How would you deal with this?
Should I talk back to the voices?
Am I horrible for my thoughts?
What am I hearing if it’s not REAL people? WHO?
7th June 2019 2214 – By Someone Else
I thought they were trying to kill me..I was kind of Freaking out about it. The only suggestion was to stay sober or go to the mental hospital. Which I tried both, but it didn’t a damn thing. I started thinking, who would really go through all this trouble to follow me everywhere I go and waste their time going up & hiding out in the attics of buildings where I went & I couldn’t imagine anyone would actually do all this to me,I’m not rich, nobody with power of any sort. But I still couldn’t understand the voices & yet they continued every day to torment me.
Then I noticed, I’m hearing these voices & I’m not even in a building, so where are these people in the Attic trying to kill me..
In fact,nobody would be around & I’m outside (no rooftops) and I’m still hearing these annoying voices. One of the voices, said they were dead people and another said they were DEVIL WORSHIPPERS. These voices were so annoying to me,that I would actually tell them SHUT THE F*** UP!! I argued with these voices and sometimes they would respond back. I finally came to the conclusion that these voices are not real human beings,but probably evil spirits/demons. And figuring that out,they didn’t get to me as much,because these voices scared me so much,I thought someone was trying to murder me.
I am currently still hearing these voices,I learned to deal with them to an extent so I can compose myself as a “normal” person. But I really don’t want to have to hear these annoying voices constantly putting me down & trying to scare me. I just don’t know how to put an end to these voices. They do watch every thing I do,because I heard them say,”they don’t know we are watching them”. I just heard one voice now,in shock because I’m writing this story now. It’s so weird and unbelievable. They can see what I do and they constantly watch EVERYTHING I do. I hate that feeling of being watched & that feeling has been permanent ever since these voices came apart of my life,
I argued with the voices at times & I told them they caused a lot of trouble & that they aren’t real,just retarded demons and a voice said”we’re real & we’re devil worshippers.” Another voice said they were in California & that they were looking for me..
They were in the background doing the most horrible things to me. I kept running around saying “I watch myself do these strange things…like go downstairs and pork out on all kinds of fatting foods and was unable to control my impulse”…later I found out it was the voices working in the background controlling my body and my appetite and even my cravings for different foods at different times.
23rd July 2017 1028 – By Someone Else
I realized that they were evil male spirits having fun hating at me in the most vile and petty ways…doing the most revolting things to ensure that I could not live anywhere near a normal life.
Things were happening to me …my size kept changing…I cannot even both to give you the details but in my case it was the voices. The spirits would do the most unspeakable things to my body to ruin it. I would wear a beautiful outfit and it would be complimented…within a few hours my body would change completely and I would wonder why the hell? I was infuriated later in life when I realized it was the voices doing that.
I realized that even things like suffocating me. My breathing changed, my voice changed.
I remember people telling me that my voice kept changing. I was a female and kept sounding like a male. All my voices were male and all they were doing was taking turns being able to communicate rubbish and hostility at the outside world because they are outcasts…left out for things that they are personally guilty of. I got really angry because not only were they guilty…they were guilty of the things they were doing to me…essentially ruining my life.
I remember being unable to attend college. The voices not only ruin concentration through talking to you non stop about nothing at all…but they affect your energy level….they make things hurt in your body, they can give you a supposed headache, toothache…anything because in my case they were housed in my body. A huge number of male spirits were my voices and I give them no credit…all they did was hate and hurt.
A social worker told me that voices are usually men hating at women… but now I believe that because it has been happening for long enough for me to confirm that for me personally.
At 48 I decided that I could not have a life unless I faced off with them. I refused to do anything and in reality could not anymore because it is not much of a life living like that.
I stood my ground and listened and studied them and found out who they were at the beginning of the process.
I have been yelling at them through just fighting back in my head, refusing to accept their accusations an degradation but really it is tiring and they know it. Also they are so many they take turns…so it is only your one brain against many which is 50 in my case. I realized that the voices are spirits and I have a body and they decided to try to commit homicide by giving me a horrible case of insomnia plus a vicious tirade or assaults all day every day…we are at a face off because it is a question of who collapses first….my body or the voices.
Trouble is they wanted me to think that they were all powerful. They wanted me to believe that they have all the cards. Trouble is they are human in some way. The voices have little feelings that can be very hurt. If you study your voices by writing journal you can get to know who they are. Sometimes they send pictures but depending on who you are you can also picture who is speaking to you and what they look like.
15th May 2017 1231 – By Someone Else
I picked up that the voices were many things but they were mostly older men…they were able to make up different voices…they were able to make the voices sound young, attractive, compelling all kinds of things…basically they make sounds. They played music a lot. I remember them leading me around like a crazy lady all alone in my apartment ordering me to do this and this and this by playing parts of songs…me thinking that they wanted to give me a message or some kind of help…but just for a minute.
The voices also have a battery life. If they are housed inside your body they run out of power and are affected by all that they say and do to you also. They also have different personalities…I laughed at them when they tried to make me believe that I had hurt their little feelings and that they wanted to be my friend. In my case…my voices are not friends. I see them as homicidal maniacs who would prefer to watch you kill yourself but work at both in every way simultaneous.
49 years of acting strangely. Everybody wondering what is wrong with me. People being hurt because I would go in somewhat fighting and the voices would do everything to cause me to lose concentration, focus and ability and make me fatigued or just unable to function…making me look like the failure I am not.
If someone is deliberately causing it especially insidiously you are not a failure…you are under assault and I told them they are cowards. I decided that I would hit and hate at them in every way in return and that is what I have been doing. Since they do not care what I think or feel when they do what they do to me. I decided that I had to not care how they felt or thought when I hit back at them.
Voices can pretend that you have no effect on them and that is mainly because if they are spirits like in my case they have the invisibility factor. Fact is human is human. They have feelings to hit them…hate them..shred them to bits which is what I have been doing.
You cannot always see the outcome but they get to lose many things too and I would not be angry if they lose their life source because that is what voices are to me…male spirits hell bent on you not having a life and ultimately losing yours without being punished by the law in the physical.
The voices also made the mistake of telling me that they can act without consequences since they are auditory. I don’t agree. I hit and hit and hit. I have many so many will hurt and hurt and hurt like hell.
If any die I will be glad because even as an infant I was under assault by voices.
I hate their guts and will not commit suicide and will not easily let them commit homicide either.
They threatened suffocation but I don’t care. Nobody ever goes unpunished…nobody…you are punished in many ways..seen and unseen.
They voices in my case may escape punishment in the physical but I will avenge myself and be avenged in every way and have been anyway.When the voices hurt you ultimately they lose something too. It takes energy to hate at you. Things do not always work out. Also, being housed in your body is not exactly the Hilton Hotel. It is horrible disgusting and terrible. I would not get inside anybody’s body if you paid me. I think it is stupid and sub human…in the physical or the other side.
Nature also has ways of punishing the guilty. The voices caused me to get on the pills. Unfortunately for the genius’s if I take the pills and they are poisonous then the genius’ will also be affected. They cannot protect themselves at all.
When I think of the voices I am filled with hatred. All I will say is that anybody who has the misfortune of hearing voices…hit back. Do not accept blame for anything that they ever say. Call them liars….tell them that they were present and affecting you so how do you know that they did not set it up in which case it is their fault
15th August 2018 1829 hours
FM?: “If you masturbate scott stewart, I will personally set you up as a pedophile”
s: why?
FM?:don’t ask me questions. YOu know what SS, I am going to set you up full stop
M? have a wank
FM?: don’t you dare have a wank
M? you may as well….they can’t lose
fm? why am I doing this to you?
fm2? don’t worry about it SS. ill take care of you
s: I am going to disobey you and disregard your threats for the sake of all young people of the future who would otherwise catch schizophrenia
By Someone Else
At that point, my life changed completely. Again, there was a chase through and an opening of my thoughts. And again, the voices have been harassing me, keeping me awake at night, trying to get me to do things I don’t want to do, and generally causing chaos in my life.
My story is very long and very involved. To me, the most important part of the story is the list of effects that the group of voices in my head manifest. They manifested them through a machine called the “messing” machine and the game was called the “messing” game, where “messing” needs to be replaced with a word that you can guess but that can’t go in these posts. All of these effects are graduated, and can manifest at both low and high levels.
List of effects:
“Messing” with voices
– swapping around voices
– Voice matching with another person
– Voice capturing, which is taking on the voice of the person that the speaker is speaking with
– audio effects of all kinds
Synchronicity
– hearing meaning in ambient voices and noise, a.k.a. paranoia at high levels
Memory blockage
Losing things/confusion
Stomach rumbling
Itches and scratches
– When done in the throat, this becomes coughing
Electric shocks
Insects/bugs on skin
Odors/smells
Ear ringing
Volume down of voices
Tiredness/sleep
Preventing sleep
Crying blocking
Speed (of thoughts)
Ticking clocks and other machinery made loud
Thumping
“Amping up”
– ringing in ears, tension in muscles, nausea at high levels
Insanity
– hearing voices in walls
My meds have stopped working. “Messing” with people is first and foremost a process of digging into the mind of a person on the receiving end and then a process of harassing and torturing them with a multitude of effects. These processes are fun to the voices. I hope that my experiences can help somebody out there and help me to connect with people that have had experiences similar to mine. Hopefully somebody can offer some solutions that I haven’t tried.
20th June 2018 1522
(see also a word doc with color coded tests and outcomes)
After some further secondary research and notes to talk to Dr Bennet about, I have tried to put together some testable hypotheses. Also to test latest hypothesis published online. Following are some that occurred naturally throughout the day.
20th June 2018 1544
G:I’ll bet you $5000 that they do (referring to ##### cancelling my #######
s:I’ll agree to that bet. I will pay you $5000 if they cancel my licence
Unfortunately forgot to write down a date to qualify this bet on, so it can’t be adjudicated
By Someone Else
Since their reintroduction in September, at first there were 7 or 8 voices communicating with me and later the number was reduced to four. One is the leader and has the worst intentions toward me. My voices are all lucid enough that they all seem like real people with individual personalities. It’s pure speculation on my part, but I guess that there must be some kind of mathematics and technology underpinning what is going on. But again, I have nothing to base this on.
Some of them were my advocates and some were my enemies and they frequently disagreed, or at least appeared to disagree, on how to treat me. They would participate in what were called “stories” a.k.a. games or plays in which each would take on a role. The stories had a purpose and may or may not have had a set conclusion. Again, these stories were fun to the voices. Over time, as I refused to be controlled, the stories became more and more like reality until there was no difference. At some point, I could detect them as soon as they began and they broke down completely.
Since some of the effects that I listed are familiar to you, I would be curious to know if you or anybody else has experienced these other aspects of my description. The effect of choice for my lead voice is “amping up”, which is a term that I invented to describe this effect. So I would be very interested in hearing if anyone out there has any experience with this effect.
200618 1413 from phone
G: S there’s something SP is not telling you (referring to having heard about the ###### confession, and wanting me to discuss it with her.
S:I bet there isn’t. You are being grifted. No-one from the ###### knows AO
1419
?:You just lost (referring to the library situation I assume)
1429: CE has just reported you to #####
1430: S there will be an email for you when you get home from CE
(And when I got home at approx 1511, there was indeed.)
1450:
JD: S, CE just wrote another letter to…
1452
?:this time….
1514
crying: they are setting me up to fail.
1640
JD: you know they both thought you were fucked so that (SL) is not going to work out
?M: that could be true. I don’t know
s: You’re both identifying possibilities for stress and pain, and you are being shit people by exploiting things unknowable to me as a human. However, you do not take into account the human capacity for not criticising all the time, They may give me some latitude. Furthermore, there are other factors that you fail to take into account that are none of your business.
By Someone Else
The voices have found a way to disrupt and destroy every aspect of my life that brings me happiness. For example, I play the piano and the main voice has learned to disrupt my fingers and foot when I play such that I cannot play songs that I previously was able to play flawlessly.
They have also figured out how to block my memory and make me sleep at business meetings, which is, of course, extremely destructive to my functioning in the workplace.
They also told me several times that when they read my thoughts, it is a continuous stream of text-based data, very much like what is portrayed in the movie “The Matrix”. Mind you the plot to this movie is not right on, but the reading of my thoughts is. Then again, they could be lying about this too, but I don’t think so, for several reasons.
The voices insist that the underlying technology is a computer, not just a machine. Moreover, people are experimenting with this technology right now, and the voices want to know what happens when the scientific community figures out how to do this. Yikes!
The voices do not want me to post any information about what they’re doing, such as I am doing here. They have the power to disrupt my life to prevent me from posting, but they are disrupting it anyway, so I have nothing to lose by posting this here.
231018 1533
JD, RT, CD, BD and some (what they call) Ghosts have been talking about you since (circa) 13/3/15
040118
I have personally asked the police etc to get involved.
29th august 2014 1824
anon:
“I am going to make a snuff movie with PK”
S: whats your name?
a: i won’t say
S: where are u going to do this?
A: in your head, so sucked in SS
S: who else is involved?
A: mo answer
earlier he was asking if she would feel it, i said
‘no, consciousness is by agreement”
I am being told DHJ reliably that i will not live through this night
1352
i have just now been involved in an argument about whether there would be a big difference, a small difference or no difference resulting from my decision to stop using drugs. My claim is that there would be no difference, a statement made for intelligent people who would obviously realise that I am referring to my involvement and interaction with freemasonry, since there will be obvious gains and difference in my financial position, my health etc. However, JD et al claim that there will be enormous difference. I do not agree, not do I really know what they are talking abut or referring to. But right now, they are insisting that I go to bed immediately. I wish they would stop treating me like a small child
I have also experienced the TV speaking to me too and had visual hallucinations, tactile hallucination of bugs and maggots crawling on my body. When my drugs were working the only thing they solved was the auditory hallucination. I was even having continuous nightmare and could not sleep for months and had no peace of mind. I even felt hands at night dragging me and push my legs and I will wake up with the motion momentum due to the push. Also, I have felt someone kick me awake at night.
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I am told I am not allowed to write these notes but I feel in the interest of truth and especially for the sake of other people I feel I must. The matter is what is going to happen in the future. I reckon that JD will destroy everything, meaning ‘all’ my social relationships, all my opportunities for the future, all my prospects and anything else that other people would generally look forward to, and would use as part of their incentive and something to use for motivation and to get strength from when giving up some addiction in their lives. But despite the fact that I have to argue, JD agrees that she will do this, and these will be my circumstances, in fact that she has alrady done so. SO I guess it is entirely up to me whether I give up or not. I am not allowed any incentives or gains to accrue from this so called ‘improvement’ in my life, but I will not miss out on anything if I don’t, so I will just do what seems like a sensible thing to do, and prove only to myself that drugs were them problem, that it must also have been masturbation or something else.
By Someone Else
i think the witchcraft could be a possible reason, but i think there isnt enough to proof it, i dont think its telepathic because i hear dead people, and the theory of 2 minds dont convince me because drugs never helped me and dont explain many things, i think we are damned or granted, i Will explain myself, the voices try to confuse you, try to avoid you to reach the truth, they make you suffer but too make you stronger, Who can difference the truth from the wrong, maybe with a purpose, what do you think? By the way we could be damned too, i think it depends on your mental strenght and how far you can get, to be honest there are many logical theorys about this: matrix(another reality we are into and we hear the outside one in our mind), spirits or something supernatural, artificial telephatics, etc
I am in trouble now for eating chips, wanting to stop drugs, and staying up late.
Next comes the inverse gotcha. I am about to be told, that if I continue to stop, then people will be murdered or badly hurt, disadvantaged, be financially less well off than they would otherwise be, and so on.. threatened and assaulted until I stop this discontinuation.
0408 we”ll see. I’ll try and write tomorrow as a way of checking this forecast
So when I’m around ppl or get stressed I “think” that people hear what I think bc I get the sense that my thoughts are louder and directed into peoples minds. And then I hear those people comment or talk about what I think. I can choose wether I engage them or not but I can’t stop them from talking. A lot of times I jut hear people’s names out loud in my head when I think about them or sometimes I’ll hear people’s names unexepectedly and then I automatically start to hear theses people’s voices and they can hear my thoughts. Like they are transported into my head. My most familiar voices are helpful and always there they helped me organixe the voices by giving them spots in my head so I can more easily tell who’s who’s. It’s uncomfortable to think it’s really telepathy and not me just making it up. I’m scared bc what if it’s true?
Should I talk back to the voices?
Am I horrible for my thoughts?
What am I hearing if it’s not REAL people? WHO?
I hear voices. 4 diffrent ones. 3 of which are distracting and frusterating, but also comforting. They’ve been with me forever. These 3 help me thru my day and offer support and help stand up to the 4th voice which is not nice! I often find myself telling him No or to shut up. Telling him whatever hes making me see or feel isnt real. I have to say tho the meaner and more adamant I get that he’s not real, he gets mad and threatens things. Which then scares me off. I have yet to find meds that actually help with the schizo symptoms and mood symptoms. The meds either made me a walking zombie or sucked every breathe of happiness from my body. I devolped the lovely twitch from them. I feel that everyone is driving their train in the best way possible and its refreshing to hear that someone has grabbed ahold of their stering wheel and takin back control. Thanks for sharing your techniques 
Hope your smilin
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