
s: statutory requiremenht of disclosure of Freemason membership within certain defined occupations or orgnisational positions
MC: mark cavanah again. yep, I’m done
s: soon.
MC: mark cavanah again. Fuck of scotty stewart
s: sorry, I just checked and it’s Brett Kavanaugh. I’m donje with you. I’ll publish this now 1055 AEST and you can clean up your case against treason that I will help instigate. Bye worthless impugned man. 1057 AEST


Why didn’t this voice refute and rebuke – “No. Robustly no. I am not that man. You are a disgrace, believing and saying that!”

BY: Scott James Stewart +61 2 9989 8752 – hearingvoicesdatabase@gmail.com


20th July 2019  at 2150 hours

from: Scott Stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
to: scott stewart <sscottstewart@gmail.com>
date: 21 Jul 2019, 06:02
subject: Xscript
mailed-by: gmail.com
 
200719 2150
 
FM?: you actually did it scott. You actually did
S:        what?
FM?: you got Julias goat
S:       I still don’t know what you mean?
FM?:  you out-smarted Julia
 
The important thing to note here is that the anonymous female (FM?) actually dogs Julia by mentioning her name to me!
 
PLUS
2 new words for the English language:
 
Ad-violence (adolescent violence):
Consistent, addictive and seemingly uncontrollable acts of perpetrating violence against, and victimizing, adolescents. Related to an ongoing urge to undertake Ad-violence, evidenced by efforts resisting loss of opportunity to engage in Ad-violence.
 
Ch-violence (child-violence):
Consistent, addictive and seemingly uncontrollable acts of perpetrating violence against, and victimizing, children. Related to an ongoing urge to undertake Ch-violence, evidenced by efforts resisting loss of opportunity to engage in Ch-violence.

Search results from YouTube after searching on “Freemason Pedophiles” 210719 0715 AEST

Voices Say “Beware Of This Website! It Is A Hack!”

15th July 2019

I was attempting to do the usual thing to myself earlier today, and as usual, I was prohibited from being allowed to my voices. They spent much of the afternoon talking about the death of a lady at The State Library Of NSW (saying I failed to attend a court hearing, apparently related to the aforementioned incident). They also kept saying they were in Hawaii, though they kept asking me what time it was there.

They also stated that one of the URL’s from a person following and liking this blog, was an associate of the Bandidos, and that the link to his website that I tried to land on, was in fact a hack. While I was in the shower, a voice asked me “Scott, if it was a hack, how could we best opt out of doing anything”. I replied “Just put a comment on the Amazing Voices blog, that the page was erroneous and not a hack”.

I would like to apologise to the owner of this domain about having posted this narrative. Especially since he and his son are following this blog. But you will appreciate now something about how these voices of mine to9xify and erode all goodwill in the world. They know what I am doing a lot of the time, and they think nothing of destroying someones reputation by incriminating them unilaterally, and invisibly. I am sorry for publishing unverified malicious information they have stated, but I believe that in doing so, you will be my ally, because you will unfortunately realise first hand how horrendous these voices are! If I have done the wrong thing by you and your son, please use the comments section to let me know, or email me hearingvoicesdatabase@gmail.com

The domain and URL’s in question are:

bestdog.info

https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/?ogbl#inbox/FMfcgxwChcnGPRfjkzPXxhqdQhCRfWXz
https://bestdog.info/friendly-german-shepherd-failed-as-police-dog-but-was-given-a-new-job/

This is the page I landed on. The URL is visible in the image. I apologise if I am doing the wrong thing here. Please contact me and I will correct my mistake.
This is showing that I visited the page. I apologise if I am doing the wrong thing here. Please contact me and I will correct my mistake.
This is the message that the people / domain my voices have disparaged, is following this blog. I apologise if I am doing the wrong thing here. Please contact me and I will correct my mistake.

Allegations Against (unofficial) Freemasons By Victims (plus Legal Proof)

11th July 2019 2142 hours

Here is why Freemasons refuse to admit or acknowledge their involvement in hearing voices:

https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/sets/there-is-no-such-thing-as

statutory declaration naming AVH's

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/search?q=freemason

symptoms share

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/symptoms-share/35981/3

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/are-you-ever-friends-with-your-voices/37349/25

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/i-struggle-to-believe-that-i-have-this/107292/23

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/whats-the-meaning-to-your-profile-name/86275/65

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/what-does-your-nick-name-mean/80003/5

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/anyone-else-expecting-dr-strange-to-trigger-them/62940

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/unusual-belief-do-you-feel-possessed/42415/34

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/voices-obsessed-with-rape-and-torture/10592/15

https://www.psychforums.com/search.php?keywords=freemason&fid%5B0%5D=139&sid=5ac04d836280504e5ce6ea834f626473

search results

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic63404-30.html#p1825727

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic59417-70.html#p489244

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic57404-80.html#p489243

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic57404-20.html#p456568

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic57404-200.html#p524059

general

https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/threads/what-schizophrenia-really-is-hearing-voices.79234/

http://www.intervoiceonline.org/about-voices/essential-facts

http://www.hearing-voices.org/voices-visions/comment-page-1/

https://mindhacks.com/2007/09/12/learn-first-aid-for-psychosis/

https://forum.grasscity.com/threads/hearing-voices-when-stoned.1413105/

https://www.psychforums.com/living-with-mental-illness/topic41789.html

Who is Tabatha? Who Is Peter Brazier? 050815

The 5 Aug 2015 at 0326 when I had to sit with the door open because they said they were setting me up and also coming in to get me’

https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/iamabadpersonarntiscott-mp3?in=user-92394264/sets/julia-davis-and-ron-thiessen-and-freemasons

 

5/08/2015

Who is Tabatha?
U just said you were here!
Well who r u then?
Why not?
Why not?
Obvious reasons!
Why do u ask that when u are always here anyway?
Since what date?
I don’t feel like 1
Who are the people out the back?
Why are they going to kill me?
Why don’t you fuck off dead-shit
Why not?
I don’t know.

131116 page 2

M?:    “were coming in. We want to murder you. Because you killed Geoff.”
(notice this person dogs his friend!)
S:       I just asked about his well-being and I was assured that he is fine

0332:
J:       “JC has just killed himself. Are you thankful?”
S:       “no I don’t believe you”

Now I hear voices of some folk out the back of the unit also.

0337:
now listening to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yL9UJVtgPZY  where a man tries to empathise with hearing voices by wearing phones and listening to hostile hatred.

M?:    “you’ve got a good alibi but it won’t work”
S:       “why”
M?:    “we want you dead…….we’re on our way in”

0338
(I have the voice recorder on my phone recording again. As I have done for the last few days).

J:       “I take you seriously too scott”
S:       “why – you don’t hear what I say”
J:       “I do because, just because”

J:       “scott this is the last time I will be talking to you. Because you know what scott. Unless you come outside and be shot, I am going to be tortured too”

J:        “your dad is dead scott”
J:        “you said that about JC but now he is here with you”
J:        “what does everybody want from you scott”
S:       “I have no idea. I only know about your code words and that fact that what I hear is changed”
J:       “why are you doing that to PB …. because I am evil aren’t I”
S:       “I have no idea if you are or not”
M?:       ”what’s important to PB is that”
M?:       what are you doing scott?
S:       ”looking for the newspaper article”
M?:       ”there isn’t one”

0350

http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread918770/pg1

?        ”PB just shot himself” over and over
S:       ”why didn’t he shoot me?”
F?:       ”what for”….. ?” PB just shot himself” over and over
F?:       ”shut up JD”  …. ”shut up JD”  ….”shut up JD”  ….

0355

http://themmaa.com.au/

S:       I can hear crying. I still have my phone recorder going, so it will b on that
F?:       ”PB just shot himself

0359 

https://au.linkedin.com/pub/peter-brasier/78/324/720

http://themmaa.com.au/members-only/central-coast-chapter/

re: Gang stalking/Mind reading/Psychosis/Choiceless, cont… (someone else)

Postby ThatsWhatIthought » Sun Oct 07, 2018 9:46 am

Choiceless, They telepath’s are ALL recievers AND broadcasters! They can all hear each other’s thoughts. It’s just that we are STRONG broadcasters. For some reason we was born this way. I think it has to do with the fact that when we were kids we WANTED to spread my positive energy.. At least I did whenbi was young boy. As for them being actors. They are! They’re acting as if we are mentally ill. And like nothing happend. Why is it dangerous to consider them as actors?.

Most people are. They’ve learnt since they were very young that they could never speak out laud about this matter. The thing is if u had a FULL “psychosis” you literally physically transform. Your stature and face CHANGES! U become a “reptilian”. That’s why people like David Icke refers to them as Reptilians. Your reptilian brain gets dominant. So this is what I’m trying to say:

Your family members are NOT some aliens. They’ve just had a psychosis(transformation) when they were really small. This is 100% real. We are like them its just that we are much stronger broadcasters and that they have learned how to control their non physical body(astral/soul wte)

You Are Being Groomed (paedophile language)

Every schizophrenic is assaulted by approximately 293 Freemasons each year!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g_LDmTVgLLI

This simulation of my schizophrenia voices (auditory verbal hallucinations) is based on quote unquote 1st person transcripts that I keep as a coping strategy. This style of journal ia a very effective approach to managing and stopping the negative valence of my schizophrenia auditrory hallucinations. This transcript involves my main voice who calls herself Julia. She also identifies another voice she knows as Ron. They say they are Freemasons. The male voice in this recording is me, Scott Stewart.

Things to notice:
0) triggers
warning: very course language
1) she asks “can you feel that?” (why would an hallucination wanty to know what I feel?). But every time she asks, is coincidentally AFTER I had got a catasrophic feeling.
2) “grooming” is the language of pedophiles. This is relevant because my voices share me round as they come on shift (see earlier post). In my case there are 6 to a shift.
But I also have a small sentry of special guards to keep me controlled if they are having a meeting.
3) she asks “what are you writing down Scott?” (so she can in fact see what I am doing)
4) she is the person who provides me with the names that I have published. Notice she inadvertently names “Ron”

The following transcript is from the YouTube clip above:

?: you know whats happenening scott? (how the fuck would I – and they know it before asking)…,
you are being groomed (pedophile language) for a big problem (as is I haven’t been tortured or bankrupted in the past for ecample). (talking slwoly so I can record it) YOu are going to realise (how) that. … Does anyone like me?
S: you said everyone is dead or evil, soi there is no one who could if they had the opportunity
?: Scott… (long pause). You know what Scott, I think that you are going to realise something. You are the sole person (they must not be people talking!) who realises seomthing. YOu are going to realise that J (heresay) is about to do something to you.What do you think that miight be.
S: drop me out of uni.
?: drop you out of uni hey… I don’t think so

A couple of weeks ago, I was having converstions with Prof. Steven Hawking. These turned out to be lies and deceipt.

?: you know what scott stewart (surname used – contempt), I am going to tell you something (they know they are anonymous)… YOu are being groomed (pedo talk about the victim) for a catastrophy (like bankruptcy, the murder of god, turning Michelle evil, repeated torture recently tyo the exctent I had the vacuume hose leasured to gas myself). I am going to tell you something else…you are being groomed for a spe ial problem with your homework (condescending. But I will avoid it if I am told what the problem is going to be). I am going to drop you out of university (like 1994, 1995 + suicide attempt when Ward and Charles et al were vomiting in the bath they were going to put me in and so on…).

?: you know what scott (I obviously can’t) I am going to drop you out of university because you took drugs (unrelated events. The drugs are the excuse for the action, not the cause of the problem).

?: you know what scott – you know what is going ofn woith ghosts don;t you
s: no
?: did you do the wrong thing?
s: no. ([thoughts] What I did let myslef down. It was a terrible failure, and an extrme disappointment, but I will learn from it and improve. I let myself down terribly, but I will recover. Tima has also been having a problem lately. I said I did not want to get her involved, for exactly that reason. Buyt I [urged] told to line her up, and I did what I was told. No one is blaming Tima for anything).

?: scott, do you think you will get away with what you are doing (name at start of sentance. The problem is my burden – I am not trying to cheat anyone or deceivge or ‘get away’ with anything. It was a terrible thing, but at least I did not use what I had).

?: i’m sorry scott, but I am going to punish you no end (don’t know who is talking, They won;t admit to it or say who they are).

?: SORRY SCOTT

(I wonder if they have been causing Tima problems?)

?: I’m sorry scott, but it is set in stone. You are going to be dropped out of uni.

Now while I am trying to study, I am being shown a pair of eyes, crying. This I always find extremely (very very) upsetting.

?: I am not surprised you find them upsetting (no one else does though). Because they are the eyes of your final resting place. (What is that supposed to mean?). That means, your final ghosts are talking to you (who is letting their communications get throug?). They are saying ‘please help us’ (how do / can I accomplish that?). ‘Please help us’, ‘please help us’
?: you know what scott – I am beginning to realise that you are not understanding what you are beiong told (I have not been told anything. The only communication to me other than this anonymous voice is the crying eyes, and I don;t know how to help!).

?: I believe you do know how to help. (How I wonder!).

I get so upset I cry. And I could cry right now. Nothing ever works out for me. I live without love, without much undestanding, and with total liability for my actions. Fuck it, if people knoew what happens to me, and what I hear, I would get some sympathy I think.
I wish I could have one dance with a girl I like.

?: that’s riught. You are always being picked on. do you know why you are always being picked on? (facetious – how could I know?). You are always being picked on because you are a loser Scotty Stewart

?: (J: – I caould tell it was her) Scott – I’m afraid I have some very bad news. YOu are going to fail your statistics test, because I am going to fail you.

?: I’m afraid scott that you are going to be disappointed in what happens in your future (as if I could know different paths that the future might have taken. I examined this thoroughly when I analysed the existence of luck).]

Human Traits In Schizophrenia (eg: names) By Others

Human Trait Facts – Humans Involved

https://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic70753.html

VOICE HAVE PERSONALITY AND NAMES?

by Lyghtie » Wed Aug 10, 2011 4:24 pm

Whenever I read about schizophrenia, people’s voices are always just a “voice”, without a name or personality. All of mine have names and a personality that I did not give them. There’s 10 of them (Akuma, Mr. Invisable, Gavin, Lea, Mechie, Spencer, Tamper, Derk, and two other who won’t tell me their names) and they all have personalities. Sometimes they get mad at each other too, like in Germany. They’ll have short conversations, but they usually talk to me, but it seems like they’re all aware of each other. Has anybody else experienced voices with names and personalities and conversations among themselves?

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/do-you-hear-voices-and-what-are-their-names/3357/2

As far as names go, what kinda hallucination gives you a name, or better yet can you detect the vicinity or direction you are hearing your “voices”? Are they to left, right, in front of or behind you or can you only hear them in your head? In any case, why do you think an auditory hallucination would need a name for? Think about it, my guess would be for personhood or better yet do some of you have multiple voices with different genders i.e. Male and female voices! Sounds to me like we are living in biblical times, get it? My voices names are Ross G. Furman and ‘Shela’ Lisa… And Ross is a Satanist in reality and Shela, well that’s another story, havering said this let me just inform all of you who know your possessed but play the game anyway, know this much not even the Vatican will touch you once you’ve been labeled, so don’t get your hopes up! By the way there is a way to find this person who happen to live on earth as well as Lisa! Lets just call it demonic possession and not even freeze drying them will get them out, little long drugs we are given, that’s not to say don’t take your meds, do but just know if psychiatry had an age it would be two! O and I would like to add that although I know from whom these voices originate as a believing Catholic I prefer the term Demons to being a carrier or a consumer! O.K.

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I have a name for one voice. She told me her name is Michelle. The other voices don’t bother making friends with me. Michelle is a woman about my age. 35-40. She is kind.

I also have the kid. Screaming in terror or calling for me.

I hear numerous voices but only three have names, Aaron, Devon and Rebecca.

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/voices-and-their-names-origins-and-backstories/13079/2

Named Voices; Father (God), Jesus, Azriel, Gloria, Thomas, Arthur, Gunn, The Professor, Gregory, Claire, Gladys, Norda, Cassy, Lou,

Unnamed voices; Demons

First voice I ever heard was Gloria. I was 8. I had blown up at my mom for something stupid and was in my room crying and she comforted me and told me I had just been tired and maybe I should apologize. She would continue to comfort me to this day! I didn’t know her name or think of her as a voice though until Azriel introduced me to her one day as my spirit guide.

The next voice I started hearing was Jesus. I had prayed to God before but one night where I was very, very sad and lonely I reached out to him with all my heart and then Jesus was there and he say down with me and helped me solve EVERYTHING troubling me. I journaled the whole experience. I started being able to hear God too at around the same time. This was during freshman year of hs.

Azriel is my guardian angel. I met him through a meditation exercise, freshman year of high school I think. The first thing he said to me was “I love you.”

Thomas was introduced to me one day by Gloria. She said that he was another one of my spirit guides, here to help me.

I’m not 100% sure about all the other people…I know I first started having trouble with the demons sophomore year. Lou I think I met in my dreams before anything, he started appearing in my dreams when I was 11 or 12, but I didn’t know who he was until high school. I named him Lou because when I first began really speaking with him I thought he was the devil, Lucifer. He’s the only voice I named myself.

I have no idea when the Professor popped up, to be honest, or Claire or Gregory. I know I first met Gunn and Gladys in dreams as well. I had summoned Thomas in one of my dreams to hang out with and another boy was with him. When I asked the boy what his name was he said it was Gunn. I could distinctly tell he was unique from my regular dream characters and knew he was one of us. He’s been with us ever since. Gladys kept trying to dominate my dreams and control me. I had Gunn tell me who she was one dream where she was bossing us both around. Norda appeared in my dreams and caused trouble too, so did Cassy actually. I guess I met a lot of them through dreams…

Arthur I met sometime in high school as well. He introduced himself as my spirit guide that was in charge of helping me develop my spirituality, but I ignored him and pushed him away because he felt weird to me. Now I know he felt weird because he’s been done with reincarnation for quite some time now, so he is barely human by this point and much more spirit. He’s been very helpful as well.

I asked the Professor what they were and he told me to think of a barrier reef and how it was made up of thousands of tiny animals. He said that consciousness was kind of like that, and that you have many pieces of consciousness that form the ego, (the barrier reef!) which is you. The pieces all represent one pure form of your personality (like how Gladys represents my controlling side while Gunn represents my carefree, goofy side) and are created through experience.

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I only have a name on one voice. Her name is Michelle. Shi is a nice voice. Reminds me of what I have to do. “get up! Do the dishes now. ”

I also have that narrative voice. “Look, the girl i sleeping. Why is she sleeping? She can’t sleep. ” and also somewhat like James’ panic man. “The plane is going down! You will fall! Then you will die!” “You can’t go there, go another way! It’s dangerous! He is a rapist! He will rape and kill you before you get home. ”

I’m glad my neighbors can’t hear the voices. I don’t think they would be very happy to hear they are murderers and rapists.

https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/4nd6lw/do_your_voices_each_have_a_name/

April, Gabriela, Joanna, Sydney, Hope, Samantha, and Polly. Collectively known as The Girls. They were with me from age 11-14. Then April took the other girls away. The only one I can speak to anymore is April, my older alien sister.

I hear both voices that I don’t know IRL and voices of people I know (I’m not certain if they are imposters or not still.) I call the voices of people I know “common voices”.

Of my non-common voices, I have Astaroth, Tyler, Heather, Randy, Russell Peters and more recently C’Thun. (Mine tend to pull their names and personalities from video games or stand up comedians.)

Funnily enough, my voices come up with pet names for ME as well. First they called me just asshole or stupid bitch, then Lassie, then Derpy, then Miku, now Smeagol. (They still quite regularly call me asshole and stupid bitch, and they very rarely, if ever, use my real life name. It really gets my attention when they call me by my real name. I’m always like, “Whoa! Why so respectful all of a sudden?” xD

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/why-does-one-of-my-audio-hallusinations-have-a-name-that-lives-in-my-immeadiate-area-named-jeff-cline/4177

Why Does One Of My Audio Hallusinations Have A Name That Lives In My Immeadiate Area Named Jeff Cline

Unusual Beliefs

D_I_D

1

Mar ’14

Who the Hell is Jeff Cline, Is he the brother of Criss Cline or The son of Ellisabith Cline?

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/do-your-voices-have-names/111704/2

eighteyedspy23

Feb 16

Most of my voices early on were supposedly people who lived close by. I didn’t know the neighbors that well, so most of them didn’t have specific names. At times I heard the voices of specific people (usually writers and musicians), but for the most part they were people who were trying to harass me or just people who got caught up in the turmoil. As time went on and I felt a little better, I just kind of stopped thinking about them.

Boogaloo

Feb 18

90 % of my voices are people who I knew in real life, like former friends, or from television. for whatever reason I could deal with them fine. the strangers were the worst, I thought they were professional witch doctors, I could barely deal with them, I thought we were in some sort of battle and they were actually enjoying it. but yes 90% of them had names as either former friends or famous people.

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/voices-and-their-names-origins-and-backstories/13079

First voices outside my head : “hey” , Justin” , Hey Justin”

first voices in head “narrating voices ex. Justin is taking a walk , justin is getting of the bus , justin knows what he is doing etc… or persecuting voices ex. “your gay your gonna kiss that dude you ■■■” or “cmon just jump off the ferry do it”

first singular voice : “just pray i will do the rest” (I was fanatically into religion at the time) named voice: Jesus, Satan, my deceased grandfather in heaven, angels, demons, the saints months later: Voices admitted that they were just all in my head and that they were “my brain” so they went under the name “my brain” They called themselves : the collective, the narrators, the advisers also had a brief period where i was tricked again : voices slowly tricked me into believing they werent my brain and that they were from another planet far away, and that einstein was talking to me (in my head) figured it out later that of course it is just “my brain” haven’t heard voices for months though.

https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/what-are-your-voices-names/34803

Loke

Oct ’15

One of my voices said its name is Pan

Comatose

Oct ’15

My voices have told me thir names. I did not name tem. One is Michelle and my guardian angel is Jerek.

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/11/learning-to-live-with-the-voices-in-your-head/382096/

Corstens: Today, we worked with a 43-year-old woman named Marie. She hears eight voices. The voices don’t have names, but she can differentiate them. They talk to her and to each other throughout the day. First, we explored how many voices there are, how old they are, their gender, and whether they have a name or not.

Morin: How do you use that information?

Corstens: We analyze every voice and try to explore what the characteristics are. So, these three voices—numbers 1, 6, and 8—are very aggressive and negative. They shout at Marie, “You are nothing! You have to die! Swallow pills! You have to mutilate yourself!” And they are there all day and every day, especially at night when she tries to sleep. There’s this child of three who is always crying. There’s this 18-year-old boy who criticizes her. And then, not very often, there’s this man who tries to protect Marie from the 18-year-old boy. There’s also this eight-year-old female voice—she’s playful and always tries to cheer Marie up, but the voice becomes angry if Marie doesn’t cheer up—which she rarely does. The group of voices, which she calls “the trustees,” shouts words to interrupt her conversations.

https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/541wg4/do_your_voices_have_names/?st=jkvni5ht&sh=dd7dce4c

They told me their names. Tyler, his girlfriend heather, and astaroth (who chose his own name based on the video game I was playing called Catherine)

I have 3 primary voices when I’m not hearing crowds:

Vanessa is the female negative voice, who unfortunately is my most common voice.

Kelsey, while not negative per se, is the female voice who likes to talk me into doing highly risky things. Still super sweet, though. When she decides to show up, we can talk for hours until she’s convincing me to do 100mph up the freeway.

Jason is my male negative voice. He’s newer than Kelsey and Vanessa.

https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/4nd6lw/do_your_voices_each_have_a_name/?st=jkvnibet&sh=eaab3e99

April, Gabriela, Joanna, Sydney, Hope, Samantha, and Polly. Collectively known as The Girls. They were with me from age 11-14. Then April took the other girls away. The only one I can speak to anymore is April, my older alien sister.

https://mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/03/26/hearing-voices-in-your-head-auditory-hallucinations-causes-types-treatments/

I keep hearing names like David and Tonya and it seems like they are watching me, are bullying me, and calling me names every night. I am on medication and it’s not helping. I have talked to my mental health care doctor about this and a counselor about what I am going through. Nothing is helping.

14th June 2019 : 2041 hours (AEST)

14th June 2019 2041
M?: what do you know about video forensics

s: quite a lot

?M: what do you know about IP addresses

s: virtually nill

?M: why do you ask ?

s: I think you will shortly realise that you asked, and I merely replied

M?: yes, why do I ask

s: I don't enquire

M?: why do you think I ask

s: because, for you, eveything must be done right, proper, and by the book, so you are nequiring to ascertain my propernsity to foil your efforts

M?: what is your IP address

s: Im obviously hoping you know already

M?: why is that

s: so you can stitch me up, and so on...

M?: cause that implies..

s: (interrupting). Yes, it mandates that, sorry about interrupting

M?: what happens if I fail

s: you won't

M?: what happens if you fail

s: all imprints of what has happened and what got achieved disappear.... by the way...I firmly believe all IP addresses will be valid and correct, and not changed or altered in any way

m?: WILL YOU KILL YOURSELF

S: yes, I absolutely will; but only if I can get proof you exist and are human, because I cannot throw away so much health care provision, by killing myself for an hallucination.

M?: hey S, what is your st george bank number?

s: you see right now, I'm logging in

M?: why don't you just go in and buy that? (referring to what is on my computer screen)

s: i might. It depends what you say over the next few minutes

M?: is Michelle here?
s: if she is, then she's not dead

M?: how do I know Michelle?

s: I don't necessarily know which Michelle you are referring to

m?: how can I put this scott?

s: any way you like. I'm not critical. By the way, have we met?
….
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I just completed publishing “The Future – Corruption Of Freemasonry
9th May 2015 at 1356
I keep getting asked the same question over and over again, and have just realised they are

'keywords' and Pam is hearing something different to what I respond withj everytime I repond, so

she thinks I am 'dissing' her all the time. Here are the codewords

J: Why is it like this scott? x2, x3, x4

J: does Pam like you scott? x2 "how much?"

J: will she stop selling to you scott?

J: will K sell to you scott? (I have decided to stpop using)

J; will it make any difference to Pam scott? (I believe that she is having sex with Geoff, Pierre, Shayla, Glenn Jeffries etc at the moment, which is why there are non-stop questions, the same over and over again).

Now Pam is saying: "do I care about you scott?" and I said "no", and she said "no, I don't do I - what do I care about?" and I said "is that you P{am?", and she said "why do you ask?" and I said "because you said you have never had any psychosis" and I said "but you are as psychotic as me"

J: "why is it like this don't you scott"

J: "you love Pam don't you scott"

Pam "why don't I play fair scott?" 

S: who said that? 

P: Pam richardson


Code Words – Code Names

code words:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFKqFRCdDGg

My voices began saying they had “killed” somebody, usually somebody I knew. But after a period of time, they would say the same thing, which I knew because I kept notes.

Many years later I was told that “killing” is a code word, explaining why they said they had “killed” the same person multiple times. Other keywords / codewords include “murder”, “HIV positive”, “Dead”.

I will publish the code words and their meanings…..

5th March 2015 0012

“The gustless scared ghost just negotiated its strength away to RT and GJ”

This is a list of the new code exchange (keyword) phrases:

we are not grifters
we’re not picking on MS we’re picking on someone else
the song: advance australia fair
that’s JD’s ghost singing
that’s not maggie
is pam getting raped
are going to commit suicide
what are you shaking for
will you ever run out of veins
what is your favorite color
what is my favourite color
what is his favourite color
what is RT favourite color
where is RT now
who is RT now
what is my name
why are you writing
what is my favourite color
do you care about maggie
because, just because

“their they go they are all committing suicide”

can you have MS
what do you / i want

2nd January 2018 1503
I was in the process of trying to get an fMRI scan as part of my investigation into phenomenology, and they started interrupting to say the following:

M?: you will be …. (stopped and wouldn’t say ny more)
?: julia will tell you something when I get around to it (? figute that grammar!)
?: I have been killing many people
s: who are you please?
?: are you happy. we are setting you up
s: who are please?
J: we are setting you up
s:P is that because I refuse to capitulate to your demands regarding ejaculation and masturbating?
J: no. It’s cause I feel like it
s: OK.
J: we are setting you up as a pedophile
s: again?
J: can you …. stop …. us
s: how?
J: by urinating collectively
s: I’m sorry but that last bit doesn’t make sense to me
J: Julia
s: I refuse to utter that monica, as I have explained, due to my diselief in what follows. You know, the D.E G word
This is mick hawi here
s: can you verify that please?
RT: no
s: so you might be malicious and misrepresentative?
RT: no
s: may I ask, regarediung the email you said you deleted, IS HBJ still ‘alive’, and also ‘JY” (I recall the p[revious fuss)
S: I aslo recall the code words things you state
RT: where am I
s: are you joking?
RT: no
s: are you outside somewhere. I just opened the door?
RT: no
S:if I try and guess, are you going to say “:I won’t tell you?”
RT: no

1 row of 1 boxes
2 rows of 2 boxes
3 rows of 3 boxes
4 rows of 4 boxes
5 rows of 5 boxes
6 rows of 6 boxes
7 rows of 7 boxes
8 rows of 8 boxes
9 row of 9 boxes
10 rows of 10 boxes

‘Statments’:
She just fucked up
You shouldn’t do that
#name# (eg: MS) is in tears / is crying
have a shot
#name# (eg MS) is being told that….

‘Questions’ (derived from victim):

is there something you want?
what do you want?
who is #name#?
what does #name# think?
who is #name#?
when will this end?
what is that like?

My Voices Claim They Are (unofficial) Freemasons

Refer to0 this link:

https://freemason-absolute-leader-declared.webnode.com/activation/

to understand this simulation:

https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/20974588-mp3?in=user-92394264/sets/freemasons-again-but-not-paid-up-members

11:53 16th May 2015

PB: chanting over and over again “You’re being set up to take the wrap for a crime done by me, SO (unless TC acts on my behalf), PK, GK, P BD, RT, Glenn Jeffires” (over and over….)\

PB: chanting over and over again “You’re being set up to take the wrap for a crime done by me, SO (unless TC acts on my behalf), PK, GK, P BD, RT, Glenn Jeffires” (over and over….)

PB: chanting over and over again “You’re being set up to take the wrap for a crime done by me, SO (unless TC acts on my behalf), PK, GK, P BD, RT, Glenn Jeffires” (over and over….)

warning to any good ghostsPB: Some of the guys from my motorcycle club (the Bandidos Hills chapter) are what you call Freemasons, which means we are secdretly augmented by ghosts or something which enables us to talk to each other and stuff, without actually being next to each other, you know what I mean? Any mate, we, that is your old friends and a couple of Guys from my motor cycle club, are making….

PB:: Some of the guys from my motorcycle club (the Bandidos Hills chapter) are what you call Freemasons, which means we are secretly augmented by ghosts or something which enables us to talk to each other and stuff, without actually being next to each other, you know what I mean? Any mate, we, that is your old friends and a couple of Guys from my motor cycle club, are making….

minutes later

… (girl) you will ask to be executed mate, you will ask to be executed mate..(over and over)

PB:… Can we morph? Do you know what I mean by that? We are setting you up, involving our morphing….

(self) why would any person want to set me up for any matter whatsoever. I had better take time to consider this, after completing my TAFE assignment about Harrods department store.

M? There are quite a few of us Scotty, and you do not know who we are or even if we are, but I gurantee this Scotty, we are doing such a good job of setting you up using technology that does not even thought to exist like ghosts, that you will never be free again once we are finished the editing and calling the police. And whats more, through our Freemasonry and our meetings that we have in the lodges, we even have the police and others on our side who are going to lie about the evidence because your claims will sound insane, and the cops are going to help us frame you good and proper mate.

M?   Don’t forget Scotty, that through our ghosts, we not only know all your passwords and usernames, but we know where you keep them, how to get money out of your westpac account, and where you hide your emergency keys to get into your Nomanhurst unit. So you are fucked mate. By the time me and Geoff in particular get through with framing you, you will be pleading for the death penalty.

…..
S:   Are you thereby now suggesting, that in order to be heard properly and reliably, that I must committ another offence, simply to demonstrate that peoples actions are subject to whatever I am going through? I will consider what you are wanting, but I don’t think I will do it for you.

Julia: “I want you dead” repeated

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Now Geoff is claiming that they morph into different appearances, and are using this ability to set me up.

1517 ?: “ron has just ….

1741 ?: they got you, they got you Continue reading

I am extorting Ancestry.com I want US$650,000.

Report to police 221018 sent to Bandidos Aust MC 231018 1729

Below, you can read the email I sent –

+61 403 996 187

Spoof me a text, and tell me I’m stupid, or just say something bizarre and random.

Extortion Of Ancestry.com

Here is the PDF attachment.

Sunday, 22 September 2019


Please be informed that on the basis of my beliefs about Freemasons, Freemasonry and the fraternity known as The
Freemasons, this communication is the beginning of a possible extortion attempt. The foundation of any extortion I may
subsequently attempt, is 1) Freemasonry is not a registered charity 2) You failed to reply at all to my first enquiry 3) I believe it is
impossible for you to provide family valid, truthful and bona fide family history information using relational databases.
I am considering whether to extort $65,000 from you, unless I arrive at considerations that will lead to an apology. The date of
this criminal transgression is unplanned, and so unkown.
In the absence of any response what-so-ever to the polite and rather complimentary document I sent to you:
ancestrysupport@ancestry.com.au
date: 3 May 2019, 15:13
subject: An Apologetic Information Reuqest From SOmeone With Mental Health Issues
mailed-by: gmail.com
… I will be ‘listening’ carefully to what my covert sources of information have to say about you, and if I find that they are
incriminating, then I will either extort you, or direct information to your state or federal consumer protection agency.
Yours sincerely,
Scott James Stewart, serial number 008, rank God (according to RT and JD).
Normanhurst, Sydney, NSW, 2076 +61 2 9989 8752

  • Now for example, with regards to the example family tree diagram,“Jacquie Susan Holbrook” is the daughter of William and Lisa (diagram lower right hand side). Should I suppose there are NOT 2 people named “William Brian Holbrook” perhaps of Marsfield, Sydney, in Table 1, the Births table? Is it simply a matter that utilisation of the middle name of an individual usually totally and uniquely identify an individual?
  • So is it correct that you avoid the necessity of a primary key foreign key relationship, by searching across all your Birth database tables for information that matches the full name of someone mentioned in a marriage certificate?
  • May I ask how many databases you utilise to provide you service?
  • What brand, or variety of brands of database(s) are you using? How many different brands of databases do you use?
  • Roughly how many databases are populated to be able to provide the family tree data offered to subscribers of your production site (ie: excluding Fold3 and other affiliates)?
  • I assume you rely on SQL, or TSQL for your data retrieval, so may I ask in general terms how many queries are used to populate your user family information on website?

A final point:

When I try to read the cursive writing of documents composed prior to the invention of the typewriter (circa 1867), I cannot make out what has been written at all. I do notice on TV that everyone else seems to be able to read the text, but unfortunately, I cannot. Having said this, let us suppose that you had a shipping manifest from 1850, with an inventory of passengers names who were aboard the ship (maybe along with some other cargo), that sailed from its port of origin to Sydney, NSW, Australia, where the passengers disembarked and went about their business. That may include establishing residence in Sydney. When one of your DBA’s or data entry people look at this shipping manifest, and read that Mavis Smith got on at wherever (let’s say Norfolk, UK), then disembarked at Sydney, who or how do you know the foreign key field (that must be a row number of the primary key) of the record in the Births table of or near the point of departure of the ship who’s manifest you are looking at?  —  If you have filled a table of Births of people from the UK, and that includes people from Norfolk, UK, how does the person reading the (illegible) handwriting of the shipping manifest know what row number to use/input as the primary key in the Births table that contains the Birth record of Mavis Smith of Norfolk?  I can only imagine that your database diagram, your ERD, and your UML diagrams must be absolutely huge and very complicated. I don’t suppose you could take a quick photo of part of your database diagram and send it to me, or publish it on the WWW, but nothing of course that would be transgressing trade secrets or anything, just sufficient for people to admire what you have accomplished with your business.

 

the following notes are unimportant. Just thought i should disclose how i think.

some skepticism

  • Discover your immigrant ancestors and learn more about your family’s homeland in detailed passenger lists, border crossings and more” – this implies that  you have relied on interpreters to translate the information you sell to subscribers. One must assume that there are records of the interpreters work hours.
  • “User Provided Content” – You cannot indemnify yourself against the claims involving “User Provided Content” unless your repository flags such content to delineate it from all your other content.
  • I do not endorse your Australian TV advertising that fails to explicitly state that any investigation of military history takes place through an affiliate businesses website. Your TV advertising should state that it is Fold3 that facilitates family history investigation, not Ancestry.com

 misleading and deceptive conduct

  • A – Who counted the “142 million plus” articles? Are you implying that each article is a unique record in one of your databases?  Is that how you calculated the sum of the number of articles? They are not scans then?
  • B – If Fold3 is your “historical military records website” then why is a disclaimer issued under section 8 of your terms and conditions to the effect that “We do not make any promises (a)…… (c) about the quality, accuracy, reliability, or availability of the Ancestry Content or Services”. A subscriber might reasonably expect that information duplicated from a military records repository, or that information being available through a ‘web service’ (an ‘across the wire’ query) of the military database in situ, one would rightfully expect that  military information would be perfectly accurate.
  • I am not sure that you can in fact “disclaim” the elements (“(c) about the quality, accuracy, reliability, or availability of the Ancestry Content or Services”) of the service you sell. Your warranty is additional to the statutory warranty mandatorily in place by the Commonwealth of Australia Trade Practices Act 1974, superseded by the Competition and Consumer Act 2010 (CCA).

 

They Say I ‘Murdered’ A Bikie!

See the Index page for character information, abbreviations, naming and other conventions.

11th September 2016 0759 hours

Following, is the original information they said about other matters they repeatedly told me about. It is important to appreciate, that what is written is what they said to me, and not a narrative of my own composition.

Though I’m not sure of the date, when I was 17 or 18 (1981 / 1982), I was involved with some notorious and violent people. It was the age of “punk rock” and I was a musician in a Mod band. I knew and was friends with Skinheads, Punks and Mods, and we were all part of an ‘anarchistic’ sub-culture.

One night when I was walking home drunk, for an unknown inexplicable reason (though I can explain it now -in fact its fucking obvious), I had a moments insanity and I committed a serious crime. As I was walking I passed a rubbish bin that was on the side of the footpath, just a normal city rubbish bin. I pulled the steel lining of the bin out and threw it onto the read that the footpath was next to. I did not stand and spectate, just threw thew bin onto the road and kept walking. As I walked down the street, I came across another bin, and I did the same thing. This was approximately 120 – 150m down the street. Once again I did not spectate, but kept walking. Another 120 – 150m down the street, I came across another bin, and I did the same thing. Then I ran away, because I didn’t want to get caught.

I was absolutely disgusted with myself. I could not understand or explain why I had done what I did, but I knew it was an atrocious act.I could not justify it in any way, and I hated myself for having done it.The only thing I could think of was to attribute it to alcohol. So I decided to give up drinking. That took some time to achieve.

So in July 2009, my voices told me that on the fateful night, those bins that I threw landed on the road in such a way, and at such a time, that I killed 4 Gypsy Jokers, including the President.

gypsy jokers

I was tormented and terrified out of my wits.

So I published the bog, along with some true statements regarding the fact that the Bandidos OMC 1% had through JD and a couple of other people, managed to get duplicates made of my house keys, and my car keys. I also pointed out that these same men (Bandidos 1%) had been watching me masturbate for the last few months, I don’t know how, but somehow.

They had also been stating that they were planning on setting me up as a paedophile, by gaining entry to my unit (using the keys they duplicated), and hiding child pornography on my computer and around my unit. They were then going to turn up, with friends, discover the child exploitation material, and kill me. THis was all 100% entirely plausible to me, because I knew they had stolen my spare car key, and so on.

They kept up terrorising me about child porn and the Gypsy Jokers for years. There were nights when they repeated “You’re going to jail”, sung like little children, more than 1093 times in 26 minutes.

pagte 1 WAPC

“You’re going to jail”

Soon as they said this, I got online and I contact the WA Police, and in general terms, alluded to the fact that I had committed a crime in Northbridge, sometime around 2918/82, and I wanted to make contact with them, to confess, and to face justice. I explained that it was imperative that I be made to face the relatives and friends of the victims, and undertake any restitution and apologies that they would accept.

I also contacted the Gypsy Jokers. What I said I will not disclose without express authority from them to do so. Ask them, if you are interested.

In 2014 my voices started saying that I had killed a motorist that night when I threw the bins. I had for all intensive purposes forgotten all about that night and the incident. But my voices gave me hell and I felt very ashamed and terrible. They said I had killed someone called Peter Brasier. I was over-whelmed with grief, sadness, and fear. My voices continued to say that  had killed someone, and I could not deal with my feelings, or their accusations. I was consumed with the most appalling feelings, because I knew how terrible and plausible their accusations were.

For approximately the next year, my voices repeatedly accused me of murdering someone. Then approximately 5 or 6 months later (and I can verify this to some extent using my transcripts), the voices said I had killed two people.Because the accusations changed, I began to try to disregard them.

Then on 12th March 2015, the voices started saying once again that they were the Bandido’s (an outlaw motorcycle club).They said they were in a unit next door, on the other side of the fence denoting the perimeter of my property, Furthermore, someone (and I will have to check my transcripts again), said that Ron had told them he was from the FBI, and Julia claimed something similar, and that the two of them were investigating and following me, because I was a known paedophile. They had told the Bandido’s that I was a genius software developer (and paedophile), and that is why they were conducting such an unusual  investigation – they claimed I was extremely hard to catch and pin down.

bandidos

So I got online, went to the Crimestoppers website, and wrote an email to the Police, saying that I wanted to confess a crime that I had committed when I was young. I explained that I would pay for the investigation to be done, that is, I would pay the Police for the time and resources necessary to prosecute and convict me for the crime I had committed. I did not convey the details of the crime in my Crimestoppers email, mostly because I could not recall any of the details, and also because I was so ashamed.

A week or so later, the Police telephoned me and said that they had received my email. Just as the Policeman said that, my voices started laughing and chanting “we tricked ya, we tricked ya, we tricked ya, we tricked ya” over and over again. So I said to the Policeman, “look, I’m sorry, but I am schizophrenic and I was psychotic when I wrote that email, would you please disregard it”. The Policeman said, something to the effect of, “sure, that will be fine”. And then it occurred to me, that if my voices were real people, then they might have killed someone, and were setting me up to take them blame.


Anyhow, the fact is that my voices said I ‘murdered’ (voluntary manslughter / involuntary manslaughter)  4 Gypsy Jokers, and one of them, was the president. But when I originally wrote this and published it my first blog, through a technique that I can now explain, my ‘hallucinations’ made me omit the words “they said”, so the last line of the blog was “I ‘murdered’ 4 Gypsy Jokers, and one of them, was the president. 


(A note of respect, thanks, and appreciation:the most effective treatment (cure) for Afghanistan and Iraq veterans of their PTSD, is the Rebels Motorcycle Club Australia. I looked up the membership of the Bandidos motorcycle club in Australia, is stated as “Bandidos with 400 members and more than 400 associates” (Ellen Whinnett, national political editor, Herald Sun, May 20, 2016 5:00pm). I did in fact at first somewhere find their own statement of membership that was slightly larger, but I couldn’t find it when I looked for it again, so my apologies.

I should point out, that the first few times my voices started saying that (4 of) the Bandidos were outside, was when I was masturbating. So I immediately and emphatically tried to clue in my voices that they should not ever say things like that, under the prevailing circumstances about 1%’s. They can be very serious people, and in my view they live by their reputation. Such remarks are foolhardy and definately out of place, and if the people concerned were ever to hear that they were being (mis) represented as (repeatedly) watching me masturbate somehow, those remarks would get them in trouble that they do not have the capacity or capabilitiies to effectively manage the consequences (the voices, naming themselves as they do with humans names of people I have known).

I have made it a life policy to never let anyone’s reputation suffer from gossip or disparagement in my presence – I always affirm that heresay is inadmissiable, and that the defamatory remarks are especially reckless, and assuredly wrong or at least inaccurate, and unacceptable when the individual(s) concerned are not present and able to defend their reputation themselves. Despite my efforts, and warnings, my voices continued to impugn the reputation of Bandidos with claims they were outside while I wanked (“watching” they said). I know from their satisfied and gloating remarks whenever I got too scared to continue, that they were doing this to scare me. I think they missed my repeated point. And I used to ride.

Over the next year, this plot continued. I was repeatedly scared out of my whits, because the bikies thought I was a paedophile. As the months progressed, the story got worse. Julia said she had “borrowed” my spare house key from where I had them hidden outside. Every time I went to the shops, the voices said that they had entered my house and were planting child pornography on my computer.

The voices have just told me to stop, so I will finish this later…..

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Here is the exact content of an email I sent to the WA Police through the Crimestoppers website. It is not the first two emails I sent, but I lost one, and only had the receipt ID issued by the website for the first one I sent, and I can not find that either. Here is the third and last email I sent them:

“Dear Sir, My name is Scott Stewart, and I am a Schizophrenic, suffering Auditory Verbal Hallucinations (hearing voices) for the past 24.5 years. Over the past week or so, I have been greatly alarmed and stressed by my hallucinations. I have been hearing (hallucinating) that
1) A Ms Julia Davis & a Mr Stefan Sojka have been independantly been submitting reports through this website, that I have ‘been boasting’ about being a criminal
2) That on the strength of these submissions, a cold case is being investigated again
3) that a Senior Detective Cream and a Senior Detective Wilson are the two officers doing the investigation.
Since all this information is the result of auditory hallucinations, I do not wish to use your valuable time respondiong to mental health issues. However, if any of the above have a basis in fact, would you please email me at info@scottstewart.com.au or call me on 0431 906 821.
Many thanks.”

I got the names of these above-mentioned police from my hallucinations.

 


My voices have just spent much of the night claiming I had done something wrong to some bikies again. They claim to be the Gypsy Jokers and the Bandidos. Apparently they have just murdered Pam Kingham earlier in the night just after I went to check on her safety. The mix up seems to be the street that I was travelling along when I threw the bins, which was Parkside ave, Mt pleasant. These bikie voices say they have taken a death warrant out on me because they mistakenly believed that I was at some other location.

My main concern at the moment is their claim that they have murdered Pam Kingham, because there were three suspicious cars following me when I went to make sure she was OK. Fortunately I have the address where one of the cars parked in the driveway, then shut the gate, and the registration plate of one one the other vehicles. I will be calling into Hornsby Police station later today to let them know what I observed.

 

Voices Claiming To Be Bandidos

 

https://soundcloud.com/user-92394264/sets/freemasons-again-but-not-paid-up-members

23rd December 2016 approximately 1440 hours

B1, B2 = Bandido.  S-Me; J=Julia Davis

?B1:     one of our members just died
?B2:     what does died mean
J:         I’m not telling you what died means
?b1       can you hear that SS?
S:         no
B2        I can see you SS
F1        Julia….;
b2        what is going on SS
S:         I don’t know
B2        you are getting beaten up tonight, do you understand that
S:            no
b2        you just wait SS. did you steal our money
S:          no
b2        it went to your account
S:            how much?       (I am checking my account as i write)
B2        $48 751
S:            well its not in my account
b2        what’s the password on your account
S:            there is none

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b1        b1 here.            You are going to get beaten up tonight. do you get that?
S:           (didn’t answer)
b1        b1 here.            Are you going to post that?
S:            didn’t answer again
b1        don’t worry about it.       Why don’t you take some drugs?
S:           not answering any more
b1        b1 here.            b2 b3 b4 b5 b6 and many more are coming to get you tonight.
b1        b1 here             Sucked in scotty stewart. why don’t you have a drink?
b2        why aren’t you answering any more
S:            because you misunderstand everything i say
b2        why don’t you have a drink?
S:           please, please, I do not want one
b2        we’re going to break the door down and kill you; you know that
b2        b2 here.            We’re going to break down the door and get you; you know that
S:   ….     (didn’t answer)
b3        b3 here.            Confirmation bias. r u going to have a drink in the next 15 minutes?
b3        who said have one x4
b4        that’s why you take drugs, because you’re shaking all the time. Does it relive them?
S:           yesasking the obvious

b5        b5 here.            we are going to get you tonight 
b6        b6 here             we are going to get you tonight. Will u have a drink?
b7        b7 here             we are going to get you tonight
b7        b7 here.            you are going to get beaten up tonight at around 8pm
b8        b8 here             we can’t see you. I can’t see you at all
b7        b7 here             I can’t see you at all
b8        b8 here.            Why did you give up drugs?
b9        b9 here             why are we doing this to u?
b10       b10 here.          Don’t worry about the future. i am going to do a runner x5 and on
b11       b11 here           Why don’t i play fair with you scott?       Please answer
S:          because if anyone finds out that you cause schizophrenia with your telepathy you will get in trouble. so you don’t play fair to make sure you don’t get into trouble
b12       b12 here           Why r u doing a transcript?       Please answer
S:           I can’t think of anything else I can do
b13       b13 here           I don’t know what’s come over me in the past few days. Is RT a freemason?
S:           yeh
b14       b14 here           How do you know RT is a freemason?
S:            I have heard him in here

 

Back Again – They Say I ‘Murdered’ A Bikie, but they chickenshit out by hacking the facts out

I was originally too scared to put up the original title, but I eventually got my gumption up. If you don’t like it, please let me know via the comment / contact page is linked above left.

Firstly let me apologise to anyone who read any of the previous earlier versions of this post in previous versions of this blog, for an apparent misunderstanding of what was written. I have received feedback that this post was tabled in parliament because someone thought I was boasting about a crime I committed. That is absolutely wrong. All the posts in this blog, including the one with this heading, were demonstrating what it is like to hear voices, in this case, from schizophrenia.

gypsy jokers

Each post in this blog is trying to be sensational, and the heading of this post is no different. I would also like to point out that the words in the heading were not mine, but those of my auditory verbal hallucinations (AVH’s). The previous earlier posts with this sensationalised heading were to demonstrate that what the voices say is preposterous and could not be true.

Not only is what the voices say obviously ludicrous, but it is (what they say) also very upsetting. The extent that they are upsetting is amply evidenced by the very strong, hostile, though misdirected disapproval I received from earlier versions of the post. So in that sense, the post worked, that is, I easily demonstrated that hearing voices is horrible, upsetting, awful, and sometimes nearly impossible to handle – even reading what the voices of schizophrenia say is very upsetting.

The exposition of the previous earlier version of the post with this title was written word for word as my voices directed. They insisted I write exactly what they said. The content referred to my personal history, but was worded in such a way that it was very incriminating and inflammatory. I wrote exactly what the voices told me to write. I did not think that was the wrong thing to do because I hold the voices responsible and accountable for it.

They often do this to me. Once when I was writing a profile of myself for a dating site the voices insisted that I write what they wanted word for word, but it was so vilifying and confronting that I could not publish it. I let the voices do this because it is my mission to try and get sympathy for people who live with the experience of hearing voices. These voices are so bad and hateful, that one schizophrenic dies every 4 ½ hours, over 62,000 per year. I want the general public to appreciate that if someone says they hear voices, they deserve considerable kindness and sympathy.

The first two paragraphs of the previous post with this heading were factually incorrect. They misrepresented the truth, but I decided that since the blog was about voices, I would publish what the voices said. It was the ultimate in conveying to people how bad the voices are. The voices told me to write a sort of detached, disaffected, casual, nearly cavalier account of some behaviour that was disgusting, false, incriminating, and factually wrong.

I did not avoid writing what they wanted because I was thinking that any backlash was in fact backlash against them. The mistake I made was thinking that no one except other schizophrenics would read my blog. As it apparently happened, some normal citizens (or a group of un-normal ones) read my blog, or at least this one post, and reviled against it, and against me. I still do not feel that their revulsion was of me, because they were not my words, and the words did not represent the truth as I know it, or my personal view.

As I said, what was written was factually incorrect. But if you read it, and it upset you, I do sincerely apologise. If I thought anyone but schizophrenics would be interested enough to read it, I would not have published what the voices told me to publish. It does prove a point though, doesn’t it! (That what the voices say is very upsetting).

The second part of the previous post under this heading, I pointed out in a couple of versions of this blog, had been changed by hackers. That was an incredibly important fact to me. Why would anyone hack a blog about the voices of schizophrenia? I sometimes believe that my voices are humans; real people. This is a costly and dire mistake. But when my blog gets hacked three times, it makes it easy to make that mistake. I published in a later version of the blog the initials of who I was told hacked it, but no one has yet asked me who those initials belong to.

The remainder of the post, excluding the last paragraph, were actually true and factual statements. They were about people watching me masturbate, and people who had come into possession of duplicates of my front door key, and my car keys. I have some inexact evidence that both had been used on a couple of occasions. I am waiting to see what happens in regards to actions taken against me; before I try to point out that my blog was probably hacked from inside my house.

The people who protested so loudly against the earlier version of this post seemed to completely and utterly disregard these middle and concluding paragraphs. I am told that some people were so offended that they sent screen grabs of some parts of the post to the Crimestoppers website. In fact I am told that many people did this.

One of the important features of the complaints and threats I receive is that in order to prevent me knowing that anyone was reading the blogs, the complainants circulated screen grabs of the blog by email. No one made any adverse comments. No one contacted me. No one read the actual blog. And as far as I know, no one read anything but the post that had this title. But I am told that thousands of people read what-ever was in the screen grabs, then reported me to the police, in their thousands.

The final paragraph of the previous post with this heading, ended with an exclamation mark. This was misinterpreted as declaring the content of the paragraph to be a boast. In fact the exclamation mark was included because I thought that what the voices said, and consequently what was written, was so absurd, impossible, and ludicrous that it defied belief.

But the people who circulated screen grabs of the post thought I was boasting. What I was trying to covey was that the content of my hallucinations is ridiculous, because there was no way that particular event could have happened. But there is an additional point that needs to be made, to those of you who read or saw it. What my hallucinations told me could only have been true if they (the hallucinations) were watching the act that they described in the second paragraph. Unless they had witnessed first-hand what they claim took place, there is no way that they could know what they claimed they knew about the outcome. So they incriminated themselves.

If what they said took place, actually did in fact take place, then they failed to tell the Police, they failed to report a crime, and they apparently knew more about the alleged victims than anybody else.

If the events of the previous post with this title took place as my voices described, then they are guilty of a very serious offence, and under the circumstances (they being auditory hallucinations), they are more than accessories to what they claim took place.

As for me, I have no knowledge of any of the events that were described in the earlier post, and I think what they dictated was absolutely disgusting. I personally would never have published accounts of such events if they represented my views or if they were my own personal statements, because they implicitly are evidence of being an accessory to a crime. And presenting information in the way and in the words they did, is obviously insensitive, and testament to having me under surveillance since I was a teenager.

The whole point of this blog is to try to convey to people how horrible auditory verbal hallucinations are. This blog is for others who suffer from AVH’s, as well as for people who have never thought much about AVH’s, or for people who knew that some people suffered from them, and wondered what was so bad about AVH’s.

When I first started hearing voices and told people, some people responded as though they might be quite interesting, even fun. And I have read posts on mental health forums about people who abuse drugs in order to experience AVH’s. I wanted to offer interested people an insight into how terrifying and malevolent the hallucinations are, and thereby gain some sympathy for people who have to live with them.

Another point I was hoping to convey, is the reason that they are usually so destructive. More than 2.4 million people attempt suicide each year, that is half of all schizophrenics, because these auditory verbal hallucinations can seem so realistic and life-like. Even though the very basis of who they claim to be, or what they claim is happening, is virtually impossible and often preposterous, sometimes they say things that seem quite plausible, and this leads to the death of the unfortunate schizophrenic who hears it (see http://hearingvoices.info/Infographics.html for indications of what causes people to die – “Death Triggers”)

Finally, I would just like to say that my own voices have had a field day with this blog, in all it’s versions, especially and particularly the previous earlier post with this heading. Now that time has passed, I realise WHY they insisted that I write word for word what they say. It is as if it were a set-up, to get me into trouble with some very powerful but corrupt people. I could not foresee what they were brewing. But if this were true, then my auditory verbal hallucinations have agency, which is impossible for hallucinations to have, because hallucinations cannot plan or scheme, or even have alliances.

I will try to publish some transcripts relating how this blog, and this post, have nearly entirely destroyed my life, by virtue of the absurdly improbable occurrence of those who I am told have read it, how they held me responsible for something only my voices know about, and how their copies were different to the original due to editing, and how my enemies, i.e. my auditory verbal hallucinations, scored goal after goal achieving the impossible – their plan worked, and apparently they did have a plan.

It has taken such a toll that I doubt many people could have survived it. If any of their threats, or what they claim to have planned, actually takes place, then the world will never be the same, and I will be collating my evidence and heading for the evening news with my most harrowing, seemingly impossible, ground-shaking evidence of a lethal conspiracy of disease, perpetrated by sociopaths.

 

 

Continued 04 01 2018 (just after 30 tupper street grab)

 

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04 Jan 2018

0217…..

JD: (won’t talk because RT is having problems concerning the mortgage and unexplained wealth, and she is trying to help him)….

….

PW: scott……..

…..

0225……….
0239…….

JD: what is a grab scott?
S:FUck off julia davis

0240…..

JD: she might commit suicide
S; are you referring to yourself again (by saying she)?
JD……..
S:  go uppidy
JD…..

0309

The whole thing has changed dramatically now. The Bandidos have stopped threatening me, Ron has stopped verbally assaulting me, Tristan has stopped being talked about, and it all seems to be directly stemming from the fact that I took screen grabs of the house prices on Tupper Street. I did this because in previous transcripts, Julia said she paid Ron considerable more than the market value for his property.

 

Tri#$an, RT, Ba$%idos 1%MC (unofficial) Freemasons

Essay Concerning Credibility Of Explanations Coming From First Hand Accounts With Phenomena

02 Jan 2018   2031

RT: Oh Gee I am having a good time with Tristan (decuna) at the moment, Scott me ol boy

J: Scott, you know how I told the Rebels, and the Bandido’s members about Ron’s use of child pornography and that snuff movie?, Well, I didn’t quite explain the whole truth
Treasurer Of the Hills Chapter (THCMC): Scott, you recall that I said to you that I misappropriated $8000 dollars of the clubs money to buy those gold nuts, well there is a bit more to that story than I told you. notwithstanding the Tristan movie that they will enjoy, but I…oh..don’t worry about that….(Julia…)

S: May I ask a question please?

THCMC: You wait. I am setting you up so fucking bad with my colleagues through Tristan at the moment, that you will never be able to abstain from drugs for such a long time again. You walk the walk Scott, but can you continue think sharp? Just because you have been abstaining from drugs doesn’t mean that we are stopping.

S: May I remind you of George Young please at this point?
(comment): I got some substantiated items of fact this afternoon finally, so they are pretending to be dopey so when you read this they can say it is not them)

continuing at the moment (2049) …. resuming shortly…

RT: Scott we were talking about Mick (he means Craig) Vellas’ duaghter
(referring to the Palmerston clinic fluorescent light changing day – You are a stain on the underpants of the community et al)

S: Are you referring to the Rebels MC president, because you know I looked them up and his name is Craig Vella. Is that who you mean?

RT: I would rather not reply to that…….

PW: Scott, Tristan is now pissing everywhere, and she is awesome. You’re in trouble now mate. I want you dead as a door nail

 S: Are you still implying that this video you are making is going to be watched by your membership?…..

2329:

Having now endured more than approximately 6 hours of absolutely non-stop interrogation be members (MC et al) who are now refusing to say who they are, they are asking me why they are doing this, and if the fleuro incident at Palmerston Center can be investigated, or was it fictitious. More importantly, they are ……

## 04 Jan 2018  0925

PB: scott why are you writing a day ahead and effectively lying?

S: Well, put simply, I am demonstrating the quality of my probabilistic forecasting, that in turn demonstrates the value of my technique. of publishing what I hear

04 Jan 2018  0050

RT: scott why are you playing that?
S: You know full well. It is because of what you previously stated
(When I just was continuing my search for RT, I checked his statements regarding the profit and value of 30 tupper street marrickville, Vs 32, vs 34, vs Castle Hill, and then the whole thing immediately reverted to the Bandidos Outlaw MC, and became very aggressive. This contradicted what they had been saying (re: additional notes) regarding the cause of my disposition vis a vis Freemasonry). FOr reasons recorded but unstated, I must continue for tonight, and mention the additional notes I took as extensions of these). This is because RT and PW et al have to pretend they are asleep all night in order for them to prove they are not involved and to lie and say that I am on drugs, accounting for them talking to me (prima facie)…..

04012018  0132
(still having to keep alibis in check and prevent hacking [again])
JD: scott, where did those feelings come from?
s: what feelings?
JD:… i’m not sure

0200 (still avoiding hacking. I wish I could go to bed, but I’ve been through this before)
JD: scott, who said that?
S: you know full well who said that
JD: sucked in RT, sucked in RT x(34 and stopped)
PW:RT just committed suicide
s: si that another code word?
JD…I’m not answering

(NB: I have told the police about them claiming to have made duplicates of my spare car key, and my front door key. They told me (%$@#&%$#&%#) so I did it. This key duplication saga is critically important, so I will refer tothe blue cards given to me by Hornsby Police, as depicted in versions 1,2,5,7 of this blog)

0227
The topic changed because JD took over (it’s her shift) – RT’s mortgage, unexplained wealth, neighbouring house values, the price JD paid for his house, The location and circumstances of Sandra etc, and additionally, now the BandidosMC are no longer involved, but because of this, there is more silence….(see other blog)

Here is an unreserved apology to any and all 1%MC.

Shit I Nearly Get Scared

Coping-Strategies-1

 

Please refer to the Index page for explanations of acronyms and abbreciation conventions.

11:53 16th May 2015

Peter Brasier (aka Peter Williams): chanting over and over again “You’re being set up to take the wrap for a crime done by me, Steven Oakley (unless Tristan acts on my behalf), Pam Kingham, Geoff Kelly, Pierre Boudou-Daniel, Ron Thiessen, Glenn Jeffires” (over and over….)

Peter Brasier :  “Some of the guys from my motorcycle club (the Bandidos Hills chapter) are what you call Free Masons, which means we are secretly augmented by ghosts or something which enables us to talk to each other and stuff, without actually being next to each other, you know what I mean? Anyway mate, we, that is your old friends and a couple of Guys from my motor cycle club, are making….”
……minutes later
?FM:  “You will ask to be executed mate, you will ask to be executed mate…” (over and over)
?M: “Can we morph? Do you know what I mean by that? We are setting you up, involving our morphing….”

Why would any person want to set me up for any matter whatsoever. I had better take time to consider this, after completing my TAFE assignment about Harrods department store.
?M:   “There are quite a few of us Scotty, and you do not know who we are or even if we are, but I gurantee this Scotty, we are doing such a good job of setting you up using technology that does not even thought to exist like ghosts, that you will never be free again once we are finished the editing and calling the police. And whats more, through our Freemasonry and our meetings that we have in the lodges, we even have the police and others on our side who are going to lie about the evidence because your claims will sound insane, and the cops are going to help us frame you good and proper mate. Don’t forget Scotty, that through our ghosts, we not only know all your passwords and usernames, but we know where you keep them, how to get money out of your westpac account, and where you hide your emergency keys to get into your Nomanhurst unit. So you are fucked mate. By the time me and Geoff in particular get through with framing you, you will be pleading for the death penalty.”
…..

Scott (me):  “Are you thereby now suggesting, that in order to be heard properly and reliably, that I must committ another offence, simply to demonstrate that peoples actions are subject to whatever I am going through? I will consider what you are wanting, but I don’t think I will do it for you.”

Julia: “I want you dead” repeated many times

1431
Now Geoff is claiming that they morph into different appearances, and are using this ability to set me up.

1517
?M: “Ron has just ….”

1741
?M:  “They got you, they got you”

An Example Of A transcript Of Auditory Verbal Hallucinations

Interview Transcript Ppt M 27062016

11th January 2014   06:58
My voices say God said he had been killing people, and that he couldn’t handle it anymore. Julia said she had turned everyone evil because she says I shot them some time ago.
7.16 Now she is saying God has just cut his wrists. He believes he has killed some good people with a sword, and he can’t stand the bad feelings that have resulted. He keeps telling me he is dying. I am so upset and crying.
7.17 Peter tells me that God is now dead.
13.26 : Julia has said she just killed everyone.

28TH October 2014  
Peter : “Do you care that they are being tortured?”
Julia :  “Why are they being tortured?”
Scott : “Why don’t you ask the person doing it?”
Scott : “Is  that Greg Cross doing it?”
….. no answer ….
Anonymous female :  “Do you want to take more drugs?”
Scott:  “Yes, because you said it was Julia that was adversely affected by my consumption of narcotics, not Greg.”
Anonymous female :  “Scott, do you care about yourself?”

31st October 2014 1644
Julia : Peter Brasier from the Bandidos is coming to get you tonight.
Scott: “This will probably be another attack (that takes place) only once I have gone to sleep. Are you human or ghost?
Peter Brasier : “I am human”
Scott: “How much money are you getting for this job?”
Peter Brasier :“Not a red cent I severely hate you.”
Scott:  “Have you rooted Emily?”
Peter Braier : “Yes I have. I’m rooting her right now.”
Greg :  “Scott, you will one day realise that we are ghosts.”

 

Thought Insertion And Thought Broadcasting

Schizophrenics also talk about thought insertion or understand certain thoughts are not their own thoughts. How come? What does mean? 

TRUTH AND HOW IT WORKS:

Let’s take a person who were having a normal life and at a certain age (assume 22) they suddenly start experiencing that whatever they think others/people around them start talking about the same topic or they would make comments about it. This would start something like this, assume a person ( I would say a victim) woke up 7 in the morning on a Sunday and for the first time in his life he is thinking of going to the gym and he kept on planning this. By about 9 , 9.30 in the morning one of his neighbour would call him and ask him whether he is interested in going to the Gym (this is done by inducing thoughts to this neighbour via satellites – this is what the thought insertionphenomena that schizophrenics also complaint). That would be an odd experience to him but he would still take it as a strange coincidence and he would still go to the gym with the neighbour. Later that day afternoon, after coming from the Gym he goes to a city to buy something, at this time he would also take a rest by having a coffee in a coffee shop. Whilst drinking the coffee he starts thinking of buying some eggs. Strangely at that very moment, the person who is sitting next to him (next to the victim), start talking about eggs (stimulating the brain and inducing thoughts) to the person who is sitting with him. This would be something like: Do you know that it’s not good to eat too many eggs? and start a conversation with the person sitting next to him. Now strangely this would be the second time of this same day, that another person start talking about a topic that he has been thinking of. Later that day around 8 in the night he started thinking of sitting for this particular exam and then after another hours time he logs into Facebook, strangely a friend of him made a status referring to this same exam (stimulating the brain and inducing thoughts). This will be the third time he experienced this strange phenomena on the same day.

Now this will be only the starting point. This person (victim) will experience this every day thereafter. He will not take this as a coincident any more, cause it goes beyond any coincident and he is aware of this. At this stage he gets so terrified and afraid to think about anything personal to him either specially in public, thinking that others would know what he thinks. Sometimes when he is thinking certain things others (people in public) would start looking at him in a strange way. Which further makes him(victim) to believe that they (people in public) understood what he was thinking of. Now at this stage he will start experiencing voices as well on top of all these, making him to get medical assistance. Doctors would start giving him medication for something, that you cannot control by giving medication because of their ignorance of the matter. Doctors don’t understand that their (victim’s) experience is true and his explanation on how it works is false. Due to this victims are suffering.

These are victim experiences,

“This is still a terrifying experience to me. I relate to you completely, this has been occurring for about a year now. Every thought I have causes people in my environment (and sometimes things on the television) to comment. Always negative and/or derogatory. It seems like I am not even supposed to think at all. Every thought brings about a “shut your mouth” or “cool it” or “shut the f**k up” or “quit”. And what’s worse is that no one will admit that they are reading me and responding at all (TRUE PEOPLE WHO ARE RESPONDING TO THEM ARE NOT AWARE OF THIS, CAUSE THE PERPETRATORS INDUCE THOUGHTS TO THEM AND THEY CANNOT DIFFERENTIATE THIS WITH THEIR OWN THOUGHT). When questioned about it every one denys that they are doing it. It seems like a terrifying cosmic joke..”

“I’m having serious problems and i need help so bad. I can’t control my thoughts and sometimes i can’t even control my own voice that i speak with outloud. I know people can’t see my thoughts but sometimes people hear my innervoice that i use, when i “try” to talk in my mind.” “One time when i tried to speak in my mind, i heard my inner voice and was sitting behind someone, and when i used my innervoice, the person in front of me turned her head to the side (INDUCE THOUGHTS, HEAD CAN BE TURNED SIDE WAYS BY STIMULATING THE MOTOR CORTEX), while looking back at me. And when i feel like people can hear my inner voice, i just loose control and start repritive and negative phrazes because i’m axious during this tim.”

FINALLY, IF THOUGHT BROADCAST PHENOMENA IS DUE TO THE TECHNOLOGY, WHAT CAN WE SAY ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA?

1797 WAS THE FIRST FAMOUS CASE OF SCHIZOPHRENIC:

“James Tilly Matthews in 1797 and the name of the machine was called as the “Influencing machine”. His case claimed to be the earliest clear description of schizophrenia in British psychiatric writing.”

Torture with directed energy weapons: The first known victim – YouTube – Explains the same.

Balzac’s Louis Lambert: schizophrenia before Bleuler | Sebastian Dieguez – Academia.edu

“Hare [20] defend precisely this hypothesis, arguing that the scarcity of reports previous to 1800 indeed leeds to the conclusion that schizophrenia is a recent disease, and therefore, that it must have been triggered by a specific event around 1800..”

Thought broadcasting phenomena that schizophrenics complaining are due to a hidden technology. It has nothing to do with our brain. Doing a psycho-analysis or a behavioural analysis will not make a person to understand why they say such a thing. If you go through their on shoes you would understand what I’m saying. Another person talking about the same thing that we have been thinking or doing is a very rare thing but people who complaint about thought broadcasting (or people who are with thought broadcast delusion so to speak) are experiencing this many times throughout the day and for months and months. It goes beyond any coincident thus they start believing that their thoughts are being broadcasted or they may complaint that others could read their mind. This can be easily tested too. Therefore, any person who experience this would become a schizophrenic. It’s not a problem with our brain or a brain decease. You may read the rest of my post below. There’s a reason for people to complaint about thought insertion too and that’s because they understand that certain thoughts are not their own thoughts.

I made a post on Mind Control technology that is being hidden from us sometime back but somehow I cannot find it any longer in Disclose.tv.

Disclose.tv Weird News, UFO Sightings Videos & Conspiracy Theories

PSYCHOLOGICAL ILLNESSES DUE TO HIDDEN TECHNOLOGIES – AN INSIGHT INTO BIGGEST SECRETS OF NSA AND SO CALLED ILLUMINATI – Paranoia Magazine – you may find the content of the original post here, I initially thought that the NSA holds the tech but I was wrong here. The technology is out there, we must further investigate to know exactly who holds this technology and my best guess would be that it operates from some where in Europe.

Due to my articles getting disappeared on the Internet forums, I thought of giving further insights into psychiatric bullshit that we all follow today,

When it comes to delusions in schizophrenics, thought broadcasting and thought insertion are the primary symptoms and this is what they say.

“Thought broadcasting is a part of Schneider’s first rank symptoms of schizophrenia. The presence of any of the symptoms is indicative of the illness. It should not be taken lightly as it may cripple a person’s ability to communicate with others and impair his or hers everyday life”

We haven’t been able to find a cure for psychiatric illnesses due to stupidity of doctors. They are very good in other areas but mental illnesses is something that they failed in big time. People who complaint about thought broadcast phenomena don’t have a problem with their brains, they pass exams, they are capable of getting degree or PhD’s. They can argue on things logically, they will talk to you logically on any other thing but having said that they still make this strange complaint saying that others can read their mind or their thoughts are being broadcasted. Their experience is so real to them, they logically analyse it an understand it, that’s why they make this complaint.

So what does that mean? How it’s possible for them to experience this and make this complaint?

Thought Insertion And Thought Broadcasting (By Someone Else)

Schizophrenics also talk about thought insertion or understand certain thoughts are not their own thoughts. How come? What does mean? 

TRUTH AND HOW IT WORKS:

Let’s take a person who were having a normal life and at a certain age (assume 22) they suddenly start experiencing that whatever they think others/people around them start talking about the same topic or they would make comments about it. This would start something like this, assume a person ( I would say a victim) woke up 7 in the morning on a Sunday and for the first time in his life he is thinking of going to the gym and he kept on planning this. By about 9 , 9.30 in the morning one of his neighbour would call him and ask him whether he is interested in going to the Gym (this is done by inducing thoughts to this neighbour via satellites – this is what the thought insertionphenomena that schizophrenics also complaint). That would be an odd experience to him but he would still take it as a strange coincidence and he would still go to the gym with the neighbour. Later that day afternoon, after coming from the Gym he goes to a city to buy something, at this time he would also take a rest by having a coffee in a coffee shop. Whilst drinking the coffee he starts thinking of buying some eggs. Strangely at that very moment, the person who is sitting next to him (next to the victim), start talking about eggs (stimulating the brain and inducing thoughts) to the person who is sitting with him. This would be something like: Do you know that it’s not good to eat too many eggs? and start a conversation with the person sitting next to him. Now strangely this would be the second time of this same day, that another person start talking about a topic that he has been thinking of. Later that day around 8 in the night he started thinking of sitting for this particular exam and then after another hours time he logs into Facebook, strangely a friend of him made a status referring to this same exam (stimulating the brain and inducing thoughts). This will be the third time he experienced this strange phenomena on the same day.

Now this will be only the starting point. This person (victim) will experience this every day thereafter. He will not take this as a coincident any more, cause it goes beyond any coincident and he is aware of this. At this stage he gets so terrified and afraid to think about anything personal to him either specially in public, thinking that others would know what he thinks. Sometimes when he is thinking certain things others (people in public) would start looking at him in a strange way. Which further makes him(victim) to believe that they (people in public) understood what he was thinking of. Now at this stage he will start experiencing voices as well on top of all these, making him to get medical assistance. Doctors would start giving him medication for something, that you cannot control by giving medication because of their ignorance of the matter. Doctors don’t understand that their (victim’s) experience is true and his explanation on how it works is false. Due to this victims are suffering.

These are victim experiences,

“This is still a terrifying experience to me. I relate to you completely, this has been occurring for about a year now. Every thought I have causes people in my environment (and sometimes things on the television) to comment. Always negative and/or derogatory. It seems like I am not even supposed to think at all. Every thought brings about a “shut your mouth” or “cool it” or “shut the f**k up” or “quit”. And what’s worse is that no one will admit that they are reading me and responding at all (TRUE PEOPLE WHO ARE RESPONDING TO THEM ARE NOT AWARE OF THIS, CAUSE THE PERPETRATORS INDUCE THOUGHTS TO THEM AND THEY CANNOT DIFFERENTIATE THIS WITH THEIR OWN THOUGHT). When questioned about it every one denys that they are doing it. It seems like a terrifying cosmic joke..”

“I’m having serious problems and i need help so bad. I can’t control my thoughts and sometimes i can’t even control my own voice that i speak with outloud. I know people can’t see my thoughts but sometimes people hear my innervoice that i use, when i “try” to talk in my mind.” “One time when i tried to speak in my mind, i heard my inner voice and was sitting behind someone, and when i used my innervoice, the person in front of me turned her head to the side (INDUCE THOUGHTS, HEAD CAN BE TURNED SIDE WAYS BY STIMULATING THE MOTOR CORTEX), while looking back at me. And when i feel like people can hear my inner voice, i just loose control and start repritive and negative phrazes because i’m axious during this tim.”

FINALLY, IF THOUGHT BROADCAST PHENOMENA IS DUE TO THE TECHNOLOGY, WHAT CAN WE SAY ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA?

1797 WAS THE FIRST FAMOUS CASE OF SCHIZOPHRENIC:

“James Tilly Matthews in 1797 and the name of the machine was called as the “Influencing machine”. His case claimed to be the earliest clear description of schizophrenia in British psychiatric writing.”

Torture with directed energy weapons: The first known victim – YouTube – Explains the same.

Balzac’s Louis Lambert: schizophrenia before Bleuler | Sebastian Dieguez – Academia.edu

“Hare [20] defend precisely this hypothesis, arguing that the scarcity of reports previous to 1800 indeed leeds to the conclusion that schizophrenia is a recent disease, and therefore, that it must have been triggered by a specific event around 1800..”

Thought broadcasting phenomena that schizophrenics complaining are due to a hidden technology. It has nothing to do with our brain. Doing a psycho-analysis or a behavioural analysis will not make a person to understand why they say such a thing. If you go through their on shoes you would understand what I’m saying. Another person talking about the same thing that we have been thinking or doing is a very rare thing but people who complaint about thought broadcasting (or people who are with thought broadcast delusion so to speak) are experiencing this many times throughout the day and for months and months. It goes beyond any coincident thus they start believing that their thoughts are being broadcasted or they may complaint that others could read their mind. This can be easily tested too. Therefore, any person who experience this would become a schizophrenic. It’s not a problem with our brain or a brain decease. You may read the rest of my post below. There’s a reason for people to complaint about thought insertion too and that’s because they understand that certain thoughts are not their own thoughts.

I made a post on Mind Control technology that is being hidden from us sometime back but somehow I cannot find it any longer in Disclose.tv.

Disclose.tv Weird News, UFO Sightings Videos & Conspiracy Theories

PSYCHOLOGICAL ILLNESSES DUE TO HIDDEN TECHNOLOGIES – AN INSIGHT INTO BIGGEST SECRETS OF NSA AND SO CALLED ILLUMINATI – Paranoia Magazine – you may find the content of the original post here, I initially thought that the NSA holds the tech but I was wrong here. The technology is out there, we must further investigate to know exactly who holds this technology and my best guess would be that it operates from some where in Europe.

Due to my articles getting disappeared on the Internet forums, I thought of giving further insights into psychiatric bullshit that we all follow today,

When it comes to delusions in schizophrenics, thought broadcasting and thought insertion are the primary symptoms and this is what they say.

“Thought broadcasting is a part of Schneider’s first rank symptoms of schizophrenia. The presence of any of the symptoms is indicative of the illness. It should not be taken lightly as it may cripple a person’s ability to communicate with others and impair his or hers everyday life”

We haven’t been able to find a cure for psychiatric illnesses due to stupidity of doctors. They are very good in other areas but mental illnesses is something that they failed in big time. People who complaint about thought broadcast phenomena don’t have a problem with their brains, they pass exams, they are capable of getting degree or PhD’s. They can argue on things logically, they will talk to you logically on any other thing but having said that they still make this strange complaint saying that others can read their mind or their thoughts are being broadcasted. Their experience is so real to them, they logically analyse it an understand it, that’s why they make this complaint.

So what does that mean? How it’s possible for them to experience this and make this complaint?